Your vision for what you want your life to look like is sacred

Rooting more deeply into creativity + soul to find the POWER to act from our VALUES as we create the future.

By Andrea Schroeder | October 23, 2026

As the world changes, we can’t keep doing what we’ve always done and expect the same results.

Yesterday I emailed everyone in the membership about the new program starting Dec 21: Your Creative Dreamer. This week I had an incredibly productive week and I am so excited about how this program is coming together.

Everything I have been doing with the Creative Dream Incubator for the last few years has been to figure out… how do I hold space for dreams + dreamers inside… a fascist uprising, climate collapse, economic instability, etc, etc, all the things.

And of course I had a lot of challenges in my own life at the same time.

I feel like the last few years have been a masterclass in how to hold space for myself and my dreams inside the chaos and I am deeply grateful for every single lesson. I LOVE who I am today. I LOVE how I feel in my life. 

I want to share this magic with everyone and I have been, along the way...

In 2025 I did the Year of Hope, a year of practicing hope and processing hopelessness. (This is still available in the membership)

In 2026 we have been doing Dream Book 2026 - using a planner as a dreamer with meditation and journaling practices for giving yourself space to process your thoughts and feelings while also strengthening your creative dream alchemy muscles. Creating that safe, creative, healing and powerful space for yourself in the midst of the chaos.

In 2027 I am taking this to the next level with Your Creative Dreamer.

First, I am making daily printable planner pages! That includes prompts from our live calls (you can use the replays too!) and regular practices for creative dream alchemy and makes it easier to keep on track with your dream - not in a pressured “I have to get a to do list done” way but in a “I am present with the soul of my dream and allowing the healing + growth it has for me, to find me” kind of way.

And it has some tools for the work of holding space for yourself, to have a sturdier foundation for holding space for your dreams and for the future you are creating.

Find out more about Your Creative Dreamer here.

I know people can find change difficult! But this is the thing about a PRACTICE - it needs to be alive. It needs space to grow and change.

And healing or growth work that is not addressing the changes in the world is NOT GOOD!!!!! To ignore what is happening and just carry on is to engage in spiritual by-pass and unconscious use of privilege which doesn’t leave space for real growth or change.

And this is important to me in my work - I don’t make decisions and then stick to them and tell everyone you are wrong if you don’t like it. I listen and watch for how things are landing for people. I adjust as I go. I am co-creating with the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator and then I am co-creating with the people who show up to work with me.

Of course, every time I do anything, some people will like it and some won’t. I know I can’t do what everyone wants, but I do consider the needs of the group.

In 2026 I re-created the format of our Co-Dreaming calls. We used to start with a short meditation and then have more time for sharing or co-working. In the name of rooting more deeply into creativity and soul I created a much longer meditation and asked that we do the bulk of our sharing in the forum, so that everyone can participate there are all week, and during the live calls we focus on going deeper into the dream work.

That’s not how it’s turned out. Instead, now we have a much longer meditation and then lots of sharing so the calls have become 2 hours+ which is great for the people who have time for it and makes them inaccessible for others.

So I continue to re-think it and will keep adjusting.

When we root more deeply into creativity and soul we connect more deeply to our power to create both in our lives and in the world.

This work is so deeply needed AND it’s so nuanced. 

So I'm not sure exactly how the calls will change, but I am sure that I will keep doing my best to hold space for you to go deeper and deeper into your own magic.

(Also - we will be doing the Goodbye 2026 Hello 2027 guided journal with a Goodbye 2026 Releasing Ceremony and Hello 2027 Dream Blessing Ceremony in December and January - details to come)

That creative block really is giving me everything

By Andrea Schroeder | October 19, 2026

At some point this summer about how I had a HUGE creative block and when I sat with it I found out that it wanted to... heal me and give me everything.

I think about that a lot. I mean "wants to give me everything" feels like a lot?! I didn't quite understand it but it felt profound.

I’m still working on the YOUR CREATIVE DREAMER program which is starting on Dec 21. And I know it will start on Dec 21 even though I’ve been “working on this” for months but still have very little tangible “work” to show for it.

This summer I felt BLOCKED about it and now I feel TRUSTING about it.

At this point, this project feels like an accordion. Some days it’s folded up and quite small and tidy and it all makes sense and some times it’s open and flipping and flopping around and making sounds I can’t predict or understand.

So I am just being with it. I am trying to learn about it. Taking notes. Trying things. Focusing on the Dream Work of it because the Outer Work still feels overwhelming.

I can't get over how deeply moving it is to FOLLOW THE ART instead of trying to make an idea turn into something in particular.

(Follow the art is a message I got a lot this year, from the soul of my dream in the Dream Lab and Co-Dreaming meditations)

I am FOLLOWING this project more than leading it.

And this is what I think the creative block was trying to show me.

That my old way of creating things isn't the right way for me, anymore. That it is time to TRUST my creative ideas in a new way.

I want to defend my part-self and say that it's not that I wasn't trusting them all along, in some way. It's just that now I am trusting in a new way. It feels palpable and yet I can't describe it.

And this creative block really is giving me everything because...

TRUSTING my project on a new level is also TRUSTING myself on a new level. Which is so healing!

And today I had the most amazing creative productive day as in Quite A Lot Of Outer Work Got Done!!

The creative flow feels different than it ever has before. And I think that's because I gave it all the time it needed and kept staying with the Inner Work and Dream Work of it instead of looking for progress in the Outer Work.

This keeps coming up on our groups calls lately - we somehow open up a portal to do a thing in a different/magical way if we DON'T focus on doing the thing, if we give ourselves the time and space to go deeper into the process.

There is so much MAGIC and POWER in us, but we can't access it when we are so focused on the progress in the Outer Work.

I’ve been phoning it in a bit [Dream Status Report]

By Andrea Schroeder | October 18, 2026

I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

Bear the Life Coach makes an appearance!

This week I was SO into this process.

I felt so deeply present which made me realize... the last little while I haven't been all that present for my journaling, especially the weekly dream status reports.

Which makes sense! I haven't been feeling well. I feel better now, so I AM HERE.

It makes sense I was phoning it in a bit and it's ok that I was...

Because you can't show up consistently AND always be doing your "best".

Dreams benefit from CONSISTENCY more than they benefit from you pushing yourself to "do your best".

And in sharing my process here I am always trying to share the REALITY of what it means to live with your dream, and tend to them so they grow sturdy enough to support you.

The reality is that it means some days you WILL phone it in.

AND there is so much magic in meeting yourself where you are. In showing up WHERE YOU ARE and AS YOU ARE.

This is actually the only place that the magic CAN happen.

When we look at the ALCHEMY of Creative Dreaming, that place where we can deeply heal and transform the things that are in the way - we MUST show up in the most honest way possible.

So, as you can see from the photo above, I feel LOCKED IN. I have a list of things I am EXCITED to do this week!

Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.

And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!

When your dream speaks, you’ve got to listen.

By Andrea Schroeder | October 17, 2026

During our Co-Dreaming call yesterday, the soul of my dream said to me, quite boldly:

Stop fucking around. Just get a dresser!

And I was like… no that’s not the wisdom I am looking for today.

And my dream said… seriously. Get the dresser. Get your life together!

So it’s a long story but I have needed a dresser for my clothes since late spring.

But I wear so many dresses when the weather is nice, which hang in the closet, so it didn’t really matter to me that all of my other clothes were in fabric cubes awkwardly stacked in my bedroom where a dresser really should be.

But over-consumption is breaking my heart and I don’t want to buy new things! I also haven’t had the energy to wander around second hand stores. So I was looking at Facebook marketplace and hadn’t seen anything that was quite right. So “getting a dresser” just seemed so complicated.

But after our call I was thinking about how important it is that we BE WITH whatever comes up when we work with the soul of our dream.

Usually it’s a feeling we want to avoid and we go looking outside of us for a way to “solve” the feeling instead of feeling it.

Or it that our dream is asking us to be braver than we feel so we want to hide under the covers for a while.

Or the message is too vague and we have to keep sitting with it and this is uncomfortable.

But yesterday I got a clear message that I could act on and I was tempted to just… not.

To not take it seriously.

When I KNOW that our dreams don’t fuck around! What comes up is what needs attention. ALWAYS.

I thought about that and then I thought… maybe I can buy a dresser online? Is that even a thing?

Well it is a thing! And I found one not too far from me that can be delivered this week and it cost a bit less than I was planning to spend.

So I bought it.

This morning I woke up and felt… good.

After all the health stuff this year, with the low energy and brain fog, and then getting help for that and then catching the worse bug of my life and being sick the last few weeks… this morning I wanted to walk to the “30 minute walk way” coffee shop and WRITE!

Which means: I had energy and mental clarity!

And then I understood more why the dresser matters.

Because the early morning walk does wonders for my mental health and creativity but with the changing weather I need to be dressed right and that means I need to be able to find my clothes. Not just wear what I can find but wear the most appropriate thing for the weather.

And when I am tired and it’s still dark, I will give up the whole idea of going for the walk at the slightest inconvenience. So my weather-appropriate outfit should be picked out the night before or it should be very easy to find in the morning.

There is so much foundational stuff to do, when it comes to our dreams.

It may seem insignificant, but the things we do to support ourselves to feel our best are ALWAYS worth doing.

I am done contorting myself

By Andrea Schroeder | October 14, 2026

In my meditations I keep getting these images of a rough drawing of a person who is contorting their body to fit inside a box.

So I drew this image on a few different days in my Dream Book 2026 planner/dreamer.

I’m just sitting with this.

And noticing ways I’ve been contorting myself my whole life but did not notice until now. Which is a part of the magic of mid-life.

Even as a person who has been told “you are very self aware” from my therapist, there is still so much to learn…

Even as a person who saw what dominant culture was pushing me to be, and decided to take a different path, there’s still so much to learn…

Culture is always acting on us.

We ARE NOT AWARE of all the ways we are contorted.

We DO NOT SEE OR UNDERSTAND all the ways we dim our own light.

Even when we’ve been working on this for a very long time.

I think it’s good to keep this in mind.

This is why the Dreaming Weirder healing circle is so healing.

Giving yourself MORE permission to be weird is the same as giving yourself more permission to be YOU and being YOU is the most healing, magical and powerful thing you can be.

Members: If you already did this one, keep checking in on your journaling and give yourself space to sort through the stuff that came up. If you haven't done it - get the replay here.

How am I holding onto the magic? [Dream Status Report]

By Andrea Schroeder | October 11, 2026

I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

I'm just adjusting to waking up in the dark.

In Winnipeg, Canada we have very long days in the summer and very short days in the winter and the shifts between them can feel sudden.

This morning I made a smoothie and a coffee and turned on the fairy lights in my creative space and sat down with my journal. Since I hadn't been feeling well for the last few weeks, I was sleeping a little longer so it was my first time getting the day going in the dark.

It felt cozy.

I did the meditation for the Dream Status Report and felt so HELD in the magic.

We had such a lovely New Moon Call on Thursday and my new intention came through loud and clear: to LUXURIATE in how I take my next steps. Kind of like how my morning felt this morning. Slow. Intentional. Filled with self care.

And during the call I felt so sure about what this means... but a few days later now I'm kind of like... what?

The New Moon calls can bring so much CLARITY. The can help us see parts of our process we weren't noticing. They are a way of stepping out of our process to look back on it and this brings new information.

Then we have to integrate that information into how we keep going with the process.

Doing these weekly reflections in the Dream Status Report, including remembering and NAMING AGAIN what the dream is, why you want it, how you'll feel when you have and what your current new moon intention is... this helps us HOLD the magic of it.

Just writing down MY DREAM IS: _______ every week or even every day really is a helpful practice!

It's a way to help you hold it! Especially when you then notice... what are the thoughts and feelings that come up when you do that? How does it feel to really hold onto this dream?

Right now I feel... on the cusp.

I've been really sick the last few weeks. I've had a really rough year actually, with health stuff, and I had finally gotten the help I needed and then a week later got this cold that turned into bronchitis.

It's like this whole year I have been held back by my health.

But, on the other hand, this whole year I haver really practiced being present in the part where I am HOLDING the dream.

In the past I was holding my dreams but also moving forward with them, you know?

This year I couldn't move forward in the same way. And it's easy to think of that as a negative but I'm starting to see what a positive it actually is. I'm seeing how I have deepened into my relationship with this dream. Like I am doing the Dream Work on a whole new level.

I say this all the time AND I keep learning it in new ways.

The Outer Work is NOT the only way to measure progress with a dream. So much growth, healing and magic happens inside us and when we slow down and be more present with those parts - I think that makes the Outer Work so much easier to actually do.

Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.

And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!

This is really important.

By Andrea Schroeder | October 9, 2026

The world is on fire.

Your dreams are water for the flames.

Your dreams are a healing balm.

Your dreams hold old seeds for the world we build next.

I’ve been holding New Moon Intention Setting Circles on Zoom every month for many, many years. This is where we listen more deeply to ourselves about how we take our next steps with our dreams. Not just about the outer work, but: What is asking for healing? What is asking for attention? What do you really need right now?

Yesterday was one of my favourite of all the calls we’ve ever done.

It’s such a gift to see people really SHOW UP in these times.

We looked fascism right in the face. We made space to sit with the harm caused. We rooted deeper into our values, our souls and creativity, our inner knowing, about how we are going to respond.

We are holding onto our dreams.

On the one hand, you need to be selfish about your dreams.

On the other hand, your dreams aren’t just for you, they are for everyone.

Your dreams are sacred and they come from a sacred part of you, a part of you where we are all connected.

Our dreams are all connected. Each one that makes it’s way into this world helps hold space for all of the other dreams.

Our dreams are all connected to the sacred. They remind us that life is sacred. They show us the ways that our culture is off track. They bring us back to who we are.

Our dreams are weird and deep and multi-faceted and healing and life-affirming and THEY ARE HERE TO GUIDE US.

Whatever it is you are dreaming of right now. This matters. 

 

Members: get the replay from yesterday’s call here. 

If you’re not a member: find out more + join us here. Your dream will thank you!

Is this a SACRED DISRUPTOR? [New Moon call tomorrow]

By Andrea Schroeder | October 7, 2026

The October New Moon is almost here so I am reflecting on what happened on the September New Moon call.

The New Moon calls are a 45 minute ritual of meditation and journaling to reflect back on the month that has passed, gather up the healing, lessons and gifts, look at what you want and need now, and use all of this to set intentions and make a plan for how you're going to HOLD them over this coming month.

This is a SACRED PROMISE we make to ourselves.

Doing this consistently helps you develop a relationship to the ritual itself which helps you get more out of it. It becomes a sturdy space you can come back to for support and insight for alchemizing all the shit that happens into something more helpful. Doing this consistently over time helps you go deeper into the magic + alchemy of it.

The October New Moon call is tomorrow, October 8. Get the call details here.

During our September New Moon Intention Setting call, I wrote in HUGE letters in my journal:

SACRED DISRUPTION

ALL FREAKING YEAR I've been having a lot of health problems, difficulty accessing the care I needed for those problems, and then all sorts of small bad luck type things piling up in my life while I had reduced capacity for dealing with anything.

And during that call my own inner wisdom was showing me that these were actually SACRED DISRUPTORS.

Without the sacred disruptors, the last few years I would have been focused on staying productive, recovering quickly from setbacks, and trying to move too fast to "be my old self again"... instead of giving myself the space to find out who I am now.

Which is SO MUCH a lesson for these times.

Ever since the ways the first pandemic lockdowns impacted me in 2020, a part of me has been looking for the way to "be my old self again".

Thankfully, in recent years, most of me is more on board with exploring who I am now which is MUCH more fulfilling.

We need to slow down and then keep slowing down and go deeper and keep going deeper if we ever want a chance to find the answer that will actually CHANGE THINGS.

We need to get out of our heads. Instead of being in our heads about our story of what's happening our lives, we need to get into our bodies. Get out of the details of it and let the FEELINGS of it MOVE in you. And then go deeper and deeper into creativity and soul, the places where we can access wisdom, medicine, magic, gifts and healing.

Late-stage capitalism, with it's fascist underbelly on full display, has changed what "being in the process of healing and growth" looks like.

That change has been happening for a while! I am always exploring how to HOLD SPACE for being in the nitty-gritty of healing so hard you make all of your dreams real and the last few years I'm finding that the approach needs to keep changing more than it ever has before.

Which is where the idea of SACRED DISRUPTORS comes from.

All these things that have stopped me from moving ahead with plans in the ways I wanted to actually made me slow down and GO DEEPER and be more present with myself and be more connected to the soul of the dreams I am bringing into the world...

They disrupted my old way of doing to help me find my NEW way of doing.

Because I am SO EXCITED about the new program I am creating for the membership and I couldn't have done it the way I am doing it without all these disruptions. All this time to just... SIT WITH IT instead of MOVING FORWARD WITH IT.

The SITTING WITH is always going to be more powerful than the MOVING FORWARD. The slower we can move in the Outer Work the deeper we can go with Dream Work.

So I am still very much IN PROCESS here and excited for our call tomorrow to dive in and see where I'm at and get a look at what's next.

The October New Moon call is tomorrow, October 8. Get the call details here.

I hope to see you there!

OR leave your thoughts in the forum while you watch the replay.

You have to choose: perfect or possible [Dream Status Report]

By Andrea Schroeder | October 6, 2026

I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

I TRIED to do this on Sunday, here it is Tuesday morning and I am just getting started.

I am sick! But even if I wasn't, and even some weeks when I'm not sick, it can take until Wednesday or Thursday even to do this.

It's fantastic when I DO do it on Sunday and start the week feeling like I know how to hold onto my dream. I love when that happens!

But if I ONLY do it when I can do it PERFECTLY... then I won't do it that often then it's easy to just... stop doing it.

Giving yourself permission to do it messy and imperfect means giving yourself permission to REALLY ACTUALLY DO IT.

Because the magic that will make your dream REAL comes from showing up consistently over time. This means you have to show up all the times when it's just kind of boring or something feels off or you're annoyed, etc.

(This does NOT mean you should keep doing a thing if it doesn't feel like the right thing for you. That's different - if a particular approach doesn't feel like a fit then find a different approach! Your feelings are guiding you AND you have to keep practicing how to interpret your feelings - resistance is lying to you but there can also be a kernel of wisdom in it. It's nuanced.)

When it comes to creative dreaming, if you only really SHOW UP for your dreams when you feel 100% - that will never work. You have to learn how to HOLD your dream in the chaos of your life.

Which means that usually you show up imperfectly more often than perfectly.

All of that "waiting until you can do it RIGHT" is just delaying your dreams.

Diving into the MESS is where the magic is.

This morning, as I do a very imperfect and messy at answering all of the prompts in the Dream Status Report,  I realised... holy shit. I have been on a  real Hero's Journey this whole year. So many health problems, so many complications, so much time waiting to see specialists.

By HOLDING ONTO MY DREAMS ANYWAY while the conditions in my life have felt totally wrong for dreaming... I have learned whole new ways to root my dreams!

Root my dreams? I've never thought of it in that way, but that's how it feels. My dreams are seeds, and they can be hard to root into certain terrains, so they can be hard to grow. But this year I learned new ways to root them! The ground beneath can be unstable AF and I can grow stable roots.

I am not where I'd hoped to be at this point of the year, if you're just looking at the outer work part....

AND I am astonished at how strong these roots are.

AND I am astonished at what feels possible right now.

Answering these prompts on Tuesday instead of Sunday still brought me what I needed. A total re-frame of where I am and how I got here. Which is also a new perspective on what to do next!

Creative Dreaming in THIS WORLD is MESSY AF.

We never dream in a vacuum. We always dream into the world we live in.

The idea that some time there will be an "ideal time" to focus on your dreams is just not true. We have to learn how to root them into this world, as it is, and as everything keeps getting more fucked up.

If you're in the membership, and you're struggling with this - please let me know! Hit reply to this email or post in the forum. Let's figure out the simplest way you can HOLD SPACE for yourself in the process of holding space for your dream.

Once you are showing up consistently the alchemy starts to work, but what it looks like to "show up consistently" might look really different right now than it has when the world was less on fire all around.

There ARE ways to hold onto our dreams in the mess.

We may have to experiment a bit to find them. I am really happy to explore this with you especially as this is what I am working on for the new program: Your Creative Dreamer. It will start Dec 21. So as I am working on it, it's helpful for me to dive into how things are working for you.

 

Dreaming WEIRDER 1 hour alchemy meditation + journaling healing circle was last week - Get the call details here.

The thing I’m so grateful for about the divorce I didn’t ask for and how grieving is a part of dreaming [Dream Status Report]

By Andrea Schroeder | October 4, 2026

I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

I'm really sick this weekend.

I went to the doctor this morning and have some prescriptions so this should turn around in a few days.

But I don't feel capable to do my Dream Status Report. I looked through some things I've written and found this I wrote and then wasn't sure when to share, about my favourite part of getting divorced (even though I didn't choose the divorce or even see it coming).

Which is about grief which is such a big part of living, and dreaming, right now.

And then I was thinking about me being so sick is kind of the same. I didn't choose or invite this. But here I am. So - do I want to BE WITH my life as it happens or do I want to pick and choose when I'll accept and engage with life? Which did give me some different ideas for things to do while really sick - besides watching shows and just waiting to feel better.

So here is that post:

My favourite thing that happened because of my divorce is that I totally changed how I speak to myself.

I SO OFTEN say to myself “You’re doing great girl you got this!” and “I am so freaking proud of you” and stuff like that. Like, SO OFTEN. I give myself so much love, support and encouragement all day long and I just love it.

In the wake of the divorce, I learned to partner myself in a new way.

I learned to treat myself the way I wanted to be treated, even though I thought I WAS doing that already, but in the horribleness of all the stuff that comes up in a divorce, and in the harrowing and brave work of metabolizing all of that, I saw all the places where I sacrificed myself more clearly. And I no longer tolerate that kind of behaviour from myself. It just lands different.

This is the magic of grief.

Grief is a portal and a doorway and an invitation to a kind of healing and growth that we almost never feel ready for.

Our culture teaches us to hold back our grief, to contain it and control it and get over it ASAP.

Indigenous cultures who know how to live in tune with life respect and honour grief and let it take up the space it needs. This is how we should be living.

When my ex-husband blind sighted me with the news I had a lot of feelings at once, but I remember my dominant thought was “I don’t want this to change me.”

I felt like the grief and shock and sadness and anger was so big, it was going to swallow me whole and there was no way I could come out of that the same person and I was afraid of who I would become. I didn't choose this and didn't want to step into it.

It took a while before I felt ready to trust the grieving process. But once I did. WHOA.

Giving myself over to the grieving process actually helped me receive all the things I had wanted from that marriage, in the divorce. it's WILD.

Why am I talking about divorce and how does this relate to our dreams?

Marriage is a dream. And some dreams die. And to the extent that you can allow the grieving process - they become compost for the next thing.

We don’t see a lot of that in our culture, and that’s a part of where I think my “I don’t want this to change me” thought came from. A lot of people become bitter after a divorce. When I thought “I don’t want this to change me” that’s what I was thinking of, I didn’t want to disparage a person I had once valued enough to marry. I didn’t want to become cynical. And mostly, I didn’t want to let go of the dream of what I thought I had.

But that was three years ago. These days I am amazed by everything that I let go of and how little of it had anything to do with that relationship.

I have this whole new relationship with myself that I absolutely wouldn’t have had without the divorce.

I have this whole new LIFE that I wouldn’t have had without the divorce. It doesn’t look that different from the outside but it FEELS so different to me. I have new dreams. I am settling into my post-menopausal self and so grateful for the freedom I have. I didn’t feel encumbered in my marriage, but it is PALPABLE, how much freer I feel now.

With aging parents, I know I have more Big Griefs ahead of me.

And we talk about climate grief on our calls, we’re all feeling that. There are a lot of different griefs about all the ways the world has changed.

Grieving does feel like a part of living through these times.

And we can try to stay away from the pain of it or we can dive in and trust it to change us in ways that we will appreciate in the end.

I appreciate finding, re-reading, and finally sharing this post today. It's giving me a better perspective on being sick right now.

Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.

And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!

Dreaming WEIRDER 1 hour alchemy meditation + journaling healing circle was last week - Get the call details here.

FREE CLASS: MAKE MORE SPACE IN YOUR LIFE FOR YOUR DREAM