Inner Work

I woke up feeling extra-cranky this morning, how about you?

This morning I woke up feeling overwhelmed. Yesterday I was sooooo happy because the End The Year on a High Note Creative Dream Obstacle Release Ceremony went soooo well. (You can still watch the recording right here - the recording is available until Jan 9)

So it somehow felt extra-disorienting to wake up this morning feeling overwhelmed and like everything is wrong.

But after a bit of journaling though I saw it from a different perspective: Actually I am seeing things more clearly...

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On releasing the obstacles (it's not what you think...)

Obstacle release is brave work.

It's impossible to release something that you can't face, so facing the thing is always the first step. It takes more work than you think to really face your obstacle, to sit with it for long enough that you actually start to see it clearly. Because we don't see our own obstacles clearly. Ever.

Your obstacles live in your blind spots.

For many years I thought that the obstacle to me having the life I wanted (to be creatively and sustainably and happily...

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When Self-Doubt Comes To Play

I am feeling debilitating self-doubt today. This is never comfortable, but since I have not felt this way in so long, I feel extra un-prepared to handle it. So I have mostly been trying to avoid it, which has resulted in me walking around with this pit in my stomach all day while I just get crankier and want to eat everything in sight. It finally started to ease once I finally started journaling about how I was feeling which quickly led to me connecting the dots on what really had me feeling...

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What if thinking about your dream makes you feel hopeless?

This is a page from the Dream Lab playbook (Dream Lab: Explore The Miracle of your Dream is my free e-course - sign up here). Today my dream shows up as a bird in a cage. The cage feels heavy and rough, like I could cut myself just trying to touch it. My dream is small and sad, trapped inside. Or is it that I'm sad, seeing my dream trapped in there? Well I feel hopeless about it. Like there is no way to get that bird out of that cage. The lock is rusted over and I don't have the key anyway.

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Finding my way through some hard stuff.

Over the weekend my husband said something that really hurt my feelings and I was surprised by how I reacted. I mean I was definitely not able to own my emotional reaction in the moment. And so, of course, I reacted in a way that just made everything worse. It wasn't pretty. But this stuff happens sometimes - even between the most well-meaning people. I know that my husband doesn't want to hurt me and I don't want to hurt him.

So why do we get into these ugly places?

Well, I...

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The True Story of Spending The Day Deep In Creative Resistance

[I wrote this post yesterday throughout the day to share what it's like to work through heavy resistance] I have been letting my resistance have free reign so far today. It's thrown me so far off schedule I can't even see it anywhere off in the distance. For the past two weeks my sweetie and I have been getting our food from farmer's markets - cooking amazing fresh foods for dinner. I have fresh baby new potatoes in the fridge, which I baked in olive oil and herbs last night. And some eggs to...

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The Self-Care Cart

A few weeks ago I wasn't feeling well. I gathered up a bunch of healing tools and put them on my night table and was inspired to take this picture: Because it felt so good to have all this stuff gathered beside my bed and I wanted to hold onto this feeling and remind myself that I could do this when I feel good too. A few days later I realised... well I can't have all this stuff here all the time. My minimalist night table but it was minimalist for a reason - it's just this little wooden...

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You Are Made of Magic: Free Guided Journal + Coloring Page

You're made of magic: creativity and stardust and love and dreams.

Magic!

Butsaying it like that, well it just sounds cheesy.

And I don't just want you to hear it anyway - I want you to feel it.

There is nothing at all like the feeling of getting in touch with the magic within - feeling expansiveand creativeand powerful and sureand, most of all, READY.

I wish I could bottle that feeling and offer it to you.

The closest thing I have found is combining creativejournaling and with creative soul...

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Monday morning in my journal: Finding miracles in the places where I get stuck

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This morning I woke up with a small case of "the Mondays". I wished it was Sunday.

Which is weird becauseMondays are my favourite day.

For 2016 I promised myself that I would spend every Monday morning doing an extra-long Creative Genius Planning Session. Connecting withthe heart and soul of: my dreams, my intuition and whatever qualities I wanted to invite in and then journaling, exploring and planning from that connection.

My other promise to myself was that I would keep going all year -...

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A conversation with resistance

A conversation with resistance

I've been sitting here this morning, trying to open up my daytimer and start my Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Session.

But I can't do it.

This morning my resistance is likegiant pile of bricks sitting on my daytimer keeping me from getting to work.

But the only way out is through.

And by through I mean actually meeting with your resistance.

So let's do this.

Hello resistance.

(Resistance's words are in italics)

OK listen, feeling resistance to getting to work today is sooooo legit!

It's...

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