Yesterday I shared how I was sitting with my resistance to doing the Hello Day practice.
I ended up seeing how I have these conflicting feelings:
- the fear of failure
- the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now
- the desire to keep going with the dream
(We have a healing circle in the membership for sitting with conflicting feelings, here)
I drew out that diagram:
And somehow felt better.
Like - oh yeah I can hold this. AND I want to explore it some more, but just putting it outside of me for now felt like enough.
What was really interesting is what happened once I was in the Hello Day meditation.
**Then I understood why I had so much resistance to it**
I did the version of the meditation that includes the soul of your dream.
And the soul of my dream said:
Start a new Dream Book.
TAKE IT FUCKING SERIOUSLY.
And you might think I do take my dreams seriously.
But there is this way that I have flip flopped with my dreams since my divorce.
Like… I am still figuring out what I REALLY want for this new phase of life. This is natural!! So I keep re-starting Dream Book and I know, in this process of starting and re-starting, I am figuring it out.
I have not been rushing myself to figure it out.
I have been giving myself lots of permission to keep re-starting and trying on different dreams. I am on page 63 of my notebook, so I can say that 63 pages in I'm still at the starting point, but actually that's 63 pages of valuable exploring...
To do anything else would be to force myself to stick to one thing before I was sure which one thing I wanted to stick with.
But now my dream, the current one, is saying. THIS IS IT. I AM THE ONE. STAY WITH ME.
So, I am shifting out of the phase of figuring out my next dreams.
And I am stepping into this next dream and figuring out how to really HOLD IT.
This is a really big step.
Of course I felt so much resistance I couldn’t even do Hello Day.
Our resistance usually makes so much sense, once we sit with it enough to fully understand it.
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