I was quite surprised to find out that it’s Thursday today! I have been deep in the creative process this week.
I am working on the Make Space In Your Life For Your DREAM call which started out being a part updating the Dream Plan Kit.... and is growing and expanding and becoming sometimes that feels much bigger than coming up with a plan...
The reasons WHY it can be hard to fit your dream into your life exist in the Dream Work (the soul work of becoming that version of you who does this thing)...
AND in the Inner Work (the healing work of facing the places in you that would hold back or not believe in yourself)...
AND in the Outer Work (the practical considerations)...
All at the same time. So stuff is colliding there and it's hard to know what is actually happening.... while your brain is trying to figure it all out in a linear way when this is NOT a linear process but how do you map out a non-linear process...
And then your internal resistance comes into play, and it shows up in all sorts of costumes, distracting you from what it really is until your dreams seem impossible.
But they're not.
And I want to put this part in all caps: YOU DESERVE THE HEALING, MAGIC + FULFILLMENT THAT YOUR DREAM HAS TO OFFER YOU.
You deserve to have that right now.
So as I have set out to create this class to help us all have more of this… it keeps growing. Deepening.
All week I've been in this expansive place with it, brainstorming and writing and exploring and now today… I don’t know what to do next.
When this happens I start to get distracted… I keep bringing myself back to this project and then I keep finding I am focusing somewhere else. This whole morning has been a "battle between distraction vs focus".
So, I am using the Un-Sticking Station process to call in the soul of this project to explore what’s going on in my relationship with it and why I am not able to stay focused.
This is what happened in the meditation:
The soul of the project shows up as a HUGE pack of seeds and there are flies buzzing around it, like NOT in a good way.
But as the project was coming into view, it was like a 7 storey building that “landed” in front of me, when I first saw that it was a HUGE seed packet I was all “Oh yay!”.
I felt how excited I am about the seeds this project can plant. I felt so hopeful. This felt so vulnerable.
By the time the full seed packet had landed and the flies were there and it was like… well this was a pack of seeds and now it’s a pile of shit? Like, what?
I sit with this. What’s going on?
Then I see - not it’s not a pile of shit, of course. My own fears and how scary it is to be vulnerable in this world as it is now, are the “shit” in this scenario.
Creating a 7 storey tall pack of seeds - things to plant to grow a better future - does feel delusional, given the state of the world.
And it feels like exactly the thing I want to do and exactly the thing the Creative Dream Incubator NEEDS to do.
I zoom my attention in on the flies. What’s happening there?
Close up, the flies look more zombies. Their eyes look dead, they are not focused, they are just buzzing around. It feels like… being on autopilot. This is not a new fear sparked, not something with any life to it, this is an engrained way of responding to the terror of vulnerability.
I pour out some honey and the flies buzz over to it.
Now it’s just me and the seed packet WITHOUT my engrained terrified response to the vulnerability of doing my creative/soul work out loud where other people can see it and call me delusional…
And here it is… this feeling come back that I had earlier this week when I was working on this….
A sense that it’s bigger than I think.
Like a seed packet showing up the size of a 7 storey building. That’s how much MORE this project is from what I thought it was when I started.
This can really PLANT POSSIBILITIES.
This can really DO SOMETHING.
This can really HOLD SPACE for more people to hold onto more dreams. Which in turn HOLDS SPACE for more magic to come out of each of those dreams.
This is a lot.
And I am absolutely grounded enough and ready to hold it and create and offer it...
As long as I stay out of my engrained responses to things…. and stay present with what my dreams are calling me towards.
So I just sit with this a while.
Savouring the sensation of feeling grounded and strong enough to hold this. The sensation of HAVING THE CAPACITY and TRUSTING MYSELF.
I look over at the flies and they are really happy with that honey so I pour more out to keep them distracted for longer.
And now I know what to next on this project….
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I say this all the time and I will keep saying it.
As soon as you feel stuck, or not sure what to do, or just like me today - finding yourself getting easily distracted and not knowing why - do the Inner Work.
GET IN THERE. Explore it.
Your dreams needs your PRESENCE and that includes being present with the hard parts and the questions and all of it.
Make More Space In Your LIFE For Your DREAM Healing + Alchemy Circle Live on Zoom July 3 1:00 pm Central
WIL BE FREE TO ATTEND!
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