When I started doing the Daily Dream Journal videos (three weeks ago) I was following my intuition and creative inspiration. I felt pretty unsure about my capacity to keep doing them, but I wanted to follow the flow to see where it leads to.
This is what dream-growing is all about.
Today it’s led to this – I just ran out of steam.
I don’t know if I just need a break or to stop doing them completely or to start doing them once a week or sporadically or… I don’t know.
It’s ok to not know.
If you always stay with what you know then there’s no space for anything to change. So being in the discomfort of not knowing means you are living with more possibilities and I like that.
But I have an inkling as to why I was pushed to start doing the daily videos. I have been working on a class on Creative Ritual, Magic and Daily Practice for Growing Your Dreams, Your Self and Your Whole Life for over a year and it’s just not coming together.
As I started doing the daily videos and was getting feedback – especially from people in the Creative Dream Circle who were feeling more supported in their own daily dream-growing practice through watching mine – I started to see that a daily video format would actually bring all the pieces together for that class.
So I’ll explore that.
And I’ll explore how/if/when to continue with the videos here on my blog. What it feels like right now is that a more creative and human approach would be to do videos when I have something to say and feel inspired/ready to say it, instead of keeping up with a daily schedule.
Like doing the daily videos these past weeks put me into a new relationship with making videos about my journaling practice. And now I’m ready to take the next step in that relationship.
But, as I said, I don’t know right now.
The creative process is full of twists and turns.
Just like the healing/transformation/empowerment process of making your dreams real and creating a life that feels like a real fit for you – is VERY messy sometimes.
We try things. It feels great. Then it stops feeling great.
We need to follow our feelings and not keep doing things just because we said we’re going to do them, or because other people like that we’re doing them.
I mean we want to keep our word. I deliberately didn’t promise how long I’d do the videos for because I didn’t know.
And we want to grant ourselves the freedom and space to follow our creative instinct.
ps: I’m doing a coaching call on Procrastination on Tuesday – come join me!