The big thing on my to-do list this week is to release my journaling cards out into the world.
I’m excited about this!? I’m holding the cards in my hot little hands and I am IN LOVE with everything about them.? I’m ready to do this.
But I have no clue HOW to do it.
I mean of course I can just say “Hey, here they are”, give you a link to order them and be done with it but that doesn’t feel right.? After all the love, time and attention that went into the creation of the cards I want to send them off into the world in an appropriate way.
In order to do this, I have to work on my inner relationship with the cards, and with the purpose behind the cards, which is connected to my purpose and to my own evolution.
I want this relationship to be all clear and sparkling and love-fueled because this relationship builds the path that leads the right people to the cards – the people who will adore the cards, the people who the cards are here to serve.
Right now this relationship is a bit muddled up with my fears and self-doubt.
- I’m afraid people won’t “get” the cards.
- I worry that the cards are amazing but I am not good enough to be their creator.
- I worry that no one cares.
- I worry that people will love them and talk about them and that I’ll wind up with too much attention (being an introverted entrepreneur is complicated)
- I’m afraid I’m going to mess this up in a way I can’t quite articulate.
- I feel exhausted at the thought of working on this, which is a signal that I am in resistance to facing some other fears that I don’t know about.
This is the stuff that stops us.
It’s different flavours of the same fears which come up every time you want to move towards any dream.
I’m really bored of talking about this stuff, and yet I know that not wanting to look at this stuff is a dream killer.? So here I am, telling the truth about what goes on behind the scenes.
I have all of these worries and fears and looking at them makes me uncomfortable so I want to avoid it. But avoiding my feelings means avoiding getting this work done which means avoiding putting these cards out into the world which I just can’t do.
So I’m going to use the cards to help me work through it.? I’m going to sit down with my journal every day, pick a card, and let it guide me through the process of putting this project out there.
And I’m going to use the Un-Sticking Station inside the Creative Dream Circle to un-stick the stucks.
And, for accountability, I’m going to post an update here on my blog every day.
Well, not just for accountability but also as a little story that shows that it’s hard to put your creative work out there into the world – but not impossible.
It’s a scary and complicated process and, for most of us, it happens behind the scenes.? Alone.? Hidden.
Since my job as a teacher and a guide is to help you move along that path that leads from where you are to where you want to be it feels important that I share the truth about this part of the journey and how I navigate it.
I don’t know how long this is going to take.? Often these things feel totally impossible, but then I have one good conversation with my fear and all the tangles get untangled and suddenly it’s fast and easy.? I’m hoping this will work out like that.
But maybe I’ll be blogging every day just to share how stuck I still am.
Either way, I’ll see you back here tomorrow.