I’m ok now.

But earlier this week I was lying in a hospital bed, scared and in pain and not knowing what was happening.

I had some drugs injected into my hip which started to relieve the pain and also give the doctor some clues about what was happening and what to do about it.  A kind nurse brought me a heated blanket and helped me snuggle into a stretcher and left me alone for a while, to give the drug a chance to work its magic.

I lay there quietly, slowly starting to feel better.

And then my inner critics took over.

How could you put yourself in this position?  What if you’re seriously sick?  What if this keeps happening?  OMG! YOU CAN’T RUN YOUR BUSINESS IF YOU’RE SICK LIKE THIS!

How could you leave a job that would give you all the sick time you needed and pay for medicine? 

OMG!  This is a disaster.  This is COMPLETE AND TOTAL DOOM.

You have to sell the dream loft and move in with your parents for real.

Living your dreams was too good to be true.

How could you be so stupid?  Of course you need a job.  Everybody needs a job.

They were freaked out.  It’s just they want me to be safe and in that moment they didn’t know if I was safe or if I would be safe.

When faced with scary situations, the inner critic‘s tendency is to want to contract.

And I don’t blame them!

Life is scary sometimes!  Of course we want to move towards what looks like safety.

But I’ve had a lot of time this week to think about this, being that I spent most of my time just lying around and recovering.

And I’ve come to understand that the fact that sometimes scary things happen and you end up in the hospital, in pain and not knowing what is wrong with you, only makes living your dreams all that much more important.

If it’s true that I could die totally unexpectedly, then isn’t the life I live while I am alive all that much more precious and important?

Of course there is that very reasonable-sounding argument about the value and security of having a job with long-term paid sick leave.

But the more I thought about it the less sense that made and the less reasonable it seemed.

If you think about how powerful Long Term Disability is as an income generator, and if you think about how powerful Creative Magic is as an income generator – well.  Creative Magic wins that one without even bothering to get out of bed in the morning.

Having an illness doesn’t mean you can’t generate all the money you want.

So that really sunk in for me this week.

And if having a Very Serious Illness doesn’t mean you cant generate all the money you want than being “too old” or “too young” or being a single mom or not being a high school grad or whatever other stories you’ve got running about why you can’t generate the money you want Is. Not. True.

It just means you have to find a different way.

This was a really huge epiphany for me.

It’s not that it’s harder for some people to make money than it is for other people.  We live in a world where it is established that certain professions earn more money than others.  Switching your mental paradigm can change that.

OH MY GOD I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THAT.

And this actually makes me feel grateful for my trip to the hospital and all the pain and fear.

Because this is so important and so relevant to what I’m working on: The Creative With Money Online Playdate.  And it gave me some amazing new ideas for the Playdate materials and more importantly it’s got me Really Very Excited about all the ways that you can get creative about how you earn money.

On Monday I wrote that I was working on the details and I’d get them to you later this week.

Of course, I was not able to do that.  But the Creative With Money Playdate is still on:

It’s happening on Friday, June 8.  11am to 3pm

(That’s North America Central Daylight Time – click here to find out what time this is in your time zone)

All calls will be recorded.  If you sign up and can’t make it – you can use the recordings and workbooks to have your own Creative Play-Date any day you like.

Also, this week I got tons of messages with questions about the Creative with Money Online Playdate and I wasn’t able to answer them.

And I still can’t.

I will post more information just as soon as I have it.  I’m going to take it easy over the weekend and ease back into my work.

PS: If you’ve got inner critics telling you you can’t make the money you want to make being creative end doing the things you love, or that there is a limit to how much money you can make: CLICK HERE.

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