Today in my practice I am meeting with the soul of my business.
Last week this was so good and it felt like a thing I need to do more regularly. I LOVE this recording, the first part of the meditation is soooo healing. I remember doing it that way because of all the stuff that gets sparked in working with our businesses, and it feels soooo good to use it.
It's similar to last week, a bunch of boxes piled together that are alive - like a box robot.
But it's bigger. The boxes are less chaotic.
It doesn't take a genius to see the boxes are representing the actual boxes in my home with my husband's things packed in them. And he's been picking up a car load every day after work and the pile is becoming less chaotic and I have more and more space. (By the time I post this the boxes will be gone and his furniture moved and I'll be in the process of making it "feel like mine" again)
The soul of my business - I am focusing on the head at the top of the boxes - is warm and loving and welcoming. It's happy to see me.
You are giving me space to grow, with regular visits like this.
Good! This is what I want. Not growth for growth's sake, but right-sizing.
I'm actually deeper and more expansive than you think. The growth I am speaking of is not just in one direction. Like it's not just about more followers or more money.
OK that's reassuring. It felt a little off to think you are focused on growing, because that is so toxic to have growth as the only goal. It's why the air has been smoky here for weeks and my lungs and throat hurt.
Right, so it's more "I am becoming more alive". Your visits nurture me in good ways.
These visits nurture me in good ways too. I have been experimenting creatively and exploring SO MUCH these last few years. My struggles with peri-menopause, looking at ancestral trauma and the ways capitalist culture impacts my "work ethic" and distorts my relationship with my own needs and really - who do I want to be while the world falls apart? This has been such important work for me. I appreciate the space you gave me to do all of this - actually I feel NURTURED by my business not just financially but in all ways. The ways I show up for Dream Book HELPS ME FIRST. I am so grateful to have this.
I've been growing in that time too. My potential has been expanding and deepening. And everything is getting more creative and free.
Creative and free. I love it. So my questions, about this journal, you know what I am thinking, right? Should "creative and free" be the qualities we follow to answer the questions? Because one option feels this way and one does not. BUT the one that does not - is it easier? Would it make more money? Do these things matter?
Now the robot has hands too, not just a head on a stack of boxes. It, though it feels like a she now, she raises her hands to shrug like "I don't know"
Is this a case where it's like - it doesn't matter which way I go?
It's not that it doesn't matter. It's just that it impacts YOU more than ME.
OK that's weird, isn't it though? Because I thought it would impact you - like I am building a path to a new future here, aren't I?
Yup, that happens either way. None of these decisions are FOREVER babe!!!!
So I can do what is easiest right now. OR I can do what feels most creative and free right now.
Yup! This is one for YOU to journal about. Make a pro and con list of each of them. In your imagination, really put yourself into each situation and see which way feels best. This is still a very early step in this new path, there's LOADS of time to re-configure as we go. It's more important that we DO SOMETHING than that we DO THE RIGHT THING. (Which you know, you tell this to people all the time)
OK will do!
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