Inner Work

Self Doubt Challenge

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I am challenging myself to:

  • explore this foggy layer of self-doubt that I am starting to see around me and noticing that it's holding me back a lot more than I realise
  • share this process in weekly blog posts until it feels complete

My tool: the Self Doubt Relief process

This is a 20 minute alchemy process I created for bringing in healing and then transforming your pattern of self doubt - creating a new relationship with the part of you who doubts you.

This doesn't all happen in 20 minutes...

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A conversation with my Super Confident Self, who has been on permanent vacation in Saint-Tropez.

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I have a part of me who doubts, a part of me who is afraid, and a part of me who is, right now, hiding under the covers with Netflix and ice cream.

I also have a part of me who is SURE. 100% confident. But this Super Confident part of me is not as helpful as might think, when it comes to working with my dreams:

You can't try new things AND be 100% sure.

You can't experiment and explore AND be 100% sure.

So this part of me has been away on vacation for a long time, and this morning I am...

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On calling myself a WRITER even though my Inner Critic thinks this is ridiculous

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Since that blog post about Show Up. Tell The Truth I have been thinking about this thing I've got where I can't claim the title of WRITER for myself.

I make art for ME. Most of the art I make I never share. Even when I do share it, it's usually not because I want to share the art itself, it's more about sharing the inspiration behind the art.

And yet I easily claim the title of ARTIST.

I write for myself in my journal all the time. I can claim the title of journaler.

Writing, like the kind...

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Notes from my journal: getting SUPER stuck and then falling into a new world of possibilities

I'm stuck! Like stucker than stuck.

For some reason I do not know what to do today, even though I have all of these clear lists mapped out in my project management software and I've had a really beautifully productive week, until this morning anyway. Hey stuck, what's happening? Oh I don't feel stuck, I feel contorted. Reaching out in too many different directions. Stretched thin and weird. I hate this. Wow. OK. I've been feeling so good lately, I'm so sorry I didn't notice how uncomfortable...

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I woke up feeling extra-cranky this morning, how about you?

This morning I woke up feeling overwhelmed. Yesterday I was sooooo happy because the End The Year on a High Note Creative Dream Obstacle Release Ceremony went soooo well. (You can still watch the recording right here - the recording is available until Jan 9)

So it somehow felt extra-disorienting to wake up this morning feeling overwhelmed and like everything is wrong.

But after a bit of journaling though I saw it from a different perspective: Actually I am seeing things more clearly...

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On releasing the obstacles (it's not what you think...)

Obstacle release is brave work.

It's impossible to release something that you can't face, so facing the thing is always the first step. It takes more work than you think to really face your obstacle, to sit with it for long enough that you actually start to see it clearly. Because we don't see our own obstacles clearly. Ever.

Your obstacles live in your blind spots.

For many years I thought that the obstacle to me having the life I wanted (to be creatively and sustainably and happily...

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When Self-Doubt Comes To Play

I am feeling debilitating self-doubt today. This is never comfortable, but since I have not felt this way in so long, I feel extra un-prepared to handle it. So I have mostly been trying to avoid it, which has resulted in me walking around with this pit in my stomach all day while I just get crankier and want to eat everything in sight. It finally started to ease once I finally started journaling about how I was feeling which quickly led to me connecting the dots on what really had me feeling...

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What if thinking about your dream makes you feel hopeless?

This is a page from the Dream Lab playbook (Dream Lab: Explore The Miracle of your Dream is my free e-course - sign up here). Today my dream shows up as a bird in a cage. The cage feels heavy and rough, like I could cut myself just trying to touch it. My dream is small and sad, trapped inside. Or is it that I'm sad, seeing my dream trapped in there? Well I feel hopeless about it. Like there is no way to get that bird out of that cage. The lock is rusted over and I don't have the key anyway.

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Finding my way through some hard stuff.

Over the weekend my husband said something that really hurt my feelings and I was surprised by how I reacted. I mean I was definitely not able to own my emotional reaction in the moment. And so, of course, I reacted in a way that just made everything worse. It wasn't pretty. But this stuff happens sometimes - even between the most well-meaning people. I know that my husband doesn't want to hurt me and I don't want to hurt him.

So why do we get into these ugly places?

Well, I...

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The True Story of Spending The Day Deep In Creative Resistance

[I wrote this post yesterday throughout the day to share what it's like to work through heavy resistance] I have been letting my resistance have free reign so far today. It's thrown me so far off schedule I can't even see it anywhere off in the distance. For the past two weeks my sweetie and I have been getting our food from farmer's markets - cooking amazing fresh foods for dinner. I have fresh baby new potatoes in the fridge, which I baked in olive oil and herbs last night. And some eggs to...

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