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This week TWO DAYS IN A ROW I made art when I felt blegh.
This is something I have been trying to do for so long!!!!!
I tend to make stuff when I feel good.
I tend to journal when I feel stuck.
I’ve done a lot of journaling this year, lol! And that’s good - being stuck is good IF you are working with it because there is so much to learn in those places.
But my explorations have told that I should MAKE SOME ART when I feel stuck. I like this idea, and I had some ideas for things to make…
But each time I felt blech and thought about starting those projects my inner critic was all…
Why bother?
Like really though?
WHY? This project is just a tiny drop in the bucket of all the art you want to be making, it’s so insignificant, why bother?
And this heaviness would descend on me.
And I would agree… yeah, why bother?
I know that somewhere inside me a wiser part of me was like WTF? Girl go make the art! But I have not been feeling well and it’s so just been so easy to let the inner critic and the heaviness win.
I have a new body of work I want to create, a new direction I want to go in with my art.
I see where I want to be, creatively. But I feel far away from it.
I do have a MOUNTAIN of creative ideas but no one idea can actually get me to this new place that I want to be in.
I’ve coached a lot of people through this terrain, I know the only answer is to MAKE MORE ART and then KEEP MAKING IT and FOLLOW YOUR ART and it will get you there. OF COURSE no one idea gets you all the way there! Each idea is a step along the way!
But I am over here judging some ideas as “too insignificant” to count as a step which is what is making it so easy for my inner critic to take over.
And it’s wild to notice myself doing that when I have help SO MANY PEOPLE to NOT do that.
In my mentoring work I feel like a broken record of reminding people to take smaller steps more often and DO NOT wait to feel ready for a bigger step because that is a dream killer.
Which just goes to show how it doesn’t matter what you KNOW. Understanding how healing, growth and creativity work is not the same as giving yourself over to the process.
And at the same time… GETTING STUCK IS GOOD!!!!
Being in the muck is good. You learn so much here, so much healing and growth happens… so much that you don’t notice it while you’re in it, but you will see it later, once you get going again. This inner work needs to happen BEFORE the outer work is possible - this is how you GROW your self so you can grow your work.
But this week, TWO DAYS IN A ROW actually, I made art when I felt stuck.
The inner critic could not stop me. I am so glad to finally be here!!
The first day I carved a linoleum eye, which I want to print onto a t-shirt to cover a stain… but also to add to my library of linoleum carvings for printing different things.
The second day I made papier-mâché jewels for a project for my home. The jewels really don’t feel like they fit in with my “new body of work” in any way except… surrounding myself with more things I made can only help!
And I feel inspired about them and following inspiration is the way to create the path.
Both times it felt AMAZING to make stuff when I was feeling blegh.
To sit with that energy in a different way. To MOVE that energy in a different way.
Carving and linoleum and smoothing the newspaper over the shapes - both felt soothing the way the act of embroidery feels soothing to me. My hands were meant for making!
I feel like this is a big part of becoming my post-menopausal self.
When I was younger I mostly made art when I felt good and inspired. What if, as I age, I make art MORE OFTEN because I make it when I have low energy as well as when I feel good and inspired?
Also, as expected, the act of making did soothe the "blegh" and I feel a lot better now.
This is especially great to experience during a health flare-up that makes exercise harder to do - exercise used to be the way I would move that energy and help myself feel better and it's taken a while to find a alternative for that! I actually feel like making more art more often could give me the energy to get the exercise I want! I will keep experimenting.
If you are stuck now:
USE the Un-stiicking Station! Remember there is even a whole meditation to use if you are too upset to do inner work.
The idea to "make art when I feel blegh" came out of Un-Sticking meditations.
If, like me, you're been doing Inner Work and getting ideas for what to do but having a hard time acting on those ideas... remember that it is SO BRAVE AND AMAZING to stay in the process. It's not a race to move through it as fast as possible. You're not failing to act on your inner wisdom, you are IN PROCESS.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working is today!
We'll start with a longer meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream to receive the message/healing/insight/idea that your dream wants to send you now.
This will create a lovely atmosphere for co-working, to start with the meditation and then leave the audio on or off, and do your thing within the bubble of the magic we create together in the meditation.
And we can talk about what comes up in the meditation and look at how we can really receive and act on the messages/ideas/healing/shifts we receive in the meditation.
Get the call details here. The replay will be on that page a few hours after we're done.
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