Hello New Week!

The May calls are on the calendar - I hope to see you there! The New Moon calls for June and July are scheduled.

Get your next Dream Book lesson here.

(I just added this video to the Space-Making page)

Come into the comments on this post and share with us one thing you are wishing for this week.

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As you can see, my Creative Genius Planning for this week is a little stuck.

(Remember there are lots of different Creative Genius Planning videos to help you get your week going)

I am in a situation with the developer of my condo complex that is infuriating.

I want to let this go, but I was finding it impossible to plan with my thoughts and feelings all tied up in this situation. So I journaled my feelings and feel a lot better now.

But while I was in it, planning my next steps, connecting with my dreams - that all felt impossible.

As long as I was trying to push away what I was feeling, to try to feel how I wanted to feel, all I was doing was making myself stuck.

I did this drawing to express myself.

I still feel so emotional, everything swirling around, so I lay down on the floor to just be with my feelings.

I worked with that meditation from yesterday - Alchemy Process for When Something Is Bothering You And You Need To Let It Go.

I listened to what I wanted, and I wanted to sit outside on my patio, journal some more, have a coffee, and give myself some space.

And then I felt better.

It's just like I said in the video above - we have to meet ourselves where we are BEFORE we can work on our next steps moving towards where we want to be.

Hello New Week!

The May calls are on the calendar - I hope to see you there!

Also - the April New Moon call was soooooo good. You can watch it here.

Come into the comments on this post and share with us one thing you are wishing for this week.

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I am wishing for EASE and that feeling like I have all the time in the world to do the things I want to do.

The new Space-Making program is in Dream Book now.

Space-Making helps you make space to work only our dreams - or anything else. It's meeting yourself where you are, tending to your needs and feelings, and self care that makes space to create new possibilities for your future self.

I made Space-Making for when you are too overwhelmed to begin Dream Book.

But in these overwhelming times, my Space-Making practice is an almost-daily thing. This work of giving myself some space to be, to work through some feelings, to think about what I need - this is what makes the dream-building work possible.

So - I do encourage everyone to look at Space-Making and think about how this might be helpful for you. For my space-making practice today, I am riding my bike to the park, to sit on a sunny bench with my journal for a little bit.

Creative Genius Planning for the new week:

(Remember there are lots of different Creative Genius Planning videos to help you get your week going)

My planning page is the photo above.

This week I am leaving myself lots of space to explore the question:

What helps me make more art, more often, from a deeper place?

This is connected to my Dream Status Report from Friday. I want to make more art, and write more, all from a deeper place, AND share more it - like blogs and social media posts. I feel like I am BURSTING with inspiration and I want some places to express it.

AND

All of the mental capacity and clarity issues that are so common right now.

AND

All the other things I have to do, too. I just don't know what it looks like to be doing this in the way I want to.

So I want to really focus on what would make it easier to be doing this in the way that feels right for me. What would make it easier to make space for everything?

I have ideas of things I want to work on this week, all organized in my digital project management app. In my planner I want to document the process of doing these things, and figuring out how to support myself in doing more of these things.

Hello from Bear and I at Creative Dream Headquarters.

Hello New Week! Hello New Month!

The May calls are on the calendar - I hope to see you there! Also - the April New Moon call was soooooo good. You can watch it here.

Last week I sent out an email with the details of how I made some changes to Dream Book to make it easier to be self-paced. If you missed that - please email me! I want to help make sure you've got Dream Book set up in a way that works for you.

Now that I am encouraging you to turn off the Dream Book lesson emails and turn ON the Daily Miracle Mastermind emails (you can sign up for them here) I also want to encourage you to come into the daily posts and talk to us!

It's always enriching and inspiring when we get together for live calls - I want to bring that magic to the comments section of the daily posts.

During the pandemic people stopped sharing as much here, and started emailing me with questions. I think that makes sense and I ALWAYS want you to feel comfortable emailing me questions! I am here to help make sure you get what you need from Dream Book.

But I ALSO would love to encourage you to feel more comfortable sharing on the website - because we really do benefit from sharing our stories with each other. There is a magic in not being alone with your dreams.

So come into this post and share with us one thing you are wishing for this week.

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I am wishing for FEELNG LIKE I HAVE ENOUGH TIME.

Creative Genius Planning Time!

(Remember there are lots of different Creative Genius Planning videos to help you get your week going)

For the second week in a row - I have not done any planning.

I love planning, and it helps me feel more calm and more clear.

AND I just can't right now.

I want to make up a story to explain why, but instead I am just leaving it there. It feels uncomfortable and it feels true. I'm just not ready to figure out my next steps, so maybe tomorrow.

Hello New Week!

We're doing the New Moon call on Friday this week. I hope to see you there!

Share your intentions/plans for the week in the comments below! Share your wishes for what you want to have happen! Or ask for help or advice or cheering on.

The comments of weekly HELLO WEEK posts are a great place to come in and say hello and ask anything and everything. (If you're reading this in your email, come here to do that)

Creative Genius Planning Time!

(Remember there are lots of different Creative Genius Planning videos to help you get your week going)

I'm not planning this week right now! I am in my "creative cave" working on these new options for Dream Book and want to stay focused there. The above is my overall plan for the new Space-Making option.

When this happens, usually I do my planning on Wednesday or whenever it fits in my schedule, just to check in with everything and make sure nothing is getting forgotten. Or when I do next week's planning I look back at this week to check in with everything.

There is usually a certain amount of "juggling" when you have multiple projects, and this "new Dream Book versions" is at the point where it's taking over everything - and I LOVE this part. Really being in the creative flow and making visible progress.

BUT I woke up anxious this morning. So my practice today is meeting my anxiety.

It's rare for me to feel anxious at home, when there is nothing I have to do. During the pandemic I started feeling anxious while out in the world AND anxiety is one of my peri-menopause PMS symptoms and when those two collide - watch out!

But just feeling anxious in the morning here alone with projects I love? What's up? So I am using the Un-Sticking Station to meet with this part of me.

Anxiety shows up as a black + white version of me:

Ummmmm. You could stop JUDGING. GEEEEZ!

Judging?

What right do you have to decide WHEN and IF I get to exist? I'm here. Deal with it.

[Oh wow, this is my junior high/early high school self. (Interesting, as I am dealing with a lot with my 16yo step-kid, maybe my inner pouty teenager has been activated)]

Oh sweetie, of course. Yes. You exist. And your feelings are valid.

I'm not feeling it. You don't think I am valid!!!!

Well, I just feel curious I guess. I don't understand why you're anxious.

I don't need a reason!!!!!

No, that's true.

God! You always look for a reason. Can't I just BE WHO I AM?!?! You don't understand me!

OK. You're right. I'm sorry. I only want to understand in order to help you.

You can't help. No one can help.

Well I don't believe that. And I have a lot of experience that says otherwise. I'm sorry, but it feels like you are trying to grab the driver's seat from me and I am going to stay in it.

Big pouts

[Oh wow something just shifted the anxiety in my body just lessened, it's taking up less space and doesn't feel as intense.]

OK listen. I want to take care of you. What do you need?

My anxious self is now a younger teen.

I don't know. I'm scared. Everything is changing so fast! I don't know what to do! I don't know how to fit in.

All of that resistance/rebellious energy is gone. Feels like we are starting to get into the truth.

Yeah! This does have a "I just started junior high and found out I am really not cool, I don't know how to fit in, I don't understand what is happening" kind of vibe.

I am remembering feeling like "Who are all these cool girls with the very long feathered hair? Why didn't I know I was supposed to grow my hair and learn how to feather it? How come everyone makes fun of these pink floral print jeans I got? I thought they were amazing!" Just lost in a hostile world with no way out.

OK sweetheart. Listen to me. I am so sorry things are hard for you and your feelings of anxiety are absolutely valid and completely understandable.

Thanks *sob*

I wish you'd had someone to help guide you through this strange time. But I want you to look at me. Look at me! Look at my life! I DO get to wear pink floral print jeans if I want to, I get to decide what's cool for me, and no one gets in the way of that. I think your jeans ARE amazing, I'm almost 48 and I still remember them! As I look back to where you are now, this is really one of the big times when you showed up as yourself and then was squashed for it. Oh sweetheart.

*cries*

I want you to know that your creative spirit survived. This wasn't the last time it got squashed but sweetheart we overcame it. I get to live as my true self WITH my creative spirit. You will grow and become me.

This won't last forever?

No. Even in a few years it all gets better when you find the right friends for you. In grade 10 you're going to make a friend who is STILL my best friend! (Now I'm crying)

But what do I do now?

Listen sweetheart. This is just a shit time for you. So let's load up on self care. You've got your pink ghetto blaster, let's turn the radio on. I'm going to give you a journal - I know you don't start doing this for a few more years, but I'd like you to know that you can write your feelings in here and then you can destroy it if you want but you can have this place to put things. You don't have to hold it all. You can also just lay on your bed and listen to music and look at magazines and I'm going to fill your whole room with LOVE. It's all pink and sparkly. You can skip the next few years of school and just chill out here until life out there gets better.

OK the anxiety is gone.

I definitely feel a "shit got stirred up" feeling but it's settling.

I feel ready to get to work. I feel SO INSPIRED about my work right now, because I think we're all getting triggered, we're all feeling stretched in this "new world" and I want to put my ideas out there to help us navigate it.

I am so grateful for this conversation with anxiety.  I am appreciating seeing the comparison: going into the "post-pandemic world" to the first day of junior high when I felt so lost and scared and like I didn't even know who I was.

It doesn't change anything but somehow just feels good to name it, and sit with it, and offer the triggered part of me some compassion. And now there is more SPACE.

Before we start: a little while back I sent out an email asking you to let me know if you need more support.

I know with everything happening in the world right now, it is HARD to make space for our dreams and I am still happy to hear from you if you are struggling - if you let me know what's happening for you, I can help you find an easier way in to working with your dream.

And as I look in a more general sense of what is happening for people, I am doing 2 things:

• Creating the new "space-making" program for making space for your dream when you are SUPER overwhelmed/have NO time (VERY little content, if you have 1 minute a day you can start doing this and we'll gradually build up space)
• Creating a new "GENTLE Dream Book" with less content and more space between things

Dream Book, the way it's set up now, is a deep and comprehensive program for when you are in a space where you are really DOING THIS. The pace of the program is the absolute fastest you should ever move through the content.

The GENTLE Dream Book will be set up to support you in getting started in a slower and gentler way. More suitable to dreaming in hard times, or when your life is really busy.

I'm working on all of this and I'll start sharing it as soon as I can.

In the meantime, I suggest this 11 minute video for when you're in resistance and this 12 minute video for making your trust in your dream bigger than your fear.

Also - if you're not keeping up with the Dream Book lesson emails turn them off! Use the form on this page to turn off the emails. You'll still get the other emails I send out, like this one.

Hello New Week!

We're doing Co-Dreaming on Thursday this week. I hope to see you there!

Share your intentions/plans for the week in the comments below! Share your wishes for what you want to have happen! Or ask for help or advice or cheering on.

The comments of weekly HELLO WEEK posts are a great place to come in and say hello and ask anything and everything. (If you're reading this in your email, come here to do that)

My Creative Genius Planning Session:

I am doing Creative Genius Planning For When You Have No Clue What To Do.

I am remembering my focus for this week, from last week's Dream Status Report:  BE MORE ENGAGED, PRESENT and JOYFUL. FOLLOW THE MAGIC.

It was SO good to read that this morning, as I woke up very tired + disoriented. The snow plows were out at 3am and each time they back up they BEEP BEEP BEEP and they were cleaning the road and sidewalk outside my place and the BEEP BEEP BEEP went on for over an hour, then I found it hard to get back to sleep.

So remembering this as my focus felt like a light shining on a dark path. Oh yeah, this is what I want.

But still, I don't know what to DO with that, exactly. So I need some clarity with the Outer Work.

Watching the video:

Ahhhhh. Feeling soothed by that reminder at the beginning that it's ok to not know what to do next.

Wow. I had actually forgotten what was on this recording. This is so helpful!!!

I feel scared that I will NEVER figure out exactly HOW to do the things I want to do next. This triggers stories of "you are so lucky to have created what you have, there is no way you can push it further".

And: "You are better off not knowing what to do next. That fog is protecting you. If you try, it will be so hard and scary and stressful and you'll likely still fail. Please don't try this."

The more I sit with it, the more there is a BIG and DEEP insistence that I turn around and stop pursuing this. And it's all very shadowy and unclear and foggy.

The feelings in my body: stress/tension in my shoulders, tightness in my body, swirling in my head. It's mostly the tense shoulders. It feels like something pushing me down.

These feelings are totally valid AND they are not my truth. This is just how this feels in this moment.

Yes, I absolutely can do this project. And I will figure it out one step at a time.

I do have ideas, they're just fragments though. Not plans. Not something I can grab onto and really go with. But I do have ideas. They are bright, full colour, they feel like possibility,

This week what I need to do is: journal/brainstorm on all of these ideas. Spend time with them. I know I just see fragments, but there is more to them. And all of this discomfort was making it hard for me to do that - to spend enough time with them to SEE them.

This week I want to put these ideas into a written list. That's the thing that is in front of me to do (as I talk about at the end of the video)