Some days it's HARD to show up. I am having one of those days today so I decided to share my process.

I created Dream Book 2026 as a notebook where it's as easy as possible to JUST SHOW UP because that's the doorway/portal that brings you into the process... and yet... sometimes even this easier way in is still just really hard to do.

Because of all the intentions we set in the beginning of our notebooks/planners... each time we touch it, we are touching all of those intentions. So even if we're not consciously thinking about it, parts of us do pick up on that and react.

That's where my resistance came from today.

So, sitting with the resistance IS THE WORK on those days. This is what I mean when I say we have to BE WITH whatever is there. If all you have is resistance, then sitting with your resistance is your next step.

I want to do the Hello Day meditation and journal in my Dream Book 2026 to start my day.

I am not doing it.

So here I am, sitting with my resistance.

Ugh. This isn’t enough.

You mean the meditation isn’t enough?

No it’s not. It won’t fix anything.

What it will do is give me space to be with my feelings so they’re not all… flying around the way they are. It would help me be more present with myself. It would help me know where I want to focus today.

Why bother?

Because I want those things.

You’re going to get off track. Let’s just not bother trying to get on track.

That’s a valid feeling! Do you want to tell me more about it?

It takes SO MUCH to get on track, so much trust and hope and optimism to show up and do the thing… that makes it even more heartbreaking when it doesn’t work, when I just end up off track anyway.

Oh yes that’s so true. It’s actually super vulnerable to show up and some days it doesn’t feel worth the risk.

I’m glad you can see that but I feel like you want to push me into it anyway.

I would like to explore it. What feels TOO vulnerable about it?

Heavy sigh. I know it’s that thing that stops all dreams. It’s that “if I try my best and still can’t make this work - that would mean I am not good enough” I don’t want to find out that I’m not good enough.

I give my resistance a big hug.

Yeah I can feel that. It’s just…

I knew it! I knew you would keep pushing me!

I am not pushing, I am EXPLORING my feelings about why I am not doing this thing! It’s just that not doing it out of fear of failure, and what that failure would mean… puts me in the same place that failing does.

Only, when you really think of it, it’s worse! If I fail because I didn’t summon the courage to try…that would feel so crummy. If I fail because I try my best and it just doesn’t work out…. there is dignity in that, I think. Like I would rather be a person who tries, than a person who lets the fear of failure stop them.

Oh yikes. That hits home.

But again, I don’t want to PUSH myself to do this.

The fear of failure is valid, the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now is valid, and the desire to keep going with the dream is also valid.

How am I holding all three of these things? 

I mean… doing the Hello Day mediation would help! lol It would help me makes space for the feelings to settle so I can process them a bit.

Which is what I ended up doing, by exploring my resistance. Because they don’t feel like they are “all flying around inside me” like it did when I started this. Now I see these three feelings that are conflicting with each other and kind of each vying for power inside me. They’re all fighting so fast I couldn’t tell what anything was, all I knew is I was overwhelmed.

My resistance to the Hello Day mediation is still here.

My desire to do it is still here.

But both of them are interested in drawing a diagram of:

• the fear of failure
• the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now
• the desire to keep going with the dream

And just see what happens once I am exploring that way.

And… if my resistance doesn’t mind… could I play the Hello Day audio while I do this without pressure to engage with it in any particular way?

My resistance doesn't mind this idea!

Oh wow. This feels do-able!!

This actually feels like a miracle. I am going to make a second cup of coffee and some breakfast then spread out on the floor with my Dream Book 2026, markers... AND my laptop with the Hello Day meditation playing and I actually feel kind of jazzed about this.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

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