I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
Finding the RIGHT thing for you to focus on that will help you HOLD ONTO YOUR DREAMS OVER TIME is easier to do when you reflect more often, which is why I want everyone to do these Weekly Dream Status Reports with me.
I had a hard time getting into the meditation this morning and if it were any other day I might have said "I'll do this later" and set myself up to never actually "get to it". But I am going on a day trip with my family to see my mom's artwork in an exhibit today! And the exhibit is close to the farm she grew up on so we are going early to go see her farm. So I didn't have time to dilly dally and THAT WAS SO GOOD.
It took me the WHOLE meditation to settle into it. But once I was finally into it, it was DELICIOUS to sit with the soul of my dream and feel it's support and feel like it's not that far away.
As has been the case lately, my dream made it clear that these next steps are all on me. That it's HERE. It's READY. It wants to rain blessings down on me. I just have to show up and be ready to receive. And I do know exactly what that means, in terms of the practical steps I need to take.
And then all of my resistance and fog shows up.
But today I was like... I GOT THIS. What I really noticed is HOW HARD THIS YEAR HAS BEEN. How long I was feeling sooooo awful and waited for treatment and then got the wrong treatment and then finally got the right treatment and then got bronchitis for 3 weeks and it's only this last little while that I feel good. I feel alive and I feel like myself.
So I felt a lot of COMPASSION and ACCEPTANCE towards myself and that I've been doing the best I can .... AND ... my best is improving right now. Not that I have to try to make myself "be better" but that I have gotten the care I need, I am doing the consistent self care I need, and so naturally I am getting more productive, focused and clear. I am touch with my creative magic.
Which means: I TRUST MYSELF WITH MY DREAM.
What a beautiful way to go into a new week! I have a list of things to do in the Outer Work, and a commitment to daily Dream Work and.. I want to MAKE ART with of any Inner Work that comes up. That's been a goal for a while that I haven't actually achieved, but maybe this is the week I feel brave enough to pull out the art supplies when I feel stuck/overwhelmed/angry/afraid/doubting.
Membership members: Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams or your Creative Dream Alchemy practice. I want to help!
This is part 4 in what is now a 4 part series of how I am working through some creative blocks this week...
I started out feeling so much PRESSURE it was hard to do the things I wanted to do. Then I just had a lot of FOG, also stopping me from doing those things. Then I found the solution to everything which was to be more DEEPLY PRESENT in the PROCESS, not so focused on outcomes.
Last night the final piece of this puzzle landed.
I was sitting in bed with my journal and still feeling like, even with all of the clarity and insight I have received this week, I still feel somehow disconnected from the MAGIC of the creative process.
I put my marker down and picked up my phone.... and caught myself.
(Quick plug for the Anti-Doomscroll Meditation + Journaling Kit which is a good tool use in this situation)
Why do I want to scroll right now? What's going on here?
I burst into tears.
And then I kept crying.
For quite a while. I have not had a good cry like that in a very long time.
There was just so much I was carrying that I wasn't fully feeling.
Which seems to be becoming more common these days as we have more and more to carry and less time and space to process it all.
But we can't be DEEP enough in our creative process to be in the ALCHEMY if we are full of un-felt feelings.
Today I feel a lot more clear AND spacious. I have the inner capacity to go deep into the creative process, deep enough to get at the magic.
PS: The November New Moon Intention Setting was so good yesterday! Get the replay here to set your intention for the next month and create a plan for how you're going to give yourself the support you need to DO IT.
Today is our New Moon Intention Setting Ritual for November! But the time this lands in your inbox, the live ceremony will be close to starting. The replay will be up later today. I am looking forward to that call for a chance to do a deeper reflection on how I held my intention from last month because... I definitely have more to learn there.
This morning I went to the coffee shop with my journal to sit and journal about what is it that needs to change, so I can have a smoother creative process creating the content for Your Creative Dreamer.
AND be creating promotional material for it.
AND do the Goodbye 2026 Hello 2027 31 day meditation and journaling thing I always do in December.
HOW DOES THIS ALL FIT?
It’s not too much work. It’s just that it’s all a fog in a mind, when I look at how it all fits together.
So what needed to do was journal about that, specifically. How do I WANT it to fit together? What do I WANT the process of finishing Your Creative Dreamer, putting it out into the world, and offering Goodbye 2026 Hello 2027 to LOOK, FEEL and BE like... for me?
(So often we focus on doing things RIGHT or doing things so they get the outcome we want, but then we can overwhelm ourselves because we haven't set things up to feel how we want them to feel as we do the thing!)
So earlier this week I felt PRESSURE. Then I just had a lot of FOG.
And it was heavy fog that I thought I couldn’t see through… but actually once I gave myself space to explore what I WANT this to be like… I filled four pages in my big journal.
I mapped out December which gave me a list of things to have done by the end of November.
I thought about COZY VIBES for December as the days get shorter, and how I re-arranged my creative space earlier this year and now I have this open floor space in front of a drawer unit full of art supplies and I’d like sit on that floor (I have heated floors so it’s awesome in winter) with a big mug of tea and make a creative mess every day.
And the big thing that came to me, the solution that answers all the questions and solves all the problems: BE MORE DEEPLY PRESENT IN THE PROCESS.
Meaning, the alchemical process where we are working with the Dream Work and Inner Work along with the Outer Work.
And of course there are ways that I already AM present in the process but then there are also ways where I am avoiding going deeper into the process. Being PRESENT is a spectrum.
Going deeper into it all:
Makes the creative process smoother, richer, more enjoyable AND makes the end result better.
Makes it clear how to promote it, in that it gives me lots of things to say about it and images as I can take photos from my journals and use them for posts
Shows me how to fit the Goodbye 2026 Hello 2027 31 days of Meditation and Journaling into the mix.
Like, it feels like there is SO MUCH MORE SPACE for everything when I slow down and go deeper into the process. I receive this lesson over and over lately. And I assume I will keep needing to receive it!
OK yesterday I figured out where my creative process was being stifled by PRESSURE.
But today I am still all over the place. I am getting some things done here and there but I can’t quite settle in to the deep work that this project requires.
I want to say that not every day is conducive to deep work and today is not the day for it… but that feels like an excuse.
So? What’s happening here? How do I want to be with this?
I did the Hello Day meditation to meet with the soul of my business and look at my focus for the day and the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator was holding this rippling mystical energy above my head, ready to rain down on me everything I want. And it was like: I just need to get ready to receive it.
And I know what I need to do TO receive it. I'm not 100% sure HOW to do it but I know WHAT to do and could experiment and explore... but I have a lot of other stuff happening too, like a cloud of things. There is clutter of ideas circling my head, making it so I can't really focus.
On one hand - this is the curse of the creative mind. There are always so many more ideas!
On the other hand - this is classic resistance/avoidance. I can’t complete anything if I am allowing all of these ideas to float around in my head.
Staying in this place, not being willing to put other ideas aside to focus on one and actually complete it - IS A DREAM KILLER.
It’s something we do to avoid the avalanche of uncomfortable feelings that come up as we bring a project to completion… is this good enough, am I good enough, will it “work” to bring me what I was hoping to get out of it, will this all blow up on my face, will it mean that I am a failure???? Better to just circle around it a lot of different ideas and not finish anything than face all of that!
So what do I want to do with this today?
I do want to deal with the flutter of ideas that are creating the fog around me.
How do I want to deal with them?
Journaling! I want to draw out this flutter of ideas around my head.
These are other things that already are happening in my life/business, and other ideas of things that I want to have happen. But a lot of these things have SO MANY QUESTIONS. Having so many un-answered questions that leaves them buzzing. If I could give this a few hours to:
- answer a few questions if there are easily answerable questions in this flurry of ideas, which I think there are
- get a clear list of “these are the questions I am sitting with without rushing to answers”
- get a clear list of “these are the ideas that are waiting for me to finish this project”
Then I think the space around my head would be clear so I could get to work?
So much of building the path to our dreams includes creating and holding space for ourselves to get in there and do this work.
It's so deeply wildly incredibly brave to do this work.
So even when the process looks like a total mess, like mine does this week.... that's not a reflection on us, as the dreamer!
It's a reflection of how brave it is to have a dream, hold onto it, and take steps towards it.
I’ve been feeling… some kind of way… this week. I wasn’t really sitting with it, I was just annoyed with it and trying to move on with my work.
But, of course, it feels like I am moving through molasses. I can't move on and do my work.
So I halfheartedly decided to sit with it. I didn’t get out one of the Inner Work meditations I just stopped what I was doing and tried to figure out what it was I was feeling.
PRESSURE.
Is it PRESSURE to do my best work with Your Creative Dreamer? But that doesn't feel like a bad thing, more like I just care a lot about this project?
Oh! No - there is PRESSURE to do my best job PROMOTING Your Creative Dreamer and that is a BAD kind of pressure.
It comes in like a WALL of energy that is heavy and filled with perfectionism and stories about how easy it will be to GET THIS WRONG and how terrible it would be to GET IT WRONG and how actually if I GET THIS WRONG this means I have failed as a human being.
It carries the story that there is a RIGHT WAY to do all of this but it is very hard to find the way in to the right way.
So no wonder I was feeing like I was moving through molasses.
But as soon as I saw what this energy was made of, I saw the solution.
Getting to the part where you are promoting/selling YOUR HEART/SOUL WORK is a major threshold. Even though this work has been my livelihood for 16 years, it’s still a new threshold with each new project.
And these thresholds are places where a lot is happening! Including a lot of stories from capitalism and dominant culture’s ideas of how things have to be. Including a lot of self doubt. Including just a fucking LOT of a LOT.
And I wasn’t acknowledging that this was a threshold with a lot of a lot going on in it, I was acting like this is just a bunch of items on a to do list.
I was also not noticing, so not questioning the stories about there being a FIRM RIGHT WAY and how important it was for me to find it.
But once I saw all of this I instantly knew what to do.
Give myself permission to do this how I want to.
Not the way that brings in the most sales, but the way that feels inspired and honest and do-able-within-my-actual-capacity-not-my-imagined-dream-capacity.
WHEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW.
The pressure valve is released.
And yeah - this is something for me to really sit with:
HOW DO I WANT TO DO THIS vs WHAT IS THE IDEAL BEST WAY (ACCORDING TO EXPERTS AND INTERNET GURUS) TO DO THIS.
The thing is, I have almost never done things “the right way” when it comes to selling my work.
I do not believe that putting out a promotional campaign that brings in the most money is in the best interests of my work, long term.
I know the gurus will say I am thinking small and have a problem with mindset.
But what I have a deep understanding and connection to the soul of my work.
And a commitment to live my values. Which includes staying self employed! There are a lot of layers and things to consider.
And even though I have been doing this in a way that works for me for a very long time, all of the NOISE from the outside still gets in.
I still need to take time to really consider how I want to put this out there.
This is what we do on the Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice calls.
We don't focus on the tactics of marketing but on the energy of what's happening with you in your process of sharing your gifts with the world, connecting with the soul of your work and with the people your work is for and looking at how to offering your work in a way that it can be fully received.
(So if you are in the membership and relating to what I am sharing - look at the meditation on that page and give this a try!)
A part of that is knowing... if you have gifts to share then there already are people who those gifts are for.
You don't need to persuade anyone of anything.
You do need to learn how to put yourself out there in a way that the people who want your work can find you.
But that usually does not need to look like a million Instagram followers or the biggest flashiest launch or anything like how the online business gurus operate...
And yet the cultural stories of THIS IS WHAT SUCCESS LOOKS LIKE persist.
And so, with each new thing, there is shit to sort through.
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
Now that I am feeling better I am prioritizing 1 hour of walking every morning because this helps me feel so much better both physically and mentally.
So I walked to a coffee shop and did the meditation (with noise canceling headphones) for the Weekly Dream Status Report and that felt good...
But filling in the journaling prompts feels TOO HEAVY this week.
There were a lot of distractions in my life this week and a general sense of being discombobulated but also a lot of good things happened and I don't seem to be weighing those on the scale.
How do I show up and do this when I feel discombobulated?
I can just say - I'll do it tomorrow. But I don't want to, I want to do what I ask you to do, which is SHOW UP and BE WITH what is there. Which means BEING WITH feeling discombobulated.
So - hello discombobulation. What do you need?
I need to get out of this terrible noisy coffee shop with the worst and loudest music in the world.
I know, right? But it's Sunday and the good independent shops are closed all day or until later, so..
So what?! This sucks!
Yeah it sucks. But you must agree that I needed the walk to get here and back? That this helps me feel better?
Yeah I get it, but let's walk back home and do this there in peace.
OK so I am actually going to do that then, and come back and finish this post as I work on the Dream Status Report...
OK Whoa my resistance was right!
That was the wrong environment to try to do this in. Back home, I filled 4 pages journaling about my week and realized... oh yeah a lot of unexpected things happened and I didn't have the chance to focus the way I wanted to and OF COURSE I FEEL DISCOMBOBULATED.
It's the natural way to feel, given what's happened. And after some reflection, journaling and dreaming... I feel better! I feel present and grounded. I also realised that on top of unexpected things happening I had over-scheduled some things last week and I need to UNDER schedule to make more space for creativity for the Your Creative Dreamer stuff I want to make this week, so I will keep that in mind.
So: Now I understand what I need and what my dreams need and I have a good plan for this week. Yay!
Finding the RIGHT thing for you to focus on is easier to do when you reflect more often, which is why I want everyone to do these Dream Status Reports with me.
Membership members: Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams or your Creative Dream Alchemy practice. I want to help!
There is advice everywhere and some of it is even good.
But the best advice is when you hear the right thing at the right time in a way that it really LANDS and even CHANGES YOU.
This is not necessarily "the best advice" strictly speaking. It's the thing that addresses exactly where you are and helps you with this exact next step. Like sometimes eating a brownie is exactly what you need but eating a brownie can't be your solution to everything.
Usually this EXACT RIGHT TIME RIGHT WAY advice needs to come from you, from your inner wisdom. We have genius parts of us who always knows exactly what we need, but we're not always tuned in to hear them.
During our monthly New Moon Intention Setting rituals that we do in the membership, we are NOT just tying to set our intentions and force them to happen the way we want. We are making space to listen to our deeper inner wisdom. We are TUNING IN.
And sometimes in that work we get next-level genius advice from ourselves that changes what kinds of intentions we want to set. You might come to the call thinking you want to set an intention to make more money and then during this process realize that what you need is more rest, and once you are more rested it's easier to make more money.
That’s what happened for me last month when my inner wisdom said… Girl! No!
Don't bother setting these intentions you came here with. What you need to set intentions about is to LUXURIATE in HOW you do the things you're going to do next.
Which felt like such a beautiful invitation.
And now that I have had three weeks to experiment with it I know it means to slow down, be more present and more appreciative instead of being focused on “making things happen”.
This is the thing we keep coming back to in our work in the Creative Dream Incubator Membership… “stop trying to make it all happen ASAP and instead focus on going deeper into the process because there is so much magic there for you. Then you can MAGIC it happen instead of MAKE it happen because who even has the energy to MAKE it happen these days?"
There is so much magic to be found by going deeper into the process, there is no magic in trying to the finish line as quickly as possible.
You miss a lot by being TOO goal oriented.
Of course you also miss out on your dreams by not being goal oriented at all.
Validating what you want and need in the moment AND making space to build your dreams AND listening to your deepest inner wisdom about where to focus now… means sometimes you do things that are very counter-cultural and maybe even counter-intuitive.
But the process of making a dream is NOT linear or logical. When you are HEALING all the way to a dream - the path is going to look weird!
So - my month of focusing on LUXURIATING actually turned out to be a very productive month.
I still have one more week with this intention but I am really surprised and thrilled with how productive I have been AND with how much I feel like I am meeting myself where I am, not pushing myself to be different, and really enjoying the little things about life these days.
Our next New Moon Intention Setting Ritual on Zoom is next Friday, November 6.
This is a 45 minute meditation + journaling process for reflecting on the last month, gathering up the lessons, sitting with what we want and need now, and listening to our deeper inner wisdom about what intentions to set next... then coming up with a plan for the outer work, inner work and dream work that will support us over the next month.
After the meditation and journaling we work together sharing what came up for us and how we're going to implement over the next month - if you can't be there live we can still do that in our private forum.
Membership members: Call details are here. and the replay will be on that page a few hours after the live. (Which is at 1 Central DAYLIGHT time, so the same as Eastern Standard time)
Everyone else: Join us here! We would love to dream with you!
A few things happened yesterday that were super destructive to my concentration and energy. One of the things also meant I got to bed a few hours later than usual.
So I woke up late, groggy, foggy and overwhelmed.
I decided to use the 20 minute version of the Dream Lab meditation for my morning practice to really sink in, connect with the soul of my dream, dust off all this fog, and get my head in the game.
Ha!
Three minutes in, as I was trying to settle into the Field of Creative Dream Alchemy, my inner wisdom was like... Girl, it's ok to be unfocused today. You are depleted. Having a goal to get your head in the game ASAP is ridiculous.
And then I remembered this beautiful healing lesson I had received this year.
Around how if my home is really disheveled that's a sign that I am overwhelmed and the answer is NOT to get my shirt together as quickly as possible, the answer is to TEND to the overwhelm.
Which seems obvious when I write it out.
But usually when laundry is piled up and my home is cluttered and I feel behind on everything... my first response is to hurry up and get it together.
This year I have really learned to gift of turning that around, treating the state of my home as a signal of my inner depletion or fullness...
Not that if I don't INSTANTLY empty the dishwasher when it's finished this means there is something wrong with me. More like, if it's been a day and I feel overwhelmed at the thought of emptying it - the answer is that I need more rest and filling the well.
The ways I've just pushed myself to get shit done my whole life don't work anymore and I don't want them to.
AND I am still in this place where some of my engrained responses are to do things how I've always done them.
So it was really beautiful that the meditation did NOT bring me what I thought I wanted, but did remind me of my deeper truth that I am in process of integrating.
I am siting down to do my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.
Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.
AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it here, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.
One thing I do a LOT of on our calls is try to help people TAKE MORE CREDIT for their successes.
We have so many different kinds of successes on the way to a dream. The healings, and shifts and brave steps taken.
And sometimes we don't fully TAKE CREDIT for these wins. We can be grateful for them and happy about them without fully acknowledging how much WE DID THAT.
I am always looking for that and pointing it out because building that sense of pride in how we are building the path to our dreams can help us be more confident with our next steps. It can help us ride out the rough parts more smoothly to remember and take credit for the incredible things you have made happen in your life.
And one thing about dreamers is that we do tend to look ahead to what's next and we can be so deeply aware of that gap between where we are and where we want to be that we stop noticing how far we have already come.
So when someone is sharing that a thing went really well I often ask them to stop and notice how it didn't just "go well" - they were brave and committed and they MADE THAT HAPPEN and are they giving themselves enough credit for that? And every time people say something like "Oh. WOW." as it lands for them.
It is so healing to give yourself the credit you deserve.
So I am doing that with myself this week in my Dream Status Report.
Looking back over the last few months it's amazing to see it all came together.
This last week was AMAZING in terms of outer progress and feeling like everything is coming together, but to look back over the last several months and remember all the steps I took so that a week like this was possible - that's really.... healing.
It's HEALING to acknowledge ourselves and our courage and commitment to our dreams and the good work we do in service to them.
Last week I was noticing where I needed to step it up and this week I STEPPED IT UP.
At the same time - I wasn't wrong for "not being stepped up" before, that's just where I was in my process.
This is the magic of consistent a reflection practice - it's easier to notice when something needs to shift.
There is never ONE RIGHT WAY to be, we are always showing up in different ways... sometimes there is more inner work to do, sometimes we need to rest, sometimes we need to re-think things, sometimes we need to take quantum leaps and sometimes we just need to get to work.
But we never need to do all of these things, all the time.
Finding the RIGHT thing for you to focus on is easier to do when you reflect more often, which is why I want everyone to do these Dream Status Reports with me.
Membership members: Where are you this week? What's happening with your dreams? I'd love to hear your updates in the forum.
And please reach out when you're not sure what to do with your dreams or your Creative Dream Alchemy practice. I want to help!
Last Friday during our Co-Dreaming meditation my dream told me to just get a dresser. It said “Just get the dresser already and get your fucking life together”
The soul of my dream and inner selves don’t swear at me when it’s a a vulnerable situation. They do swear when they are trying to jolt me into a new perspective.
And this is the thing about this meditation, we are trying to listen to the soul of our dream to hear it's perspective instead of staying in our perspective. We can learn so much from doing this but it's tricky to get there.
I knew I needed a dresser and I had been looking for a while it’s just that it wasn’t a priority. I figured it would happen in the right time.
Even though I KNOW “waiting for the right time” or “letting it happen in its own time” is usually just our resistance speaking. But this dresser isn’t my dream or anything it’s just that a few different things happened over the last few years that lead me to need a dresser to store my clothes. In the meantime they are in fabric cubes stacked on the floor… so it’s not an emergency, right? I can just wait for the right dresser to come along…
So when my dream said to get my fucking life together, it felt like a jolt and a joke AND a little push.
So I got one - but not because I thought it mattered that much! I got it right away because when I can hear the soul of my dream speaking, and I have the ability to do what it's asking me to do - I want to do it.
Because I want to PARTNER with it wherever I can because that's the best relationship to be in with your dream.
BUT HOLY CRAP. That stack of fabric cubes was creating a lot of stagnant energy in my room that I hadn’t realised, and getting everything neatly put away PLUS having a dresser top for candles, tarot cards, etc is MAGIC.
I AM HAPPIER BECAUSE OF THIS DRESSER!!
But this isn’t about a dresser or about how a tidy home makes us feel better, even though it usually does. (Sometimes permission to be a mess feels amazing too!)
I woke up early yesterday morning, 6:30 am. I stayed in my bedroom, put on mellow dance music, and put the rest of my clothes away in the dresser and then started dancing around my bedroom. What a great way to start the day, before I’ve even had coffee!
During our Co-Dreaming call yesterday when I met with the soul of my dream I felt a wave of fear go through me.
Fear that things are going so good for me right now and maybe they won’t keep going so good. Maybe I can’t keep this up. Maybe the flow will dry up again.
My dream showed me myself dancing in my room that morning. (With a little reminder that turning on music more often will keep me from picking up my phone to scroll)
It said… look how present you are dancing. Look how you listened about the dresser and did a thing that helped you feel better in your life. No, things won’t always be ideal. But you can keep doing this. You built the path that got you here. You can trust yourself to keep doing this.
And I felt it. Full body self trust.
THIS is the magic of consistently-over-time listening to yourself, then listening deeper and deeper.
If you're in the membership and trying to find some practices that will help meet you where you are so you can move towards where you want to be - hit reply to this and talk to me! I'm here to help.