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[LIVE] Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Session

On Oct 26, we're going to explore DISTRACTIONS and how to keep your creative projects and emotional wellbeing practices going in hard times.

This is certainly on my mind right now.

It will be magic. See you there.

If you can't make it live, the replay will be here when we're done (you don't need an Instagram account to watch the replay)

I LOVED our Creative Genius Intuitive Planning LIVE on Instagram last Monday.

If you missed it, you can watch it here.

I'm going to keep doing them on Mondays at 10 am (Central, North America)

I'll be doing this live on Instagram - right here.

(If you need help attending an Instagram live - check out the Instagram Help Guide right here.)

It's about making some space to meet yourself where you are...

We're all processing A LOT right now, so we NEED SPACE to be able to really be with what's going on with us.

We all need more space for processing our feelings and reactions to everything that is happening in the world, which is an important part of Creative Genius Planning because it clears the channels so you can hear your inner wisdom more clearly.

It's a practice to help get out of auto-pilot and get into a deeper connection with your inner wisdom.

And then move towards where you want to be.

Once you are more connected to your inner truth, moving towards more joy and hope and opportunity and creativity tends to be the result.

We're not FORCING ourselves to "make it happen" or get to work - we're creating space our natural genius to flourish. We're playing with possibility.

I don't have one set way of doing this. It will be a little different every week.

As I said, for Oct 26, we're going to explore DISTRACTIONS and how to keep your creative projects and emotional wellbeing practices going in hard times.

It will be magic. See you there.

If you can't make it live, the replay will be here when we're done (you don't need an Instagram account to watch the replay)

We need to feel our feelings, now more than ever

We need to feel our feelings, now more than ever
I ordered the noise-canceling headphones of my dreams and they were supposed to arrive yesterday.

There was all of this fortuitous synchronistic stuff happening around the purchase of the headphones, and the whole thing felt like an opportunity to step into my next-level future dream self.

The headphones represented spaciousness and ease and having my self care needs exquisitely met.

The headphones did not arrive.

When I checked the tracking, I saw that they had arrived in my city, and then were returned to sender. Also: no more of these particular headphones (this particular choice being ridiculously well-researched) were listed for sale on the website of the Canadian company I’d bought them from. (Yes, I can check other stores, but NO I will not shop at Amazon)

I was so frustrated and disappointed.

I cried.

And while I cried a part of me was like “WTF? Are you really this upset? We’ll find the headphones eventually”

But it wasn’t about the headphones. It was about feeling like I was stepping into that next level of having my self care needs be exquisitely met and then having it taken from me.

Feeling like I don’t deserve it.

And then feeling into all of the losses of this year.

And then remembering that my friend is gone and feeling terrified that people can just die.

An then I was like “Oh sweetie, I’m sorry, I get it, cry all you want”

So I did.

And when I was done crying I did some soothing yin yoga, kissed my husband goodnight, noticed how exquisitely my self care needs are already being met, and drifted off to sleep. I woke up feeling happy and inspired.

I see so many people asking for help dealing with their feelings, because 2020 has been so hard and we all have so many feelings.

But what most of them are really asking for is help DISTRACTING THEMSELVES or TURNING OFF their feelings.

We need to FEEL our feelings, now more than ever.

Un-felt feelings don’t magically disappear. They calcify in your inner landscape.

I’ve been helping people with this since 2008 because that calcification forms the basis of the INNER BLOCKS make it harder to pursue your dreams.

This calcification of un-felt feelings makes it harder for you to know your true self.

It makes it harder for you to act in integrity with who you really are - it keeps you in a life that is too small for who you really are.

It’s what is making parents say “but our children have lost so much already” and demand that Halloween go on without any changes, ignoring the facts about super spreader events.

It makes us entitled and greedy and short sighted and without empathy for those who are more vulnerable than we are. This is why our species are killing the only home we have. This is why white supremacy and colonization and capitalism and greed.

And this morning on social media what I kept seeing is people wishing for 2020 to end.

As though that is some kind of solution.

The end of 2020 is not a magical portal that’s going to bring us into a better place.

That’s not the way through.

People keep asking about the online healing circle I did where I lead you through the working through a difficult feeling to get to the other side of it and feel free. You can get instant access to it when you sign up for the Your Next Steps free course.

[LIVE] Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Session

Live Monday Morning Creative Genius Planning Sessions

Creative Genius Intuitive Planning LIVE on Instagram.

This happens Mondays at 10 am (Central, North America)

I'll be doing this live on Instagram - right here.

(If you need help attending an Instagram live - check out the Instagram Help Guide right here.)

Use this time zone translator to make sure you've got the right time where you are - it's already got my time entered in, so you just have to select your time zone to see what time this is for you.

The first on happened on Oct 19, watch it here.

Creative Genius Planning:

This means planning from your creative genius instead of from your head, which is where we tend to plan from.

Planning from your head looks like:

  • making logical to-do lists
  • pushing yourself to do the things you think you "should do" or "need to do" to reach your goals
  • not noticing where your unconscious limiting beliefs are getting into the driver's seat to sabotage your success

Planning from your creative genius looks like:

  • letting your intuition lead, especially when it gets weird
  • creating space for growth, healing, and magic-ing your way to where you want to be
  • planning from a deep alignment with your inner wisdom, power and creativity

I love my Monday morning Creative Genius Planning Sessions and can't wait to share it with you.

See you there.

19 ways to make space for your next big thing

19 ways to make space for your next big thing

Here are 19 ways you can make space for your next big thing, right now:

  1. Look at what you can delegate - either tasks in your business or cleaning your house or getting groceries delivered instead of shopping, there are lots of things you do that other people can do instead!
  2. Get up 1/2 hour earlier to work on it a little each day (it's a cliche because it works - though I would add to also go to bed 1/2 hour earlier because sleep is important)
  3. Meditate on it ✨every day✨
  4. Let go of the things you're doing that aren't fulfilling anymore (yes even if other people expect you to keep doing them - your dreams thrive with strong boundaries!)
  5. Book a creative retreat - just go somewhere where your only thing to focus on is this new thing you want to be doing
  6. Do Dream Book! Within the first month you'll see all sorts of new possibilities for how to do your thing
  7. Take a social media break, or severely limit your social media time
  8. Block off a week in your calendar where you just don't book anything. Of course you'll still have other things to do, but you'll have quite a bit of time in this week for your new project
  9. Work on it during your lunch break
  10. Let your house get messy
  11. Get take-out or pre-made meals at the grocery store
  12. My favourite is to go out for coffee on Saturday mornings to work on dream projects
  13. Be really honest about how you are spending your time and look for things you can temporarily give up to make space for your new project
  14. Exercise every day. It gives you more energy
  15. Stop watching Netflix/tv
  16. Cancel all of your social plans for 1 month
  17. Make a list of everything you can put off to make space to do this thing now
  18. Get together with some friends for an afternoon where you all work on your projects together
  19. Consider the idea that "I don't have time for this" is actually a lie


MAKING SPACE is a part of the process of making the thing happen.

No one just magically has all the time and space they need to do what they want to do.

You've done it before and you'll do it again.

When it FEELS impossible to make space, that means something else that's in the way.

Staying in this story that you "just don't have time" keeps you from the truth: That this new thing is terrifying.

How much would it hurt to give this thing everything you've got, and still fail?

THIS is what makes it hard to make space for a new thing.

It takes an INCREDIBLE amount of trust in yourself, and COURAGE, to wholeheartedly pursue your creative ideas.

So this is actually THE BEST WAY to make space for your next big thing:

Have a consistent practice for:

  • listening to your intuition (it knows exactly how you can make space for this new thing)
  • cultivating the courage to act on your intuition
  • calming your fear and self doubt
  • transforming your patterns of holding back
  • connecting with who are becoming as you do this new thing (every creative project and dream your pursue GROWS YOU)
  • accessing your inner POWER to take brave steps and make things happen for yourself

I do this work every day in Dream Book  and would love for you to join me there.

Dream Book: I am becoming who I want meant to be

You are infinitely wise, brave, creative and powerful.

You already have everything you need for your next big thing.

Let's do this.

Working on your dream is high quality self care

Working on your dream is high quality self care

Today was not a good day. I woke up dizzy and overwhelmed.

It was really hard to find my creative flow and I was thinking... maybe I should just take the day off. You know - have a me day. Make popcorn, catch up on my Netflix queue.

I checked my email and saw that one of my students was wondering the same thing.

She's hit a hard part in her work with her dreams, plus there are hard things happening in her personal life, plus the whole world is overwhelming so she was wondering if it was better to just take a "self care break" and come back to it when it's easier.

But no, it's not better to take a break. Working on your dream is THE BEST form of self care that we've got.

It's just that REAL self care is hard sometimes.

It asks you to face the hard things and make the hard choices.

Taking a break, having a me day - sometimes that's exactly what we need and sometimes (more times actually) what we're talking about there is numbing and distracting ourselves.

Which is fine it itself...

But when you dress it up as "self care" then it's problematic because you are legitimizing your excuses for not facing the hard thing.

You're actually just leaving yourself stuck in the hard place.

Here's the solution: you NEED practices that meet you where you are and help you move towards where you want to be.

NO ONE always feels brave and capable.

But there's lots you can do to connect with your inner wisdom, courage, creativity and power and then you WILL feel brave and capable... and filled up and happy and ready to explore your dreams.

I do this work every day in Dream Book.

Some days I meet myself crabby and feeling disheveled from a night of weird dreams.

Some days I meet myself feeling inspired and lit up.

It doesn't matter where you start - your Dream Book shows you how to get to where you want to be.

Dream Book: journaling practices for meeting yourself where you are and moving towards where you want to be

Receiving the miracle

It's that disorienting time of the year when I am starting to wake up before the sun.

This morning I lay in bed in the dark, with my husband's arm around me and my arm around our cat Bear, just feeling so grateful to feel clear-headed, inspired, and happy.

I felt.... S P A C I O U S.

Spacious is my holy grail of inner states.

For most of 2020, I have NOT had space for everything, so waking up feeling spacious was a real miracle this morning.

Thirty days ago, I started Project Miracle.

This is a 30 day meditation + journaling program designed to generate a breakthrough/miracle. (You can try Day 1 for free here!)

I had a very specific miracle that I wanted to call in, and I've been feeling like I did get a LOT out of the last 30 days, but I didn't get what I wanted.

Today I re-read my journaling from 30 days ago, I looked at what I wanted and realized - it was already here.

It doesn't quite feel how I thought it would, but it's here.

I was working with two main things in Project Miracle:

  • figuring out my work/home situation - I was dreaming of getting a new place to live and using the Dream Loft as my work space
  • figuring out my next steps in my business - my marketing has felt "off" for some time, like the public part of my business and the things I offer for free are not matching the big magic of Dream Book and need to be updated but I didn't know HOW and figuring it out felt completely overwhelming

And now:

  • I feel *at home* in my home in a whole new way. I decided not to move, and am more grateful than ever for all of the gifts of working from home. We got new furniture, re-arranged everything, and I LOVE IT.
  • I know what to do next in my business. In fact I HAVE ALREADY RECORDED + EDITED a whole new free course! I see why my marketing felt off and know what to do about it.

But the bigger thing is that I discover what it is I REALLY need, which was hiding underneath the things I thought I wanted.

Yesterday I started to see it and then today I got this prompt in my Dream Book kit and I knew:

journal prompt: the habits I have that make it harder for me to live my magic:

My habits and routines need a re-set.

I did journal about this yesterday already, but today I got the next piece.

It's ME.

This thing I am looking for, this thing I wish was different. It's ME.

While yesterday I was focused on what kinds of routines + habits I want to create for the fall/winter, today I see I need to look at the habits and routines I need to QUIT.

One foot on the gas, one foot on the brakes

On having one foot on the gas and one foot on the brakes

This is how I've always been with my business dreams.

YES I DO want to move forward.

YES I DO have a LOT of ambivalence.

You can have ambivalence and doubt and fear AND ALSO pursue your dreams wholeheartedly.

I don't think dreams should be reserved for people who have no doubts.

I'm highly sensitive and insecure and struggle when my work doesn't live up to what I thought it would be, when I saw it in my head. This also describes most creatives.

I've never aimed to eliminate ALL ambivalence. I'm sure there are lots of life coaches and internet gurus who want to help me do that, but I don't see that as a healthy goal.

I prefer to allow myself to FEEL HOW I FEEL while also PURSUING WHAT I WANT TO PURSUE.

Still. This one foot on the gas and one foot on the brakes thing is ANNOYING.

I go full gas sometimes, determined to keep my foot on the gas - only to have the other foot hit the brake so gently that I don't even notice our momentum slowing down.

Then when I do notice we're almost stopped. And I'm SUPER ANNOYED with myself for doing this AGAIN.

Also, I do teach people how to transform patterns and I'm actually really good at it so why haven't I transformed this one?

Because I know that brakes = a deep sense of safety.

And putting my foot on the gas tends to be exhilarating, exciting, and scary. At some point, scary starts to take over. At that point, it's REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD to have an effective way to bring in a sense of safety.

So I know WHY I do it. Knowing that is NOT enough to change it.

The thing I usually do to try to change this is actually the thing you should never do.

And I know this isn't how to change a pattern, but I always think that *this time will be the one exception*

And so I decide: this time I'll just keep my foot on the gas. And I won't put my other foot on the brake. No matter what. Just for 30 days. Just to get over this particular bump on the path.

But we can't strong-arm ourselves into new ways of being.

And one-foot-on-the-gas-one-foot-on-the-brakes is a VERY established way of being for me, so I can't even imagine how strong that arm would have to be for strong-arming to even begin to work as a strategy.

So it's never worked.

But we *this time will be the one exception* ourselves because the way to ACTUALLY change our patterns is so hard that we would rather do anything than do that.

What happens for me is that I have ENOUGH gas to get to where I want to be, so I am not all that disturbed by the other foot on the brakes slowing me down... for the most part.

But then sometimes, like today, I get to these places where I notice that I didn't fully follow through on my plans/ideas and I get really frustrated with myself.

And that frustration is driving the decision to say: OK I AM DOING IT AGAIN AND THIS TIME GAS ONLY FFS!!!!

All that is is a desire to get out of my feelings of frustration.

That's NOT an effective approach to changing patterns.

And so the result is: I temporarily get free of my feelings of frustration, but I am just setting myself up to repeat the whole thing.

Because "JUST DO IT BETTER NEXT TIME" it NOT a strategy.

I'm writing this from inside that place of frustration where I really want to just make myself do it better next time.

Instead, I'm writing this out.

I'm spending some time with my feelings.

I'm cutting myself some slack.

And I'm asking myself: are you ready/willing/able to do the ACTUAL work of changing this pattern?

What I DO feel ready to do is to take the "Just keep your foot on the gas and do better next time" option off the table completely. It doesn't work, it just sets me up to get frustrated later on.

Of course, since it's a knee-jerk reaction for me at this point, that means I'll have to work on staying aware of this and not falling back into the pattern, which means probably catching myself IN THE PATTERN and choosing to get out of it sooner.

And eventually get to a place where it's not an option for me anymore.

What I really want is to be more HONEST with myself about this.

The truth is, I will never be a person who keeps her foot on the gas all the time. And it feels liberating to write that in public.

What I do want is to be a person who has more control over the brakes though. Who doesn't auto-brake the second things feel scary.

Actually I want a new metaphor. Because I always want to brake for danger, and it's a much more subtle issue of determining what is actually dangerous and what just feels scary because it's new and dreams are terrifying.

I feel ready to switch into a new metaphor for momentum.

And the first step to doing that is to be more honest with myself about my feelings ALL THE WAY THROUGH the process.

So that's where I'm starting now.

When not having the dream feels like evidence of not deserving it

Ouch. The pain of wanting a thing that is just out of reach.

There is so much shame in this feeling.

Like if I was good enough I'd already have the thing.

Like not having it is evidence of not deserving it.

And not having it is evidence that I will never have it.

This is where I was yesterday.

It's brutal.

I'm doing Project Miracle this month and it's helped me be clearer than ever which feels like a miracle in itself right now.

My Project Miracle journal

And as I got more clear about what I want, I started to want it BIGGER. And as I started to want it bigger all the stuff that is in the way started to feel bigger too.

Yesterday this felt like:

  • Tense jaw
  • Shoulders painfully tight and up around my ears.
  • Wanting to cry and distract myself and eat all the carbs.
  • Feeling 100% sure that there is ABSOLUTELY NO WAY to do this thing I want to do.
  • Feeling 50% sure that this means I also can't keep doing the things I want to do that I am already doing, that everything is about to fall apart.
  • Watching Netflix to try to avoid all of this
  • Moody and frustrated and tired and not at all present with the people around me.

Yes, some of this is processing the shock of suddenly losing a friend. That's making everything else harder than usual, for sure.

But this is what happens for me ✨every time✨ I want to take new steps with my dreams.

That feeling that not having it is evidence of not deserving it.

That shame that somehow I have already failed because I don't have it.

These feelings come up like huge brick walls that are impossible to move through. Being with them feels impossible...

But AVOIDING them is actually what will make getting the thing impossible.

Dreaming is vulnerable AF.

In all of my years of coaching people with their dreams, I've never met a person who DIDN'T feel this way at some point.

It's the ability to sit with, process, and move through this feeling that allows you to move towards your dream.

This is the work.

Because as brutal as FEELING this feeling is, what's more brutal is that trying to AVOID this feeling WILL make the thing you want completely impossible.

Holding space for all these wildly conflicting feelings, tending to all of the parts in you who need healing while creating MORE space for the things you want... this is the work.

My work with the Creative Dream Incubator is not about helping you find a short cut to get to your dream while avoiding the hard parts. My work is provide tools + support for navigating the hard parts, because they are inevitable.

You can either pursue your dreams wholeheartedly.

Or you can avoid all these uncomfortable feelings.

You can't have both.

PS: It's not too late to join me in Project Miracle.

#BadVibesWelcome On Grief + Dreams + the healing power of being where you are

But before I start: whenever I write honestly about difficult things in my life, I gets ton of unsolicited advice, which, even when well meaning, is extremely unhelpful. So my policy now is to not accept ANY unsolicited advice.

I've been in a rough spot. And I’ve noticed myself pulling back a lot. 

Part of it is a very natural need to just be quiet and more inward focused right now.

But part of it is this “I shouldn’t share this it will bum people out” thing that is NOT helpful for anyone.

We need to create BRAVE spaces where all parts of us are welcome, loved and seen. This is what the Creative Dream Incubator has always been so of course there is space here for my grief now.

On top of some other shitty things that happened, a lifelong friend died.

I’ve know him since I was 5. We were great friends and he was my first boyfriend in high school, though as adults we drifted apart and back together and back apart a few times.

A few years ago he really pushed me away at a time when he was talking about making a lot of positive changes. And even though I am obviously a good person to have around when you want to make positive changes, I understood.

We can pick up a lot of baggage in these lifelong friendships. Sometimes we can see who we WERE more clearly than who we are, or who we are becoming. Sometimes we need space away from the past to create a better future.

So I respected his decision. And I expected it to be temporary.

And now of course I am wondering, if I had tried harder to help - would he still be here?

It’s a painful question to sit with, and I know I’m not the only one who has been here.

I honoured his decision out of respect, and love, and a hope for a better future for him. So of course I’m devastated that that didn’t happen.

And now I’m trying to just honour everything I am thinking and feeling even as a lot of it conflicts with each other.

I’m also noticing:

  • My cognitive capacity is way down, a lot of things I do that are usually quick and easy are quite slow and draining to do now.
  • I’m much quicker to lose my temper and snap at my husband.
  • I’m tired and just want to eat carbs which makes me more tired.

But even in this shitty place, my dreams still exist. That part of me is not gone because I am grieving.

I think we feel like we should put our joy aside to make space for grief. To be appropriate.

But I think the most appropriate thing is to try to be as human as possible. To embrace our wholeness.

To fully feel our grief and pain and fear and also feel whatever joy we can find.

I’ve felt creatively blocked all week. But since I’ve started writing this (I missed writing!) super awkwardly with my iPad Pro on my lap sitting on an uncomfortable bench outside a coffee shop with tears in my eyes, I feel.... better?

I don’t know if better is the right word. But feeling in touch with my creativity helps me be more in touch with ME. Like it opens up some space and everything stops feeling so constricted and dark.

Just like I teach in my classes, we can have fear and dreams, we can have self doubt and take brave steps. This works better when we honour all parts of our experience.

We can have joy and grief. Love and sadness.

The more fully we can allow and experience our actual feelings, the better off we are. Denying grief will eventually cut off joy. Denying joy will make it more difficult to fully grieve.

The more complicated our relationship was with the person we lost, the more difficult this is because it’s hard to hold conflicting feelings. We live in a culture that doesn’t have a lot of space for this, which makes it even harder to be in it.

I teach how to meet yourself where you are and use what you find there to move towards where you want to be.

We can’t only show up for this work when we feel “good” and “ready”. That defeats the whole purpose.

So this week I’ve been bringing my grief and conflicting feelings into Project Miracle even though a part of me has been saying OMG NO DON’T DO THIS!

This part of me feels that, as the teacher, I need to show up clear + focused + positive.

But that’s not true. As a teacher, I need to walk my talk.

And I would never want to exclude anyone from my programs because they are grieving or feeling lost or like everything they want is impossibly out of reach.

This is where #goodvibesonly is so toxic because it leaves us alone in our pain.

We can have bad vibes, be grieving and in pain and lost and feeling like there is no hope - we can be in that sucky space and still create space for healing and magic.

In fact, we need and deserve the healing and magic so much more in these times.


And I don't have the bandwidth to write more fully on this, but also think about who gets left behind in #goodvibesonly - it further marginalizes already marginalized people. It leaves the people who need help the most unable to receive it. And in the larger context of how systemic oppression works in our culture, it supports white supremacy, the patriarchy and colonialist capitalism. Let's do better than that.

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