INTERNAL RESISTANCE has always been a part of Creative Dreaming. It seems like we'll always have parts of us who want to sabotage our dreams and hide under the covers.
But these days the resistance seems to team up with the heaviness and overwhelm about everything that's happening and it's a lot more work to get through it. I see this in myself and in the people I work with.
So I continue to explore... how do we keep creative dreaming in a dystopia? How do we keep making space for hope for a better future for everyone?
One of the things I do, for myself, on the really bad days, when I can (ie when I don't have really pressing things to do) is I embroider. The simple repetitive hand movement and creative satisfaction are really grounding and help bring me back to center.
Today I decided to turn on my camera and talk about what's on my mind as I did this... and then after I finished recording I realized - this is a STITCH N BITCH! lol!
So I invite you to pick up a creative project and join me:
If you're reading this in email - the video is here.
Membership members: here are our tools for resistance:
Un-Sticking Station maybe especially For When You're Freaking Out + Can't Do This
For When You're Avoiding The Un-Sticking Station
Hopelessness Alchemy Meditation
Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting
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After all that time of getting into a new routine of starting each day with a walk, today I just… don’t want to walk. I thought of how gorgeous the river trails are, and how it’s a 15 minute walk just to get to them, so 30 minutes to go there and back, leaving me with little time to be ON the river trails until I want to walk all morning…
So I went for a bike ride, so I could spend more time on those paths.
This brought up SO MUCH GRIEF for all the ways the world has changed.
Because one thing I have noticed since 2022 is that drivers are more distracted and impatient than ever, and then each year they are even MORE distracted and impatient. This is a deadly combination for cyclists.
So, I think of how I used to set out and just… be in the magic of cycling. I was careful, I was paying attention, but I didn’t have to be ON GUARD the way I am now, while driving in bike lanes on streets.
Once I get to a bike trail off the roads of course the magic is still there. But while on roads it’s impossible to ignore the way the world has changed and the impact it’s had on us. All of my friends who ride bikes have noticed this.
There are also more people living on the street every year. When the pandemic hit in 2020 we’d had 8 years of conservative governments here, who kept cutting away at social services, and people were falling through the cracks. And sometimes it takes a few years to see the full impact but here we are now. Most of my favourite bike paths along the river have tent cities on them.
So there is all of that grief for living in a world where we don't take care of each other.
This morning I checked the forum before I went out and there was a question about practices to help a person figure out what their new dreams are.
Which is a question that’s been coming up a lot lately and I’ve been thinking about what kind of new tools I can add to support that process and I have some good ideas but that will take a little time still.
(If you’re in that boat right now - the Dream Book 2026 program is good! It gives you space to think about what you want just this year (which is so much easier that thinking of the BIG DREAMS) and you can put “figuring out what my next dream is” as one of the things you want this year. Then the Hello Day practice is PERFECT as a practice for this, there is a lot of mindset stuff in there about getting deeper in touch with your magic and self belief and it gives you a gentle way to get into a Creative Dream Alchemy PRACTICE even before you have a dream… and once you are in process and showing up to practice - magic happens.)
But, as I was being with all of my grief about how the world is changing, I was thinking about how much GRIEVING there can be to do, in the work of finding our new dreams.
And how vulnerable this all is and how it seems to get MORE vulnerable with age and experience, not less.
Every dream or idea or thing that fell apart in your life is RIGHT THERE in that space inside you where your new dreams are. And the longer you live the more inevitable it is that are some hard feelings in there.
This work becomes more profound and more healing with age and experience and that means… it can get HARDER.
So, sometimes the work of getting at the next dream will involve a lot of grieving.
And grief is non-linear!!!!! Grief work is more about MAKING SPACE for our feelings and figuring out how to be with them and tend to all parts of ourselves in the process. We can't control the shape of the path through our grief, the way we try to control the shape of the path to our dreams (though... we don't have as much control there as we'd like either).
My marriage ended very unexpectedly (on my part). I was particularly horrified by the sensation of all of my dreams and plans for the future just... melting into nothing. I wanted a new dream to hold on to and look forward to.
For those of us who are dreamers, having a thing to dream about gives us direction. It can actually help us be more rooted in our lives. We can feel unmoored without one, as I did.
And so I wanted to find a new dream ASAP. But I wouldn't suggest this!! Some people jump too fast into a new relationship, I jumped to fast into a new dream. We're all just doing our best. But these rebound relationships and rebound dreams are a way of trying to AVOID the big feelings, and the way through is always THROUGH them.
Of course, having that new dream (in my case it was to travel in a camper with my cat Bear) did help me have a thing to focus on, it gave me something replace that horrifying blankness that was there in the space where all of my previous dreams had melted away...
But that's not the same as FACING IT HEAD ON.
It was a rebound dream.
And in time as I settled into my new life and felt grounded here, I saw that it's not something I actually want to pursue. Not now anyway.
That's fine!
I think a better decision at that time would have been to have FINDING MY NEW DREAMS be the dream, and doing the Dream Work and Inner Work on that.
Practically speaking I mean - make a Dream Book with that as the dream, and really get in there and look at what's happening there. And to face the big feelings of it all HEAD ON.
Because if FINDING MY DREAM is my dream, then I am really being with ALL of the thoughts and feelings that come up when I acknowledge that I don't know what my dream is right now. And that can be a LOT!
So on the one hand it's very very good because when you do A LOT of Inner Work you create A LOT of shifts and new possibilities...
But at the same time, sometimes A LOT of inner work is just TOO MUCH, so going the route of grabbing onto a rebound dream makes sense too. Or just going in circles for a bit and giving all parts of you some space to breathe and process.
And in the end - it does't matter!
It doesn't matter what path you choose to navigate your dreams or which dream you focus on... it matters that you KEEP SHOWING UP.
The path is so non-linear and weird anyway. Like you can circle around a thing for a year and then suddenly everything snaps into place and it's easy to just step into the dream.
As long as you are IN PROCESS you'll work through the stuff you need to work through. The feelings that need to be processed will make themselves known. The ideas you need will come through. Clarity will find you.
None of that happens when we just... wait. All of it happens when we are IN PROCESS.
The Dream Book 2026 program is the one that helps there, you can do it without a specific "big dream" that you are making happen.
And yes that one is just for 2026, but you can absolutely still start it now!
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
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I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams. Do this with me!!
*Membership members: this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!
My bedding is in the wash, I have veggies roasting in the oven, and chickpeas cooking in the instant pot, later today I am going to make some mason jar salads for dinners for this week.
I"m feeling like... I am getting my life together!
I just took a deep breath, followed it into my body, and felt my whole chest release and expand and feel LIGHT. There is this way I feel when I feel like I have my life together - like mason jar salads in the fridge, house cleaned, errands done, fresh sheets on the bed, etc.
And I have been asking myself “Hey can you just feel that way while life is in process? Can we make a little space for that?”
I am so inspired and excited about so many things right now and keep reminding myself to BREATHE and GROUND.
Let’s hold this excited energy in a gentle way.
Which is also connected to embracing my mid-life experience, accepting I am where I am, and working WITH my energy as it now instead of trying to figure out how to coerce my energy into being what it used to be so I can live the way I used to live, you know? There is a lot of MAGIC and POWER I have now that I didn’t have 10 years ago but I can only access it if I am living in tune with who I am now.
As I reflect on my week I see: I am figuring a lot of stuff out AND I am in process. Always.
Earlier this year it felt like I was dragging my tasks and projects and ideas from one week to the next with little progress.
Now it's like every week more pieces come together, and more new pieces are revealed.
The thing is to TRUST THE PROCESS and KEEP SHOWING UP when you're in that little visible progress phase. Quitting at that point can do a lot of damage to vulnerable dream seeds that are just starting to sprout.
Remember the ALCHEMY of it all.
When we feel like we're not making any progress that usually just means we're not making measurable OUTER WORK progress. But incubating is a big step where you can't really see what's happening while it's happening. And alchemy works in mysterious ways.
And if you want to get there faster - GO DEEPER. Which means: go deeper into the Inner Work OR Dream Work. (Membership members - click those links! They lead to the Creative Dream Alchemy libraries of tools. Pick ANYTHING that feels appropriate for where you're at. Doing ANYTHING is always a bazillion times better than waiting to figure out "what's the right thing to do")
So - my Outer Work is really coming together and ideas are expanding and I feel energized and excited... BECAUSE I spent a lot of time going deeper into the Dream Work mostly, and Inner Work when I felt stuck.
I'm starting a new thing this week!
There's a thing on social media called OOTD - Outfit Of The Day. People just make a video sharing their outfit and talking about it.
Making my own clothes was a huge lifelong dream of mine and now that I am fully IN IT, with a wardrobe that is 99% hand-made, and making more stuff all the time - this feels really fun to share.
AND creates a container to talk about self-expression, dreams, self care, authenticity, self doubt, healing, becoming the version of you that you know you really are on the inside even when you also feel afraid....
You know, everything we do here!
I did start this work by doing workshops, healing circles and spiritual counselling 100% IN PERSON, about a million years ago. Then in 2008 I started blogging and making videos and in 2011 I went full time with this internet business. So... I know how to share my work online... AND... how to share things online IN A WAY THAT THEY ARE SEEN BY PEOPLE is NOT the same in 2026 as it was in 2011.
The things that helped me get to where I am don't help at all now.
I keep experimenting with ways to show up on social media to create visibility for my work. Most of these experiments are just showing me more about what DOESN'T work but that's a good thing to learn too!
And right now these OOTD videos feel like an amazing idea to try next and I am excited about it. Like I feel like I am FINDING MY VOICE in 2026's social media landscape, as a 52 year old.
I am hoping to share my first one later today. We'll see how it goes, lol.
I'll share these on Instagram, Facebook and YouTube.
Before I go - how are you doing with the Spring Cleaning plan making?
We are taking June to come up with a plan for how we want to HOLD ONTO OUR DREAMS for the rest of the year. We want to make space in our lives for the things that matter and bring us joy!
And we'll explore more on the Make Space In Your LIFE For Your Dream call next week!
This is a 90 minute healing + alchemy circle. We'll look at everything from scheduling and practicalities to alchemy healing and magic.
And this one is available for free for anyone!
If you're in the membership - get the details here.
If you're not in the membership - register for free here.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I did not sleep well last night.
I kept waking up, my mind wouldn’t stop racing… but in a good way. I am SO excited about the projects I am working on. I feel so LIT UP with creativity and inspiration. This feels so different from when I can’t sleep because of perimenopause, though ether way I am still really tired the next day.
We unearthed so much in the Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams session. It’s like spring cleaning, some parts of the process are UGH you’re just making a bigger mess than you started with but then you end up so glad you did it.
I had a dream for this year that I have realized/accepted is NOT possible.
The timing doesn’t work. It can’t happen this year. But maybe next year?
Because our dreams are so vulnerable, this kind of thing can stir up a LOT of feelings and those feelings can trigger even deeper feelings and we can decide to just abandon dreaming completely as the solution to all of the feels.
It’s not a solution.
Abandoning our dreams turns down the volume on the discomfort temporarily but it pushes everything deeper down inside you. It doesn’t heal or solve anything, it just masks it.
What heals and solves is to stay in the process.
So, my big dream for this year is not possible. After I can sit with the little volcano of feelings that erupt in response to that, I can see:
Dreams are so TRIPPY and ALIVE though.
It’s like the soul of this dream is liquid… the magic of it seeps out everywhere to offer it's medicine to everything it touches.
Some of my other dreams of this year are MORE ALIVE. The creativity and joy and meaning of this dream has seeped out and it’s everywhere. Some of my other dreams for this year are SPARKLING and SHINING. Some dreams I didn’t have in January, I have now. I am failing to implement some of my plans... but I also holding onto the essence of them and finding different ways to get there.
When you are dreaming WITH creativity and soul, the path will always be non-linear.
Whatever you imagine “non-linear” means, it’s going to be at least eight times LESS linear than that. It’s going to be WEIRD and also DEEPLY HEALING in ways you can’t anticipate.
During the alchemy meditation on yesterday’s Co-Dreaming call, my dream came to me and said “Girl! That dream isn’t even impossible for this year. Just do this…” and showed me exactly how I could still get there on time… but then it said you CAN do that IF it’s that important to you. My dream also reminded me of all the other things I have going on, all the ways I feel a million times more alive and inspired today than I did in January, and said… maybe pushing yourself to hit that goal THIS YEAR isn’t the right move.
Yes, my the SOUL OF MY DREAM referred to this DREAM I have for 2026 as a GOAL. Interesting.
The soul of my dream also showed me how this particular dream is NESTED with other dreams and that it’s the big encompassing nest that matters, and the dreams inside it are the details. And that I have actually moved towards that larger nest of a dream in different ways, and it feels pretty solid. Like I WILL DO THIS. It’s just a matter of time.
When I see that, I look back at this goal for 2026 and I can see that setting that intention in January, and HOLDING ONTO IT even though I can’t physically make it happen this year, helped move me in a good direction.
This feels like SUCCESS.
AND it feels true that… I don’t want to do the work this dream will take RIGHT NOW to get it done by the end of this year.
I think I may want to do that work this winter.
But some other projects feel more alive RIGHT NOW.
This feels like the right decision.
At the end of the Spring Clean for your Creative Dreams I talked about taking the month of June to figure out your plan for the rest of the year. Some of your planning might look like this. Tabling some dreams. Choosing which dreams to have in the forefront. Being realistic about your capacity. Making space for new dreams. Re-categorizing dreams in your own mind. Making some nests? This is the process.
If you’re in the membership and weren’t at the Co-Dreaming call yesterday - watch the replay this weekend! We had powerful and profound conversations about all of this - tabling dreams and having them come back to you, holding onto dreams for decades through thick and thin, how deeply healing it is to keep coming back to the soul of the dream.
This conversation will help you with your Dream Plans for the rest of 2026.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I finished my post yesterday with: Your dreams needs your PRESENCE and that includes being present with the hard parts and the questions and all of it.
This morning I received the most amazing answer to this incredibly hard question I've been sitting with for a very loooooong time.
STAYING PRESENT in the process of bringing a dream to life is so wild because it's not only non-linear it's multi-dimensional.
You are healing, growing, breakthrough-ing and creating emotionally, spiritually, mentally and out in the world all at once. You are healing past selves to change future timelines while staying present in the present.
The path you take to get to the dream only ever makes sense in hindsight.
As long as you keep showing up, keep sitting with and HONOURING the questions and ideas and obstacles... all of the stuff of Creative Dreaming...
Remember this page from the YOU ARE THE MAGIC Guided Journal:
(which you can get for free here, or if you're reading this in an email it's at the top of your email or if you're in the membership it's here)
The work is to hold onto the dream WHILE all of the Stuff of Creative Dreaming orbits it... so we also have to hold all of the stuff.
A daily-ish Creative Dream Alchemy meditation and journaling practice is the best way to do this. It MAKES SPACE for all of this stuff while also helping you root deeper and deeper into your magic and medicine, via soul and creativity.
When you are doing this - magic happens. Answers come. But they hardly ever come how you expect them to.
So today I had a new idea just fly in that is both SO unexpected and also SO perfect it's like... WTF?!?!?!
How did I not see this before?
And also, how did I come up with such a great idea? Like where did it come from?
Like I am just sitting here getting my day started and suddenly this genius idea floats in that actually is the perfect answer to several of my hard questions...
These incredible genius perfect ideas do exist. They are always there.
But we almost always have to stop looking OUTSIDE so much, and make more space for what's happening inside, which makes space for that GENIUS IDEA to make it's way through to the surface where you can see it.
The answers come when you STAY IN THE PROCESS so please keep showing up.
For members, at the bottom of my posts are links to ways to get support to stay in the process. If you can't pick one - do the Dream Lab.
And you can email me any time, let me know where you're at, and I can make suggestions of what kinds of things to do for your practice.
Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!
We'll start with a meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.
Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I was quite surprised to find out that it’s Thursday today! I have been deep in the creative process this week.
I am working on the Make Space In Your Life For Your DREAM call which started out being a part updating the Dream Plan Kit.... and is growing and expanding and becoming sometimes that feels much bigger than coming up with a plan...
The reasons WHY it can be hard to fit your dream into your life exist in the Dream Work (the soul work of becoming that version of you who does this thing)...
AND in the Inner Work (the healing work of facing the places in you that would hold back or not believe in yourself)...
AND in the Outer Work (the practical considerations)...
All at the same time. So stuff is colliding there and it's hard to know what is actually happening.... while your brain is trying to figure it all out in a linear way when this is NOT a linear process but how do you map out a non-linear process...
And then your internal resistance comes into play, and it shows up in all sorts of costumes, distracting you from what it really is until your dreams seem impossible.
But they're not.
And I want to put this part in all caps: YOU DESERVE THE HEALING, MAGIC + FULFILLMENT THAT YOUR DREAM HAS TO OFFER YOU.
You deserve to have that right now.
So as I have set out to create this class to help us all have more of this… it keeps growing. Deepening.
All week I've been in this expansive place with it, brainstorming and writing and exploring and now today… I don’t know what to do next.
When this happens I start to get distracted… I keep bringing myself back to this project and then I keep finding I am focusing somewhere else. This whole morning has been a "battle between distraction vs focus".
So, I am using the Un-Sticking Station process to call in the soul of this project to explore what’s going on in my relationship with it and why I am not able to stay focused.
This is what happened in the meditation:
The soul of the project shows up as a HUGE pack of seeds and there are flies buzzing around it, like NOT in a good way.
But as the project was coming into view, it was like a 7 storey building that “landed” in front of me, when I first saw that it was a HUGE seed packet I was all “Oh yay!”.
I felt how excited I am about the seeds this project can plant. I felt so hopeful. This felt so vulnerable.
By the time the full seed packet had landed and the flies were there and it was like… well this was a pack of seeds and now it’s a pile of shit? Like, what?
I sit with this. What’s going on?
Then I see - not it’s not a pile of shit, of course. My own fears and how scary it is to be vulnerable in this world as it is now, are the “shit” in this scenario.
Creating a 7 storey tall pack of seeds - things to plant to grow a better future - does feel delusional, given the state of the world.
And it feels like exactly the thing I want to do and exactly the thing the Creative Dream Incubator NEEDS to do.
I zoom my attention in on the flies. What’s happening there?
Close up, the flies look more zombies. Their eyes look dead, they are not focused, they are just buzzing around. It feels like… being on autopilot. This is not a new fear sparked, not something with any life to it, this is an engrained way of responding to the terror of vulnerability.
I pour out some honey and the flies buzz over to it.
Now it’s just me and the seed packet WITHOUT my engrained terrified response to the vulnerability of doing my creative/soul work out loud where other people can see it and call me delusional…
And here it is… this feeling come back that I had earlier this week when I was working on this….
A sense that it’s bigger than I think.
Like a seed packet showing up the size of a 7 storey building. That’s how much MORE this project is from what I thought it was when I started.
This can really PLANT POSSIBILITIES.
This can really DO SOMETHING.
This can really HOLD SPACE for more people to hold onto more dreams. Which in turn HOLDS SPACE for more magic to come out of each of those dreams.
This is a lot.
And I am absolutely grounded enough and ready to hold it and create and offer it...
As long as I stay out of my engrained responses to things…. and stay present with what my dreams are calling me towards.
So I just sit with this a while.
Savouring the sensation of feeling grounded and strong enough to hold this. The sensation of HAVING THE CAPACITY and TRUSTING MYSELF.
I look over at the flies and they are really happy with that honey so I pour more out to keep them distracted for longer.
And now I know what to next on this project….
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I say this all the time and I will keep saying it.
As soon as you feel stuck, or not sure what to do, or just like me today - finding yourself getting easily distracted and not knowing why - do the Inner Work.
GET IN THERE. Explore it.
Your dreams needs your PRESENCE and that includes being present with the hard parts and the questions and all of it.
Make More Space In Your LIFE For Your DREAM Healing + Alchemy Circle Live on Zoom July 3 1:00 pm Central
WIL BE FREE TO ATTEND!
And the replay will be available for free outside of the membership… but only for 3 days. (The replay will stay in the membership, as a part of the Dream Plan Kit)
Membership members: get the call details here. You are already registered.
Everyone else: register here. You do need to register to get access to this one even if you are already signed up for my emails.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
Last week I shared the new Make Space In Your LIFE for Your DREAMS class which I was adding to the membership. Today I am letting you know that this class is actually going to be free for anyone to attend! And the replay will be available for free for 3 days after.
This is a 90 minute healing + alchemy circle for doing this deep work. We’re going to explore this from all angles, from the practical scheduling stuff to the healing and transformation that will help you find unexpected ways to bring more JOY, HEALING and FULFILMENT into your life right now.
Even if you are signed up for my emails, you need to register for access to this one. You can register here or read on to find out more about why I made this change.
(Membership members: you are already registered!)
I am LOVING my new morning routine.
Yesterday I started my day with a walk around the neighborhood and then a meeting with the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator (from the Hello Day meditations)
This is RELLY working for me - I have so much more energy + clarity and am in such a good mood lately because I feel like I am HOLDING everything, I am not overwhelmed by trying to juggle too many things.
In the meditation, I had time, with the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator, to look at everything we have going on AND to consider the day I have ahead of me - lots of disruption with a call in the afternoon and some NOISY yard work being done - sidewalks being broken up and replaced - the kind of day that doesn’t lend itself to deep work.
Having a DAILY meeting with the soul of my dreams and the soul of my business means we can better adjust to what’s happening and I don’t end up as frustrated as I used to, when life throws me inevitable curveballs.
(If your dream doesn't include a business this works just as well with just meeting the soul of your dream! If your dream does include a business it's best to include both in your daily meetings.)
Today the Creative Dream Incubator said: focus on this one project. It’s all lit up, the energy is here.
And I’m so embarrassed to share that I had forgotten all about this project! Like, that’s just what Monday mornings are like for me in mid-life, it takes some time to get back into the swing of things...
And then, with the directive to focus on this one project, looking at what’s happening in my day…. I saw the best way to start my day....
Cook beans! lol!
But taking good care of myself is vital. And I like how it feels to cook most of my food from scratch. And I like having a jar beans ready to go in the fridge, and more waiting for me in the freezer.
First: I thought about my project and did some journaling and planning for it. I even did a few “action steps” for it.
Then: I started chopping veggies for this dish I made up from mashing together a bunch of different recipes, which I call Smoky BBQ Molasses Baked Beans which includes a bunch of veggies…. while thinking more about my project. And lots of details did come into place while I was chopping and getting everything into the Instant Pot.
When it comes to Creative Dreaming, we can get a lot of stuff figured out while doing other things, when we stay present and intentional about our days. This is one of the ways that we can actually do more than we think we can, by giving our dreams this space to INCUBATE. By allowing our dreams to be a part of our days in ways that fit.
Your dream IS a part of your life because it IS a part of you.
Your dream is a sacred part of you. This is your visionary self! Connected to your soul. And your creativity. And your most authentic self.
To live severed from these parts of you is harmful. To be severed from ANY part of you is harmful! We are meant to be whole.
But everything about dominant culture is encouraging that disconnection. And then it gets really hard to see how it can work, how to fit it all in.
It's really easy to think that pursuing a dream, on top of an already full life, just means working harder.
But that's not true. Pursuing a dream means pursuing your HEALING and GROWTH and MAGIC and CREATIVITY. It's generative and giving.
This is why we need draw on the power of MAGIC and ALCHEMY, alongside our practical approaches to how we manage our lives and our dreams.
So the PROJECT I was thinking about while making beans is: Make More Space In Your LIFE For Your DREAM Healing + Alchemy Circle Live on Zoom July 3 1:00 pm Central.
This is a part of the work I am doing to update the Dream Plan Kit in the membership…
But I realized, as I was chopping veggies, that this one needs to be offered for free, too. We ALL need this. URGENTLY.
I think this is what the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator was asking me to see in my meditation, and I just needed a little time before I could see it.
So:
Make More Space In Your LIFE For Your DREAM Healing + Alchemy Circle Live on Zoom July 3 1:00 pm Central
WIL BE FREE TO ATTEND!
And the replay will be available for free outside of the membership… but only for 3 days. (The replay will stay in the membership, as a part of the Dream Plan Kit)
Membership members: get the call details here. You are already registered.
Everyone else: register here. You do need to register to get access to this one even if you are already signed up for my emails.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
*Membership members: this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!
If you don't know what to DO with your dreams, or everything feels impossible - make a commitment to do this with me weekly.
THIS is where you'll figure it out. Probably not the first time or even the second or third. But in the process of making space to show up consistently and to check in with your process with the intention of learning what it is your dreams need, you DO figure it out.
This week I am marvelling at the intensity of the MEDICINE our dreams have to offer us and how deeply we need this medicine right now. This is the stuff that helps us create a better future.
That healing, restoration, energy, upliftment - the exact thing you need right now is right there. Taking your dreams seriously means taking your SELF seriously (OMG did you listen to the conversation we had about that on the June New Moon Intention Setting call? MAGIC!)
Taking your SELF seriously means taking your MEDICINE seriously. Your dreams are showing you who you really are, what you are actually capable of and they are showing you the magic/healing/medicine that you have to offer the world.
This medicine is meant for you, first. It heals you FIRST as you take the dream seriously.
Committing to your dream NOW is an act of self healing.
As I reflect on my work with my dreams this week and things I am hearing from people in the membership - it's like this WAVE of "let's go deeper" has gone through us.
Let's make that next level commitment to ourselves and our dreams.
And I think logistically this makes sense. We're coming to the halfway point of the year. We did the big work of SPRING CLEANING OUR DREAMS and we are still doing that work.
Possibilities are sprouting up all around.
And I am really vibing with that energy right now. As I reflect on my week I am so proud of myself! And SO excited about what I want to work on next.
I love what I did with the updated Dream Plan Kit and have plans for more to add there, to create more of a supportive structure for getting to the next level of taking our inner gifts/medicine/magic and using it to create everything we want.
And, as I keep sitting with... how do we hold on to our dreams in this dystopia and even feed our dreams and lean into that magic and medicine that they have to offer because this is literally the stuff that will create a better future for everyone... my plans for the rest of this year AND 2027 in the membership are shaping up and I am SO excited.
WE! NEED! OUR! DREAMS!
Our own dreams, which come from this powerful place at the intersection to our values, our souls, our uniqueness/authenticity and our creativity, ARE THE SOLUTION TO EVERY PROBLEM WE FACE.
Like, my dream can't heal the whole world.... OUR DREAMS can heal the whole world. Together.
We need to live from our values, souls, unique selves and creativity... this is what puts us on the path of creating a better future.
This works individually in how our dreams light up our lives, and it works collectively which means... everyone's dreams are needed. I have a lot on my mind about diversity and inclusion and how dreams are inherently anti-capitalist and there are so many different ways that our dreams are here to help, heal and grow us.
I am feeling the magic and possibility of that these days.
The Dream Status Reports, done consistently, will bring up EXACTLY the thing that you need to look at.
Sometimes you just take some time to feel proud of yourself like I am today. Sometimes you dig up something that is really hard to be with. Whatever it is, doing a weekly (or bi-weekly if once a week is too much) Dream Status Report will help you shine a light on it and better understand what you and your dreams need in this process.
I have been through a lot of MUCK this year. Or - reframe - I have CLEARED OUT a lot of muck this year.
Like, I spent the winter dreaming about which seeds to plant. I spent the spring planting and weeding and clearing things out and moving things around and getting to know the seedlings as they emerged from the soil.
And now here I am - wow! The garden is starting to bloom!
This does need a new round of planning for how to tend to everything - mature plants need different care from seedlings. But I am taking a moment to really marvel at where I'm at and give thanks.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
Two things before we dive in:
There was a question left in the forum for people in the membership who have jobs: How do you balance working and dreaming? We’d love to hear your thoughts!
I updated the Dream Plan Kit and I am adding more to it! I’ve been sitting with the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator and it keeps feeling more and more clear that holding onto our dream is VITAL for so many reasons and it’s harder than ever and we need more support and structure. I went through the Dream Plan Kit and made some updates to make it more helpful for these times. And I”m not done! Next we’re going to do a call on SCHEDULING on July 3… Making More Space For Your Dream In Your Life.
This is a sacred promise to myself.
This message is from a New Moon Intention Setting call a little while back when my dream explained this to me. This work of practicing being intention BUT ALSO listening to the deeper parts of me about what intentions to set and practicing following through in my daily life.. this work is a sacred promise to myself.
(June's New Moon Intention Setting ritual is TODAY! Get the details here)
This magic is real.
This is your MEDICINE.
This is your real POWER and CREATIVITY.
This tremendous force lives in you.
But we tend to live disconnected from it, and live more aligned with the outer word and dominant culture, than our Big Inner Magic.
So this tremendous force lives in you along side all of these ways you conform to dominant culture’ expectations, and also alongside all of the fear and doubt and limiting beliefs you have picked up. So, the work of tapping into your magic, which is the work of truly deeply madly pursuing a dream, includes an awful lot of digging around in all of that stuff.
Which can just be so unappealing! I get it! But we are doing this in service to making more space for your MAGIC to UNFURL. It’s so WORTH IT.
I’ve been thinking about the conversations we’ve been having around BEING ACCOUNTABLE TO YOURSELF AND YOUR DREAM.
And looking at the ways that I am, and am not, really fully accountable to myself and my dreams.
I think when we say “Oh I just want to be in the moment, I don’t want to be focused on achieving things” ABOUT OUR DREAMS… I think it’s a lot more complicated than we make it out to be. I think in those moments we’re feeling like it’s a spectrum between “enjoy the moment” and “create a better future by forcing yourself to do things you don’t want to do right now and not enjoying the process one bit”.
I don’t think that spectrum exists, I think that’s a story our resistance made up to keep us from reach into our magic.
I think OF COURSE parts of us are afraid of how powerful and amazing we really are, and so they team up and create this resistance inside us.
I think we can move SO slowly and SO joyfully and SO intentionally and SO POWERFULLY that never have to choose between “enjoying the moment” and “building that big dream”.
And I think this is impossible without consistently showing up for the DREAM WORK of Creative Dreaming.
Today is our New Moon Intention Setting ritual!
So I have been looking through my journals from the last month. This last month I went much deeper into the Dream Work… and STAYED THERE. I was consistent! I had a really great routine! Everything came together! I am really proud of this. I love the way I wake up in the morning CRAVING that meditation and journaling with the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator and the soul of my dreams.
Last month, at the New Moon Call and then again at the Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams call (both of which are longer meditation + journaling practices) my dreams were asking me to stop putting the cart before the horse. And also: stop focusing so much on your goal, what about the Creative Dream Incubator’s goals?
And I didn’t know what to do with these messages. Like what’s the cart and what’s the horse? And what are the Incubator’s goals and how are they different from mine?
But then another part of me DID KNOW. And said YES.
And I could go on for a very long time to try to explain what that means but if you’ve done those longer meditation and journaling processes with me you get it.
Energy shifts. Deeper inner wisdom is revealed.
It’s like “you” are your “surface level self” and there are a million layers of depth within you, and the depths come up to give you guidance but you all speak different languages. But there is something there, you feel it.
So no I didn’t know what to DO about it, but I did FEEL IT.
And I just… took it to my practice. Sat with it. Wrote about it in my journal. Kept inviting the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator and the soul of my dream to show me. I did the meditations consistently.
(This is also why I added the new Hello Day meditations to the membership this month, which I was planning to add more slowly over the year - I needed them now!)
And, over the course of this month, by showing up consistently and staying with the questions… I have figured out the message form last month’s New Moon Ritual. It just needed time and space to sink in.
BUT that time and space need to be… inside a Creative Dream Alchemy PRACTICE. Like - doing meditation and journaling. ACTIVE LISTENING to your dreams.
These kinds of answers do not come if we’re not sitting and listening for them. If you're not MAKING SPACE for them in some way.
We can’t keep living our lives at the pace of late stage capitalism and really attune to our magic.
But we don’t have abandon our lives completely. We do have obligations and all sorts of things and people we are accountable to.
What we need to do is INCLUDE YOUR DREAM IN THAT LIST. Give it top priority. Along with all of the other top priorities in your life.
Again, we’re doing a class on this on July 3: Making More Space For Your Dream In Your Life. This is happening in the membership and it would be worth it to join even just for 1 month if you're not a member 😉
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
When you are making a plan to MAKE YOUR DREAM HAPPEN it's common to come across something that feels really BLEGH.
Like UGH I don't want to .
It's important that you don't OBEY that feeling.
It's also important that you don't try to steamroll that feeling and force yourself to do the thing you don't want to do. Or stuff the feeling down. Or pretend it's not there.
To get to the ALCHEMY of Creative Dream Alchemy, the place where the magic happens... you have to BE WITH whatever is actually there.
So. You have to BE WITH the BLEGH UGH I don't want to.
And validate it! It IS a valid feeling.
Can you do that? Put your hands on your heart and say "Oh yeah. BLEGH!!!! UGH!!! I don't want to! It sucks that I have to do things I don't want to do if I want to get to where I want to be!!!!!"
And then DO THE UN-STICKING STATION PROCESS with the BLEGH. Take your time with it. Accept that this is the work right now. Detangling this mess of a BLEGH is the work that best serves you and your dreams right now.
The BLEGH is an invitation to healing, transformation and miracles.
Let's treat it as such! The Un-Sticking Station process will help you find the healing, transformation and miracle that is waiting for you here.
Because when you DON'T acknowledge, validate, feel, process and work with the BLEGH, then your only options are to force yourself to do things you don't want to do or abandon your dream entirely.
And you deserve better than that.
You deserve the healing, transformation and miracles that the BLEGH is trying to offer you.
We want to stay CURIOUS and OPEN in this work and not go into it assuming we know what's going to happen...
But I will tell you that what is most likely to happen is:
- you'll discover that there actually IS a way to make a realistic and do-able plan that doesn't include the BLEGH thing, like there is a completely different way to approach this
- you'll find a way to baby-step it so it's not so awful
- you'll re-connect with your LOVE and PASSION and ENTHUSIASM for your dream and the blegh will feel much smaller
Many years ago I had that BLEGH about paying taxes as self employed person.
For some reason, I thought it would be a total nightmare. At this point I can't even say why I thought it would be so awful but it was a big part in why I didn't want to turn this work into a business (I was doing it for several years "on the side" while working in a day job).
And I never really confronted that BLEGH. (If I had, I would have figured some stuff out much faster) But my love, passion and enthusiasm for my dream grew, and the way I was doing this work grew to the point where it made sense to figure out how to quit my job and really do this...
And then it turned out the taxes were no big deal.
Like - I just put some money aside each month and when it's time to pay taxes I send that money over. It's absolutely not a problem and yet for some time it was the whole reason why I didn't want to figure out how to really HAVE my DREAM.
And the BLEGH had nothing to do with taxes. Or money. The BLEGH is rarely really about what it says it's about.
Creative Dreaming is SO vulnerable.
Creative Dreaming is such a deep and profound invitation to healing and growth, to creativity and soul.
There are so many layers and so many things happening.
I've been wrestling with some BLEGHs about my plans for 2026.
All these things I DO NOT WANT TO DO and yet I very much want the results of having done those tasks.
And I've been sitting in all of the discomfort of that.
And then... I found the more I VALIDATED my BLEGHS instead of judging them and wishing I felt more motivated.... well I started to see how they ARE valid.
I started to see how I'm not "being a spoiled brat" in wanting to have the results without making the effort.
I started to see how much I was judging myself for feeling like a spoiled brat about it!!
I started to see... omg yes it's true! There ARE ways to get what I want WITHOUT doing all this shit I don't want to do.
I can't even begin to explain how many layers of "capitalist work ethic" are hiding out in this BLEGH and my reaction to the BLEGH.
But I do feel like simply validating my feelings and validating my wish to NOT do the things I don't want to do... I am creating a whole new way to do it.
Creative Dreaming means seeing beyond what we've seen before. Doing things in ways we have no context for. It's sooo trippy and amazing.
Whatever it is you think you have to do to get what you want, if you don't want to do it - I promise you there is another way.
And you can create that other way if you stay in the process and keep going deeper into all of the feelings that come up along the way.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.
Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!