Update #22: So This Is Awkward.

I set a big goal for my business for 2014: to welcome 800 dreamers into my Creative Dream Circle. And to do this not by getting super pushy about selling – but to do this with heart and soul and creativity and joy and LOVE.

(you can read my original post about this here)

At this point though, it?s less about the numbers and more about growing my capacity to serve dreamers everywhere in bringing their dreams to life.

In support of this goal, I am writing weekly updates on Fridays, for all of 2014. This is where I’ll share the story of all the ups and downs of bringing a big dream to life.

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awkward

I had a post written for this week, it was about increasing internal capacity and identity shifts.? A lot happened this week!

But then more happened this morning and I found out that I can’t post that update here.

This morning I was doing my meditation/creative soul alchemy energy work/dream work and in looking at my relationship to this dream, there was so much energetic gunk around it I couldn’t connect clearly to it.

So I explored the gunk.? It was unfamiliar, which is strange because normally my energy is VERY familiar.

It turns out that this gunk is not mine.? This gunk is other people’s reactions to my dream.

I now have 10,000 visitors a month.? And for the past little while my traffic was stalled (while I was quietly freaking out about 8,000 people reading my private thoughts) but now it’s increasing again and I have a really solid plan to keep doubling it.

Everyone doesn’t read very post but still, that’s a lot of people and that’s a lot of reactions for my little seedling of a dream to be exposed to. Not that exposure is always bad for dreams, just that this dream needs quiet, clear space right now.

This is a part of stretching capacity and identity shifting: it’s no longer right for me to share things here on my blog that I used to share here.

This is new and I am still learning about it and I don’t know what to do about it right now.? I said I would post a weekly update every Friday this year.

I am not a person who doesn’t follow through on her word.? I am also not a person who ignores her intuition.

I have found that there is always a way for these two things to work together, but it usually takes some time, exploration and creative thinking to find that way.

What feels right to do today is to post my post in the Creative Dream Circle and invite the members to share their own weekly updates with me there.

I have been looking for a way to make the updates more of a group thing, but I haven’t wanted to ask people to share their vulnerable dream process publicly.? So that part is a really good move – we can share privately, in a community where everyone 1) loves & supports dreams 2) has the tools and support to make their dreams real.? It’s a really different atmosphere than a public blog, and of course you are welcome to join us.

Plus, making it a habit to write a weekly update helps ground you in the process of bringing your dream to life and opens up new channels of support.? I think it’s a beautiful addition to the Circle.

And I’m going to have to think of something else to do out here in public.? I’ll be exploring that more.


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