Journaling

When you push yourself out of your comfort zone to follow your dream but get so overwhelmed you just want to hide under the duvet and cry

When you push yourself out of your comfort zone to follow your dream but get so overwhelmed you just want to hide under the duvet and cry

I was SOOOO excited/inspired to do this Festival of Dreams in January. (I'm doing a whole month of free classes, coaching videos + creative dream challenges! Join me here!)

It felt SO GOOD push myself in what felt like a really GOOD way.

(There is good pushing and bad pushing!)

But now here I am with too much on my plate and I just want to cry.

This IS what happens every time.

And this IS why I hesitate to push myself out of my comfort zone at all.

I hate this feeling.

But NOT doing the things I feel inspired to do in order to avoid this feeling.... means I am letting this feeling control me.

Why would I let a thing I hate control my life?

So here I am.

Hello feeling of total overwhelm I just want to cry, can we talk?

The about-to-cry sensation goes away.

Oh cool, you just needed some attention?

Well - you don't have any attention to spare right now, do you? There's just too much coming at you.

Maybe. Kind of. I think I just have a big pile of things, and need to make an organized list. I feel less overwhelmed and more likely to ENJOY my work when it's organized.

But you can't organize all this other stuff that's happening right now.

Yes - a bunch of little things are not quite going well today. That's true. Also I feel super-very-easily-frustrated/overwhelmed by any little thing. Like the fact that the pizza pans from NYE are still dirty! WTF?

Yeah! See! Too much is happening! You should scale back.

Well. Cleaning the kitchen would take like 10 minutes, max. I do have 10 minutes. Or Joseph can do it later. Do you really think it's a reason to not go after my dreams???

What about that other tech stuff that wasn't working this morning?

It's working now. Those things are annoying, but they don't happen that often. Again - is this a reason to NOT go after my dreams? And why didn't you answer the last question?

Oh shit. I'm being evasive, aren't I?

Yes.

That's a bad sign, right? Like it means I'm not really on solid ground.

Well, YOU are on solid ground, WE are on solid ground, but your reasoning around why I should scale back is not on solid ground.

BUT I CAN'T STAY ON SOLID GROUND IF YOU GO THROUGH WITH THIS.

Well. Bingo! There's the issue. That you for sharing your real problem so clearly. It's always easier to work with things that are clear.

(Just in a puddle on the floor, so scared of what will happen)

Oh sweetie. Please. Here (sit down next to her, offer a hug and a mug of decaf eggnog latte)

It's just. Everything is so good now! Why do all of this?

"All of this?" you mean why do the stuff I feel inspired to do and excited to do? Why generate more creative momentum?

Yeah. I mean really. Why?

Because this is what I want.

Well what I want is to lay in bed with the duvet over my head.

I get that. But I also feel like... is that really what you want? For always?

Ugh. Yeah probably not. I do want to do fun things and I do love that feeling you get when you're trying new things and stretching and everything is clicking but you have to go through all these uncomfortable spaces to get there.

Again. That's letting the discomfort control your life. Are you really happy to lay in bed with the duvet over your head and allow a fear of getting uncomfortable to control you?

No. But that does't mean I want all of this either!

Yeah I hear you. So how do we compromise?

Hmmmmmm.

Hmmmmm.

Actually a detailed list feels really good. Spacious. And permission to just cross things off without doing them if it gets to be too much.

Yes, I had already decided that.

Really? I guess I wasn't paying attention then.

I'm glad you see it now - I do want to try to not be overwhelmed as much as possible WHILE ALSO being open to whatever discomfort I need to work through in order to follow the dream.

Yeah, I know. I just hit discomfort and freak out.

It's ok.  So: making an email more detailed list than I have, and holding permission to cross things off if I get too overwhelmed... what else?

(I go over to my list and see where I need to add more details to it)

OK yeah I see the problem now!

I need PAPER LISTS.

And my daytimer for 2021 is not here yet.. so I checked my email to see what's happening with that...

(Got sidetracked and cleared out my emails which had been piling up and THAT FEELS VERY GOOD and overwhelm is shrinking)

... my daytimer has spent the whole last week moving between facilities in California. Not any closer to me in Canada.

Lightbulb! I just realized I've been putting paper-list-making on hold until it got here and that is not going to work.

OK back to my digital list. It's got all the big stuff and what I need is to break down the smaller tasks - I always do that part on paper. So I'll just do it in a random page in last year's daytimer which I hardly used, lol!

OK WHOA.

I felt the overwhelm literally just leave my body. Like in a WHOOSH.

And now I feel energized.

And like "yeah it's going to get messy sometimes but I want to PLAY with all of these ideas and really ENJOY the festival of dreams!"

And I'm off to make that PAPER LIST of the smaller tasks I need to focus on right now.

Update:

On the way to making that paper list, I made a cup of coffee and put all the dirty dishes in the dishwasher and started it and asked Joseph to clean the pizza pans and now the kitchen is not an overwhelming mess.

Just to say - my overwhelm often believes things are WAY MORE OVERWHELMING than they are. That's how it FEELS, and even though my feelings are valid - they are not telling the truth about what is happening.

PS: COME TO THE FESTIVAL OF DREAMS IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING.

Solstice Meditation + Journaling

Since it's the Solstice today, I did a special Solstice meditation and journaling process instead of our usual Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning (I do those live every Monday on Instagram).

I thought I would share this one on my blog too:

If the video is not working for you here - watch it on Instagram.

Here are the journal prompts from the meditation:

Who do you want to become?

How do you want to feel, how do you want to be experiencing your life?

What do you want to be creating?

What kind of impact do you want to have?

How do you want to show up?

How do you want to show up for yourself?

How do you want to show up for your dreams?

How do you want to show up for the changes you want to see in the world?

And Dream Book is ongoing through the holidays ! I'll be there every day in the daily posts! This is a really great time to join us, to get some extra support for what you want to do in 2021.

Details + registration are here

Journal Prompts for when nothing is working

Journal Prompts for When Nothing Is Working

Take 10 deep breaths, with your hand on your heart. Imagine sending yourself love.

It's totally ok that nothing is working right now. Everyone experiences this, this is a natural part of being alive. It's ESPECIALLY a natural part of being a growing creative being pursuing your dreams.

Some parts of the path just suck. It's not a reason to give up or beat yourself up.

The only way out is through.

We all naturally try to avoid discomfort but you're going to have to go right THROUGH it. This is the brave work that your dreams demand of you.

Journal Prompts for when nothing is working part 1: This feels awful!

We start by processing your feelings a bit, because you can't uncover any useful intel while you're emotionally tangled up.

Nobody likes this part. But be brave. What's going on? Start by just writing it out.

How does this make you feel?

Try to be more detailed and descriptive about how it makes it you feel.

How do these feelings feel in your body?

Are these feelings familiar? Have you felt them before about other things?

What are the tools that are available to you, for processing and healing your feelings? List them all and choose what you want to work with right now. (If you can't think of anything, start with sending LOVE to all of your hurting inner selves)

What do you really NEED right now?

Journal Prompts for when nothing is working part 2: Exploring the situation from different perspectives + looking for new possibilities

What if everything is working just fine and it's YOU who needs to change? (In some situations, like when dealing with systemic injustices like racism and ableism, this is NOT a helpful prompt. In other situations, like when YOU really are the thing that's in your way, it can be very helpful.)

WHY do you think things are not working?

Is your answer to that last prompt true, or are you making up a bullshit story to hold yourself back?

What are the possible gifts in things not working right now?

What haven't you tried?

Why haven't you tried it?

Come up with 5 ideas for things you could try next. Break those down into super small teeny tiny little steps.

Remember the only way out is through. Go do one tiny thing.

 

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Hello 2021! New Year Journal Prompts

New Year Journal Prompts

These New Year Journal Prompts are for reflecting on the year that passed, and using what you learn there to look ahead to the new year.

It's actually REALLY HARD to keep making new goals for the New Year if you're not taking the time to reflect on and learn from what happened with your plans for the year that is ending.

By taking some time to reflect on the year that has passed, you're gathering up the gifts and lessons so you can carry them with you into the new year.

These new year journal prompts also help you create some space for processing and healing the hard parts of the year that is ending, and getting clarity on what you want to let go of, to make space for what you want to receive in the new year.

Since 2020 was kind of a big year, I'm also doing all of this in a much deeper way in Releasing 2020 Blessing 2021 - right here.

New Year Journal Prompts Part 1. Looking back on the year that is ending:

What did you try with your dreams in 2020?  What worked?  What didn’t work?

What was amazing in 2020?

What are you most grateful for about 2020?

What did you do in 2020 that you’re proud of?

What did you learn/discover that you want to bring into 2021?

What was hard in 2020?

What do you want to leave behind in 2020?

How did your dreams grow in 2020?

How did YOU grow in 2020? What gifts and strengths do you have now that you didn’t have in 2019?

Is there anything you need to do to complete your year? Any unfinished business that you’d like to finish, and leave behind as you move into 2021?

New Year Journal Prompts Part 2. Looking forward to the new year:

Try to list 5-10 things (impossibly big or microscopically small or anything in between) you’d like to have happen in 2021, in each of these different parts of your life:

health * relationships * creativity * purpose/career * money * self-love/self-care * spirituality * happiness * adventure/play

I know that seems like a lot, but the act of listing TONS of things can really open up your sense of possibility. So spend some time with this - I find it's best to leave this list out somewhere for a few weeks over the holidays, so I keep adding new things as I think of them.

When you're done go back through your list and imagine how each of these things will make you happier in 2021. If there is anything on your list that won’t truly make you feel happier – cross it out.

Is 2021 a year to focus on One Big Dream or is there a bunch of stuff you want to do?  Either way, write out your Big Dream, or Bunch Of Dreams, for 2021.

Why do you want this?

How will you feel when you have it?

Do you already know how to make this dream real, or is this something you need to learn more about first?

What’s your plan for giving this dream what it needs to thrive in 2021?  Brainstorm 10 things you can try.

What do you want to STOP doing in 2021?  And what are some things you can you do to make that as easy as possible? How will not having these things in your life make you happier?

Then imagine yourself at the end of 2021.

(You might want to draw/collage/doodle an image of you from one year from now).

How are you different?  How did you grow?  What new strengths and skills do you have?  Does you-from-one-year-from-today have any messages or advice for you?

Want to go deeper? Binge on my FREE and ridiculously helpful journaling + meditation classes over the holidays ✨

Your Next Steps is a journaling + meditation class for sorting through your next steps - PERFECT for getting your New Year sorted.

The Hard Parts Are Where The Magic Happens is a healing circle and inner work workshop (you'll actually get access to this one automatically when you sign up for Your Next Steps, just in case you get stuck)

Your Next Steps: A journaling + meditation class to help you be more CLEAR and SURE of your next steps

A better world is possible.

My province went into lockdown today. It sucks, but I do get to ride this out in a very comfortable, warm, safe home, full of food and loads of ways to entertain myself.

What about the people who don’t have this?

What does it mean for me to stay in and focus on my own creative projects, to live in my beautiful privileged bubble while people in my city suffer?

How am I using my privilege to make my own life better?

How am I using my privilege to make any kind of positive difference in the world?

People are always quick to tell me how important my work is. How it DOES make a positive difference to so many. But how is it helping the homeless in my city when all of the safe COVID isolation rooms are already booked while our numbers keep spiking?

And yes I do give money away to groups who help the homeless, I’ve done that for many years and so far that has not solved the problem. I don’t think we should be so quick to feel good about ourselves for our financial donations while the problems persist.

How is my work helping Indigenous children in my city in CFS who just had more of their funding taken from them by our government? Most of these kids already end up in jail or on the street and their futures just got even harder. This is colonization in action in my city.

We're all connected. Pretending we're not is destroying us.

Once you are aware of your privilege you do have a choice to make:

  • just feel guilty about it and do nothing to change it
  • lean into it so it can keep making your own life better
  • use it to dismantle systemic privilege and create a new culture where we take care of each other.

I know that feels like a big thing. It feels daunting and hopeless like… what can I possibly do?

I wrote the above, and then I sat down with my Dream Book and this was my mantra: I am a portal of possibility.

I had glued it into my journal earlier his week, but I couldn’t journal with it because it felt too far away. I WANTED to be a portal of possibility, but I couldn’t feel it and didn’t want to journal and about how far away this felt.

And that’s when I saw it. The answer to the question: what can I possibly do?

Sit with it.

Process your feelings. Get out of emotional reactivity and into constructive creative thinking.

Make space for the answers.

Because this IS a big thing. It will take all of us.

It's too small for any one of us, but ALL of us getting out there and doing the things we can see to do - can burn this fucking thing down.

When you sit with the questions and make space for the answers... ideas will come.

I just had a great one I'm going to explore this weekend.

 

[LIVE] Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Session

On Oct 26, we're going to explore DISTRACTIONS and how to keep your creative projects and emotional wellbeing practices going in hard times.

This is certainly on my mind right now.

It will be magic. See you there.

If you can't make it live, the replay will be here when we're done (you don't need an Instagram account to watch the replay)

I LOVED our Creative Genius Intuitive Planning LIVE on Instagram last Monday.

If you missed it, you can watch it here.

I'm going to keep doing them on Mondays at 10 am (Central, North America)

I'll be doing this live on Instagram - right here.

(If you need help attending an Instagram live - check out the Instagram Help Guide right here.)

It's about making some space to meet yourself where you are...

We're all processing A LOT right now, so we NEED SPACE to be able to really be with what's going on with us.

We all need more space for processing our feelings and reactions to everything that is happening in the world, which is an important part of Creative Genius Planning because it clears the channels so you can hear your inner wisdom more clearly.

It's a practice to help get out of auto-pilot and get into a deeper connection with your inner wisdom.

And then move towards where you want to be.

Once you are more connected to your inner truth, moving towards more joy and hope and opportunity and creativity tends to be the result.

We're not FORCING ourselves to "make it happen" or get to work - we're creating space our natural genius to flourish. We're playing with possibility.

I don't have one set way of doing this. It will be a little different every week.

As I said, for Oct 26, we're going to explore DISTRACTIONS and how to keep your creative projects and emotional wellbeing practices going in hard times.

It will be magic. See you there.

If you can't make it live, the replay will be here when we're done (you don't need an Instagram account to watch the replay)

[LIVE] Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Session

Live Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Sessions

Creative Genius Intuitive Planning LIVE on Instagram.

This happens Mondays at 10 am (Central, North America)

I'll be doing this live on Instagram - right here.

(If you need help attending an Instagram live - check out the Instagram Help Guide right here.)

Use this time zone translator to make sure you've got the right time where you are - it's already got my time entered in, so you just have to select your time zone to see what time this is for you.

The first on happened on Oct 19, watch it here.

Creative Genius Planning:

This means planning from your creative genius instead of from your head, which is where we tend to plan from.

Planning from your head looks like:

  • making logical to-do lists
  • pushing yourself to do the things you think you "should do" or "need to do" to reach your goals
  • not noticing where your unconscious limiting beliefs are getting into the driver's seat to sabotage your success

Planning from your creative genius looks like:

  • letting your intuition lead, especially when it gets weird
  • creating space for growth, healing, and magic-ing your way to where you want to be
  • planning from a deep alignment with your inner wisdom, power and creativity

I love my Monday morning Creative Genius Planning Sessions and can't wait to share it with you.

See you there.

Journal Prompts for when you have too many ideas and can’t pick which one to focus on

Journal Prompts for when you have too many ideas and can’t pick which one to focus on

Having more ideas than you know what to do with is a natural part of being creative.

You're a creative genius and your mind doesn't stop. That's good.

But you can't let your abundance of ideas overwhelm you. I know it's easy to be kind of frozen now knowing what to do next, but all movement is good, so you need to get yourself out of that frozen place as quickly as possible.

(I can absolutely help you with that in Dream Book - within the first month alone you'll be seeing your projects, dreams and your possibilities much differently)

This place where you're trying to pick which idea to go with is RIPE with opportunities for your inner critics and limiting beliefs to just take over. So it's important to not stay in this place very long!

These journal prompts will help you get moving sooner.

It's usually not all that important WHICH idea you choose, just that you CHOOSE something and get moving with it.

But we all hesitate and second guess.

Your journal is such a good tool for this, to give you some space to dig deeper, maybe get some insights around WHY you're hesitating and second guessing this particular project, and help you get more clear about what to do next.

Journal prompts for when you have too many ideas and don't know which one to focus on:

Start by writing down ALL of the ideas - get them together on one page.

Then let’s play with ranking them!

Which one would be the MOST fun?

Which one would be the LEAST fun?

Which would be the EASIEST to do?

Which would be FASTEST to get done?

Which would take the most time?

Which would be the most difficult to actually pull off?

What's THE MOST inspiring idea?

Do any of the ideas feel kind of blah or heavy to think about?

Which one will help you reach your goals?

Which one has the biggest potential payoff?

Which one feels the most impossible?

You don't have to answer each of the prompts. It's more important to follow the rabbit-holes.

The point is to explore your ideas from different perspectives.

And while you do this...

👉🏻 What fears or limiting beliefs makes themselves known and what does this tell you about the inner work you need to focus on at this time?

This is the real thing to explore here.

I do have a this set of journal prompts for overcoming fear if you want to explore those.

You DO know what to do next. You just need to make space to HEAR your inner voice more clearly.

This is one of the themes of the Your Next Steps Class (my free class that helps you be more CLEAR and SURE about your next steps - register here if you're not already taking it!)

You already have the answers.

You already have everything you need to move forward.

But you need PRACTICES that help you connect with your inner wisdom and clear all the bullshit away so you can access all of this good stuff.

And you need to be doing the practices every day. They are every bit as important as the outer steps you are taking with your projects. This is the work that keeps your creative engine clean and running well.

I do this work every day in Dream Book and would love for you to join me there.

Journal Prompt: What is the most loving way you can move towards your dream?

Journal Prompt: What is the most loving way you can move towards your dream?

This Journal Prompt is from the Journaling Cards for Dreamers deck.

This is a deck of 72 richly illustrated journaling cards with insightful questions that spark new possibilities.

No more facing the blank page.

No more using your journal as a place to BITCH about your problems instead of SOLVING them.

No more AVOIDING your journal because you’re not sure what to do!

Journal Cards for Dreamers will teach you new things about how to make your dream real – every time you use them.

$36.99 USD | Get your deck here.

Journal Prompt Cards for Dreamers

Journal Cards for Dreamers guide you towards deep, purposeful, transformative journaling.

You’ll learn new things about yourself, your dream, why you hold back, and how you can make more space in your life for the things you REALLY want.

Tap into the most magical and expansive part of you.

The deck of 72 cards contains 7 cards with creative visualization prompts and 65 cards with journaling prompts.

The cards are 3.5″ x 5″ and illustrated with rich, saturated colours. They come in a cardboard box, with a small booklet with Dream Journaling tips.

$36.99 USD | Get your deck here.

* These cards are printed, sold and shipped from the United States through The Game Crafter. I did the artwork and designed the cards, but don’t have anything to do with printing, selling or shipping so you have to contact The Game Crafter if you have questions about that. I know the international shipping rates are high, at this time there is nothing I can do about that.

Journal Prompt: How are you using your inner strength?

Journal Prompt: How are you using your inner strength?

This Journal Prompt is from the Journaling Cards for Dreamers deck.

This is a deck of 72 richly illustrated journaling cards with insightful questions that spark new possibilities.

No more facing the blank page.

No more using your journal as a place to BITCH about your problems instead of SOLVING them.

No more AVOIDING your journal because you’re not sure what to do!

Journal Cards for Dreamers will teach you new things about how to make your dream real – every time you use them.

$36.99 USD | Get your deck here.

Journal Prompt Cards for Dreamers

Journal Cards for Dreamers guide you towards deep, purposeful, transformative journaling.

You’ll learn new things about yourself, your dream, why you hold back, and how you can make more space in your life for the things you REALLY want.

Tap into the most magical and expansive part of you.

The deck of 72 cards contains 7 cards with creative visualization prompts and 65 cards with journaling prompts.

The cards are 3.5″ x 5″ and illustrated with rich, saturated colours. They come in a cardboard box, with a small booklet with Dream Journaling tips.

$36.99 USD | Get your deck here.

* These cards are printed, sold and shipped from the United States through The Game Crafter. I did the artwork and designed the cards, but don’t have anything to do with printing, selling or shipping so you have to contact The Game Crafter if you have questions about that. I know the international shipping rates are high, at this time there is nothing I can do about that.

Your Next Steps: A journaling + meditation class to help you be more CLEAR and SURE of your next steps