I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

I started my day with 1 hour of embroidery. That slow rhythmic movement and slowly watching colour spread was soooo grounding.

Then I did the 20 minute version of the Dream Lab meditation to sit with the soul of my dream.

It was very trippy! The field of Creative Dream Alchemy was rainbow coloured energy flowing all over, and my dream showed up as more energy, swirling and guiding me.

The message was: KEEP LISTENING. KEEP GOING DEEPER.

And this sense that I am re-calibrating.

My dream, right now, is to re-structure some things in how I run my business. I've been dreaming about how I want to show up online and how I want to promote my work and who and how I want to be right now.

This involves a lot of outer work!

And this is the tricky thing about doing outer work with our dreams: we can easily end up with our the perspectives of our "current self" "logical self" guiding the work instead of allowing our DREAM SELF to guide the work.

This means sometimes the steps ARE NOT LOGICAL in the way we currently see it, because our Dream Self is seeing from the other side of the journey so they know the REAL way to get there (both internal and externally).

And it's natural that we want to do what seems logical from where we're looking it.

So there can be a bit of a tug-of-war there.

And I am in a place where I want and need to let my Dream Self have MORE power. To let go of what I think is the right way to do this, to surrender to what my Dream Self (and my own soul!!!!) say are right.

I AM RECALIBRATING.

Not that I've been a super "logic focused" kind of person, but it's time to be even weirder about how I approach things.

Maybe... one of the things that is happening as the world changes... is we are being asked to look at how we balance the practical with the dreams, and to look at new ways of finding that balance?

I think our souls are trying to step in and take more control. Or probably more accurately - our souls have a good opportunity to step in and take more control, so they are taking it.

The unconscious ways we are taught to conform to culture start to become more apparent as that culture shifts. Going from capitalism to late-stage capitalism and towards wherever we are going... things are changing fast and in all of that change, truths that were hidden become obvious.

I think it's good that we listen to ourselves more deeply and let those truths emerge.

This is what the Hello Day practice will help you do, if done regularly.

 

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I am working on my Dream Status Report for this week.

But I want to share my page from yesterday in my Dream Book 2026:

Taking Care of Myself

vs

Letting The World Break My Heart

What is where? Like, where are the boundaries?

How do I balance these? felt like the main question as I did this.

But just a few minutes sitting with it I could see that EVERYTHING needs to be in that overlapping space between them.

I do recognize that some people are in a situation where they MUST take care of themselves and being present in the world would be too overwhelming for them. I am not saying that this is for everyone! This is MY truth. 

So, I'm taking this into the Dream Status Report, I want to reflect on last week + plan next week from this intersection.

I have been in such an INTENSE period of inner growth lately and at the same time I've had pretty intense health problems -  not something serious as in life threatening, and not something new, but something that is worse than it's ever been to the point I haven't been able to leave the house much for the last three weeks.

I kind of wonder if I triggered health problems with such intense inner stuff. Like my whole body needs to recalibrate.

Or, I am just getting older and a small health thing I've had my whole life may become more bothersome with age.

Either way - I am in a recalibration phase.

Recalibrating my relationship with myself, with my work, with WHO I want to be.

I re-did the Creative Dream Alchemy videos in the membership - the ones that explain how it works. I am also getting ready to offer that for free, along with the new You Are The Magic guide + journal.

I really love the new stuff, it feels more simple and clear. Actually navigating ALL of the inner and outer work you need to do to make a dream happen is anything but simple and clear, so it was a LOT of effort to try to create a simpler way of explaining it.

Actually, reflecting on this, I am emotionally and mentally exhausted from doing that. More than I realized.

As I filled in my Dream Status Report it became clear: I need much more DREAM WORK this week.

As I do the final Outer Work parts, I need deeper Dream Work to help me navigate it.

Dream Work can support Outer Work, like it can hold us so much deeper in the process that the Outer Work becomes less stressful.

Sometimes I can be all "Well this is easy enough, I just want to get in there and get it done" and then I can get all tangled up in my creative process.... and I'd be less tangled if I spent more time on Dream Work BEFORE going into the Outer Work.

That's what I want to carry with me this week.

Which is ALSO how I stay in that intersection of taking care of myself AND letting the world break my heart. Slow down a bit. Make more space for the SOUL of my dream which connects me to everything else.

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If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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On a scale of 1-10, I am 584823893297237921479 for being crabby this morning.

Everything irritates me.

AND

My irritability is extremely valid!

I'm starting the day with HELLO DAY energy clearing + intention setting practice.

I made this one specifically for navigating these times and I really want you to DO THIS ONE EVERY DAY or as close to it as you can.

There is so much in this meditation for shifting your relationship with your dream, with the way you see yourself and what you are capable of AND it's space to process everything that is happening in your life and in the world.

I think this is a MUST for a daily-ish practice right now.

My meditation was so WEIRD.

My dream was a stuffed cloud or something and I cuddled with it and it felt amazing but then I got in my head like "hugging my dream? What does this mean? But what do I DOOOOOOOO?"

Getting in your head takes you out of the alchemy.

Focusing on the outer work takes you out of the alchemy.

Focusing on outcomes takes you out of the alchemy.

But I just bounced back and forth between experiencing the magic of snuggling with my dream and how that helped me feel so much better.... to getting in my head about it "But I need to know my next steps" "But WHHHYYYY would I cuddle with my dream?"

THIS IS FINE!

We don't have to have any particular kind of experience in the meditations. Being with our actual experiences is what puts us into the process.

So I had a weird, unsettling kind of meditation.

As I went into my day I just felt more and more overwhelmed...

So I did the Creative Dream Alchemy practice for overwhelm.

I was able to soothe my overwhelmed self.

And see that what was driving all of that annoyance I woke up with what a lot of sadness and overwhelm about the world.

Which makes perfect sense.

I don't feel that I resolved ANYTHING in my practice today.

And that makes sense too.

 

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

 

I wrote another post this morning and I'm so glad I didn't share it, lol.

It was about how TORN I feel and all the different directions I feel pulled in.

And about HOW FUCKING BADLY I want the thing I want and I want to HAVE IT NOW. But I can't have it now because I am "in process" with it and the process is such a mess.

I was just really IN IT.

In the end, of course, writing out all the things I felt torn, pulled and pressured about was the medicine I needed to detangle myself and my writing turned incredibly helpful...

But then I went back to try to edit the first part so it would make sense to someone who is not me... and just got caught in circles again and decided to delete the whole thing in frustration.

Yesterday we had our Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice call.

(Get the replay here) We had some rich discussions about what it really means to hold onto our dreams of offering our gifts in the world as it is.

We did talk a lot about how we feel like we go in circles with this stuff, but understanding that we are moving deeper into the process. That this is really brave and nuanced work and it takes time to sort through things... AND... the landscape is always changing and we are always growing so it's just a lot.

I feel like we cast some powerful spells together in those discussions, which are still spiralling out into the world.

After writing about how torn I felt, I wrote about WHAT I DREAM OF NOW. And I wrote about how badly I want the thing I want now and how badly I want to stop being "in process" with it.

The thing I want is to be finished re-doing YOU ARE THE MAGIC (my free journal for creative dreaming) AND re-doing the class on Creative Dream Alchemy inside the membership AND setting it up to offer that intro to Creative Dream Alchemy for free too.

I WANT TO INVITE PEOPLE TO DREAM DEEPER WITH ME.

I WANT THIS SO BAD.

THIS FEELS IMPORTANT.

And the way I did the Creative Dream Alchemy course and the way I did YOU ARE THE MAGIC - those felt right when I did them but they feel WRONG in the world as it is today.

It is so awkward to have your own work out in the world feel "off" but creative work does go stale sometimes!!!

AND there are so many layers of complexity about why it felt hard to do this right now - on top of the fact that I've had bad vestibular migraines for the last 2.5 weeks and just moving really slow.

So I've been going in circles with this and getting frustrated but then...

I FUCKING DID IT THIS MORNING!!!!!!!

I recorded a new class that explains the complexity of Creative Dream Alchemy as simply as possible. And I recorded a short meditation so you can DO Creative Dream Alchemy with me to see what I am talking about.

I have a few new visuals which I developed over the last few weeks of circling that I think make this non-linear nuanced and multifaceted work easier to explain.

I have loads of journaling sheets ready to replace YOU ARE THE MAGIC, and feel ready to put that all together in the next few days while I edit the videos.

IT IS ALL COMING TOGETHER.

I am just so happy about this!

And I want to highlight that it's coming together because I let my creative process be a mess... all of the circling around of my ideas I've done in the last month has actually been so helpful.

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If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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One day I did the Hello Day and the process of PLACING MYSELF IN THE FIELD OF CREATIVE DREAM ALCHEMY felt so healing and important I just put that on the page.

Then... the next time I opened this book was three days later! I was surprised because I thought I WAS showing up every day... until I realized I have been doing a TON of Dream Book so I guess I just forgot to open up my planner.

THAT'S TOTALLY FINE. THIS WILL HAPPEN.

There are so many ways that we expect the process to be linear when it CAN'T BE.

One thing Dream Book 2026 is meant to do is to make it easier to show up even when NOT working on the dream... so it helps bring you to a place where you CAN work on it. IT IS A PORTAL.

So it makes sense that you might go through the portal and be somewhere else for a few days.

Logistically, I decided to just use the next page in my planner, even though it's not the right date. I could also have gone to the right date in the planner and left the other pages blank.

Either way gives me some extra pages any day I want to do more writing or a drawing or something.

If you feel upset or disappointed for not being as consistent as you'd hoped: explore that!

BEING WITH the things that come up in the process is how you move through it.

The things that come up are not accidents - there is something for you in that.

A few practices that can help with that work:

Un-Sticking Station

Video to Watch When You're Avoiding The Un-Sticking Station

Alchemy Process for Working with Disappointment

Yikes! I am Having A Lot Of Feelings!

YOU ARE NEVER DOING ANY OF THIS WRONG

It's easy to feel like you are because of how a part of the work of creative dreaming IS being with all the feelings that come up. This makes us feel like we're lost, confused, don't know what to do.

What we really need to do is... keep practicing. Keep practicing holding the different feelings that come up. Keep practicing ways to engage with your dream. Keep practicing ways to organizing and plan. Keep practicing. Keep practicing. Keep practicing. Keep practicing.

If you already knew how to navigate the emotional and mental and physical paths that get you to your dream - it wouldn't be a dream.

It would just be a thing you go do.

Dreams come with all of this.... it feels like impossible stuff to navigate it... but these are actually all the ways this dream is here to help you heal and grow and detangle. It needs you to face a lot of hard things.

You'll be glad once you're on the other side.

Keep going.

And - membership members - already remember you can email me if you're not sure what to do! Tell me what's going on, I can help you come up with a plan.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

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Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

Last week I shared a terrifying but successful trip to the Un-Sticking Station where I detangled an internal stuck and it freed up so much more energy to do the things I wanted to do.

I always like when it works that way, but we can’t expect it to work that way every time.

I'm back at it with a new fear, and this time it was hard to get into the first part, the field of Creative Dream Alchemy. I was holding my stuck so firmly, as a knot in my stomach, that it’s like I couldn’t hold both.

Going into the meditation, I had this clear visual of an actual knot that was sparkling with fears and doubts.

But then once I was in there, the stuck showed up differently. It felt disorienting. I hated being near it. At first, I couldn’t answer the questions or do the prompts.

This is how it is sometimes.

Everything was weird.

Then I did start to feel... I don't know, present in the meditation like I start to engage with it but it wasn't feeling like it was working. (Which is maybe just resistance? Or maybe that I need to take this one slower?)

I stopped the meditation 18 minutes in and did some journaling.

I didn’t feel any energy freed up or big inspiration but I did understand what this stuck needs from me.

It’s something I want to do and have been working on but it’s a process. And this stuck is like… well I’ll be less anxious when you’ve done that.

Which is good in that we’re on the same track.

But… I would like to not need to change external things in order to feel better on the inside, you know?

BUT/AND… sometimes these inner freak outs are just to say… hey you need to look at this, you need to address this.

So... this felt SO BRUTAL in the moment. Now that I am typing it out to share it doesn't feel that way. That's how this works!

 

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I am sewing this hot pink motorcycle jacket, and embroidering a snake on it.

This is just one side, clearly, the snake will go around the back of my neck, and back down the other front side of the jacket.

This is partly to represent all the layers I feel I have been shedding the last few years. And partly it's just that a snake embroidery has been on my mind for a long time... but this one ended up so different from how I first imagined it, I think I may still do a snake shirt or dress in the future.

I started working on it in January, but it's been an idea for about 4 years.

I even bought the fabric and pattern around 2022, with the idea to embroider the fabric before sewing it.

It took a few years for the snake idea to come into clarity, like how, exactly, to do it. What it looks like now is nothing like how I thought it would when I started, but I am loving it what it has become! When I'm wearing it, it won't be immediately obvious that it's a snake which I kind of like.

I've been making ALL of my clothes for over 15 years.

I started doing embroidery on the fabric before sewing about 5 years ago. And I am now slowly getting into these more complicated embroideries.

This is a VERY slow project.

I love having slow projects on the go. Once it's at this stage, I can pick it up and stitch without really thinking which is so good for my mental health and it gives my creative mind time to wander and come up with new projects.

I am also working on an embroidered artist's smock, which I am a bit stuck with right now but I will share photos eventually.

And I am starting experiments for some other kinds of fiber arts.

One of my dreams is feel good about how I balance all of my different dreams.

Tending to the Creative Dream Incubator is a MAJOR dream that means a lot to me. As the world has changed, and some of the ways my business functioned don't work as well, this is taking more of my time and energy to re-create.

And for a while I was putting other creative projects aside to focus on this. But that's not the right way for me.

I think it's just a work in progress to keep balancing and re-balancing.

 

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week (there is a planning sheet you can download on that page!), working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

Yesterday I shared my big scary trip to the Un-Sticking Station to work with this part of me who was trying to pressure me to do my project perfectly which was making it impossible for me to do it at all.

And, things didn't feel resolved at the end, but I felt a huge shift in my mental outlook.

And I came out of it with this new dream to hold - I WANT TO FEEL CREATIVELY UNENCUMBERED.

Phrasing it as "I want to feel creatively free" might make more sense but UNENCUMBERED is how it FEELS. It does give a nod to all the different ways I do feel encumbered, which are real and I don't need to "positive think" and pretend they don't exist.

So, holding the new dream and in that mindset shift that happened from spending 35 minutes in the Un-Sticking Station meditation....

I went to work on my project, and I saw it differently.

All that stuff in my meditation about how I can't HANG ALL MY HOPES on this one thing, how that creates pressure and is hurting the process...

Well I saw that actually that was accurate.

I am trying to accomplish too much with this one thing.

And there is such a simple answer... add another thing. Like, I don't need to give up on ALL MY HOPES I just need to build more structure to hold them all.

I don't want to get into all the details of my project - but in this case adding another thing is actually SO MUCH EASIER than trying to get the original thing to fulfil the whole purpose of the project.

And it's like that PRESSURE TO GET IT RIGHT was a ballon that popped and ever so gently let out its air.

No more pressure.

I actually feel creatively unencumbered to keep working on this.

Yesterday I did make a bunch of progress... like that easy kind of "I am in the creative flow and loving it" kind of progress which felt so good.

Today, I am starting with the Dream Lab, to meet with the dream of finishing this project.

Yes, I did just identity FEELING CREATIVELY UNENCUMBERED as my real dream right now but that feeling really rests on this completed project. Like it creates a foundation for my work and creative life to feel more solid.

We can use the Dream Lab to meet with any dream or aspect of a dream. I do like to use it meet with THE SOUL OF THE PROJECT with any project I am working on, to help me understand the project better.

I can't stress enough how helpful it is to do Creative Dream Alchemy meditations often.

You really do develop a relationship with the FIELD OF CREATIVE DREAM ALCHEMY that way - this is a supportive and deeply wildly creatively transformative space were things can change in service to you and your dream. This really does make it easier over time to get in touch with that part of you who believes in you, believes in your dream, and knows what to do next.

I had a lovely time in the Dream Lab!

My project came to me as two projects were are very closely connected. I felt how their energies are distinct but work together and just... feel aligned with it and sure of my next steps, so I am off to do them.

 

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Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

I am going in.

I’ve got the 35 minute full Un-Sticking Meditation cued up and ready to go.

I’ve got my Dream Book and pencil case of paint pens and coloured markers.

 

I want to explore this cluster of “business stucks” I keep coming up against.

I recognize - I don’t see all of what is happening here. There is a lot going on and some of it is unconscious or just not in my direct awareness. I have so many feelings about being self employed in late stage capitalism! I also have so much passion and devotion to what I am doing. And gratitude that I get to do it!

I’ve got a complicated little cluster of feelings going on, but it’s the PRESSURE TO DO IT RIGHT that seems like the most weighted thing right now. So that’s where I’ll start.

(It doesn’t matter where you start, especially if you have a lot of feelings, just pick anything and start there)

Sometimes I can just lie down, put the meditation on, and do the whole thing in my head. But more often, it helps me to do this in my journal so I can see everything that’s happening outside of me.

Once I did the first part, getting into the Field of Creative Dream Alchemy… I felt so much better about everything I almost didn’t want to keep going. I felt like I could trust myself to figure this out, and that my plan is good, and I can just… do this.

But I keep going, I invited this perfectionism in... and it was bad.

This terrifying but tiny creature with a big whip and a menacing quality. It felt like a horror movie.

And I saw myself engaging with it - I was even tinier, kind of curled up, with my arms wrapped around my knees, trying to protect myself from it.

This felt SO HARD to be with, but then as I sat there, it mellowed. I saw the pattern. I noticed how familiar it feels.

Working through the meditation, things kept changing. It got soooo weird.

My stuck was insisting that the only way it can leave me alone is if I promise super solemn pinky swear that I will do this absolutely perfectly and I all I could do was laugh. “Dude, that’s not even a thing!!!!”

It was good to explore, with my perfectionistic stuck, what perfection even is in this case.

The stuck wants me to get EVERY FREAKING EXTERNAL OUTCOME I WOULD WANT from this one project. Like everything is hanging on this.

So I try to show it how that’s not true.

It’s unconvinced but I feel a lot more rooted in knowing that I don’t need to get this 100% super totally absolutely perfect... and more importantly that the idea that there is a perfect way to do this is LAUGHABLE.

And then… I don’t know what happened… a new character which seems to be a heart with arms and legs... kind of descended into the scene and told us both to BE WHOLEHEARTED. That can be the goal, instead of perfect.

The mencaing beast is kind of interested in wholehearted.

I feel like… I AM wholehearted. What I want is to be feel UNENCUMBERED CREATIVELY with this project.

As usual, as we got deeper into it, it became more and more clear that the stuck, the menacing beast, is the thing that’s in the way… like it’s not just keeping me stuck, it’s even stopping itself from having what it wants!

This walking heart says it can take the stuck to wholeheartedness school and keep it there, which is more like a retreat center. We could let the menacing beast marinate in love and wholeheartedness and maybe it can learn to trust the process in time?

And then here I am, with what feels like a new dream but is what I wanted all along… to feel unencumbered in my creative process.

And I feel less stuck!

I do feel a big shift inside me.

And I feel less pressure about this project and like there is some space to FEEL MORE FREE in how I approach it.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I share my own Creative Dream Alchemy practice on my blog + often link to the tools I use which are only available to Creative Dream Incubator Membership members. If you're not a member, those links will take you to the sign up page to join us!

One thing I'm asking you to do in Dream Book 2026 is to sit with the prompt I deserve it because: 30 times.

There is a printable so you can print out 30 I deserve it because: tickets that you can paste into your planner as you do this. Or you can make your own!

Last week as I was trying to hold the message I got from my Dream Self about being CHILL + TRUSTING when I was feeling the opposite, I saw my I deserve it because tickets sitting on my desk and cut out one out and I started crying.

All the places in me that feel I do NOT deserve it were activated by the prompt.

This doesn't mean I am doing it wrong.

Deserving is a very complicated thing. Especially when you live in western culture which is built on really sick values around deservability.

Mostly I focus on how we ALL deserve better. We all deserve our dreams, because our dreams are a part of us, our dreams are showing us who we really are. Our culture is what makes that hard. We deserve support and encouragement and love along with affordable housing, safe communities, health care, etc, etc, etc. All living things deserve dignity.

Sensitive, justice minded souls often can feel like "Do I deserve more when I already have so much more than others?" and I am not here to say "Oh sweetie yes you always deserve more you've got to force yourself to believe that"

I am here to say... any places in you that feel unworthy of your dreams are slowing down your process. And most of these places are unconscious. And I am here to help hold space for you to dig these things up, bring awareness to them, work with them, let things shift, and make more space for your dreams.

STUFF gets stirred up when we are IN THE PROCESS and this is always stuff that needs addressing.

Not that we necessarily have to resolve our feelings about anything.

We just need to be able to hold them in a way that they are not running around causing problems in our unconscious.

 

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I am working on my Dream Status Report for this week.

There are journaling sheets for doing the Weekly Dream Status Report! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I resist this practice REALLY HARD sometimes. I don't want to look back, I just want to figure out how to have what I want NOW.

Looking back and reflecting on our process - CONSISTENTLY - is the only way to learn from our process, and one of the best ways to spot our unconscious patterns and find the really GENIUS ways to move forward.

So, I'm doing my Dream Status Report

For 2026, I am doing these in my Dream Book 2026.  This is a 5"x8" daily planner, with an extra page for each week which is beside the Sunday page so I have a 2 page spread for Sundays which is where I do this.

Having these "two pages every Sunday" sitting here in this planner is a visual record of my intention to show up for myself in this way, all year.

This week, I had a certain plan for what I was going to do. Very early in the week I realized that my plan needs a HUGE re-plan and I need to start over on some parts - so the plan I'd make for this week didn't happen.

Instead  I've been practicing sitting with the brain fog as I shared yesterday, and all of the weird Un-Sticking Sessions I've been having where nothing feels resolved but somehow some things are shifting...

I'm noticing where I am kind of phoning it in, in my practice.

Which is how it FEELS, it's not how it IS. The truth is, I am facing really hard things, I am showing up for my dreams - none of that is "phoning it in".

But it's interesting that it FEELS that way. And I can point to some things that I am not really holding onto all that well.

I made a Focus Card for Dream Book 2026 that I just keep.. moving ahead through my journal but not really truly HOLDING. (The WHOLE POINT of the cards is to help you really HOLD the things you need to hold, you know?)

But this IS what it means to hold something, sometimes. To acknowledge that it's there but not give it the deep attention that it may deserve. Because I am holding so many things right now, something has to give.

Unfortunately, the thing that gave is maybe the thing that would have helped me not have such a hard time this week.

That's how it FEELS maybe it's not true.

But the thing on the focus card is a teaching I am still integrating about how staying INSIDE my capacity is what keeps me DEEPER in my medicine and magic. Honouring my capacity as SACRED.

And my capacity is always changing. Staying inside it, especially after 50 years of always trying to push against it and have it be as big as possible, takes focused and consistent attention.

It's like I took my eye off of it just really briefly and ended up back where I was, stuck in the unhelpful pattern.

My cognitive function is slower than it's ever been. At the same time, I feel so much more deeply attuned to my medicine and magic and creativity and power. Thinking slower is good for me.

AND

The task I need to do right now in my business needs a lot strategic thinking.

So I flipped back into an old pattern of pushing myself - just to get this one thing done - and then I can relax.

As a self employed person inside capitalism it can seem like the only option. And sometimes it is!

Right now, for me, it's actually not. I just... kind of assumed it was. I mean - I didn't sit with this consciously and CHOOSE to overwhelm myself stretching my capacity so that I could do this task as quickly as possible.

No, I just have this overwhelming feeling of WANTING IT DONE.

It's uncomfortable to be IN PROCESS.

So a part of me, wanting to avoid that discomfort, decided to get this done as quickly as possible.

This was NOT a good plan.

It triggered the parts of me who feel too small to do what I want to do, and the parts of me who don't feel good enough, the parts of me who are terrified about the future, on so many levels.

But even if it hadn't put me into the kind of overwhelm that can trigger all sorts of seemingly unrelated meltdowns, it was still not a good plan.

Because I had do abandon my deeper medicine and magic and creativity and power in order to take more steps (in the outer work) more quickly.

And so the work is... not my best work also I hardly got anything done. Like best case scenario I could have done this quickly but not well. The actual scenario is I did neither, lol.

I did a lot meditation and journaling over the last few days and I feel like I came back to myself.

So I see this all clearly.

This is so good to write out and share because it will help me integrate this learning a little better.

I am finding new ways of doing things. This is so appropriate for my age! I am slowing down AND going so much deeper into the magic. This is not a simple task!!!

I need to keep HOLDING this idea of honouring my capacity as sacred.

Which is so scary because it means trusting that I'll be ok moving slower.

So I keep practicing and BEING WITH all the things that come up as I do.

 

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In Creative Dream Alchemy we show up and work with the thing that is there… when you look at your dream and what you want to do - what’s RIGHT THERE in front of you? This is your next step.

For me, today, it’s heavy brain fog.

And then mountains of discouragement because I was out of the brain fog. I was feeling more like myself... And now here I am back here.

And some clouds of fear floating around because what if this is how I feel for the rest of my life???

I started with the Hello Day practice which was really nice! But made it more apparent that I need to be with the brain fog. There isn’t a way to ignore it or work around it, which is what I would rather do.

I cross my arms on my desk and rest my hands down on them and remember doing this in elementary school and how it feels kind of comforting.

It’s also a way to physically acknowledge and embody - my head feels SO HEAVY because this fog is SO DENSE.

And I know... it's time for the Un-Sticking Station.

Brain fog, how do I work with you?

First, get out of the desk! Let’s go lie down on the comfy carpet. Bring your coffee.

(Walking over to the carpet I get this idea - I could fill a whole journal with different parts of me who are stuck, freaking out and afraid right now. Maybe I should do this?)

OK. Laying down. Ready to face the brain fog.

Listen, it’s not worth trying to understand where I came from. You have limited capacity, so use it to figure out how to be WITH me.

That makes sense, I do think I had some energy tangled up in figuring out why you’re here and how long you may stay. I can probably use that energy for other things.

I’m not going to say everything happens for a reason! IT SUCKS THAT I AM HERE. It sucks that you are not feeling like you want to be and can’t do all the things you want to do.

AND

We’ve got to figure out how to work together while I am here.

So, you actually don’t want to push me down, hold me back and make it impossible for me to enjoy my life?

No. That’s not my goal at all.

What is your goal?

I sit with this one for a bit, but it seems like brain fog has no goal. That makes sense.

Do you need something from me?

Acknowledgement. Presence.

Oh. I see. Having brain fog and freaking out about it and trying to act like I don’t have it isn’t a good plan. Having brain fog, accepting that it’s here, and figuring out how to move accordingly is a better plan.

Did I imagine this or did bran fog just lighten up in a little?

I was hoping for some kind of “Oh look! Brain Fog is actually a shortcut to MAGIC!” kind of breakthrough but I don’t think that’s where this is going.

I did a pretty intense program with Dra. Rosales Meza in the fall and I wonder if I am spending all of winter integrating it. Like... is the brain fog just asking me to slow down and give myself space to acclimate to where I am now?

One thing she taught is that overwhelm can be a sign that you are too externally focused, like caught up in colonial/capitalist/patriarchial culture that doesn’t respect you or your needs. So when you notice you are getting overwhelmed, used that as a sign to check in about what you need.

I mean, I am beyond overwhelmed here.

But what do I need?

I did the Hello Day and it felt nice to check in but nothing came to me about what I want or need.

It feels like my dreams are on the other side of the brain fog.

Part of me FREAKS OUT about that. Part of me is like “well of course that’s where they are and of course brain fog won’t last forever, just relax and do some art”.

Ahhhhhh.

And this is where everything kind of tangles really badly for me right now.

Yes I can make art. Yes I can read and rest and enjoy myself.

But there are tasks I want/need (which??) to do in my business, for my business and for my future… and I can’t seem to do them.

Should I just wait until I feel better?

(That question would be easier to understand if I knew what the brain fog is, if it’s a cold that I’ll get over that’s one thing, if it’s how my brain is going to be for the next while, that’s another)

Ugh. This is that place where dreams and reality can collide really hard sometimes.

And as a coach, I would ask myself “Do you absolutely NEED to do these tasks in the next week?” and I would say no I don’t absolutely NEED to but I feel I should.

So then, as a coach, I would want to explore that pressure I am putting on myself to do things when it’s ok if I don’t do them right now AND I don't seem physically able to do them.

But when I say… ok I just won’t think about these tasks right now… then I feel I am letting my future self down, I am dulling down my dreams and I am shrinking my truth.

My coach self just smiles and waits…

And I see it.

Panicking about not taking action, in the outer work, today, is not helpful.

Working with the thing that is right in front of me - even if it’s a super weird non linear meeting with different parts of me that just kind of going in circles and doesn’t (seem to) resolve anything… is actually helpful.

I am doing it.

I am in process.

I can trust myself.

Also, my next step is starting to feel really clear. I need to RE DREAM THE DREAM of what it is I am trying to do. Get into more details of what I REALLY want here.

(These weird Inner Work meetings where nothing seems to resolve ARE HELPFUL! It shifts the energy to sit with the thing even if it doesn't move you all the way over to where you would like to be. Just keep showing up and taking the next step.)

 

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This week I tried to leave Dream Work and Inner Work in the dust and just… get this project DONE.

I thought.. I have done Dream Work and Inner Work FOR YEARS. I’m good there. I can just do this real quick…

Well, I landed in some really deep mud that pulled me deeper into it the more I tried to move. Thankfully I feel better right now, but yesterday, in that moment, felt more stuck than I ever remember feeling and it was terrifying.

I have done Dream Work and Inner Work FOR YEARS and so I should know that these are the things that pave the way for Outer Work to happen.

This morning, I decided to spend some time with my Dream Book, and to do the Dream Lab before I even did Dream Book, and it started just a few minutes into the meditation - shifts are shifting, insights are popping and it’s all coming into place.

The magic is always here, ready for us to come back to it, when we remember we cannot do the thing on Outer Work alone.

 

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I did my Dream Self page in my new Dream Book yesterday.

This is the practice where you get in touch with the part of you who already has your dream, so you can get advice from yourself about what to do next. The dominant qualities this version of me holds about this dream are CHILL and TRUSTING.

Which is such helpful advice about how to pursue the thing…

But also, how do I apply that advice?

I was feeling frustrated, and when I really sat with all the layers of feelings I was feeling, there was a growing fear at the base of it all. Fear that I would’t figure this out.

So how I do I take my frustrated fearful self and… just BE chill and trusting?

This is where a lot of manifesting and "live your best life" teachings really fail us.

The "JUST BE POSITIVE" and "GOOD VIBES ONLY" stuff can easily make us think that this is a BATTLE between my frustrated fearful self and my chill trusting self.

And there is the assumption that the chill trusting self is BETTER.

There are hierarchies to how we see the different parts of us because we live in a world that divides everything into hierarchies. It's NOT the natural way of things, it's the way humans have chosen to orient our societies (for now).

So it can feel like the ONLY way to see these different parts of myself is to see that the chill trusting self is obviously wiser and more successful at achieving this dream... and the fearful frustrated self is not good enough to have the dream, this part of me is a problem to... I don't know, lock it away somewhere where it can't bother me?

I mean - we're in a world where people are being dragged out of their homes and put into cages.

I think the only way to proceed is to recognize that ALL LIFE IS SACRED.

I mean literally - all people deserve dignity. All animals. The planet itself and all the waters, rocks, plants, everything.

But for me, right here right now, it means my fearful frustrated self is just as valid as my chill trusting self.

Yes, I would prefer to be chill and trusting and my preferences are fine.

But that doesn't mean I abandon my frustrated fearful self.

The approaches that tell us to just focus on being chill and trusting really fail us because they don't lead to HEALING.

If I choose to just BE chill and trusting right now, then I am starting a war inside me. I am suppressing and oppressing my genuine feelings to put on a mask of how I think I should feel.

Creative Dreaming is all about noticing where we are wearing masks, and looking for the safest way to remove them.

There is no "right mask" to put on that will get you your dream. It's your most authentic self who is your most powerful self.

So. Here I am with my fearful frustrated self, knowing that the way forward is to move towards chill and trusting.

What does that look like:

• The me who believes in this dream and wants to move forward.
• The me who is so frustrated that I haven't already figured out this next step.
• The me who is growing more fearful by the minute that I will never figure it out.

All walking together TOWARDS chill and trusting without trying to FORCE chill and trusting?

It looks like BEING WITH and TENDING TO.

It looks like ALL LIFE IS SACRED. ALL PARTS OF ME ARE SACRED.

It looks like forming a circle and holding space for all of it.

Which does not mean: letting my fears throw tantrums and run the whole show!

If ALL PARTS OF ME ARE SACRED then my dreams, my hopes, my creativity, my inspiration, my drive... these are sacred too. They matter too.

If I am not letting my chill trusting self suppress, oppress and abandon my fearful self to get ahead... then I am not letting my frustrated fearful self the run show either.

Cultures that did hold all life as sacred HAD BOUNDARIES. They didn't rip people from their homes and lock them in cages because they didn't like their paperwork or the colour of their skin, but they did exile people who refused to respect the community if nothing else worked.

We get to, and we have to, have boundaries in our own inner worlds.

All of the Creative Dream Alchemy Library of Inner Work practices work from this perspective. Making space to tend to these places in us without letting them take over.

It's awkward and multi-faceted and nuanced.

Authoritarian movements categorize people and suppress differences and some people go along with this because (I think) they feel a kind of comfort in knowing what the rules are and a sense that everything will be ok (the economy will keep growing) if everyone complies. (Of course once the regime turns on them, and there is no way for them to comply, then they'll see why this was a mistake all along)

We are experiencing some intense authoritarianism right now... but we've always had it. At least for all of my lifetime, and for some time before that. This IS the way our societies are structured. Sexism, racism, classism, ableism, etc. Genocidal colonialism. War.

We do absorb these values and we very easily use them to structure our own inner worlds.

Confident is better, I'll lead with that part of me. My fear is shameful, so I will hide it.

Shifting out of this hierarchical way of organizing our inner worlds, into a more expansive ALL LIFE IS SACRED way of being, does need boundaries.

It needs intention. Devotion. PRACTICE.

This IS Creative Dream Alchemy.

As we practice, as we make space WITHOUT letting certain parts run the show... we move deeper into the alchemy of it all.

The fears reveal their treasures.

The doubts alchemize into little yellow bricks you can use to build your path.

The "I don't know how to do this and this freaks me out" unravels into a kind of plan that you can follow.

We move forward WITH OUR WHOLENESS INTACT.

So all this to say....

After sitting with the frustration and fear yesterday (using the Un-Sticking Station) I really didn't know what else to do. So I took a nap. And then I made tofu noodle soup (A dish I've been experimenting with this winter, chicken noodle soup style but vegetarian with tons of veggies and grated tofu fried with poultry seasonings).

Then I worked on non-related art projects and went to bed early.

Then I woke up this morning early, knowing EXACTLY how to do this next step.

That's the alchemy.

If you keep showing up - Dream Work as a regular practice, Inner Work as it comes up,  the next steps in the Outer Work will reveal themselves to you.

 

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One of my favourite winter self-care practices is to walk to one of my favourite coffee shops, during the sunrise. I am just lucky that there is a place I love that is a 30 minute walk east of me. And during the darkest 12 or so weeks of winter it’s very easy to time my walk with the sunrise so I am walking right into it. It is downright magical!

We’re at the time of year when that is getting harder, the coffee shop doesn’t open until 7:30 and the sunrise is already starting at 7.

But this morning, I was up early with the new moon eclipse energy, FILLED with energy and enthusiasm... and I walked AWAY FROM the sunrise. (The place I want to go to isn’t open today and going west was the only way to find a coffee shop a 30 minute walk away, and getting a 1 hour walk in the morning is vital for my mental health)

After all these weeks of walking INTO the sunrise, walking AWAY FROM it felt so disorienting and weird.

But today is a new moon AND an eclipse, in Aquarius, so walking away from the thing I always walk towards is the perfect way to start the day.

As I talked about on our New Moon Intention Setting ritual yesterday - be on the lookout for new perspectives that want to find you over the next few weeks!

So, being disoriented was the perfect way to start the day of an eclipse. I feel VERY OPEN to any new perspectives the universe wants to send my way.

I also had a new perspective to think about on my walk.

I woke up seeing a current project (making videos to go with the You Are The Magic guide + journal) in a whole new light.

When we are IN IT, already having done a bunch of work (I have recorded, but not edited, 10 videos already) it can be really hard to let a new perspective in.

So I did resist it at first, because this new perspective is to scrap everything I have done, and actually re-do the journal itself because I see a way that I could do it much better.

We often resist re-starting like this but actually… I have found that DOING THE THING can be a really good way to figure out how I want to do the thing. In other words, I do it… THEN I know how I want to do it. Which means yes I have to do it twice. At least.

This can seem non-linear.

This can seem like I am going in circles.

But I am actually going deeper into it.

I am learning and growing each time I do it.

This is actually the BEST way to work with your dreams. Not necessarily re-doing the work, but to keep going DEEPER into the process instead of trying to go FASTER in the outer stuff. 

When it comes to our dreams, doing things the fastest or most “straightforward way” is usually not a good plan. It doesn’t leave space for the ALCHEMY that comes with going deeper into it.

My project is TRANSFORMING. I am transforming with it. We’re both growing into a new version of ourselves.

How can you make space to go DEEPER with your dreams this week?

 

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