Every time I lead a meditation I say somewhere in there: even if it gets weird, even if this feels uncomfortable, you are not doing this wrong.
I say this because there is this idea out there that meditation should be peaceful and if it's not then you're doing it wrong. But that's not the way I teach meditation.
We are using meditation to connect with ourselves - we are not always peaceful and that's ok!!! And we are using meditation to connect with the souls of our dreams to get next-level advice on how to have more of what we want in our lives... that work is NOT always comfortable and almost never linear.
So, we need to be willing to let the process get uncomfortable and weird. This is the only way to use meditation as a part of the creative process of intentionally creating your life.
Some of the changes your dream asks you for will be surprising.
Some of the healing will be difficult.
This never means you are doing anything wrong.
This is my experience with the Hello Day meditation this morning:
I am starting to experience the work of HOLDING SPACE FOR MYSELF in a new way.
There is that part of me, that we have in the meditation, who always believes in myself and always believes in my dreams… and that part of me is growing bigger and starting to kind of push at the part of me who is more on the surface, more tired and overwhelmed by world events.
Actually, it almost feels like that part of me who always believes in myself + my dreams is actually trying to TAKE OVER my body and run things, the way my “regular everyday self” does now. An internal takeover.
And then in the energy clearing part of the meditation - that seems to melt away the stuff that helps that “regular everyday self” hold onto control of my body and mind. So it made more space for the “me who always believes in myself and always believes in my dreams”.
This felt hopeful and strange and disorienting.
Then it got really weird.
The soul of my dream slowed up, like a sluggish kind of bug, and it was sad and I asked what’s wrong and it said “I think I am too small”
And it was sooooo sad about this. Like my dream would be soooo much happier if I could make it bigger.
But I think this just is my internalized capitalism? That “DREAM BIGGER AND BIGGER STILL” cultural nonsense. Because I don’t actually want to dream this dream in any kind of bigger way. I want what I want.
But my dream doesn’t think so, it seems to think if it was bigger, then this thing I want to do today would be easier.
Which seems absurd to me. I ask my dream: Can’t we get to you, at your current size, AKA made you real AND THEN reassess and see if we want to dream bigger? Because right now I genuinely don’t want more.
But I’m too little to lift this, my dream says.
I don’t understand what my dream thinks that I am asking it to lift?!
But I am sure not here to argue with my dream. So I repeat myself. I show it more clearly what I want to do today to work towards this plan we have.
In return, my dream shows me this lever that it needs to lift up, to do its part of this plan. And shows me how it’s too small to lift the lever.
Two things happen in my mind at once.
FIRST ONE:
Oh wow. I see it.
The answer isn’t to dream bigger, it’s actually to dream SMALLER. Like somehow (and I don’t understand any of this, this is just what is happening in the meditation) if I made my current goal within this dream smaller, then that would make the lever easier for this dream to lift, so they can do their part. Again, this seems wrong logically but felt like the answer in the meditation.
SECOND ONE:
I am big enough to lift this lever, and when I went to try to do that in the meditation, I saw how “me lifting the lever” is actually “me spending more time in meditation and then doing things from the meditations…. like making art out of the imagery and writing about it more and just generally acclimating to the soul of my dream in a deeper way”.
SO… we can do both!!!
I can narrow in on a smaller chunk of my dream that I want to focus on now (which instantly feels enlivening) (but note to anyone reading this: as a coach I have to say that sometimes dreaming bigger or freer or wilder in some way also creates that enlivening sensation so I am NOT suggesting we all think smaller) AND I can give myself more time acclimating to the soul of the dream.
It DOES feel like each time I give that work “more time” I am asked to give it more time, still.
I think this is the FUEL for making dreams happen and maybe I need to re-fill the tank more often than I know?
How do you fill your tank on the vehicle that gets you to your dream? How do you know how often to re-fill it?
After that, I went on to do my Project Miracle practice for today.
Starting with Hello Day, then moving on to Project Miracle feels so LUXURIOUS.
The message from my miracle clarified everything in the Hello Day meditation.
It said to STOP BEING IN THE ENERGY OF DOING THE THING.
My miracle asked me to notice how the energy of making a thing happen, or doing the thing, is soooo different from the energy of tending to the thing, and having the thing.
My miracle said: just stay in that energy. TEND TO IT AS THOUGH IT'S HERE.
Which isn't fake it 'till you make it. I am not pretending I already have it or saying to others that I do or anything like that. I am noticing how the work of tending to the thing already here FEELS SO DIFFERENT from the work of creating the thing and asking: how do I have more of that feeling, in how I work with this project?
And, my miracle pointed out, I have done so much work to create the thing. It's kind of saying... let that work take root now. Trust what you've done. Tend to the growing of the seeds without getting in there and trying to grow them yourself.
Maybe that only makes sense to me, but it makes SO MUCH SENSE to me.
And THAT is what you should expect from this kind of meditation.
It can get weird and uncomfortable and nonsensical and... if you stay with it... you find what you need. That perfect weird right answer that helps you with your next steps.
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