I feel so scattered this morning.
I took my journals to a coffee shop which usually does the trick! Some fresh air and exercise to get here, then focused attention on planning, but...
Still. It's like I have so much to do and it’s not just that I don’t know how to do it, I don’t know how to get myself GOING.
I’m having a Monday, lol.
So instead of journaling up a brilliant plan, I journaled about where I was and where I wanted to be and everything that is happening… and that showed me how I need to focus on going deeper into where I am. To really explore and understand it.
And the answer I needed was several layers down.
I wrote about how I felt - like I am tiny and these project are huge.
And then… what do I mean by “huge”?
Heavy. Lots of moving parts. Complicated. Important. IMPORTANT! Meaningful. Sacred.
Then things shifted.
This work is SACRED.
I am trying to “just get to work” when I need to recognize and validate how SACRED this work is.
So I need to clear space - literally in the space I am working in (which has stuff scattered everywhere from about 50 thousands different creative projects) but also I need to clear space inside me.
Instead of trying to figure out how to get moving in the outer work, the focus needs to be on going deeper into the dream work and connecting with the soul of the thing.
I need to DEEPEN into it instead of GET MOVING FASTER.
So instead of “getting my shit together and making a plan for the week” I am going to spend this morning deepening into the process. Communing with the souls of these two projects, and let them show me what is needed to TEND TO THEM as opposed to COMPLETE THEM ASAP.
And my bet is that this will help me complete them both faster and easier. But I KNOW that this approach will help me do better work, even if it takes longer. And our best work is the work that helps build our bigger dreams.
Your weirdest dreams have so much to teach you.
The places where you are weird are just the places where you don't conform to who the world thinks you should be. When we can make more space for that weirdness, we can learn more about our selves, find more of our inner gifts and medicine, and be more powerful in our lives.
Dreaming WEIRDER is a 1 hour alchemy meditation + journaling healing circle for exploring all of this. It's happening Oct 1 in the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership.
Members: Get the call details here.
Or find out more about the membership here.
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
I am re-reading my post from last week and it's like WHOA - NOW I understand where I was then.
It's SO GOOD to do this weekly reflection and then look back on it a week later. The path becomes to much clearer this way. Not to FOCUS on looking back always but to look back enough to see the through-lines. Kind of like how people who don't learn history are bound to repeat it.
We don't always understand our process while we are in it!
I know how helpful this is AND STILL I had a TON of resistance to doing this practice today.
So I made a little nest of pillows and got comfy in there, with my headphones on, because when I tried to do it while sitting in a chair - I kept getting distracted and doing something else.
Once I finally got myself into the meditation it was clear why I am feeling so much resistance... my dream handed me a ball of light.
It was... the ball is in your corner kind of energy.
I picked up the ball and felt the weight of all the stuff I need to do.
For all of my dreams! For all the things I want! There is just a ton of Outer Work to be done right now.
And I felt overwhelmed by it all.
So I gave myself space to FEEL how I felt.
And I validated that this A LOT OF STUFF to do.
And feeling overwhelmed about it is natural!
Feeling tired at the thought of doing all of this is natural!
And I asked... what does my overwhelmed self need?
She really needs to not think about this too much today. AND to have a plan to get organized tomorrow.
So tomorrow morning I am taking my journal out for coffee which is my favourite way to get organized.
Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!
Your weirdest dreams have so much to teach you.
The places where you are weird are just the places where you don't conform to who the world thinks you should be. When we can make more space for that weirdness, we can learn more about our selves, find more of our inner gifts and medicine, and be more powerful in our lives.
Dreaming WEIRDER is a 1 hour alchemy meditation + journaling healing circle for exploring all of this. It's happening Oct 1 in the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership.
Members: Get the call details here.
Or find out more about the membership here.
There are not a lot of guarantees when it comes to creative dreaming, but one thing I can absolutely guarantee is that your authentic voice is going to come across as TOO WEIRD for some people.
There are a lot of reasons for this. There are a lot of layers of things happening when we "feel weird".
We don't want to be weird just for the sake of being weird.
But we want to explore the places where we pull back out of fear of being weird. And the places where we confuse our AUTHENTICITY with "being weird".
Because the places where you ARE weird are just the places where you don't conform to who the world thinks you should be.
When we can make more space for that weirdness, we can learn more about our selves, find more of our inner gifts and medicine, and be more powerful in our lives.
Your weirdest dreams have so much to teach you.
Dreaming WEIRDER is a 1 hour alchemy meditation + journaling healing circle for exploring all of this.
It's happening Oct 1 in the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership.
Members: Get the call details here.
Find out more about the membership here.
Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!
This is where we practice rooting deeper into creativity + soul together. We'll start with a longer (about 40 minute) meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream specifically to receive the message/healing/insight/idea that your dream wants to send you now.
This will create a lovely atmosphere for co-working, to start with the meditation and then leave the audio on or off, and do your thing within the bubble of the magic we create together in the meditation.
And we can talk about what comes up in the meditation and look at how we can really receive and act on the messages/ideas/healing/shifts we receive in the meditation.
Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.
I was so happy yesterday when I got an email response to my post It’s usually boring to show up consistently, then some days it’s MAGIC.
The person said that they find my sharings so helping and are so grateful that they are doing more Dream Work and experiencing the benefits of it.
I was particularly happy to get that email right in that moment because I was having a lot of doubt with this new program I am creating - Your Creative Dreamer (which starts Dec 21).
Your Creative Dreamer brings together EVERYTHING. A way to hold space for the multi-dimensional and non-linear creative and spiritual process of healing so hard you make your creative dreams real.
And this is what my self doubt says about it:
People won’t want to do ALL THE THINGS they just want you to show them exactly how to make their dream real.
And I say:
Of course that’s true of some people. Some people don’t want to heal and grow. Some people want a linear journey.
But I am here for the people who want MAGIC. And the people who want MAGIC understand that you need to show up for. You need to build the container to HOLD SPACE for it.
My self doubt is concerned that people won’t take the time to discover for themselves how incredibly powerful it is to approach your dreams in this way.
So my self doubt has been trying to get me to second guess myself about absolutely everything about what I am creating here.
And it’s been succeeding! Sometimes.
But then I decided to sit down and really explore it, like DO the Inner Work with it, and suddenly all of the power that this story held started to unravel.
When my self doubt presented the idea that “people won’t want to do all of this” it was panicking about it, and saying “so you should stop immediately and create something that people will like” because my self doubt cannot tolerate the discomfort of some people not liking my work.
I lean towards my self doubt, looking her in the eye, and say “That’s absolutely fine. Nothing is for everyone. This work is for the people who DO want it.”
I expected my self doubt to fall apart about this, but she just considered what I was saying.
I said “I think we need to look at: what is the goal here? Am I trying to create something that will be beloved by millions or am I trying to create something that will be deeply helpful to the people who vibe with me and feel the magic and want to work with me?”
As I asked the question:
“beloved by millions” feels like stretching out, watering down my work to be palatable to the “normies” (something that's been coming up a lot on our group coaching calls lately!)
“create something that will be deeply helpful” feels like deepening into my medicine to offer it in a way that really helps the people that it is for
My self doubt is exasperated. “Just once I’d like to do something that’s not so weird, that is what people expect and isn’t so convoluted to explain”
And I say “Show me ONE THING that is is what people expect and isn’t so convoluted to explain that also puts people so deeply in touch with their own magic that they can do the things that they felt they couldn’t do.”
I’ve been reading some of Carl Jung’s writing on alchemy and the healing and growth process and it’s as weird and non-linear as anything I've done.
Art and healing are not here to FIT IN with the world. They are here to create whole new possibilities!
Anything that has a real impact is going to be weird, misunderstood, and not liked by a significant number of people.
But the best part is... none of this even MATTERS!!!!
Because I am ONE PERSON who cannot work with millions of people in my membership, or even thousands, and don’t even want that kind of business that is constantly focused on growth like a capitalist cancer.
Self doubt deflates like a balloon and I am left with…
It’s just so vulnerable and awkward to create something new. To try and use your medicine to the best of your ability.
That’s just the truth.
And we push against that truth when we do try to use our medicine to the best of our ability.
And that’s just one of the many multi-faceted things that is happening, all at once.
There is so much DEPTH to the creative process, and when we try to make a thing as fast as possible, or try to make a thing that will be as marketable as possible, we cut ourselves off from that depth because we are too externally focused.
I think, when we can finally allow ourselves to go there, that it’s that depth that will save us - both individually and collectively.
I got to work this morning. This is it. No more beating around the bush. I have a plan. Everything is in place.
I start with the Hello Day meditation that includes meeting with the soul of your business.
In the meditation, I say to the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator that I am ready to work on this project today and the Incubator shows me an image. It’s basically one part of this project.
So I thought about that part of the project, it’s probably my favourite part, and I get this sense that I need to MAKE IT ON PAPER.
I have been writing notes/ideas on my computer, thinking this is the best way to compile ideas and write sections of this and move things around, etc.
Suddenly I see how MAKING IT IN PAPER would be better for getting a feel for it.
Then I realise that this particular page would be better suited to card stock and I don’t seem to have any so now I am planning a trip to the stationary store…
When I notice “Hey that’s my resistance! Trying to find ways to get me to STOP.” Yes, the finished thing needs cardstock but this is not even a rough draft. This is just putting an idea on paper to look at it.
So I convince my self doubt that we can do this on regular paper! Let’s just keep MOVING and not let anything stop us or derail us... this is not even a first draft. It’s barely anything. No pressure. Doing this will help us figure out how to do a REAL draft… but that will come later.
(Got the idea to say “not even a rough draft” to take the pressure down for the part of me who was starting to feel like I need to figure out the BEST POSSIBLE WAY to do this right from the start. I know that I need the EASIEST POSSIBLE WAY to get started and I’ll never get to the BEST POSSIBLE WAY if I am not started and moving with it.)
At this point I have opened drawers and have things out and I’m going through my stationary stuff. I pulled out some papers. I want to do this disc bound (like a binder but just the rings) but I can’t find my discs. I KNOW I have another set of discs somewhere…
Oh! Here they are.
OH HOLY SHIT.
Here they are, holding together a different thing I made….
A thing that ANSWERS A LOT OF THE QUESTIONS ABOUT HOW TO DO THIS THING.
A thing that I had totally forgot I had made!
What?!
It may sound weird to have this whole thing I’ve made that I totally forgot about… but this is a part of the magic of being post-menopausal and highly creative. I’m also wearing a super cute vest I knitted several years ago, with a big cat on the front, which I also totally forgot I made, and I found while decluttering my closet this weekend.
So suddenly I am not starting from scratch on this project.
Suddenly I am standing on the shoulders of this other project I did several years ago that answers all of the questions I have about how to start this new one!!!!
And as I was looking through it, I felt like the soul of my business and the soul of this new project were jumping up and down clapping. They wanted to build on this, instead of start from scratch as I had been trying to do the last few weeks.
It's AMAZING how this all came together today but let's be real about what it takes to have this stuff happen in ways that help you move forward with your dream.
The fact that I did the meditation and got a message that sent me looking through my drawers for something that was attached to the exact thing that can help me do this project… that’s not a sign that I am a special witch with magic powers or anything like that.
It’s what happens when you take more time to stop and reflect, and then take MORE TIME STILL, and keep trying to go DEEPER in terms of listening to all parts of you, especially your own soul, and also the soul of your dream.
I see it ALL THE TIME in the membership. As people really listen, and are willing to go outside of what they think the path “should” look like… they get the most amazing ideas from their own selves. Even though the ideas can seem weird or counter-intuitive at first.
A part of HAVING A DREAM is also KNOWING HOW TO MAKE IT HAPPEN IN YOUR OWN UNIQUE WAY.
These two things are connected. But you have to keep going DEEPER INTO the soul of your dream to find it - it times time to develop that relationship.
This becomes further complicated when you live in a wold that is continuously pushing on you to conform. The work of freeing yourself of all of that and being able to do your BIG MAGIC is actually really boring because it’s the work os showing up consistently, sitting with yourself and your feelings and your questions and the soul of your dream and looking, every day, for how you can go deeper into it.
These amazing days where it all comes together LIKE MAGIC only happen when you've been showing up consistently for the boring days.
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
So grateful for this practice this morning.
I had a busy week with so many unexpected (shitty + unwelcome) things happening. I woke up overwhelmed and then thought - oh how nice will it be to sit down and do the meditation and spend some time reflecting on everything that happened? Wouldn’t it be nice to do that and then feel more grounded where I am and where I want to go this week?
I put the meditation on and listened while I ate breakfast - not officially a meditation but that’s fine! Just practicing these alchemy meditations consistently, in whatever way you can, is enough. This helps shift your relationship with your dream which shifts your relationships with your inner wisdom, bolsters self belief and changes how you see everything.
The soul of my dream showed up as an invitation, like an invitation from a Disney story. It can fly, it sparkles, it unfolds and becomes multiple invitations. It felt like… I am multiple INVITATIONS and zero PRESSURES. It’s fine that I am circling around things a bit right now, it’s find that I'm not getting to work the way I thought I would this week. The invitation is still open. It doesn’t expire if you don’t act on it as quickly and efficiently as possible.
After sitting with the Dream Status Report questions, I realised I am being asked to consider something in a new way.
This "I had a busy week with so many unexpected shitty things happening" thing... what I realised is that I keep insisting that my ideas of what "should" happen and how my week "should" go are RIGHT. And if life "interferes" then it is "interfering". Do you catch my drift?
WHAT IF life is re-directing me?
WHAT IF life is SUPPORTING and GUIDING me?
WHAT IF these distractions, shitty happenings and disturbances are HERE TO HELP?
WHAT IF my insistence about how things SHOULD go is where the problem lays?
WHAT IF I don't control the universe and I am not supposed to try?
WHAT IF I recognize the life is a mystery and be open to finding out what it wants to show me instead of insisting that I have all the answers? Like, not to give ALL creative control of my life away but to co-create with life instead of try to control it?
There is so much detangling for me, right now, about how we hold intention.
I have been exploring this from different angles for many years but it is really HITTING ME again, in a new way, this morning.
Do we want to co-create with life or try to control the universe with our thoughts?
Do we believe that spiritual growth and maturity look like being able to expertly and consistently control the conditions of our lives?
Do we believe that every problem has an answer and if you can't find it you are failing?
Or do we believe that spiritual growth and maturity come with humility and acceptance?
Could spiritual growth and maturity be more about caring for others and building community and taking a "no seconds for anyone until everyone has had something to eat" kind of approach to abundance?
I'm not sure we are really aware of how deeply we are all impacted by this worldview that justifies the meritocracy, that says that the guy with billions of dollars is a genius who deserves to have that much more than everyone else and the people living on the street deserve to be where they are, they made mistakes and need to pull themselves up by their non-existent bootstraps.
And this worldview does come with the idea that spiritual maturity = wealth. The property gospel is the core of so many of our religions including the new age and new though spiritual-but-not-religious movements. The doctrine of discovery that justifies colonialism, genocide and slavery.
This is not about politics. This is about how these worldviews, how the culture around us, impacts us and our dreams - what we dream of and how we work with our dreams.
And it's so fucked up.
We all deserve abundance but our whole concept of what abundance means has been co-opted by capitalism. And it's got so many layers and tentacles that reach out and pull us in.
The thing is, we are immensely powerful creative beings.
And we have an infinite number of choices for HOW we wield that power.
OK. I don't have a way to wrap this up, lol. My Dream Status Report stirred up a lot of stuff and I am happy to bring all of these questions in my week. But also this journaling session me feeling pretty clear about where to focus.
Please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!
Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
I meant to use the Anti-Doomscoll Meditation + Journaling Kit A LOT in August.
I used it a bit, and I doom scrolled a lot.
This doesn’t mean I am doing this wrong.
It just means I am giving myself space. And you know what? Long term, this is MUCH BETTER than pushing myself to follow through “perfectly”.
This makes more space for healing and awareness and insights and the ability to create whole new ways of relating to the part of me who wants to doom scroll and the part of me who doesn’t and some of the parts in between.
(And I am defining “doom scroll” very generally here. Really screen time itself is the issue, for me. We can all define it in our own way.)
So I have been doom scrolling and watching more shows that I'd like and I don’t like it but I am just… being with that.
Noticing how it feels. Noticing the part of me who does want to doom scroll and trying to be more aware of the inner sensations of it.
And if I was using my determination to push myself to do the anti-doomscroll work I wouldn’t be able to notice all the different layers of what happens inside me when I do doom scroll, when I do want to just check out or numb out.
And when I DO do the anti-doomscroll work, it’s because I really chose it, and it’s so much more helpful.
I guess what I am saying is… I am in process. And the process is not what I thought it would be… which, it never is.
If, as a part of the process of finding my way into routines/habits that vastly reduce my screen time, I need to increase my screen time…. well that actually makes sense. Sometimes we do need to get cozy with the obstacles and learn more about them as we create new responses to them.
Or maybe I just had a bunch of things happen this week that were stressful and I didn’t have the capacity for helpful self care, so I watched shows to numb and distract myself when I could. Like - no shame in that.
We’re all dealing with so much. There is no shame in how any of us are handling anything.
And it’s easier to keep holding onto your dream is you are not judging yourself for how you are holding it, you know?
Your dreams matter.
Today is a new moon in Virgo and “back to school season” which, to me, is a double dose of “let’s get it together and do the thing we’ve been wanting to do”.
This is not the time to sit on the sidelines.
You are inspired to do something. You feel called to do something.
THIS IS THE TIME TO DO IT.
Or… this is the time to START.
Because, as much as all of that is true, it’s also true that here in 2026 - your exhaustion, overwhelm and FEELINGS really matter, too.
That thing where you put your feelings and needs aside and gather up your energy and courage and go do the thing… that’s over.
In 2026 we are HEALING all the way to our dreams. We are resting along the way. We are honouring our capacity.
And we are doing all of this WITHOUT sacrificing our dreams.
We’re just moving slower.
But - because we are healing and growing as we go - and because creative dreaming is an ALCHEMICAL PROCESS where we don’t need to follow logical/linear ways of doing things - so we are also moving more powerfully.
Now is the time. Let’s do this!!!
Here is your coaching plan for Virgo New Moon/Back To School Season “I Want To Get It Together And Make This Thing Happen” :
Start with the September New Moon Intention Setting Call. Take this time to process what’s been happening and listen to yourself about what you need now and get your future self’s help to set the right intention for you, and map out how you’ll help yourself all month.
Start doing a weekly Dream Status Report. That's the one I share here on Sundays - do it with me then or pick another day. For extra magic, come to the Co-Dreaming call on Sept 18, or work with the replay that weekend.
Do you need an updated plan for the Outer Work? Use the Dream Plan Kit.
I want to highlight the New Project Prompts in there - these are great for exploring your new ideas, or if you have TOO MANY PROJECT IDEAS, do these prompts for each one to help you choose which one to focus on right now.
If you're not into planning that's ok! Look through the tools + courses in the Creative Dream Alchemy Library of OUTER WORK.
Do you have a Dream Book for the thing you want to do? If not, start that now. Take it slowly - the idea is to go deeper into your process, not work through the promos as fast as possible - you learn more about what this particular dream needs if you slow down. If yes you already have a Dream Book for this thing - give yourself some time to look through it SLOWLY to look for insights/ideas that will help with your next steps.
And then ask yourself: What is your ROUTINE for SHOWING UP?
You need to SCHEDULE Dream Time! It doesn't really matter if it's four hours a day or one hour a week, schedule it and STICK TO THE SCHEDULE.
Then, if you show up on schedule and can't do the thing for whatever reason pick one of these things to do:
If you are having a hard time implementing and not sure why - go here.
If you feel stuck for any reason - go to the Un-Sticking Station. IT's always easier to just stick with the un-sticking (lol) but you can also go through the Creative Dream Alchemy Library of Inner Work practices for different kinds of Inner Work to address what has you stuck.
DOING UN-STICKING WORK COUNTS AS DREAMING. This is where you heal and grow your way there. Going deeper into Inner Work and giving it the time it needs will create whole new possibilities in the Outer Work. You're not wasting time by doing this work.
Another thing you can do when you can't "do the work" for whatever reason: Have a meeting with the soul of your dream. Or explore who you are becoming on the other side of this creative process by working with your dream self.
Or of course - WORK IN YOUR DREAM BOOK!
One last thing: Remember that the alchemy is REAL. It's not a metaphor for what happens it IS what happens
Fears, doubts and obstacles do become alchemized into fuel for the journey and wisdom to guide you.
And gifts, ideas, inspiration do become alchemized too! They become more grounded, stable and sturdy enough to count on them.
The dream itself becomes more grounded, stable and sturdy so you can depend on it.
All of this happens from showing up somewhat consistently, and doing all three parts of the work - the Dream Work and Inner Work alongside the Outer Work.
So just show up in the times when you schedule it - and do what is possible to do.
THEN, adding consistent Dream Status Reports and New Moon Intention Setting help you to learn from your process and refine it over time - this is how you create YOUR WAY to build your dream.
As always, post in the forum or email me with any questions! Let's do this!!!!
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I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams. Do this with me!!
I TRY to send these out every Sunday but of course I'll miss some. So - Hello Monday!
Last night I got out my journals to do a BIG Dream Status Report, BIG as in looking through both of my Dream Book 2026 journals and doing more reflecting. A LOT came on up Friday's Co-Dreaming call and I wanted to re-read and hang onto it.
It was raining and the forecast said a thunderstorm was on the way so I brought my journals up to my bedroom where I have a big space to lie down and do yoga beside the huge floor to ceiling window so I could watch the storm.
I didn't get very far in my reflections and didn't even look at the Dream Status Report prompts.
I started journaling furiously about how I'm feeling and how hard I have been trying to be well and how I am just not getting the help I need.
When I listed all the changes I have made and things I am doing to navigate all of the health stuff I am facing - that's when I started crying. It's just been so hard.
Which doesn't negate that so many good things are happening, both in my life and in my work...
But - in Creative Dream ALCHEMY - we've got to be with what shows up.
Laying down on the floor and crying is a perfectly fine way to do your Dream Status Report, if that's where the process takes you.
Because actually answering the Dream Status Report prompts really help guide me, I am going to do that today. But that doesn't negate that journaling + crying without answering the prompts was the right thing for me last night.
We talked about this on Friday's call- how we are always finding balance between BEING WITH what shows up (in this case, tears) and also holding onto our dreams, and also being accountable to ourselves AND our dreams. AND ALWAYS being gentle with ourselves in the process.
This is tricky, changing terrain!
But "staying positive" and pushing yourself to "keep moving forward" towards your dream WILL pull you out of the alchemy. Just like drowning in the sadness and believing the lies your inner citric says will pull you out of the alchemy.
The alchemy is REAL.
It's not a metaphor for what happens it IS what happens
Fears, doubts and obstacles do become alchemized into fuel for the journey and wisdom to guide you.
And gifts, ideas, inspiration do become alchemized too! They become more grounded, stable and sturdy enough to count on them.
The dream itself becomes more grounded, stable and sturdy so you can depend on it.
And of course this doesn't all happen from laying down and crying every time you feel like it.
It happens from showing up somewhat consistently, and doing all three parts of the work - the Dream Work and Inner Work alongside the Outer Work. (Those links go to the libraries of practices we have for each of the "works" in the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy - if you can't pick one, try the new Dream Self processes)
Meet yourself where you are. THEN move to where you want to be.
This is how the alchemy works. You do have to start from where you are, and if that's holding a bunch of un-cried tears, then cry the tears.
But we do it from within the context of the whole practice, so all the ways you show up come together to create a path.
Without the context of a practice... your experience will be more haphazard. It will be harder to get the results you want because you're not HELD in your process.
Everything I am doing in the membership is to HOLD your process so you get more out of your efforts.
Please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams. I want to help!
Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
This is so embarrassing, frustrating and freeing all at once.
I have spent all year trying to find my way into this new body of textile art that I want to make.
I have not found my way into it.
But I have been trying! I truly have been showing up! I have been:
- experimenting with my ideas and making test pieces
- sitting with the soul of my dream and trying to understand it - meditating and journaling with it
- sitting with the very heavy sensation of doubt that I sometimes have about being able to pull this off
- going in circles with my ideas
- wresting with the self doubt and fear
- practicing trusting myself
- understanding who I am becoming as I make this art
- stepping back, reflecting on the process, looking for what I can learn there
- acting on ideas that seem not related but maybe are, like trying all the different paths that come up
I started this thinking that I would have maybe 1 month of all of that, and then find my way into a CREATIVE PRACTICE that was PRODUCING the kind of art I wanted to make.
Ha!
I am now going into my 9th month of doing all of that feeling more lost and frustrated that ever while also feeling increasingly embarrassed by my process.
A creativity coach spending a whole year being stuck? Shouldn’t I keep this to myself?
Except what my embarrassed self doesn’t understand is that I am not stuck, I am going deeper.
Nine months in, I am deeper than I have ever been. Of course I feel lost. I HAVE NEVER BEEN HERE BEFORE. There isn’t a way to get to a new place inside you without being lost. No one else can give you a map to YOUR magic, power and wisdom. You create the map by exploring.
Your dreams are not outside of you.
Your healing is not outside of you.
Your best art is not outside of you.
No one can ever show you YOUR WAY to do it.
Though we can hold space for each other to go deeper into the mystery of our own process, which is what I do in the Creative Dream Incubator Membership.
And I love what we are doing in there.
And I would be betraying the magic of it, to not tell the truth of my own process. Because the obstacle we are always pushing against is CULTURAL NORMS.
Culture tells us who gets to believe in their dreams and who better keep their dreams under wraps. Culture tells us that if you risk it all on a big dream and it doesn’t pay off - that makes you a loser. Culture tells you that you should be moving from one success to another or else give up. Culture tells you that building a dream is a linear process - heck culture tells you that HEALING is a linear process! Culture is always expecting you to conform in a million different ways.
Your dreams stay saying: stop contorting yourself into shapes that demean you.
I know who I am going to keep listening to. Even if I have to spend months on end exploring in the dark.
Also, actually some huge lights have started to turn on in the last few weeks, I know I am onto something here…
Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!
We'll do a 40 minute meditation/journaling/alchemy process for connecting with the soul of your dream and finding out what it wants you to know NOW about where you're at. Then you can join the conversation as we will talk about what came up and talk about our dreams, or use the good energy we created together to work on your projects.
Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.
AND...
I added a new call to the calendar -Dreaming WEIRDER is happening on Oct 1 in the membership - get the call details here.
Or if you're not a member - find out more + join us here.