On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

My focus for this week was: be less distracted and stay in the mess.

I think I was LESS distracted. But I wasn't as un-distracted as I wish I was. And last night I slept just terribly so today I feel extra foggy.

This week I submitted the intake form to the people who are drawing up my divorce papers. That has been a task that's been hanging over me for a while. I didn't want to do it while I was in the mess of the end of the marriage, or in the chaos of re-building. I said "I want to do this when I am feeling good and grounded in my new life" so it is a positive milestone to get to this place. And it wasn't nearly as tedious as I was afraid it would be.

But mostly this week was boring. I am still finding Canadian politics kind of exhausting to keep up with and it feels like the aura of existential dread is getting heavier. Wildfire season has started with a vengeance - just when I had my new morning routine ready to go (to go for a long walk early in the morning for exercise, fresh air, and to get my blood + brain pumping) it was too smoky to go outside.

The last five years has been so much of that - it's hard to get it together to do the things we want to do, then outside forces come and throw us off track more than they used to.

But I think every week I am learning more about being grounded in myself even as the world is unstable. I need more time + quiet to really listen to myself and connect with my dreams - so instead of being annoyed that it needs more time + quiet, I am just giving myself more time + quiet. This feels like progress.

My dream shows up as this - blinking thing. Blinking around between all the different ways it showed up in meditations this week. And somehow I think I know what it's saying: reflect on what you are learning about me. Which I think is... I am sorting through some ambivalence and uncertainty.

What I really want is to feel confident and clear. I feel ambivalent and foggy and like I need a nap and so... I am going to take a nap.

AND I am going to put it on my list for next week to do some explorations with ambivalence and confidence and clarity and see where that takes me. I know working through ambivalence is GOOD but being IN the ambivalence is so uncomfortable.

May New Moon call is today!

This is our monthly reflection + intention setting call. So good! I hope to see you there!

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

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