Journaling: changing paths, resistance, structure

My plan this week was to draw my dream meetings every day. This is a practice I really want to get into. It feels soothing and restorative to do but also expansive and growth-inducing, as I continue to do it over time. I do go in and out of doing this as a regular practice…

After feeling so much enthusiasm for getting into this ALL WEEK this week, here I am on Wednesday not feeling it.

One thing about a creative dream practice that makes it so difficult to navigate, is that we do need to listen to our inner nudges.

I mean - is this resistance? Do I need to just follow through and do the thing and I will I be glad if I do that? Or is this information, telling me that there is somewhere else to focus, something else that I need?  

With time, we get better at knowing the difference between resistance and an intuitive-guided change of direction. For me it’s how it FEELS in my body.

And this feels right.

Like this is a day for writing, for processing. This is what I need right now. The dream meeting drawing practice moves me into a different space.

Things are changing so fast. It feels like it anyway, after moving at a glacial speed for so long.

I am picking up the pieces of all the things that fell apart in the pandemic - specifically as they relate to my routines, habits and systems around my work life.

I am shifting from “I am just doing the best I can do keep going while the ground beneath me feels unstable” to “Oh wow there is so much magic and medicine in this unstable place what if I explore this?” to “OK this is who and how I want to be now, moving forward”.

I am gathering up the gifts and learnings and I know what I want to do with them and I even feel like I know how I want to do this.

This week we are exploring structure, habits + routines in Dream Book and I am LOVING IT.

I am seeing the places where I always approached this as a tool for productivity and, underneath that, fuelled by a desire to prove worthiness.

I am delighting in how those places don’t fit anymore.

As much as I am SO HAPPY on the days when I get more pages done for the guided journal I am hand writing/drawing… I love watching this project come to life but it’s not the productivity that matters to me now. I am not looking for the way to do this as fast as possible. 

I am not doing all the creative self care practices in order to wring out every bit of creativity and productivity from myself.

I want structure to help me feel how I want to feel. Free. Expansive. Delighted.

I want structure as in SUPPORT. Ways that make it easier to be nourished - physically, emotionally, mentally, creatively, spiritually.

I want structure that makes it easier. Like the example I always use for containers and Dream Book… if you have a ton of sugar, flour, etc. just loose in your kitchen that’s just a mess, you can’t do anything with it. But if you have them in containers you can use them to make a fantastic treat.

And I am finding my way into these structures and routines! I am noticing what I need and finding ways to incorporate those things.

I am giving myself space for this to take the time it takes.

But/and/also it’s like each little new thing I find adds SO MUCH. They don’t add up, there is multiplication of magic happening with each new element being added.

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