Let yourself be FED + NOURISHED by your own energy + attention.
Isn't it kind of fascinating + disturbing to think how our energy + attention is making BILLIONS for the tech billionaires?
That your energy + attention are worth so much?
Of course, your energy + attention, like your inherent value as a human being, are worthy beyond capitalism.
But inside capitalism, they are being taken and used for profit. And when we take them back, we restore them to their rightful role as being sacred. They truly do FEED and NOURISH us.
I've had a difficult summer. For reasons I am not going into on the internet - my body can't tolerate heat... in the hottest summer of my life.
I've been trying to just focus on the good and there is a lot of good...
But as I've started doing the Anti-Doomscroll process I have really noticed how much I have been distracting myself with scrolling.
The thing about "I am going to focus on the good" is that it leaves your feelings about the hard parts of your experience abandoned. Unprocessed. Just floating around in there. Perhaps finding other old abandoned hard feelings and feeding each other and growing into something bigger...
And I realize that I have been scrolling more to distract myself from the growing discomfort of holding all of these unprocessed feelings.
And it's like... yeah so many people have it worse that me and yeah I have so much going for me and yeah I can mostly focus on the positive...
But there is no magic in that.
All the magic is in being in your WHOLENESS.
And I know this!
But also... it's just hard. There has been a continual onslaught of hard things to process happening to all of us.
So this is what happens when I do the Anti-Doomscroll process:
I feel so FED AND NOURISHED by my energy and attention...
And then, as my energy and attention move deeper into me...
I cry!
I process! I release!
And then...
There is more space inside me. I feel more creative and present.
This is serious DREAM FUEL. I hope you’ll use it with me.
Membership members: get it here. And leave your thoughts in the comments on the bottom of the page about what you learn about what it is you REALLY need in that moment when you reach for the device. Let's inspire each other!
I added it to the home page of the membership to make it easier to find. (You can also use the FAVOURITES feature - scroll down to the bottom of any page on the site, and click the orange FAVOURITES button and then that page will show up in your “Classes + Faves” page which is always available from the menu bar at the top of the site.
And I added TWENTY check boxes! Check it off each time you do it and let’s see how fast you can get to 20!
If you're not in the membership: join here! Do this with me!
Even if you don't want to dive into the deeper Creative Dream Alchemy programs in the membership - your can just join for a month to use this to transform your relationship with doomscrolling! Let's scroll less and create more!
I created the Anti-Doomscroll Journaling + Meditation Kit because I NEED IT NOW.
I was about to write… I don’t know why I am scrolling so much…
But I do know.
And lying to ourselves is one way we avoid facing our truth.
Though I want to be clear: avoiding the truth is not a sin! It’s not a sign of weakness. It doesn’t mean you’ll never face it and work through it and get to the other side of it.
Usually we lie to ourselves to avoid our truth out of SELF KINDNESS. Because we are just not up to facing all of it in the moment. And that’s ok!!! All self kindness is a radical and creative act, in this world.
The Live Your Best Life Industry has gone WAYY off the deep end when it comes to blaming and shaming ourselves for having fears and doubts that make us hold back from our biggest dreams.
IT MAKES SENSE THAT WE WANT TO DISTRACT OURSELVES AT THIS TIME.
IT MAKES SENSE TO FEEL ANXIOUS OR EXHAUSTED OR OVERWHELMED OR EXACTLY HOWEVER YOU FEEL.
IT MAKES SENSE THAT YOU FEEL REALLY SMALL SOMETIMES AND YOUR DREAM FEELS REALLY BIG AND OUT OF REACH.
It makes ALL THE SENSE IN THE WORLD.
It doesn’t mean it’s super good for us. That doesn’t mean we have to keep doing it forever… But there’s nothing wrong with doomscrolling as a way to distract ourselves from the horrors.
AND… we can feel when it becomes a problem that we are ready to solve.
And then we can make a different choice.
Without shaming ourselves along the way.
Just saying - yeah that was the right choice for me because I felt too depleted for any other choice. And the tech billionaires put a LOT of money and effort into making those apps as addictive as possible so it makes sense that they pull me in.
And it’s valid that I want to make a different choice now.
And there are even good things about social media and how I can connect with people there and I don’t want to stop completely I just want to have a more intentional and helpful relationship with it.
Like - there is no either/or here. There are lots of truths and we can validate all of them and not make our past selves WRONG.
So…. I created the Anti-Doomscroll Kit because I NEED IT NOW.
And I am not judging myself for choices I’ve made that got me to this place where I need it.
And this week I am committing to really USING IT.
There is a meditation there that is for WHEN YOU ARE IN THE MOMENT WITH IT. Either about to pick up your device, or when you are scrolling and starting to notice that this no longer feels nourishing.
It’s an alchemy meditation to re-wire that energy that is flowing towards the device, bringing it back to you, to LET YOURSELF BE NOURISHED AND FED BY YOUR OWN ENERGY.
And a journaling kit (you can do either the meditation or the journaling or both!), also to be used IN THAT MOMENT, with prompts for transforming your relationship with doom scrolling.
This is serious dream fuel.
I hope you’ll use it with me.
Membership members: get it here. And leave your thoughts in the comments on the bottom of the page about what you learn about what it is you REALLY need in that moment when you reach for the device. Let's inspire each other!
I added it to the home page of the membership to make it easier to find. (You can also use the FAVOURITES feature - scroll down to the bottom of any page on the site, and click the orange FAVOURITES button and then that page will show up in your “Classes + Faves” page which is always available from the menu bar at the top of the site.
And I added TWENTY check boxes! Check it off each time you do it and let’s see how fast you can get to 20!
If you're not in the membership: join here! Do this with me!
Even if you don't want to dive into the deeper Creative Dream Alchemy programs in the membership - your can just join for a month to use this to transform your relationship with doomscrolling! Let's scroll less and create more!
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams. Do this with me!!
As I reflect on this week I see... I’ve been writing so much and sharing so little.
This week was filled with breakthroughs for me… so many questions became answers, so many ideas coming together in ways that blew my mind…. it felt like a new path opened up in front of me. I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT SO MANY THINGS!!!!!
I wrote about it so many times in so many ways and none of them felt right to share.
It’s been really important to me to share my process, consistently, IN PROCESS as my response to living and working in a world where we don’t share any of the “messy middle” unless you can turn it into a marketing point… to mostly share “from the other side”, fully branded as as the powerful witch who holds the secrets and can now show you the path.
This is so antithetical to everything that I know is true about how to hold space for personal, emotional, spiritual and creative growth.
The reason why, for many years, I wrote on my blog EVERY WEEK DAY, was so that I didn’t pick and choose WHAT I share.
This was a way to share honestly from inside the alchemy. Some days it’s inspiring. Some days it’s boring. Some days it’s a mess. I understand that this is terrible marketing but it’s powerful space-holding.
It’s just the most honest way for me to talk about my work.
In 2026 I decided to stop posting daily, to call the posts daily-ish, to give myself some space. I still want to share my own practice as a way of sharing what it means to have a Creative Dream ALCHEMY practice that is consistent and sturdy enough that you can rely on it.
But it felt important to stop sharing DAILY as a way to give myself space to…
To what?
I am not sure, to be honest.
With everything happening in the world I just wanted to go deeper into the question… How do I help people not let go of their dreams?
How do I help people go deeper and deeper into their creative and spiritual callings, so that we can create a better future for everyone?
Because I still believe in us. I believe we can create a better world. I actually even believe we WILL create a better world, I just don't know how bad things will get before we get to that stage.
One of the things that troubles me right now is how the personal and spiritual growth worlds have become so… monetized. We value a teacher based on their follower count and income as though their personal ambition, and in some cases outright greed, is the mark of a true healer.
This is rooted in the meritocracy, the idea that “the cream rises to the top” which also means… everyone has what they deserve. So a rich and famous teacher must have the best teachings.
But you can’t say everyone has what they deserve without also saying that people living on the street deserve that, that people with chronic illness deserve that, that people who have experienced violence and trauma… everyone deserves what they have.
Meritocracy is a part of the patriarchy and colonial capitalism. There are so many damaging ideas in our culture.
A part of the work of artists is to hold up a mirror to culture and to create culture. To improve upon it. This is a part of how we create a better future for everyone.
I’ve always felt somewhat caught in the middle of my work as an artist and my work as a spiritual teacher. Following my creative dreams with my art led to the accreditation as a spiritual teacher and then the discovery that I’m really good at holding space for other creative people to be IN PROCESS, to go deeper into their process, to access more of their magic and power. Not to tell them to do things my way, to truly support them to trust THEIR way - which is no small task, in a world that is screaming at you to conform to it.
Now that I am coming back to my art in a new way it feels like I am also deepening into my work as a space holder.
So much is coming together for me.
But I am still so deep in process that it’s hard to write about in a way that may make sense.
And I am so deeply grateful to be doing this work. I LOVE what’s been happening on our calls lately - the new format for the Co-Dreaming has been so magical and transformative. This week’s Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice felt deeply healing. I love that we are seeing more updates on the forum lately.
Please email me if you need more support for where you’re at with your dreams - let’s find some practice that will help!
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
THIS IS IT. IT IS TIME TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF 10X MORE.
It. Is. Time.
You don’t need to be “better”. You don’t need to feel ready. You just need to 10X your BELIEF IN YOURSELF.
You need your dreams.
And the world needs your gifts!!
This world - where the people with the smallest integrity jump right in there and grow the biggest businesses with the loudest voices while people with deep creative and spiritual gifts to share hold back because they feel “not good enough” and “not ready” and rightfully overwhelmed by the whole thing - needs your gifts.
This world - that makes it so hard for you to claim your giftedness because you are not here to conform you are here to be YOU - needs your gifts.
This world - which teaches you that “sharing your gifts” means being rich and famous - needs you to show it another way.
One of the ways that we help change the world is by not conforming. By being your authentic self.
Your authentic self, fully believing in yourself, may not look like what you think it will!
We are taught that self belief looks like conceit and over-confidence.
But it might look more like you being quietly happy and deep in the process of building your dream. It might look like you not sharing your dream with people who don't get it! It might look like a quiet self confidence that doesn't need to prove itself.
It might look like fully embracing that YOU ARE WORTHY OF YOUR DREAMS.
It might look like dreaming WEIRDER, not BIGGER. (In fact - it probably will)
You are here to be who you are and to help create a better culture that can create a better world.
Your dreams are always showing you how to do this.
Your WEIRDEST dreams. Your most SACRED dreams. Your most AUTHENTIC dreams. The ones that most people just won't understand.
The work of creative dreaming is really hard sometimes - that doesn’t mean you should give up or slow down or be QUIETER about your dreams… it means you get more support and give yourself permission to do it in smaller ways and to do it imperfectly and to make more space in your life to experiment and PRACTICE.
It. Is. Time.
Imagine that somewhere inside you is a dial that represents the volume of your self doubt. Turn it down to zero. Look beside it where there is a dial that represents the volume of your self belief. Whatever volume that one is at - increase the volume as high as it can go.
How can you hold onto FULL ON self belief today?
And let's remember that SELF DOUBT IS CULTURAL.
We live in a world that pushes us to conform instead of encourages us to be who we are.
If our cultures celebrated our unique gifts things would look a lot different.
Your Self Doubt Is Not Yours You Deserve To Believe In Yourself is a healing circle and guided journal to help you dig deeper into the inner work of FULLY BELIEVING IN YOURSELF.
This is inside the membership: members can get it here And if you're in the membership and need more support for figuring out how to hold onto your dreams right now - post in the forum or send me an email. Let's figure it out together!
It's also available on its own! Get it here.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
After my shower this morning I put on my nightgown and summer robe, made an iced coffee and took it to bed.
I sat crossed legged on my bed and started meditating.
Not with my headphones on and journal beside me, not the alchemy meditations that I teach like usual but just… sitting with myself.
Even though I just had a low energy kind of weekend and had been feeling sorry for myself… I noticed how much I love my life, how incredibly lucky I have been, how I love the freedom I have created for myself with the way I built my business.
I thought about how first thing in the morning is my most productive and “sharp” time and I felt a wave of delight move through me at the thought of using this time to just… sit.
I thought of how DEEPLY PRODUCTIVE this actually is.
And yes of course I am meditating through all of this. I am noticing thoughts and letting them go. But at the same time I was just loving the thoughts that were coming.
Almost every time when I want to make changes in my business, and I really sit with myself and the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator, the answer that comes is… go deeper. Expand that morning meditation + journaling + creative time.
The answer has never been to follow some online business guru’s 6 step system to make 6 figures in the next 6 days, you know?
If you have creative or spiritual gifts that you want to share, a part of having those gifts IS knowing your unique way of putting yourself out there. It’s all connected.
We can degrade our connection to our inner knowing about how to do that when we give too much authority to the “online business experts”. Some of their ideas and ways of doing things have become so pervasive, it really takes an effort to distance yourself from it to hear your own inner wisdom, and the wisdom of the soul of your work.
Your work didn’t grow and evolve to the point of wanting to help other people or move out into the world in some way, without also knowing HOW TO DO THAT. How to reach the people that it's here to help.
But usually, listening to the soul of your work is so deeply counter-cultural and counter to everything those gurus tell you - and there is this idea that we inherited that if we do things “the right way” then we will be rewarded, so we go looking (outside of us) for that “right way” to succeed.
I still remember something that was said at once of the first Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice sessions I did a few years ago.
“It’s just so painful and difficult to put my precious work out there into such a toxic world”
And yet… putting our precious work out there is one of the things that help heal the world.
And no… we don’t have to compromise on our values, adopt a “abundance as defined by capitalism” mindset, and do a bunch of things that are scary and inauthentic in order to succeed.
And I am not saying it’s going to be easy.
Nothing about the work of being your true self and sharing your gifts with the world is easy, exactly. But it is fulfilling and healing and soul-restoring in ways that nothing else can really touch.
Our next Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice session is happening tomorrow, July 28.
This is in the membership: get the call details here. (Or join us here to do this with us!)
This is a 45 minute alchemy meditation for going deep into the work of connecting with the soul of your work, exploring how your work wants to go out into the world and be seen by the people it’s for, and looking at what you can do to support that to happen.
This is usually a very small group, and we go deep in our sharing about where we’re at with all of this and figuring out what to do next. The calls last 90-120 minutes and yes there is a replay.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams. Do this with me!!
Girl! Your life is showing you what you need. Listen!
That was one of the messages I got from the soul of my dream on our Co-Dreaming call on Friday... Which I couldn't really understand. And then as the meditation went on we went into all the stuff I shared yesterday (about "stop trying to be better") and then that was what stayed with me.
I started my Dream Status report today by re-reading my notes from Friday's Co-Dreaming session. Then I did the new Dream Status Report alchemy meditation.
During the meditation I had this sensation of a new dream coming in... like a seed sprouting into a little seedling.
That happened before I brought the soul of my dream in... when I brought the soul of my dream in, the seedling stayed right in the center, the dream came in off to the side and the dream was pointing at the seedling. It felt like "focusing on that dream is what will support this dream right now".
Which circled back to something else that happened on Friday where my dream was trying to show me how I am the one who needs to change right now, to make more space for my dream. Like, I don't need to figure out how to create this thing I want, I need to look at myself and how I need to change in order to be able to HOLD this dream.
I wasn't sure what to do with that, but now that this seedling showed up - I get it.
The seedling is the dream of feeling better in my body. I don't want to share medical details, but some of these symptoms I am having are SO INFLAMED right now. And I am doing so much to care for myself in all of this. I was talking to a friend recently who is also going through some health stuff, and we talked about how when you're not well - all of you time and disposable income can go towards trying to be well.
My kitchen cupboards are SO cluttered because I have so many herbal remedies and supplements and things I am trying. And I am taking the drugs my Dr. recommended but they're not helping very much.
I think this is where it all dovetails with the "stop trying to be well" message.
I'm looking for the things that will help me feel the way I used to feel. What if I focus on caring for myself where I am?
I don't know how that is different, frankly.
I feel like suddenly I don't understand what my dream is trying to show me... I can see my dream (which is my SOUL'S GUIDANCE) trying to show me in a different path to take but I don't understand the path.
THIS. IS. GOOD. (All caps because I am trying to convince the parts of me who think this sucks)
It's uncomfortable to not have clarity. But if you ALWAYS have clarity then you are NEVER expanding your perspective. You're not growing. If you always have clarity then you are only creating what you already know how to create. That's not CREATIVE DREAMING.
So. My lack of clarity is good.
We can get so impatient at this parts, like GIVE ME THE ANSWERS NOW!!!!! but the truth is, the only options are:
- Keep sitting with this and making space for it, and exploring it, so you can find the answer in time.
- Give up. Know that your dream AKA a message from your soul, is trying to show you something and decide it's not worth the effort and walk away.
So I know what I am going to do but that doesn't mean I have to feel patient about it.
This week's Dream Status Report has brought a lot of questions. The purpose of this practice isn't to necessarily get ANSWERS, but to give you some direction for where to focus for the next week.
The path to a dream is BOTH non-linear and multi-dimensional.
There is so much happening in inner healing AND the soul work of growing into who you are AND the creative growth AND the outer work...
So it's VERY easy to not be able to see what's in front of you.
And this weekly refection helps to orient you.
Without this, I would have gone into this next week focusd on the outer work I want to get done. And I did list those thing in my planner.... but I also listed a whole bunch of questions and ideas to hold onto.
I feel I am on the cusp of so much and these health problems are IN THE WAY...
But what if I can hold all of it together? What if the health problems and the way they shift my capacity are a part of these changes?
What if my life, exactly as it is, is trying to show me something about what I need in this life-long work of fully being who I am...
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I went for a 40 minute bike ride first thing this morning. I feel amazing.
There are so many reasons why I can't get the amount of exercise I need to feel the way I want to feel. So when things (weather and smoke conditions, energy levels and what my symptoms are doing) line up and I can get a ride in, this always feels sooooo good.
But while I was on my ride I was remembering when this particular ride was a path I used to take in the evenings, after already having ridden that far, or further, throughout the day. And I thought about how I FELT then when I had the right amount of exercise for me, how much energy I had and how easy it was to take care of my mental health. I thought about how much I miss those days.
Yesterday we had another beautiful and transformative Co-Dreaming call. (Replay is here for members)
We started with a 40 minute alchemy meditation for getting the insight/advice/healing/shift you need from the soul of your dream. Then we focused on STAYING IN THE MAGIC for the rest of call, and using that magic to work on whatever we wanted to work on.
The soul of my dream said to me: STOP TRYING SO HARD TO BE WELL.
Which felt like WTF? I am struggling with my health so much, of course I am doing everything I can to be well.
I asked the soul of my dream if it could make things easier for me and it suddenly grew arms, reached out, and pushed me down (!!)
It was saying "Hit rock bottom. There is something for you there."
I felt upset by this advice in the moment.
The soul of my dream insisted: What if your most messed up, sick and depressed self is the version of you who can take these next steps?
When it put it like that, I thought about how I would never suggest that anyone who is working with me needs to stop being depressed before they can have their dream, or even take their next steps.
Often we FEEL LIKE we need to "get our life together" before we can dive into this magic but that's NEVER true.
I thought about, and this is another thing that came up on our call yesterday, how we are pushed to conform on so many levels in this culture and how our dreams are generally pushing back against that and how hard that can be.
Dominant culture always wants us to be well. Productive. Positive. Accomodating.
Your dream wants you to be YOU. In all of your glorious mess.
Your dream also understands the reality of life... that there are so many ways to be and all of them are valid. Your depressed self and your sick self are completely worthy of your dreams.
A healthy culture would make space for diversity. Ours does not. We can internalize this without realizing it.
We can feel like we need to be "our best self" to make our dreams happen.
That's not true.
Your dream wants you to be your most REAL self.
Your dream wants you to remember that you were born worthy and nothing ever changes that.
So this week I am going to be thinking about...
Where am I pushing myself to be well instead of validating where I am...
Where could I better care for myself AS I AM instead of care for myself as a way to trying to coerce my body and mind to behave the way I want them to...
And what magic exists right here during flare ups that make me miserable?
PS: Yesterday I added the Anti-Doomscroll Journaling + Meditation Kit to the membership! Get it here.
I also added a new meditation to the Weekly Dream Status Report process.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
This one is long, but it’s important to me to share all of these details because this is how to REALLY be in the process of making a dream real and I want you (and everyone!) to have your dream.
I’ve been doing the Creative Dream Incubator for 16 years. And before that I was very involved with a New Thought center, which is a spiritual organization whose whole thing is manifesting. At that center, I saw how few people actually manifested their dreams in a grounded and lasting way and as a teacher I wanted to figure out how we could do better.
Even with all this evidence around me that… this stuff isn’t actually working for most people… I wanted to believe that there was a way we could help more people create the lives they wanted to live. Because the alternative is to blame people for “manifesting wrong”. To say that it’s their own negative thinking, fears and self doubt that are getting in the way. Which is actually what happens in those centers!
When I was a teacher at one of these organizations, I sat in rooms with other teachers where I brought up the question "What can we do to help the people who are really struggling?”
And the answer was always some form of “we have to just wait for them to get out of their own way”. The official “teaching” on that was that the length of time it takes to manifest a thing is a measure of your own disbelief. That line was always stated as though it is profound and there was no support or thought given about how you might HEAL or CHANGE your disbelief.
It was all so profoundly un-helpful to the people who struggled the most, and then were blamed for their struggle.
I think it’s more helpful to blame the APPROACH. Not to point fingers, but so that we can find a GOOD and HELPFUL ANSWER to the question: How do we help more people have more of what they want?
How do we help people ACTUALLY believe in themselves and their dreams, in such a tangible way, that they make them happen?
Seeking that answer led me to leave those organizations because the things I was learning were putting me at odds with what was happening there.
That was 16 years ago. In the time since I have found so many BETTER answers to the question of how to help more people make more dreams real more often.
Unfortunately, a big part of the answer is to go DEEPER into the feelings that come up when you TRY with your dreams.
You TRY and then…
- You fail and feel helpless…
- You get overwhelmed and feel depleted…
- It goes well and you feel terrified about what’s next…
... Whatever it is, that thing that happens - THAT is where the MAGIC is.
Going deeper and deeper into it will bring you the answers, healing, insights and energy you need to keep doing the work of building your dream.
Which means going deeper and deeper into your uncomfortable feelings which is completely counter-cultural. So we all have all these parts of us who scream at us to stop. Don’t feel it. Don’t look at it. Just be positive. Just put that dream away and lock the door and throw away the key because it brings up too many FEELINGS.
But this is the process of making a BIG dream happen. Your feelings are a part of it.
This is why I share my embarrassing and messy personal process so openly.
I am pushing back on these cultural norms because they are hurting us.
I am pushing back on these cultural norms because this is the culture that is destroying the world. The endless wars and overconsumption and violence and destruction is a part of the culture that tells you not to feel your feelings. It’s all connected.
I am pushing back on these cultural norms because this is what artists DO. We CREATE culture. We hold up a mirror. We offer new possibilities.
When I share my personal practice, I share what it means to actually to do the work to believe in yourself and believe in your dreams strong enough to not just make them real but make them sturdy enough that you can live inside them.
So… this morning I did the Hello Day practice with the soul of my business - part of the Dream Book 2026 program which is where you establish a regular practice of holding space for yourself. This is a foundational thing so that you can get into the deeper work of creative dreaming - you are holding space for the magic to happen.
I was feeling kind of all over the place - yesterday’s Un-Sticking work was intense (I’ll share more on that below).
In the meditation, the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator showed up like… kind of like a fountain. An energy that was bursting with CELEBRATION.
The soul of the Creative Dream Incubator was just so happy about the Inner Work I’ve been doing with this stuck. It didn’t care that I’ve been moving sooooo slooooow in the Outer Work this week, it is certain that this particular Inner Work IS what is needed before this Outer Work can happen… like I feel I am kind of stuck and moving so slow but the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator things I’m doing great.
Well that is reassuring!
But I showed it my projects - these meditations I have recorded and am trying to get ready to share in the membership… I really want this DONE like yesterday.
The soul of the Creative Dream Incubator says that my wanting to do them fast is the only PROBLEM. I need to slow down, and really BE WITH what I am doing in a deeper way - and that this changes how I put this stuff together which changes how helpful it is.
The soul of the Creative Dream Incubator, now an energy being in the shape of a being, puts it’s hands on it’s hips and cocks it’s head and looks at me. It’s saying “GIRL! You KNOW this! Why are you acting like you don’t already know this?!”
And I’m like… yeah I know I know this. I’m just… everything feels so raw right now, I wanted to finish these to feel like I am doing well, I want to see that external progress.
I know the internal progress is invisible but MORE IMPORTANT than the outer progress, in the long run.
And yet here I am wanting to measure my progress by the external accomplishments.
So, I am holding onto that as I go into my day. I will NOT focus on getting this stuff done ASAP, I will focus on doing the best work I can.
I feel clear and ready to get to work - for now anyway. But how I got here was an absolute MESS.
And when we avoid that mess we avoid the REAL inner progress.
So let’s talk about the mess.
Yesterday I wrote about having this huge creative block and then finding out that it wanted to heal me and give me everything.
Then I did the long (all three steps together) version of the Un-Sticking Meditation to meet with my creative block, and paused often to take more time with the questions. I spent at least an hour with it.
My creative block had so much to show me.
My creative block has MEDICINE for me.
It feels like a video game where I am bopping along my path, and this… thing… appears in front of me. A portal. An opportunity. A teaching. Bonus stars or whatever video games give out these days.
Even though yes it is ENTIRELY blocking my way, this block is not an obstacle or a problem, it’s actually an important part of the path.
And when we got into it, the creative block had a lot to say. I filled 4 pages in my BIG journal.
And then things started to shift….
I had this really clear guidance about is needed and I felt myself freeze in response.
I felt myself start to feel incapable of acting on that guidance.
I started to think “You know what? I should just lay in bed with my phone and scroll until I feel better”
And I was not referring to feeling better physically I meant until I feel brave and inspired and ready to create.
Like, I wanted to just let this frozen self be in the driver’s seat of my life for as long as she wanted to be there.
So I made a drawing of this frozen self and, keep in mind I am still in the Un-Sticking meditation. I went into that meditation to work with the creative block and now that’s gone, now I am sitting with my frozen response to the creative block’s wisdom and guidance….
It felt like I had gone into a deeper meditation from within the meditation.
And I thought maybe I should start over the meditation and go through the process with this new “stuck”, but when the next question came on it felt like the perfect question for this frozen self, so I just carried on.
I worked with that frozen self stuck and filled another 2 pages in the big journal.
I worked through SOME stuff, enough that I went into my day and did make some decent, measurable progress in the outer work.
But as the day went on, I became more upset. I was sad and angry and just… all the feels.
I was crying and I asked myself “Why are you so upset?” because I wasn’t even sure what had happened, I was just REALLY upset.
But eventually I realised what was happening.
It was that frozen self. She was melting.
That frozen self had a lot of feelings about a lot of things.
And by getting in touch with her, by getting in touch with the deeper thing beneath that creative block, I unleashed all of the feelings that had been frozen.
So I focused on validating my feelings and making space for them and figuring out how to tend to them. (This is also in the Un-Sticking Station alchemy meditations, the one called For When You’re Too Upset To Do This)
And then EVERYTHING started to make sense.
The creative block itself. The frozen self. The way I’d had a couple of REALLY GREAT WEEKS and was feeling like I was getting to these next level creative dreams….
I WAS getting to my next level creative dreams. I AM doing that. I am in process.
And a part of that work is to face next-level hidden/buried/frozen feelings.
Sometimes this work is SO no non-linear it feels TRIPPY and then all of a sudden everything snaps into place and makes sense.
But being in process is SO messy and SO scary and SO overwhelming that most people stop the process to get out of all of those big feelings.
But the only way out is through. You DO NOT get to that place where it all snaps into place and makes sense by avoiding the mess.
Having the Dream Book 2026 dreamer/planner gives you a gentler way to stay in the process. No matter where you’re at, you can do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting practice to just… sit with yourself and look at what you need and want. And I’ve added more Hello Day practice for different situations.
But the idea is to have a simpler way to hold space for yourself in the mess of being in the process.
Compared to Dream Book which is focused on navigating the path between where you are and where you want to be. Sometimes that path is SUCH A MESS that you want to step off it.
So, step into Dream Book 2026 instead of taking a break from dreaming altogether.
Give things a chance to settle while staying in process. Because every time you give up completely because it's too hard or too messy or feels too impossible... it gets harder to pick it back up.
You will find your way though if you keep showing up.
Messy is GOOOOOOD.
And please remember I am here! When you're not sure what to do, come to the forum or send me an email and let me know what's happening. Let's talk about and find an approach that will help.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I am also feeling very sorry for myself.
And I am having a flare of up my health stuff, due to the heat, and I have another month to wait to see a specialist and… it’s so hot and just getting hotter.
Like, can I just be put to sleep somehow and woken up in 1 month?
And then this other part of me is like… well yeah you can't really go out but you could stay in and spend this month making art. And she points to this closet full of ideas of things I want to do and I just… blech.
My creative magic feels so far away.
I’ve had several weeks of breakthroughs and that palpable feeling like “things are coming together” in my creative dream process lately. Everything was going SOOOOO GOOD! That makes it especially suck to feel so blocked.
So I was distracting myself by cleaning, meal prepping, laundry….
And while putting away the last of the laundry it hit me.
What would I say if someone in the membership told me they had this problem?
Can't I coach myself through this?
So, if any of you said this to me, the first thing I would do is legitimize how much my situation SUCKS. To have a health issue that is aggravated by heat, and to have to wait to get help, during the hottest part of the year, is especially frustrating. And the health thing on it's own is enough to make it harder to have the energy to create.
I would wonder if this is a good time to be gentler with yourself and your goals.
And then I would wonder… can we re-vision or re-relate to this time period of 1 month while waiting to see the doctor? Could this be a 30 day project? Could it be a kind of temporary magic bubble?
But I don't want to do any of that. I want to do the stuff I want to do and NOT be creatively blocked.
Well then, unfortunately, my coach/mentor self would say "So have you taken that to the Un-Sticking Station?" and no I hadn't.
I hadn't even thought about it even though I always say... the step you are on is the only step you can take! Do not JUDGE where you are, just figure out how to be with what is actually there! If you're on a step where all there is is a creative block - work with the block.
A creative block needs Un-Sticking.
And guess what?
That was instant magic.
I saw right away that I was holding the creative block TOO FAR AWAY. Like holding it at arm's length instead of really being with it.
When I could be with it, I understood...
My creative block wants to heal me and give me everything.
Which felt like... whoa this is TOO trippy. I have taken this alchemy meditation stuff TOO far.
But I sat with that a while and then I could see how all of our creative blocks really do want to heal us and give us what we want.
A creative block is a signal to look deeper.
A creative block demands that you step off the path you were on and dig deeper.
Digging deeper always creates a BETTER way through.
So... my creative block isn't the problem.
My relationship with the block is the problem, all of the resistance and distraction I am bringing to the situation is the problem.
Which feels especially funny/aggravating since one of the projects I wanted to finish this week is the Anti-Doomscroll Alchemy Meditation + Journaling Kit. But here I am doomscrolling to distract myself from the pain of my creative block!
That happened last night, so I didn't do anything more with it. And here I am this morning, still feeling blocked but understanding that the work is to BE WITH the block and all of the feelings and thoughts it brings up, and to keep digging deeper.
Here I am, understanding and accepting that THIS IS THE PATH. These are my next steps. I am not "off track" I am in the process.
I don't know how I am working through this. But I am showing up.
I do know that when I saw the block in my meditation, it looked like this papier-mâché thing that I do want to make for my home. And I was thinking if I can't get myself un-blocked to do my projects, I will start the papier-mâché project instead of scrolling today - as a way of "being with" the creative block.
And I know that I need another Un-Sticking meditation, so I will start there.
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams. Do this with me!!
Creative dreaming isn't about ALWAYS moving forward.
Integration periods are needed too. That's where I've been this week.
LISTENING TO MY DREAM about what's next.
I've been in a deep process, for several years now, of exploring the question:
How do we hold space for our dreams in the dystopia?
This has led to so many feelings, so many thoughts, so many other questions.
Some of the ones I spent the most time with were: Do our dreams matter in the dystopia? Is there something else I should be doing?
Have I been wrong about everything? Is this whole thing about how your dream is actually your soul calling and that it is imperative that you answer and if more people answered their soul callings we would make the world better... was this all a pipe dream?
Thankfully, making space for all of the thoughts and feelings sparked by those questions ultimately led to: An unshakable knowing that our dreams are the only thing that can save us.
That we carry the medicine that we need.
That collectively we carry the medicine that the world needs. That we create the future.
And that the answer to the question of how I can hold space for dreams and dreamers in this dystopia is to root more deeply into creativity and soul.
This is where we find our medicine - and the power to use and share it.
But rooting deeper into creativity + soul isn't going to look like you think it will.
So instead of trying to force this to look like my preconceived notions, I am practicing trusting the process.
What that looked like this week is a lot of rest and processing. And then really focused and incredibly productive bursts of creativity. Depending on how that continues, you're going to get 4-6 new meditations in the membership this week!
I re-arranged some furniture this week in a way that feels MAGIC.
One reason why I wanted an open loft is so I could re-arrange as my life and priorities change. Sometimes I might want more space for art making and sometimes I might want more space to have people over. I love this flexibility.
I moved everything. I also did some decluttering in a few areas, including giving away a big shelving unit that I have known I haven't wanted for a while but didn't want to do the work of actually getting it out of here.
I have been feeling ridiculously happy about how my home feels.
Like, RIDICULOUSLY happy.
AND... I want to stress this... I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS.
It was listening to my dream that led me to do this. As I share last week - during the Make Space In Your Life For Your Dream class, my dream was telling me that the shape of my life wasn't quite right.
At the same time my dream was telling me it's time to move a few pieces furniture in a particular way... and once I did that other ideas started coming in, it turned into this whole thing.
Now I am feeling ridiculously happy, I am feeling like I RE-SHAPED my life. Not just my space (which is important) but the ways I will use it.
I feel like I am making space for new possibilities.
I am making more space for my dream in more ways that I realized.
This is the work!
WE have to keep LISTENING to our dreams and PARTNERING with our dreams, not just trying to force them to come true on our terms.
This is why I want you to have a Creative Dream Alchemy PRACTICE (the Dream Book 2026 program or some kind of daily-ish practice with Dream Work practices)
And also to have a Dream Book for navigating the inner and outer path towards your dream.
And also do these weekly check-ins and monthly intention settings....
Because this is the work that roots you more deeply into your creativity and soul. This gives you the opportunity to hear your own self more clearly.
This connects you to your MEDICINE and gives you the knowing of how to use which is exactly the thing you need right now.
This week, for me, that looks like de-cluttering and re-arranging and starting to make plans to paint my whole condo.
What does it look like for you this week?
Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:
Do a Hello Day Practice (from Dream Book 2026)
Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.
Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.
Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.
If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!