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I am working on my Dream Status Report for this week.

There are journaling sheets for doing the Weekly Dream Status Report! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I resist this practice REALLY HARD sometimes. I don't want to look back, I just want to figure out how to have what I want NOW.

Looking back and reflecting on our process - CONSISTENTLY - is the only way to learn from our process, and one of the best ways to spot our unconscious patterns and find the really GENIUS ways to move forward.

So, I'm doing my Dream Status Report

For 2026, I am doing these in my Dream Book 2026.  This is a 5"x8" daily planner, with an extra page for each week which is beside the Sunday page so I have a 2 page spread for Sundays which is where I do this.

Having these "two pages every Sunday" sitting here in this planner is a visual record of my intention to show up for myself in this way, all year.

This week, I had a certain plan for what I was going to do. Very early in the week I realized that my plan needs a HUGE re-plan and I need to start over on some parts - so the plan I'd make for this week didn't happen.

Instead  I've been practicing sitting with the brain fog as I shared yesterday, and all of the weird Un-Sticking Sessions I've been having where nothing feels resolved but somehow some things are shifting...

I'm noticing where I am kind of phoning it in, in my practice.

Which is how it FEELS, it's not how it IS. The truth is, I am facing really hard things, I am showing up for my dreams - none of that is "phoning it in".

But it's interesting that it FEELS that way. And I can point to some things that I am not really holding onto all that well.

I made a Focus Card for Dream Book 2026 that I just keep.. moving ahead through my journal but not really truly HOLDING. (The WHOLE POINT of the cards is to help you really HOLD the things you need to hold, you know?)

But this IS what it means to hold something, sometimes. To acknowledge that it's there but not give it the deep attention that it may deserve. Because I am holding so many things right now, something has to give.

Unfortunately, the thing that gave is maybe the thing that would have helped me not have such a hard time this week.

That's how it FEELS maybe it's not true.

But the thing on the focus card is a teaching I am still integrating about how staying INSIDE my capacity is what keeps me DEEPER in my medicine and magic. Honouring my capacity as SACRED.

And my capacity is always changing. Staying inside it, especially after 50 years of always trying to push against it and have it be as big as possible, takes focused and consistent attention.

It's like I took my eye off of it just really briefly and ended up back where I was, stuck in the unhelpful pattern.

My cognitive function is slower than it's ever been. At the same time, I feel so much more deeply attuned to my medicine and magic and creativity and power. Thinking slower is good for me.

AND

The task I need to do right now in my business needs a lot strategic thinking.

So I flipped back into an old pattern of pushing myself - just to get this one thing done - and then I can relax.

As a self employed person inside capitalism it can seem like the only option. And sometimes it is!

Right now, for me, it's actually not. I just... kind of assumed it was. I mean - I didn't sit with this consciously and CHOOSE to overwhelm myself stretching my capacity so that I could do this task as quickly as possible.

No, I just have this overwhelming feeling of WANTING IT DONE.

It's uncomfortable to be IN PROCESS.

So a part of me, wanting to avoid that discomfort, decided to get this done as quickly as possible.

This was NOT a good plan.

It triggered the parts of me who feel too small to do what I want to do, and the parts of me who don't feel good enough, the parts of me who are terrified about the future, on so many levels.

But even if it hadn't put me into the kind of overwhelm that can trigger all sorts of seemingly unrelated meltdowns, it was still not a good plan.

Because I had do abandon my deeper medicine and magic and creativity and power in order to take more steps (in the outer work) more quickly.

And so the work is... not my best work also I hardly got anything done. Like best case scenario I could have done this quickly but not well. The actual scenario is I did neither, lol.

I did a lot meditation and journaling over the last few days and I feel like I came back to myself.

So I see this all clearly.

This is so good to write out and share because it will help me integrate this learning a little better.

I am finding new ways of doing things. This is so appropriate for my age! I am slowing down AND going so much deeper into the magic. This is not a simple task!!!

I need to keep HOLDING this idea of honouring my capacity as sacred.

Which is so scary because it means trusting that I'll be ok moving slower.

So I keep practicing and BEING WITH all the things that come up as I do.

 

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