This is a 2.5 year long story.
Two and a half years ago, I got this intuitive hit to take a different route home from the park one day. I drove past a construction site and my inner Creative Dream Fairy went NUTS. Google it! Call them! You need to find out more about what they are building here! This is for YOU!
I was in my first year of being 100% self-employed. I kind of had my hands full without the thought of MOVING. But I goggled it.
Whoa.? They were building two and three storey townhouse loft condos, built in small buildings forming a rectangle around a park.? No two suites the same floorplan, but all had huge, HUGE windows, cool (cool looking but the floors are actually heated) polished concrete floors, bright open spaces.? Laundry in the bathroom in up in the loft.? Paths meandering through the park, with small wooden bridges that lead to each person’s door.
It looked pretty great!
My intuition was very clear: I would be able to do my best work in this kind of space. It would help me grow into who I need to be to do what I want to do.
Still, there was a gap between me-from-before-the-dream-loft and me-who-lives-in-the-dream-loft.
This gap was much larger than I thought when I started.
I set out on what I thought would be a fairly simple journey.
I followed my intuition which said: sell the house as quickly as you can, go stay with your parents for a month.? Set up your tent in their super cool back yard – it will be awesome!
And it was awesome.
It was also a really good teaching opportunity.? When you do things that go “against the grain” people react in strange ways.
People, like grown-ups who I thought had some level of maturity, actually made fun of me.? Like there is something wrong with wanting to live how you want to live.
This tent was all full of down pillows and quilts and journals and art supplies.? It was heaven.
But just because I was doing things differently – I was teased.
This grew my motivation to be a beacon for dreamers and create safe spaces for them to do what their hearts are calling them to do, rather than follow societal norms like a robot.
Construction on the loft was delayed, the weather turned cold, and I moved into my parent’s basement.
This condo development is super unique and in some ways it made sense that there would be delays.? However, the developer handled everything very poorly, which made everything harder. (Plus if it made sense that there would be delays shouldn’t that have been factored into the possession date? But I digress.)
This whole time though, I knew I was not really caught up in a new construction nightmare, I was in the inner process of growing into me-who-lives-in-the-loft.
Not that this was easy.? Growing into a new way of being is not easy – this is why most people don’t even attempt to go after their dreams.
If I had just packed up my things and moved into the loft there wouldn’t have been a transformation.
But that was only stage one of my transformation.? I have been living in the Dream Loft for a long time but signing the papers kept being delayed.
I had no papers or anything saying that I had any right to live here.? I haven’t known if one day I would just suddenly have to leave.? Or if I would buy the condo but the rest of the development wouldn’t be finished and I would have a really hard time selling it later.
In a lot of ways, this looks like the absolute worst financial decision I’ve ever made.
But I have to trust internal over external.
I have to trust my inner knowing about what is best for me.? All the magic is in TRUSTING the process, NO magic is in JUDGING the process.
At the end of January, 26 months after the original possession date, I took official and legal possession of the Dream Loft.
I just took a quick flip through my instagram to share a few pics:
The Dream Loft changes all the time.
It’s about 1,000 square feet, with the main floor being larger than the second floor, and space on the main floor that is two storeys tall.? The second floor loft looks out over onto the main floor.? I got an extra-tiny kitchen so I’d have more open space (I don’t like cooking anyway).
I got rid of over HALF OF MY THINGS to move in here.
Not because it’s super small, but because I wanted it to feel open and spacious.? And I wanted my life to be SIMPLE.? It’s amazing how having a lot of things makes things less simple… I do think I want to write a whole blog post about this.
The things I have now are only the most useful and happy-making things.? And this makes it easy to move things around every time I am inspired to, which I love doing.? So I am always re-arranging.
I’ve got lots of soft nooks to curl up in for journaling.? Huge tables for art-making and sewing.? Comfy couch and chairs which is where I do most of my laptopping.
In hindsight, everything was perfect.
Everything played out how it needed to play out to support me in growing into who I wanted to be next.
And here I am.
After this 2.5 year journey, I now trust myself to take care of myself in ways that I couldn’t have even known about when this all started.
And I live in my Dream Loft, and living and working here makes me feel like I can do anything.? That is worth every second of the journey it took to get here.
No matter what kinds of delays you may be facing on route to your dream: stick with it.