Last Friday during our Co-Dreaming meditation my dream told me to just get a dresser. It said “Just get the dresser already and get your fucking life together”
The soul of my dream and inner selves don’t swear at me when it’s a a vulnerable situation. They do swear when they are trying to jolt me into a new perspective.
And this is the thing about this meditation, we are trying to listen to the soul of our dream to hear it's perspective instead of staying in our perspective. We can learn so much from doing this but it's tricky to get there.
I knew I needed a dresser and I had been looking for a while it’s just that it wasn’t a priority. I figured it would happen in the right time.
Even though I KNOW “waiting for the right time” or “letting it happen in its own time” is usually just our resistance speaking. But this dresser isn’t my dream or anything it’s just that a few different things happened over the last few years that lead me to need a dresser to store my clothes. In the meantime they are in fabric cubes stacked on the floor… so it’s not an emergency, right? I can just wait for the right dresser to come along…
So when my dream said to get my fucking life together, it felt like a jolt and a joke AND a little push.
So I got one - but not because I thought it mattered that much! I got it right away because when I can hear the soul of my dream speaking, and I have the ability to do what it's asking me to do - I want to do it.
Because I want to PARTNER with it wherever I can because that's the best relationship to be in with your dream.
BUT HOLY CRAP. That stack of fabric cubes was creating a lot of stagnant energy in my room that I hadn’t realised, and getting everything neatly put away PLUS having a dresser top for candles, tarot cards, etc is MAGIC.
I AM HAPPIER BECAUSE OF THIS DRESSER!!
But this isn’t about a dresser or about how a tidy home makes us feel better, even though it usually does. (Sometimes permission to be a mess feels amazing too!)
I woke up early yesterday morning, 6:30 am. I stayed in my bedroom, put on mellow dance music, and put the rest of my clothes away in the dresser and then started dancing around my bedroom. What a great way to start the day, before I’ve even had coffee!
During our Co-Dreaming call yesterday when I met with the soul of my dream I felt a wave of fear go through me.
Fear that things are going so good for me right now and maybe they won’t keep going so good. Maybe I can’t keep this up. Maybe the flow will dry up again.
My dream showed me myself dancing in my room that morning. (With a little reminder that turning on music more often will keep me from picking up my phone to scroll)
It said… look how present you are dancing. Look how you listened about the dresser and did a thing that helped you feel better in your life. No, things won’t always be ideal. But you can keep doing this. You built the path that got you here. You can trust yourself to keep doing this.
And I felt it. Full body self trust.
THIS is the magic of consistently-over-time listening to yourself, then listening deeper and deeper.
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