Want to play with POSSIBILITY? I’m positively BURSTING to guide the way.
I am nervous about posting this. But I promised myself I would do this. So… deep breath….
Ever since I left university (15 years ago!) I have wanted to be an artist. To follow my creative flow wherever it leads and have that financially sustain me.
When I first set out to do this, this was hard. Very hard.
But in the last five years or so, things have really changed for us sensitive creative types – the way the internet has evolved has changed everything.
Three years ago I left my part-time day-job to be a full time Creative Dream Incubator and the past few years of my life have been amazing.
I always tell my students that you don’t just make a dream real and then you’re done. Creative Dreaming is a way of life. As we evolve our purpose evolves, our creativity evolves, our desires evolve. Our dreams evolve. It’s a fact of life when you live in a universe of infinite possibility, as we do.
So now I’m reminding myself about this. It’s time to dream bigger.
Though I want to include a GIANT CAVEAT about what I mean by bigger. We live in a society that tells us that bigger is always better, unless you’re talking about your body in which case smaller is always better – these rules are childish, stupid and unhealthy. That’s not the bigger I am talking about.
The universe is alive. You are alive. Life is alive. Your dream is alive. Living things grow.
My Creative Dream Incubator is ready to grow. My Creative Dream Circle is ready to grow.
But they have always been ready. They are sturdy containers for growth, transformation and magic and they work just as well with a million students as they do with one.
I, however, do not do as well with a million students as with one.
And I needed time to feel ready for this.
It takes a lot of preparation to teach transformation. After 13 years of studying and exploring, I started an intensive 3 year program to become a teacher. Then I did a 1 year internship and taught TONS of in-person classes… all this before I did a single online course.
Then, in the last 3 years of teaching online full time, my work has evolved. A lot.
I’m really excited and inspired by what I’m doing. It’s unique and heartwarming and imaginative and fun… and EFFECTIVE. I’ve also become more grounded as a teacher and ready to hold a space for more dreamers and more dreams.
As I shared last week, I re-structured my offerings to make space for MORE dreamers and more dreams in 2014. (From now on, you can participate in ALL of my e-courses and tele-classes AND be a member in my Creative Dream Circle for only $100/year.)
You won’t find this kind of high quality dream-growing support for anywhere near this price, anywhere.
I am doing my part to make it as easy and simple as possible for all dreamers to get the support they need to make those dreams REAL.
I am going to grow the Creative Dream Circle exponentially in 2014.
That number makes my stomach jump a bit. While I have had over 100 members in the Circle so far, I haven’t had over 100 at once. And now I want to have 800 members in the circle, all at once, by the end of 2014. It’s a stretch.
Under that stomach jump I feel a quiet sparkling. I feel how amazing it will be for so many more dreams to be born.
And then… well I have layers of resistance and excitement and joy and fear. All the usual stuff involved in taking on a new dream.
For the last few weeks I’ve been sitting with this decision. Acclimating to it. Writing about it, exploring my feelings about it. It took some time to actually settle on the number 800 but now that I have it feels exciting and right and it scares me in all the right ways.
I’ve also been figuring out how to do it.
As I was planning away the other day a new idea dawned: to share this process, as I work through it. I thought about how helpful this would be for people who are interested in how to make big dreams real… and about how it would help me solidify my commitment to myself, to commit to sharing it with others, too.
So, I’m doing this! I’m going to share the entire process over the next year, right here on my blog.
Every stumble and mis-step and success and joy along the way. I’m going to write a weekly post (on Fridays) talking about where I’m at, what I’m doing (both internal and external stuff) and share lists of what I want to do next and keep myself accountable.
Not a lot of tangible things! As I said, I had to be with this decision for a long time before I could settle into it. I’ve been journaling and meditating and arting. Connecting with the essence of the Circle, and the essence of my business and the Patron Saints of Creative Dreamers to make sure everything is aligned and ready to go.
I’ve been getting to know My Dream Self, the me-who-lives-this-dream and can give me the best advice about how to get there and what it really means to be there.
I wrote this blog post and made my commitment to this public (gulp!).
And I am asking you, right now, to think about joining the Circle in 2014.
Imagine what would happen if you had a whole year of Creative Dream Support… e-courses, tele-courses, group coaching calls plus an entire library of resources and obstacle-banishing dream-growing tools and space to bring your dream from inception all the way to fruition. The act of making that kind of commitment to yourself is MAGIC.
Creative Dream Circle members are using the Circle to work on things like:
…all sorts of delicious life-enhancing things!
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Well, I haven’t actually thought about this! I knew I needed to start this post series NOW even though I am not entirely ready.
I’m still swirling in all of the ideas for all of the ways I can make this happen. I’ve got 4 journals and a giant roll of paper out, sitting beside me. So I am going to keep doing that, exploring my options for the outer work.
And come up with some daily practices for the inner work.
By next Friday’s post I’d like to have a more detailed plan of what I’m going to DO with this for the next few months.
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When I say magic, I don’t mean magic as in spells and wands (unless you’re into that, of course).
I’m talking about what happens when you’re IN THE FLOW. You know what I mean… During meditation. Making art. Making love. During yoga. That breakthrough moment after years of therapy. We all have times when we break through the fog and connect with the magic within.
Like, consciously choosing to be in the magic, instead of waiting for it to just somehow (magically?!) happen to you.
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This is not about stealing ideas, when you copy from others, or when others accuse you of copying them (I did talk about that here).
I wrote this about a situation I am in where I did business with someone, then they took my share of the profits and keep refusing to give them to me. But really, it’s about any kind of breach of trust. And it’s about making mistakes and recovering with grace and integrity.
Why did you trust and un-trustworthy person? What made you say yes to the deal? Was your intuition trying to push you away from it?
Think back to how you made the decision. What process did you use to decide? Have you used this decision-making style in the past and does it normally work for you? Or is there is a flaw in how you’re making decisions?
Exploring and owning your part in it will help you avoid a situation like this in the future.
It could be that you ignored your intuition because you thought you’d get ______ (easy money, amazing exposure, a huge opportunity, love + acceptance from people you respect, etc).
It could be that your intuition led you right into this because there is something important for you here.
Those are two VERY different scenarios. And even though the results look the same on the surface, they’re not.
In scenario 1: this is a lesson. The sooner and better you learn it the sooner you won’t have to keep taking this test.
In scenario 2: this is a gift. Even if you have to look really hard to find it.
Anyone who steals is a thief. If someone breaks a promise to you, that is NOT your fault. That part is not your part to own.
A lot of spiritual people want to focus on forgiveness and karma and not, like, take action. This is usually done under the guise of being a spiritually evolved person, but it’s really more about being afraid to stand up for yourself and own your power.
I’ve just been sitting with it. Exploring and owning my part. I’ve been talking with one other person that I know is in the same boat. We’re both talking about how we feel as well as exploring practical options for how we want to handle it.
I’ve actually been hoping that, if given some time, this person would give me the money.
So I didn’t take action. I decided to be patient. I wanted to trust her.
What did I get for my patience?
I still don’t have my money.
But I do have a firmer commitment to myself, to be more careful about who I do business with, and to take action sooner should I find myself in this kind of situation again.
It didn’t feel done. And today I can see why.
What I really want to write about is making mistakes and recovering from them with grace and integrity.
Because that’s the part that is really bothering me about this situation – how she’s handling it and what the long-term impact of this is going to be for her.
Everybody makes mistakes. Often making a mistake is the only way to learn! The path of Creative Dreaming is FULL of mistakes, because you’re creating your own path… you can’t create a totally-new totally-unique path already knowing how to do it. You have to try things to find out how they work.
The only way to not make mistakes is to not do anything that hasn’t been done before. And Creative Dreamers are too creative for that!
What IS a problem is when you don’t FACE your mistake. You try to bury it.
You tell yourself (and those you hurt in making the mistake) stories about you as the victim, about how there is nothing you can do.
In time you might even start to believe these bullshit stories.
But a part of you always knows that they’re not true. You’re not a victim, you’re a creative genius.
There is always a way for you to transform any situation. But the way to do that is never by avoiding the discomfort of facing up to your actions.
See, I see what is happening for this person who keeps refusing to give me my money. She’s going deep into denial about her ability to make more money and just pay me (and the others she owes). She’s sabotaging her own business. Worst of all, she’s concerned about her mental health.
She’s got layers of guilt and shame and hurt about this in her energy body. She’s pretending like they’re not there. She’s not taking responsibility and cleaning up the situation, which means those layers of ick stay with her.
Of course she’s going to be depressed.
And that is why it’s important to clean up your messes.
As a Creative Dreamer, you CANNOT go on to create your dreams in your world until you clean up those energies.
Admit, at least to yourself, what you actually did.
Let go of the victim story, let go of the excuses. Admit what you did without going into those stories. Own your decision. It was the best decision you knew to make in the moment.
Be willing to own the consequences.
Don’t try to put them off on other people, that doesn’t even actually work. In the case of this person who took money from me (and others), to carry on not paying us back through the holiday season is soooo NOT cool. Borrow money even if you have to use credit cards, have a drastic crazy sale if you have your own business, take on odd jobs, work 18 hours/day – do what you need to do, even if you think you can’t. This is the consequence of your action. Own it.
Because then everything lightens up!
Guilt and shame will not stick around after you’ve let go of your stories, owned your decision and cleaned up your mess.
Now you can find the lessons and gifts in the situation.
Now you’re free to go on to create something new.
The longer you go on insisting that you can’t do anything about this or re-telling your victim story about how you had no choice, the longer you stay in that icky energy, cut off from your own creative genius.
You’re better than that.
When something just feels wrong, that is your intuition speaking to you, letting you know that something is off.
The more you ignore that inner wisdom and just bulldoze through, the easier it gets to just keep on bulldozing…. which creates a gigantic mess in your inner world, and makes it harder for yout o re-connect with your inner wisdom.
But bulldozing is basically what built our world. There’s a lot of it out there and it can be hard to not fall into that pattern.
I planned tomorrow’s Calm For The Holidays Creative Playdate months ago. It’s one of those times when what I need and want I want to offer are one and the same, and I was really looking forward to it.
But as the date approached, something started to feel off. It was subtle at first, and then I became more and more uncomfortable every time I tried to work on it.
A few weeks ago I started to think about cancelling it, because it felt so wrong. But canceling it felt even more wrong!
I did a lot of journaling and a lot of sitting with my feelings and just waiting.
Sometimes I can’t prep for an event like this until the day before because the energy is shifting so much. As soon as people sign up for a transformative event, transformation starts. So sometimes I wait until the last minute so that I am working with the energy that will show up at the event.
But that’s not what was happening this time. Something was really off.
So, instead of prepping for the class, I did even more journaling, even more sitting with my feelings, even more waiting.
I wrote last week about a huge shift I am making in my work.
As soon as I shifted things around, the Calm For The Holidays Creative Playdate changed.
The feeling of something being off was gone. I happily prepped for the calls and created the playbook and once again I am soooooo looking forward to this.
Calm is a doorway that leads you to whatever you need right now.
Calm is powerful.
Calm is magic.
I am so happy I worked through the tangled parts to get to this place. Now the Calm For The Holidays Creative Playdate is going to be amazing. (It’s tomorrow! Come play with us!)
I wanted to share that story as a little reminder of the importance of listening to your feelings.
Don’t be so hell-bent on Making Things Happen that you stop listening to your inner guidance.
Even when it seems like your inner guidance is trying to direct you away from something you really want, listen to it and explore it. Often it’s just showing you a shortcut or an easier path.
Instead of being cranky about how Black Friday seems to be invading Canada this year and that it’s really hard to stay away from the nuttiness, I am writing this list of reasons why I am head over heels in love with winter:
And it feels like the beauty and magic of winter get hijacked by our completely insane holiday traditions.
Sometimes this makes me mad, sometimes it makes me sad.
This year I’d like it to inspire me to be more solidly committed to staying in alignment with my inner (quiet!) sparkle.
Because no matter how frantic everything gets out there, you still get to choose calm.
We’ll also be exploring how calm is actually a superpower.
And how ending the year with a month of calm creates fertile ground for a dream-filled 2014.
Calm is magic.
And I am wishing you the calmest of Black Fridays.
The Calm For The Holidays Creative Playdate is a transformative experience for people who are ready to NOT get caught up in the craziness of the holiday season.
It’s about connecting, deeply, to peace, calm and your amazing inner sparkle.
The Creative Dream Circle is my glitter-dusted secret playhouse for Brilliant Creative Geniuses (like you!).
The Circle is full of magic potions and secret shortcuts that help you bring your dreams to life with way more ease and joy than you think is possible, plus tools for approaching dreams (and life!) in a creatively play-filled, spiritually grounded way.
PLUS when you join the Creative Dream Circle you also get *FREE* access to ALL of the e-courses (like the Creative Dream Incubator + Creative with Money) and tele-classes (like Treasure-Mapping, Creative Playdates + group coaching calls) that I do, all year long.
A whole YEAR of Creative Dream Support. Imagine the possibilities!
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