Yesterday I had that gorgeous magical morning where everything came together. I really got INTO my creative flow and got so much done and felt so good!
Today is the exact opposite.
During our New Moon Intention Setting call last week, I was feeling the magic of our alchemy meditation and my inner wisdom came in with this new advice about holding a bigger dream MORE FIRMLY this morning. Like really BEING ALL ABOUT IT.
This felt so good and expansive and like "YEAH I AM READY!"
It can be easy to feel that way during our group calls - I mean that's why I do them!
But then, as you work out what actually needs doing in order to BE ALL ABOUT IT, the shitty little voices start to speak up.
Because yesterday I worked on getting REALLY SPECIFIC about the Inner Work that I need to do, it's like I opened the door to those shitty little voices.
This will never work.
You are just not good enough.
No one cares.
This idea is so stupid why did you think you could do it?
OMG this is so COMPLICATED and HARD and I just don't want to!!
And then something stressful happened with my condo board and it was like my feelings were already at 100% full capacity but they just kept on coming.
Side note: we are doing the Sitting With Uncomfortable Feelings call this Friday!
So, I had a lot of uncomfortable feelings to sit with in preparation for Friday, lol.
This is how it works.
When we get that real DETERMINATION to move forward with something often all of our inner stuff gets activated.
Your Creative Dream Practice needs to be able to hold space for this. To not brush it aside and also to not let it take over and make your plans smaller.
The voice/feeling that is most activated for me right now is: this will never work. It comes with a sense of hopelessness with rivers of anger and frustration flowing through it.
For my practice today I'm sitting with it, using the Un-Sticking Station practice and also doing a drawing of this part of me. I mean drawing like a 5 year old to EXPRESS MYSELF (which is so healing!) not trying to "make a pretty picture" (which is great, but it's not inner work).
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