I had a LOT of resistance to doing my Project Miracle practice today.
And it felt kind of weird - since I have given myself permission to take this really slow, to take more than 30 days to do the 30 days of the practice, this morning, feeing foggy headed I thought “I’ll just do it tomorrow”…
But somewhere inside me, I started to feel like.. that’s not the right move. That’s just my resistance speaking. I actually DO want my miracle. I want to be moving forward.
I was in bed still, and had my phone with me. Usually I leave my phone downstairs when I go upstairs in the evening but last night that didn’t happen so it felt like a little nudge… you have the phone, you can just go do the next lesson without even getting out of bed…
So I did.
And it was SO nice to do the meditation from bed, resting on my big pile of pillows.
Immediately I thought… what was the big deal about not wanting to do this today? THIS IS HEAVENLY. AND! It helps me get the thing I want most right now. Win win!
I did the Exploring your Miracle practice today and it was WILD, as in - it showed me something that was the total opposite from what I was thinking that my miracle was about.
Technically - that’s a miracle. That shift in perspective.
The meditation showed me that the qualities of this miracle are: presence, trust and gentleness/slowness.
And that felt stark and surprising to me because, and this is when I really noticed this, I was assuming that actually GETTING this thing I want would require: strategy, structure and hard work.
AND THIS IS WHY I HAVE FELT STUCK AND IN RESISTANCE!!
A part of me is just NOT up for more strategy, structure and hard work.
Another part of me thinks it’s necessary.
Another part of me, the wiser part of me, knows there is another way… but hasn’t seen it yet.
This is the thing about creating something NEW in your life. You haven’t seen it yet!!
Maybe you’ve seen other people have it but the view is quite different when you are IN IT. You have not truly seen what it means for you to do/be/have this thing.
So you’re in the unknown. And being in the unknown is a whole thing on its own. On top of the creative process you’re already in to create this thing.
It’s a lot!
And, as I age, I am noticing how much I have used HARD WORK to power through these parts. Which isn’t wrong!!! But it’s not really possible for me to do that in the same ways now, AND I don’t want to.
I feel deeply called to a new way of doing things AND I am still learning about what that call actually means.
So I am in three different creative processes: calling in this miracle, creating a new body work in textile art, creating new structures/habits/routines for my creative/work life.
And I am in three different unknowns with each of these.
No wonder I wonder about whether or not I want to show up on any given day. This is a lot to hold!
So the question is: HOW am I holding all of this? What’s working about that? What’s not working? How do I WISH I was holding it all?
HOW DO I WISH I WAS HOLDING IT ALL.
BINGO!
That’s the right thing to explore next.
Join me for: SPRING CLEAN your CREATIVE DREAMS: May 27 on Zoom! Replay provided.
We're under stress. We're overwhelmed. AND we're inspired to create the things we are called to create.
These times call for a different way of planning. A way of planning that includes self care and soul and healing alongside making measurable progress towards your goals.
So we're going to get together and make a plan that recognizes this. An ACCESSIBLE plan that gets you to where you want to be WITHOUT asking you to push yourself beyond what feels right in the moment.
Spring Cleaning For Your DREAMS
Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.
- Check in with your dreams/goals/intentions/plans for 2026 (Or come up with some now!)
- Celebrate what you’re doing well! Let go of what’s ready to go. Grieve what needs to be grieved. Process it all and clear space for CREATING what's next.
- Notice what needs more attention.
- Notice where you need more support.
- Make an ACCESSIBLE plan WITH SUPPORTS to help make it easier to keep things on track
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