I texted a friend this morning that I saw on Monday morning:

"I can't believe I just saw you on Monday! That feels like a lifetime ago!"

(Reminder that I write these a few weeks in advance of posting) I saw her on the Monday morning of the Canadian election, after a very stressful weekend of interacting with fellow Canadians about the election on social media.

It sparks A LOT of existential dread for me to engage with people who don't believe in climate change, trans rights and abortion rights (some of the major issues of our election).

But this week I kept some of those conversations going in less heated ways, and I feel like I gained new perspective. Also, my MP kept her seat which was a huge relief for me, she is extremely progressive and hard working and always bringing up the conversations that I think need to happen in the legislature.

But also, how fucked up is it that I am SOOOO RELIEVED that this one person still speaks for me in my democratic government? And I know lots of people feel that no one speaks for them!

Also, our new leader is a very conservative person with a very conservative background who is now somehow the leader of the centre party? And the conservatives are very upset, but the left-leaning people are ok with it because he is smart and seems like a decent leader? These are wild times.

So - existential dread is flying AND I feel so much relief this week and had so much more S P A C E to focus on creativity.

It feels like right now it is SO EASY to get caught up in difficult feelings, be overwhelmed by them, get into a freeze state, and not do the things I want to do. So I am working on staying aware of that and looking for solutions.

Just this morning I got an idea to make an existential dread journaling kit - I'm not sure where this is going but I'm going to play with it and see what happens.

On a personal level, I have been so stressed by the conspiracy theories.

And I get very angry very easily. So I keep working on processing that anger. It's exhausting.

But one of my conversations led me to see something in a new light: we're in such a difficult place, between late-stage capitalism, the way it's impacting our democracies and climate change.

It's fucking terrifying to face what is happening.

The conspiracy theories give people something to blame for the state of the world (left leaning politicians and the WEF) and give people a solution - that if we had more right-leaning politicians who would dismantle the WEF, we can go back to where we were.

We can't actually go back to where we were.

That is an INTENSE SENSATION.

I know I felt it a lot in my divorce. Once all parts of you are fully on board with moving forward it gets a lot better to CREATE something better for your future. But getting all parts of you fully on board with moving forward, is a real and serious challenge.

But we were made for this. We are here for this. And we actually have no other options.

Clearly, sitting down to reflect on my week is kind of chaotic this week.

But I think this is a part of what it means to acknowledge the existential dread and make space for it in your process. My developing theory is that we can't really practice Creative Dreaming without some existential dread popping up right now.

All in all, I had a great week. I did most of the things I set out to do. I did some other things I hadn't meant to. I had a big problem with the website that sucked up too much energy.

I am learning, still, to find/create my own solid footing in an unstable world.

My dream needs me to STAY IN THE MESS. Like stop trying to distract myself. Trust the process.

And I need me to STAY IN THE MESS. And stop trying to distract myself. And trust the process. And heap on the self care so this is possible.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

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