Your feelings about the things you DON’T want to do are totally valid + a part of the planning process

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When you are making a plan to MAKE YOUR DREAM HAPPEN it's common to come across something that feels really BLEGH.

Like UGH I don't want to .

It's important that you don't OBEY that feeling.

It's also important that you don't try to steamroll that feeling and force yourself to do the thing you don't want to do. Or stuff the feeling down. Or pretend it's not there.

To get to the ALCHEMY of Creative Dream Alchemy, the place where the magic happens... you have to BE WITH whatever is actually there.

So. You have to BE WITH the BLEGH UGH I don't want to.

And validate it! It IS a valid feeling.

Can you do that? Put your hands on your heart and say "Oh yeah. BLEGH!!!! UGH!!! I don't want to! It sucks that I have to do things I don't want to do if I want to get to where I want to be!!!!!"

And then  DO THE UN-STICKING STATION PROCESS with the BLEGH. Take your time with it. Accept that this is the work right now. Detangling this mess of a BLEGH is the work that best serves you and your dreams right now.

The BLEGH is an invitation to healing, transformation and miracles.

Let's treat it as such! The Un-Sticking Station process will help you find the healing, transformation and miracle that is waiting for you here.

Because when you DON'T acknowledge, validate, feel, process and work with the BLEGH, then your only options are to force yourself to do things you don't want to do or abandon your dream entirely.

And you deserve better than that.

You deserve the healing, transformation and miracles that the BLEGH is trying to offer you.

We want to stay CURIOUS and OPEN in this work and not go into it assuming we know what's going to happen...

But I will tell you that what is most likely to happen is:

  • you'll discover that there actually IS a way to make a realistic and do-able plan that doesn't include the BLEGH thing, like there is a completely different way to approach this
  • you'll find a way to baby-step it so it's not so awful
  • you'll re-connect with your LOVE and PASSION and ENTHUSIASM for your dream and the blegh will feel much smaller

Many years ago I had that BLEGH about paying taxes as self employed person.

For some reason, I thought it would be a total nightmare. At this point I can't even say why I thought it would be so awful but it was a big part in why I didn't want to turn this work into a business (I was doing it for several years "on the side" while working in a day job).

And I never really confronted that BLEGH. (If I had, I would have figured some stuff out much faster) But my love, passion and enthusiasm for my dream grew, and the way I was doing this work grew to the point where it made sense to figure out how to quit my job and really do this...

And then it turned out the taxes were no big deal.

Like - I just put some money aside each month and when it's time to pay taxes I send that money over. It's absolutely not a problem and yet for some time it was the whole reason why I didn't want to figure out how to really HAVE my DREAM.

And the BLEGH had nothing to do with taxes. Or money. The BLEGH is rarely really about what it says it's about.

Creative Dreaming is SO vulnerable.

Creative Dreaming is such a deep and profound invitation to healing and growth, to creativity and soul.

There are so many layers and so many things happening.

I've been wrestling with some BLEGHs about my plans for 2026.

All these things I DO NOT WANT TO DO and yet I very much want the results of having done those tasks.

And I've been sitting in all of the discomfort of that.

And then... I found the more I VALIDATED my BLEGHS instead of judging them and wishing I felt more motivated.... well I started to see how they ARE valid.

I started to see how I'm not "being a spoiled brat" in wanting to have the results without making the effort.

I started to see how much I was judging myself for feeling like a spoiled brat about it!!

I started to see... omg yes it's true! There ARE ways to get what I want WITHOUT doing all this shit I don't want to do.

I can't even begin to explain how many layers of "capitalist work ethic" are hiding out in this BLEGH and my reaction to the BLEGH.

But I do feel like simply validating my feelings and validating my wish to NOT do the things I don't want to do... I am creating a whole new way to do it.

Creative Dreaming means seeing beyond what we've seen before. Doing things in ways we have no context for. It's sooo trippy and amazing.

Whatever it is you think you have to do to get what you want, if you don't want to do it - I promise you there is another way.

And you can create that other way if you stay in the process and keep going deeper into all of the feelings that come up along the way.

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Can you give this some thought this week?

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As we explore HOW we are going to get to where we want to be at the end of the year… I would like to add some new tools to our Dream Plan Kit in the Creative Dream Incubator membership - for diagnosing and repairing problems with planning. 

So please hit reply to this and let me know - where does planning get overwhelming for you? Where do you get stuck with it? What are the problems? It can be hard to separate out what is a planning problem from what is a dreaming problem so - what are the problems you are facing with your dreams in general? Let me know!

I keep thinking about our conversation at the Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams call, and the FACE one person made when they shared that they don’t like “all that goal setting stuff”

BLECH

YES

So much of the GOAL SETTING part of the Live Your Best Life Industry is just straight up capitalism. Work hard! Achieve! Achieve more! Earn your worth as a human being through accomplishing really big things and then dream even BIGGER!!!!

It’s exhausting.

That’s not what we do here.

AND

We don’t want to just drop our goals/dreams/projects either.

It’s not true that you have to either be super obnoxiously goal-oriented or not have goals at all.

There are gazillions of miles of middle ground to find your place in.

Where is that place, for you?

That place where you're not pushing yourself or over-working but you're also not abandoning your precious dreams?

What would this look and feel like for you?

Can you give that some thought this week?

Because your dream is SACRED. This is a part of you that deserves time, care and attention.

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Your Dream Needs Structure [Dream Status Report]

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I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? This is where we figure things out!! There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

*Membership members: this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!

If you don't know what to DO with your dreams, or everything feels impossible - make a commitment to do this with me weekly.

THIS is where you'll figure it out. Probably not the first time or even the second or third. But in the process of making space to show up consistently and to check in with your process with the intention of learning what it is your dreams need, you DO figure it out.

Your dreams need STRUCTURE. The difference between a dream that's far away and not real and a dream that is real in your life - is structure. The dream TAKES FORM.

Every dream needs a different kind of structure. You can't know for sure what your dream needs ahead of time. You need to get in there and experiment. You need a PRACTICE that helps you do this.

The weekly Dream Status Report is where you 1. tease out the structure that this dream needs while 2. giving yourself some structure for dreaming/practicing.

I know this seems like the most boring thing I have to offer in the membership but I promise it's vital.

This is where you take the magic and insights from the breakthroughs the other tools provide and use them to build the path that leads to your dream?

This is where you figure out how to give your ideas LIFE.

I'm writing this as a reminder to myself as much as to anyone else this morning, lol.

One thing we talked about on Friday's Co-Dreaming is how HARD it is to acknowledge our GIFTS and PROGRESS.

Like yeah it's hard to face the fears and inner critics and self doubt.

It's ALSO hard to face the inner GOOD STUFF.

So that's where I am with my Dream Status Report. And that's why I was sitting here with my journal (I did the Hello Day: Starting The Day With The Soul Of Your Business meditation instead of the Dream Lab so that I could do the questions with the soul of my business)... and instead of journaling I got up and started re-potting plants.

Resistance in action. Those plants did need re-potting so it's good to get that done. AND. Why am I resisting writing out my Dream Status Report this week?

Because I am really proud of myself.

Because I figured out so many things about my dreams this week.

Because the new structures and routines that IS struggled to create for so long feel SOOOOO GOOOOOOOOD right now and I am so proud of myself for persevering and not trying to force myself into routines that used to work or ways of doing things that "work for everyone else" and instead did the messy and terrifying work of finding my own right-fit way.

Because I love the work I am doing and I am so proud of how I am doing it.

So many layers of pride. So much acknowledgment of all the ways I've kept showing up and PRACTICING and learning and growing.

I'm in a place where a LOT of things are coming together and it feels amazing and I'm not just lucky that it's all happening, this is the result of diligent Inner/Outer/Dream work done consistently over a long time.

And it feels really vulnerable to acknowledge that.

The Dream Status Reports, done consistently, will bring up EXACTLY the thing that you need to look at.

The fear. The self doubt. The reality of how big the obstacle is. The places where you dim your light.

Whatever it is, doing a weekly (or bi-weekly if once a week is too much) Dream Status Report will help you shine a light on it and better understand what you and your dreams need in this process.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

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How To Hold On To Your Dream In Hard Times (in 4 steps) (with **NEW MEDITATIONS)

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Me holding up my big journal open to a page where I've mapped out the 4 steps of holding onto your dreams in hard times.

 

First I want to say: let's acknowledge that no one has 100% easy times.

Like, that idea that your life needs to have enough space in it and you need to "feel ready" and have all the support you need to make your dream happen - that's a fantasy. That's never going to happen.

We're always dreaming in hard times, to some extent.

Being a visionary - seeing a thing you want to create or make different, seeing a better future - that's brave!!!

And then taking any steps at all towards making that happen is brave x a million.

But these are feeling like especially dystopian times, so I've been thinking a lot about how we hold onto our dreams... because the times when it's the hardest to hold onto them are the times when we need them the most.

Step one: Establish a daily-ish habit of creative dreaming. 

(If you're NOT in the membership and reading this by email - this is what the free creative dreaming class is about! The link is at the top of your email.) 

This is the one I want to talk about today. Because doing this alone seems like "not enough" and technically it's not enough to get you to where you want to be... but it puts you into a place of possibility so actually step 1 is everything AND it's always DO-ABLE.

You start doing this without any pressure to take the next steps. You create this practice that, in time, becomes a sturdy container for making magic happen.

You need a SIMPLE, ACCESSIBLE way of doing this that is INTERESTING and ENGAGING for you so that you keep doing it - it shouldn’t feel like a chore it should feel like DREAMING!!

Once you have this, you can take tiny steps into the rest of it as your capacity permits.

But having this creative dreaming practice HOLDS SPACE for the rest to happen. It HOLDS SPACE for you, your dreams, and the future you want to create. And it creates possibility. It puts you in the process.

For many years, my work began with what I now think of as step 2. This is how I was taught.  But over time I realized that another step was needed. Like, the step up to step 1 was quite high, you needed to already have motivation and to feel ready and have some things in place before you could take it.

So I created this smaller step, to bridge the gap between “not dreaming at all” and “full on making magic happen”.

Because your dream is meant for your life NOW.

If you dream of a thing now, this is a sign from your soul. It’s not a sign that you should feel pressured to make the thing happen ASAP. It’s a sign that this is your path, this is who you really are.

Your dream contains your medicine. You need it. And you deserve to have it NOW but you only receive it through engaging with the dream.

So creating a Creative Dream PRACTICE even when it’s not practical or realistic in any way to make changes in your life - creates space for you to receive this medicine, the healing and growth that your dreams are calling you towards. And this creates possibilities that you can't see right now.

I created the Dream Book 2026 program as a container to help you establish a Creative Dream Practice that works for you and fits in with your life.

(Dream Book 2026 is, of course, for the year 2026 but it will become something new in 2027 - it’s not going away and you can start any time)

Even though I am firmly in the “full on making magic happen” phase of creative dreaming, I find that having this practice also bolsters my work with my dreams and gives me a gentler/calmer space to just… SIT IN THE PROCESS when things are rough.

It means you're not choosing between "being full ON" and "being fully OFF" with your dreams. There's this in-between space to land and rest and process and restore... without dropping the whole thing.

Today I am adding 4 new Hello Day meditations to Creative Dream Incubator Membership.

The Hello Day meditation for energy clearing + intention setting - this is the basic practice of the Dream Book 2026 program. This meditation includes a LOT of mindset/intention work around trusting yourself with your dreams, believing in yourself, feeling capable to make the magic happen.

"Hello Day" refers to it being a daily-ish practice that you repeat often. Some SUPPORT for showing up for dreams along with your day, which I know I need these days!

Here are the four Hello Day style meditations, which help you shift from step 1 to steps 2-4 of Creative Dreaming:

Goodbye Day: End up day check-in

Space to show up, sit with yourself and congratulate yourself for showing up for your dreams today! And time to reflect on what happened, what you may have learned, and to leave a message or encouragement for your slightly-future-self tomorrow when you show up for your dreams again.

Hello Day: Showing up for my BIGGEST DREAM

Space to show up, sit with yourself and think about how you want to show up for your BIGGEST DREAM today.

Hello Night: Holding Intentions In Your Sleep

This one is to listen to right before bed to experiment with how to be more intentional about sleep... and maybe even manifest your dreams in your sleep!

Hello Day: Starting the day with the soul of my business

Space to show up, sit with the soul of your business, reflect on what's going on and think about your priorities for today.

All of these have the same kind of mindset/intention work around trusting yourself with your dreams, believing in yourself, feeling capable to make the magic happen. 

And they help you shift into steps 2-4 of “four steps to hold on to your dreams in hard times” which are...

Step 2: Go DEEP into the alchemical process of navigating the outer, inner and dream work of making a dream real. (We do this in the Dream Book program and using the libraries of Creative Dream Alchemy practices yes this is a BIG JOB but you can take teeny steps)

Step 3: Have consistent check-ins to reflect, process, learn and refine your plan as you go. Also you can make a thing happen with NO plan... IF you are doing this part consistently. (We do this in the weekly Dream Status Reports which I share here on Sundays and Monthly New Moon Intention Setting Rituals)

Step 4: Get the support and encouragement you need to keep going. (The membership itself! The tools, classes, emails, reminders and invitations to show up for your dream)

Members: Check out the new meditations and please let me know if you have any questions!

Co-Dreaming Co-Working Call Today

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

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Are you giving yourself enough credit?

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On Monday I wrote about how I was feeling discouraged about how I am implementing my plans for this year…

Then I went and looked through my notes for the last month and it’s like… whoa.

I AM DOING SO MUCH BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WAS.

This is common.

Dreaming is multi-dimensional! I don’t think we stop and give ourselves enough credit for that. We are healing, growing and creating on many levels at once.

AND we are visionaries!

We are seeing a better future and creating our vision with each step and so yes… sometimes we feel behind because we can see so far ahead. And sometimes we think we are further ahead than we are.

This is common.

You are building a path that leads to a whole new future! How could you not get disoriented at times?

So when I looked through my journals and notes and plans and experienced that jolt of realizing that I am not behind at all...

I could see that I am IN PROCESS … so nothing is COMPLETE... and sometimes being in process is disorienting and confusing.

But everything was ok! Better than ok even.

A lot of the ideas I had in January are actually much better now - like I have been in process with them, so they have evolved, so no I’m not where I thought I would be by now. I am somewhere entirely different but it’s a really good place to be. 

We are almost halfway through 2026.

This halfway mark is such  good time to check in, re-assess your goals and plans for the year, and come up with a way to get to the finish like where it doesn’t FEEL LIKE you are “getting to the finish line” you know?

We want to HEAL, GROW and CREATE our way there. While taking care of ourselves and our lives. So maybe we move more slowly but more intentionally and powerfully and we ENJOY OUR WAY THERE.

This is the work we started in the Spring Clean for your Dreams and now we’re spending the month of June coming up with our plans. Next week I’ll add more journaling prompts for that process 🙂

Members: get the call replay + planning tools here

Not a member? You can get this one here without a subscription.

You don’t need a ton of time or money or energy or everything already lined up for you perfectly.

You just need to make the decision to actually CREATE the things you feel called to create. And you need to be brave about the healing and growth that happen along the way.

Most of my work is “Choose Your Own Adventure style”. Maybe it’s only the middle aged Gen Xers who get this reference, but when I was a kid I was obsessed with Choose Your Own Adventure Books. At different points in the story, you could choose what you wanted to have happen next, and then flip to that page in the book instead of reading the whole book straight through.

Choose Your Own Adventure inspired me as I was creating my programs not so much for the thrill of choosing your own plot lines, but more to acknowledge and hold space for the fact that there are so many ways to show up for our dreams. And there are so many things that happen when we DO show up.

So, we are not so much as CHOOSING our own adventure as CREATING our own adventure, as we create the path that leads to our dreams.

Like, when you do a Creative Dream Alchemy meditation - maybe you notice how much self doubt you have and freak out about it.

Maybe you realize that that obstacle is bigger than you thought and maybe you can’t get around it the way you thought you could.

Maybe you get this new idea that feels SOOOO GOOOD you want to just get to work immediately.

These are all common things that happen during Creative Dream Alchemy meditations  - it doesn't matter so much WHAT comes up, it matters that you WORK WITH IT.

So you don’t stop and just say “Oh I can't” instead you go to the libraries of Dream Work, Inner Work and Outer Work practices, tools and supports, and find the thing that meets you where you are.

And please email me when you have questions!

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

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Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

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I am struggling with my business plans for this year

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I started this year with a clear and detailed business plan. I even went to a business coach I trust wholeheartedly (Pamela Slim) to get her feedback and ideas on it.

It felt solid.

I have just not been able to keep up with it.

At this point it feels like I am just DRAGGING these un-done tasks with me, from month to month.

Part of my plan is to do a month review each month, and then use what I learn there to map out the next month of implementing the plan.

Every month this gets harder to do because every month I feel more behind.

But my plan isn’t wrong. And I am not wrong. We’re just in process. Running a business in 2026 is so difficult for so many reasons. 

This is where we have to remember that Creative Dreaming is an ALCHEMICAL PROCESS.

So, when I show up for month-end reflecting and planning, and I feel…

… ashamed at how I didn’t implement my ideas last month

… frustrated by how hard this is

... exhausted, too exhausted to think about it any more

… frozen and feeling like I can’t do this again

This doesn’t mean I should stop trying!

HAVING FEELINGS ARE NOT A SIGN TO STOP. EVER.  Your feelings are showing you your next step. ALWAYS.

Your feelings are a big sign on the path saying “Hey it’s time for deeper Inner Work”

Usually I would just link to the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy Inner Work practices, but I feel like I want to name them all today, so they are below this post.

There is something there that will help you do the Inner Work so you can get the HEALING, TRANSFORMATION + MIRACLES you need to take your next steps.

The answer is never to keep pushing yourself OR to give up - the answer is to go deeper into what is actually happening.

I'm struggling to keep up with my plans. If that was all that was happening I would focus on re-planning the plans so they do fit my capacity.

But I'm struggling to keep up with my plans and this is causing internal discomfort which is making me not want to show up and look at this at all.

So the work is to be with the discomfort.

Doing that WILL SHIFT THIS.

This is the ALCHEMY of Creative Dreaming.

And when it comes to planning it's really easy to focus solely on the Outer Work and we have to remember this is still an alchemical process, and the Dream Work and Inner Work are the things to do when the Outer Work is stuck or fraught.

Otherwise our only option is to ABANDON OUR DREAMS in these times and we are NOT here for that.

Triangle Dream Compass

So: Show up. Then work with what is there.

If you feel inspired and motivated do Outer Work (OR do some planning which is a part of Outer Work)

If you feel unsure about what to do, do Dream Work.

If you are having uncomfortable feelings, do Inner Work.

As I said above, I don't want to just link to the Inner Work library today, I'd like to share each of the practices, so here goes:

The Un-Sticking Station! ***START HERE*** This shows you the basic practice of inner work.

Video to Watch When You're Avoiding The Un-Sticking Station 10 minute alchemy video

For When You're Too Upset To Do This  17 minute Alchemy meditation (a part of the Un-Sticking Station)

Alchemy Process for Working with Self-Doubt 18 minute video alchemy process with journaling sheet

Self Doubt Relief 20 minute video alchemy process + journaling sheets

The Inner Critic Fix 25.5 minute video alchemy process + journaling sheet

Procrastination Cure 24 minute video alchemy process + journaling sheets

Alchemy Process for Working with Overwhelm 17 minute video alchemy process with 2 journaling sheets

For When You're In Resistance 11 minute video for sitting with + processing your resistance

Alchemy Process for When Something Is Bothering You And You Need To Let It Go 12 minute energy alchemy video

Alchemy Process for Working with Disappointment 12 minute video about working with disappointment, then 2 different alchemy processes with journaling sheets

Alchemy Process for Hearing your Intuition 8 minute video alchemy process with a cut + paste journaling sheet to keep exploring with

Alchemy Process for Bolstering Your Sense of Courage 9 minute video alchemy process

Alchemy Process for Coming Back To Yourself 8 minute video alchemy process

When you're ready to get to work - then you get stuck 7 minute video

Alchemy Process for Making Your Trust In Your Dream Bigger Than Your Fear 12 minute video alchemy process

Releasing Ceremony 10.5 minute alchemy meditation with a journaling prompt for releasing something you are ready to let go of.

Yikes! I am Having A Lot Of Feelings! 14 minute alchemy meditation video and journaling sheet

Alchemy Process for removing the things that make it hard to know what you want 4 minute alchemy meditation video

HOPElessness Meditation (from the Year of Hope) 14 minute meditation for sitting with hopelessness.

Working with Qualities A video about qualities + two different guided meditations for working with qualities

Energy Fields Guided Colouring Meditation + Energy Fields with Different Qualities

And then we have 6 one hour+ long meditation + journaling classes for Inner Work:

Feeling worthy of your dreams

Sitting With Uncomfortable Feelings

Working with Conflicting Feelings

Exploring Resistance + Creative Flow

Taking The Inner Work Deeper

Your self doubt is not yours, you deserve to believe in yourself

If you feel stuck with your planning like I am today - there is something there that will help you do the Inner Work so you can get the HEALING, TRANSFORMATION + MIRACLES you need to take your next steps.

Go do it!!!

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

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Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

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Get out of your head! The answers aren’t there! [Dream Status Report]

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Before we get started... I've love to hear from you about where YOU get stuck when it comes to planning. I am working on some new meditations and journaling sheets for the Dream Plan Kit.

I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... this is where your dream becomes REALITY. This is where you stop and notice: How am I showing up? Is this working for me? What else might be needed? There is so much we can learn by witnessing our own process.

AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

*Membership members: this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!

I am adding something new to my Dream Status Reports: PROJECT CHECK-INS

I am including ALL dreams/projects here. I have several work-related things, I have a whole new body of art I am trying to create, I have new self care routines I am wanting to turn into established habits.

I put each project in a little bubble on a page in my journal, and just check in. What's the energy like? What have I been doing with this? What does this project want next?

Seeing them visually all on one page helped me see it better somehow. Like these are not just balls I am juggling, these are all important things to make space for.

Honestly, the more closely I look at all of this the more obvious it is that DISTRACTIONS are the enemy. I have time to rest and self care and take care of my life and make space for dreams.... if I am actually staying present and using my time well.

There is also a lot to be said about how deliberate intentional rest, play and replenishment can go a long way while distracting ourselves tends to be draining.

There are some calls in the membership that can help if you are exploring this:

Looking at how my projects are fitting into my life this week- I can see that prioritizing art more create a better balance.

I can't tell you how many inner critics and jumping up and down to tell me this is the wrong move.

I am experiencing health problems, I am still kind of getting used to being divorced, and self employed in THIS economy and working online with an algorithm that is actively working against me. My plate feels full! AND. My dream says: prioritize your art.

This idea that my plate is full so I don't have space for the art... this is just in my head. This is not a deep soul truth kind of thing.

Maybe on a particular day you don't have time but day after day and week after week? That's a STUCK. It needs the Un-Sticking Station. And inside that process there will be healing and miracles and shifts and all sorts of ways to make space for the art.

So - that's something for me to keep in mind this week. I need to start actually making time for making art again or make time for the Inner Work of un-sticking that reason why I am not making art.

I spent a lot of time on my Dream Status Report journaling this week and the big theme is:

GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD! THERE ARE NO GOOD ANSWERS THERE!

Noticing how being in your head is the same as being OUT of the process, and all of the magic is IN the process.

Stop reaching OUTSIDE to try to get something and dig deeper INSIDE.

It's really all about being in the ALCHEMY of creative dreaming.

And I am crossing my fingers that I won't be back here next Sunday explaining why I STILL didn't make time for that new art project 😉

 

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A good plan isn’t a prison. It’s a support system.

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Me holding up a big planner open to a page that says, in big bubble letters "I NEED A PLAN"

A good plan isn’t a prison. It’s a support system.

Yesterday we had our Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams call, an epic one hour + 20 minutes meditation + journaling session for checking in with your goals/wishes/dreams for 2026. 

(Members: catch the replay here) (Not a member? You can still get this call here)

When we got to the part where it was time to take what we’d learned and use it to make a plan for how we want to approach the rest of the year, one person raised their hand right away to share that they were NOT enjoying the whole idea of planning, that it was brining up a TON of uncomfortable feelings for them and they didn't want to do it and people in the chat were agreeing with them.

We had a really good conversation about it.

I NEVER want to over-ride anyone’s feelings!

People felt overwhelmed and we’d done deep work diving in and looking at how we were showing up for our dreams, and it didn’t make sense to push it in the moment. One of the things I’d said on the call is that I think it would be a good idea to TAKE THE MONTH OF JUNE to incubate on the work we did, gather up the lessons, and use them to sort out how you want to approach the rest of the year.

At the same time… this is a really delicate area. 

Because what happens to your DREAM when you say “Making a plan is too overwhelming”?

Are you putting it up on the shelf?

Are you remembering the basic thing about Creative Dream Alchemy? Your dream is either IN YOUR HANDS or it’s on the shelf.

What do we do when uncomfortable feelings show up? We honour them. We work with them. We understand that this Inner Work is a sacred part of the work of making dreams real.

The overwhelm that comes up when we think about planning… is a portal. A doorway into the ALCHEMY.

We can take our time, we can go gently and slowly, we can build ALL the self care in to the process… but if we want to make something happen in our lives, we DO need some kind of plan.

You likely have had an experience where you made a PLAN to do a thing and the plan failed you horribly. If you have been pursuing your dreams for a LONG while this will have happened numerous times.

The feelings that come up there need to be acknowledged and worked with. There is a part of you in there who needs healing. 

Because our dreams are so vulnerable, because these things really matter to us, our feelings about this are so heightened so it takes a LOT of courage to do that work. But we know that you’re brave enough.

What I’ve seen happen, with myself and people I have coached, is that once you can get through the terror of feeling the feelings - there is an insight or awareness on the other side of that that WILL make you feel ready to plan again. Like you’ll realize that your plans were too rigid and you need a certain kind of flexibility, or your plans were too loose and you need more structure to fully support you in getting to the next level, or you need to be more realistic about how long it will take to do the thing, or something like that.

Like - that feeling "I AM TOO FREAKING OVERWHELMED TO MAKE A PLAN" is valid... AND... there's a story in there that needs some attention.

So it's not a signal to NOT plan. It's a signal to give your overwhelmed self what it needs.

This is made more complicated by the fact that when it comes to YOUR dreams, there isn’t actually a way to know how to plan to make them happen.

I highlight the YOUR there, because YOUR dreams need YOUR unique way of doing things. So this isn’t an area where someone else can show you how to do it. I know a lot of people claim they can, but they can only show you THEIR way of doing it. And trying to do YOUR dreams, using someone else’s formula for planning, is exactly why so many of us are so tangled up about PLANNING in general.

There IS a “YOUR WAY” to plan but you find it by really listening to yourself about what feels right, being radically accountable to yourself, and to your dreams, and being wiling to do some trial and error along the way. This is going to be overwhelming sometimes!

(This is why I do the Dream Status Report and share it here every week! This is where you reflect and learn and refine the plan in real time! This is why we do a bigger reflection during the monthly Intention Setting Calls, we need this space for a deeper dive into “how is this all going?” so we can learn from our process and, again, refine the plan in real time)

Even then, like I have been sharing in my posts over the last few months… sometimes you’ll get to a point where what used to work doesn’t work now and it’s back to the drawing board.

Planning is right when the rubber is about to meet the road, this is what turns DREAMING into DOING, and so every one of your inner doubts, fears, unhelpful patterns, trauma responses, and limiting beliefs are going to pop up here. 

Planning RILES EVERYTHING UP because this is your last chance to stop yourself before you start engaging in real change.

And it sucks, but this means you have to do the Inner Work on those things that come up. The stories that say “I’ve tried this before and failed so why bother” “I’ve never done anything this outrageous before, I’m sure now is not the time to start” “I’m not that ambitious anyway”

What’s the story that comes up for you about why you shouldn’t bother making a plan to HAVE your DREAM?

This story is a doorway into the ALCHEMY. 

By sitting with these stories and meetings these “stucks” you transform them, you create new space inside you for taking your dreams seriously, making plans, and following through. 

THIS IS NOT A DETOUR.

The Inner Work is the necessary, needed and helpful healing you need to make YOUR plan. The Inner Work is where you’ll learn more clearly what it is about planning that doesn’t work for you.

All of my experience with this tells me: there’s no such thing as “I’m just not a planner” this statement is full of unmet feelings and stories. You may be a highly unstructured or unconventional planner, your plans might not look like anything that anyone else would think of as a plan, but to make a thing happen in your life you have to have a sense of how you're going to do it. This is a plan.

Creative Dreaming is about being intentional in your life.

It doesn't mean always working as hard as you can. You can plan for self care just like you can plan for your most ambitious goals.

If, when you think about planning, you’re thinking spreadsheets and having every minute of your whole day planned out and working harder and exhausting yourself to keep up with the plan… you need a new way of thinking about planning, not to abandon having a plan altogether.

The truth is, planning is not a prison. IT’S A SUPPORT SYSTEM. 

It can be “I am going to have leisurely cup of tea on my patio in the morning” “I love the beach! I am going to make a point of going EVERY WEEKEND this summer” 

So, after yesterday’s call, I am thinking… we may need to give some attention to the idea of HEALING OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PLANNING.

(Which ties in the what the soul of the Creative Dream Incubator has been showing me about how to better hold space for dreaming in these chaotic times - a lot of it is about bringing in more structure but NOT structure in ways that constrain, structure in ways that hold and support. More on that coming later this year)

Because yes, there are reasons why RIGHT NOW it’s harder to plan than ever. But for those SAME REASONS it’s vital that we not let go of our dreams.

Having a realistic plan to make your dream happen is a form of self respect.

So really - we could be GRATEFUL when planning feels fraught because it gives us the opportunity to see our next steps with the Inner Work so much more clearly.

One thing we all agreed on during the call is that we don't have the DRIVE and AMBITION and desire to WORK HARD in service to building our dreams, like some of used to...

What I suggested during the class is that we TAKE OUR TIME integrating all the stuff that came up in our epic meditation and journaling session and give ourselves THE MONTH OF JUNE to reflect on how we’d like to approach the rest of the year.

I woke up this morning with some ideas for what I can do to support that.

More to come…

In the meantime, please think about this.

In these chaotic times, you deserve a plan as in a SUPPORT SYSTEM to help you feel the way you want to feel, live the way you want to live and create what you want to create.

(Members: catch the replay here) (Not a member? You can still get this call + join us in this process here) And please leave your thoughts in the comment section below the video - let's explore all of this together!

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Juggling too many project ideas and being afraid of dropping balls…

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This is how I used meditation and journaling to get out of a "stuck" this morning.

I share my honest and vulnerable journaling because I want to BE THE CHANGE I want to see in the world. I want to live in a world where the majority of people are doing this work: listening DEEPLY to their dreams, understanding/respecting their dreams as their SOUL CALLING, and doing the work of answering those calls.

This work is complex! Your dreams are asking for healing and spiritual/emotional/creative growth on many levels at the same time.

Actually engaging in all of this LOOKS LIKE A MESS.

I know sometimes people read the things I share and think I am a mess. That's fine. I am sharing this for the people who get it and the people who want to get it.

Because this is how we PRACTICE our way into our dreams.

I did my Hello Day meditation this morning, and when i got to the part where I invited the soul of my dream in, it changed everything. My dream came in with CLARITY and it felt like it sharpened everything. From vague, hazy ideas to THIS! DO THIS! NOW! THEN DO THIS!

Which felt so great.

Then I went into my day and it’s like… I feel disoriented. I got up to put a load of laundry in. Then I got up to look through the fridge and see about making a snack when I asked myself “Are you hungry?” and I said “No, I just wanted to get up from my desk because it’s so uncomfortable there.”

The discomfort is: Now I have all of these great ideas for things to do, I definitely want to do them all, but I can’t seem to just… focus on one and do it. When I try to do that, I keep thinking of the other ones.

I do have Journal Prompts For When you Have Too Many Ideas And Can’t Pick One To Focus On <--- this is an older blog post, not something in the membership, so anyone can access this.

But I want to go deeper into the ALCHEMY of Creative Dream Alchemy.

So here I am, meeting the discomfort in the Un-Sticking Station Meditation, the one with all three steps together.

This is a 30 minute meditation and I did have to have a little negotiation with myself to even start it.

“But we don’t have time! We have all this stuff to do!”

“But we’re not doing any of the things, we’re just going in circles”

“But still! We're MOVING! Let’s keep going!”

“No, we are just going in circles, I want to do this so that we can make PROGRESS”

This one part of me still didn’t want to do this, but I just kind of put my foot down, put my headphones on, and started.

The mediation feels so DREAMY. I calm down about feeling stuck.

When my stuck shows up, it’s a snail juggling 5 big balls. Each ball is way bigger than the snail and the snail seems to be really enjoying himself, he's smiling.

My first though is - well I could actually focus on other things today, and Thursday and Friday could be my days where I get focused and work on these projects, like maybe that fits my schedule better anyway to do it that way?

Maybe it doesn’t matter that I feel unfocused today?

Then when I offer my stuck love, I offer it permission to just… keep juggling.

But then the snail stops smiling and it’s like… I can’t juggle forever. This is only really fun for a few minutes.

And I say… OK that’s fine, you can put them down.

Snail FREAKS THE HECK OUT. 

No, the balls can’t just be put down they need to have proper spaces to rest in, other wise I am DROPPING THE BALL and we can’t DROP THE BALL!!!

Ok wow. I did not realize how fraught this all feels. I find 5 big pillows, take each ball from the snail one at a time, and place them on pillows.

I don’t like this!!!! The balls can roll off the pillows at anytime! Says the snail.

Yes I know, I say, this is temporary so you can stop judging and we can come up with safe and nurturing homes for each ball.

OMG I love this, the snail is grinning from ear to ear now.

Then I go to my journal, where I had already written out each project, in a bubble (Ha! I guess that’s where the juggling balls came from) and now I am writing out what this project needs to be safely “rested” until I can work on it so that no balls get dropped.

Once journaling, I saw that “making a home” for each bubble meant making a schedule for the week, with space for everything.

(Usually I just have a list of “things I want to do this week” and do the things that match my energy in the moment and, over many years of doing this I have developed a trust that everything will get handled but this week that trust feels like a stretch)

Then I stopped the meditation 21 minutes in. At that point I had one bubble/project that was yelling “I AM 100% PANIC! YOU ARE ABOUT TO DROP ME!” though I felt like I was not about to drop it, it’s just not a priority for this week. It DOES need some focused attention, but next week is fine so writing a note about it in my project management app AND my planner feels like a good way to keep it safe from being dropped.

Mostly it’s like… this is a longer term project I have been slowly working on and some of these ideas projects just kind of popped up and so this project feels worried (of course, everything in the meditation is projections, so a part of me is worried!) that other things will keep popping up and I’ll never get to it so I tried to assure it that this won’t happen, it’s just that these are all short term things and it is a long term thing and that helped it to feel less panicked.

So where am I now? Do I need to finish the meditation?

Oh! One thing pops into my mind. Climate change.

I saw this morning that where I live in Winnipeg, we are experiencing climate change 2X more than average. And Canada’s arctic is experience it 4x more!

But what that means for me, today, is that we had a weird spring where the “spring things” didn’t happen the way they usually do because we had winter weather well into when we usually have spring weather. And then this week it just jumped into summer. And everything suddenly FEELS different including my ceiling fan is on all the time so there is this new noise in my space. I didn’t have the gradual shift from winter to summer like I have had for 50 years… last year was the same as this year, plus terrifying wildfires on top of that.

So yeah, it makes sense that I feel a little unsettled and that can make it harder to focus.

BUT

I feel good about the plan I came up with in the meditation. I like planning from inside a meditation inside the Field of Creative Dream Alchemy because then I know I am planning from a place of being as connected as possible to possibility and dreams.

And, as I think about actually picking up this ONE project and focusing on it for the rest of the day, all of the other projects feel good! They are resting, they know when they’ll be picked up again, no one is worried about being dropped.

SO: I am going to make a cup of tea, bring it upstairs to my bedroom, to sit in bed with my laptop, to write and hopefully record (I record from inside my bedroom closet, the quietest place I have) two new Hello Day meditations.

Since our Co-Dreaming on Friday I have been thinking about what one person said about not liking Hello Day and wanting to focus on THE BIG DREAM. And it makes sense, Hello Day is for holding space for ourselves it’s not about BIG DREAMING (but it can lead to that!) the Dream Lab meditation is better for that (this person is using that) but I thought…

I’d like to do a version of Hello Day (specifically focused on how I am showing up TODAY) where you are looking at: how do I show up today for my BIGGEST dream? And that gave me an idea for a Hello Day I would like to have where you invite the soul of your business in and look at priorities (kind of like I did here today) and: taking everything I have going on and everything I want to do into account, how do I show up for my business goals today?

So - I am going to do that.

That thing where I was distracting myself and it felt really hard to pick a thing and settle into it is gone. I am ready to get to work.

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom TOMORROW!!! May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

 

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I am getting it together [Dream Status Report]

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I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

*Membership members: this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!

I AM GETTING IT TOGETHER - from Monday in my Dream Book 2026 planner.

This week I really did GET IT TOGETHER in so many ways.

The last few months I have been on a real JOURNEY when it comes to looking at my habits and routines and the structures that support my dreams.

I over thought things. I got lost in my feelings about things.

Which is good! Because I was really IN IT, exploring everything. This is what it looks like to really BE IN THE ALCHEMY OF IT. To create space for real and lasting healing and transformation.

Then this week it all came together and I knew what to do. This always happens when you stay in the process long enough to get to this part. (Remember that one of our principles of Creative Dream Alchemy is: it takes the time it takes)

BUT getting to the place where it all comes together - doesn't necessarily look like you think it will. And that's where I am now.

Looking back at this year, each week I've learned a little thing and applied that little thing and then the next week learned the next little thing...

All these little steps got me here, to a place where I feel like I AM getting it together, I love the routines, habits and structured I'm at... AND... it's just not like what I thought it would be like.

That's partly aging! I have different needs and preferences as I age and different things work.

And it's partly the ways the world is changing. And this can be a hard one to see in real time, because we're not in charge of how the world is changing, and we tend to try to hold on to the things we love, to the things that work for us, etc.

The other day I was with my mom and we drove down the street where I used to work downtown, when I worked in an office, over 15 years ago. We were saying "Oh weird" because the food carts weren't out. This particular street used to be lined in food carts every weekday from spring to fall. This particular street has a lot of office buildings on it and people would come out for lunch. EVERY DAY the sidewalks will overflowing with people at lunch time. It was like this for years.

And now it's just - not.

I thought about how a lot of office workers are working from home now. And how so many of our office buildings downtown are empty. At the same time when these buildings are empty, we have more unhoused people than ever, and keep having even more every year. There are these Downtonwn Biz workers who, 15 years ago, were out cleaning up trash, watering the flowers, etc. These days it's not uncommon to see them administer Narcan to people who have overdosed.

It was just such a stark contrast, remembering this same street how it was 15+ years ago and how it is today.

The world has changed so much, and there is this one part of me who wants to not notice this, and wants to figure out how to get me to perform and produce the same way I did 15 years ago.

Which is never going to happen. Though it's a valid feeling! It's a valid wish, for that one part of me.

It's not what I want though. I don't want to go back I want to go forward.

And I'm so grateful for all the ways I have explored my own routines and structures so that I can figure out... what really works NOW, for who I am today and the world as it is today. I feel like I have space to go deeper into my creative and spiritual work now.

I am not turning a blind eye to what is happening in the world. And I believe that seeing what is happening includes seeing all the GOOD that is happening. All of the movements for positive change. All of the activism. All of the ways we are collectively waking up and starting to shift towards better ways of doing things.

I feel so hopeful for a better future for everyone and I feel so PASSIONATE about the role that meditation and journaling and CREATIVE DREAMING need to play in the creation of a better future for everyone.

I filled seven pages journaling about my dream status report today, and all of the things that came up for me as I did that.

So much is percolating. I am going into this new week feeling intensely grateful to have ROUTINES that feel like they can hold me as I continue to explore and create.

And SO EXCITED about Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams happening this week!

Where do you want to be at the end of 2026?

Let's make a plan that gets you there - WITHOUT overwhelm or over-working. WITH self care and soul.

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

 

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Your future self is proud of you

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Your future self is SO proud of you. 

Your future self is so grateful to you for all the ways you keep showing up to create a better future for her.

Your future self is ESPECIALLY grateful that you are working through the MUCK of it all. Your own doubts and fears on top of the existential dread of living in the world at this time - this is a lot to work through and your future self is SO grateful for this effort.

This was the message I got one day this week in my practice.

It was during the Meeting Your Miracle mediation in Project Miracle, my miracle is an intense energy to work with and the meditation was so weird.

I held up my hands while they were on my lap. I called the miracle in, and the miracle showed up as me - but I could tell it was a future version of me. A full size me, the same size as me, sitting on my lap, facing me, so my upheld hands were holding my buttocks and I was like “Ummmmm I don’t know, this feels weird”

And this is why I often say “It’s ok if it’s weird or uncomfortable or you don’t understand what is happening, stay with it” in my meditations… because with this work, the stuff that feels so weird in the beginning usually has a really good thing to teach or show us.

So I reminded myself of this, it’s weird and that’s ok, and got curious about why my miracle showed up in this way. 

My future self kissed my cheek and hugged me and I felt, in my whole body, her gratitude. “You stuck it out, mucking through the muck, showing up, practicing, exploring, experimenting, sitting with, creating, healing…. and I get to have all of the benefits of all of that. I can’t tell you how grateful I am.”

That sensation flooded my body and changed how I see everything.

Which reminds me of another thing I say a lot, every month on our New Moon Intention Setting Calls - as you are reflecting on your process, is there anything that needs a reframe? Like, if you feel like “I have been struggling with this for so long” could you reframe it to something like “I am so brave to keep showing up to work on this really hard thing”

And that’s what I felt in the meditation. A full body re-frame.

I’m not struggling too much, I’m not moving too slow, it’s not true that I should have figured this all out already (things my inner critic says)…. I am working through such hard stuff and doing a commendable job of showing up through the mess.

One thing about creative dreaming in a dystopia - we need to be easier on ourselves, and less focused on outcomes and deadlines, and practice TRUST.

The SPEED at which you are making things happen is not relevant - it’s the DIRECTION you’re moving in that matters. Keep showing up.

Members: the easiest way to do that is the Hello Day practice (you can do it any time of day!)  And come to the Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams call next week (or use the replay!) to make a plan that meets you where you are and help you get to where you want to be.

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

Co-Dreaming Co-Working Call Today

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

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What do you need now?

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How are we HOLDING SPACE for ourselves, and our dreams and the future we want to create?

This is the big question I am sitting with this year, and inviting you to explore with me, in the Dream Book 2026 program.

Which is also a part of the question of "How do we hold onto our dreams in a dystopia?" which I have been exploring for the last few years.

Sitting with the questions + holding space for yourself in the process is the work that creates space for dreaming and growth and possibility, which is what the Dream Book 2026 program is about (which inside the membership, here).

But if you have been doing this with me or not - NOW is a good time to reflect on how your year is going, and what you need next.

Magic does happen if you keep showing up even without a plan... AND/OR you may find now is the time to get a little more structure for your process and make some plans for how you want to get to where you want to be at the end of the year.

This is what Spring Cleaning for your Dream is about.

Technically, as in "the way I see it", this is a part of the Dream Book 2026 program but it doesn't matter if you're doing Dream Book 2026 or not.

It doesn't even matter if you set goals/intentions in January or not.

This is just a good time to check in with yourself about what you want for the rest of the year. Maybe you want to take as many naps as possible, maybe you want to make a plan to reach your biggest goals, maybe you just want to feel a little happier and more hopeful about the future.

Whatever it is, this is a good time to reflect on how things have been going, and make a plan for what you're going to do next.

So - do this with me!

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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I wanted to have a conversation with the part of me who loves to “get up and go”

I am deep in process with figuring out the structures, habits + routines (link to the Stature Habits Routes class in the membership) that will work best for me at this time. The self care, the support for my creative process, the structures that keep my life feeling manageable in a world that feels less stable every day and help me feel steady enough to show up for the change I want to see in the world.

For a while, I thought I could just take some time to really drill down on this and figure it all out. Ha! At this point I am accepting that this is a process. And that I am doing a lot of these things, and I will keep making little changes as I go.

Last night I said to myself: I need to get really serious about first-thing-in-the-morning-fresh-air-and-exercise.

This is something I normally do well but life changes and health issues combined with some intense climate grief about the ways our weather is changing, on top of actual wildfires and dust storms, etc, which do make harder to be out there. But this morning I did it - 40 minute walk starting around 7:45 am, and since this is a holiday Monday, there wasn’t much traffic and it was really lovely. Normally I’d like to be out earlier to miss the morning traffic.

And I did get up earlier, but I just stayed in bed. So this is where the part of me who loves to get up and go is going to jump in. On my walk I realized I needed a talk with her, and it feels like she’s been waiting to talk to me, so here goes.

OMG GIRL we know that we can’t just “stay in bed”, that can ruin the whole day! Once you’re up, get up, and get moving. Get outside. enjoy the world. Give your brain that delicious early morning time of walking or cycling outside. The way you’ve been missing “feeling like yourself”????!?!?!?! That’s because you’re not doing this!!!!

OK, I love your enthusiasm AND I need you to acknowledge the health problems I’ve been facing. It’s not as simple as you are making it out to be. 

She sits down right in front of me and says: Listen, I do know how hard it’s been. I am not saying that an early morning walk will cure you. I am saying it will give you space to find your joy in the way it used to. I get that it won’t change your whole life, but you have been missing how you felt when you were doing this every day and you CAN find smaller/simpler ways to do it, way that fit with your life now.

Oh, OK. I feel seen and understood and supported.

So there is this thing where people who find a thing easy to do will be all shouty about “JUST DO IT! IT WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER!!!” and not acknowledge all the ways that this thing isn’t easy for everyone. 

Those people may also create courses or sell products to help you do it, and that stuff may not work for you if this thing is just harder for you than it is for them, and then when those things don’t work you may end up feeling like YOU failed because they keep insisting that their system works and if you didn’t get results then you weren’t committed enough, or whatever. There was so much of that happening in the “live your best life” industry and then the ways it’s collided with the “get super rich online” industry in the last 10 years it’s all gotten NUTS.

(This is why I include tools and support specifically for when you struggle with my classes, I don’t want to leave people behind like that and it’s never your fault when it’s hard to show up, it just means you need more, or different, support. Members please email me any time you need more help! I am here.)

So right now I am seeing that  I have such a huge aversion to this whole thing that I have been not wanting to listen to my inner self who has that kind of vibe about “get up and go”.

I felt like she would minimize my struggles, not get how hard this is for me right now, and say “It’s easy, you just make the decision to do it”.

Hand on heart and deep breath for all the times I was in circles where people did treat each other that way when they struggled. I feel like the early new thought/new age/self help movement was trying so hard, but just had so many things so wrong. 

Stepping back for a moment to notice all the ways that in our culture that shame is used to try to coerce people to “do better” and how ineffective it is on top of how cruel it is.

Back to my situation which feels like it is shifting so fast I can’t quite hold onto it which is so good.

This version of me, who was younger and lived in a simpler world, had her struggles too and learned about how much the early morning “get out of the house and get exercise” helped shift her whole day. So she had systems in place to help her do it - like she would check the weather and plan her outfit/layers the night before and leave that outfit out so she would see it when she woke up. Since she was going to a park or coffee shop to work or journal, she would have her bag packed and her project picked out to work on.  She didn’t bring her phone into the bedroom so laying in bed and looking at her phone wasn’t an option (which is the one I still usually do). 

So, me thinking to myself “Oh I should go for a walk tomorrow” and not doing any of those things really doesn’t create the same structure and support for actually following through.

BUT she doesn’t want to shame me about that, she wants to help me find ways to do this because of how good it will be for me to be inside the routine of it. Once a thing is a routine it’s so much easier to hold.

She gives me a hug and says “No I really don’t want to shame you. I understand that this was much easier for me to do than it is for you, even though it also wasn’t always easy for me.”

True, I remember that. It’s just that you had this DETERMINATION that I don’t seem to have and I wish I did.

GIRLLLLL! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!??! I had the determination to build the thing - you HAVE it. You don’t need to stay determined.

Oh.

WHOA.

WHHHOOOOAAAA.

I’ve been feeling like I am failing or wrong somehow for not feeling that determination and drive. I have so much grief that I am not still that person.

I see it now.

Those things were never meant to be long term.

In fact, holding onto them - they become toxic. Look at the world! Look at the people who can never get enough.

And it’s so interesting because I HAVE been thinking about determination isn’t the best fuel for long term work with your dreams, though having it in the mix can be so helpful… but I was thinking about that in general and not applying it to myself.

Oh WOW. WHOA! I can make peace with not being super determined.

Because without being super determined as a big part of the fuel moving me forward, what do I have?

LOVE, so much love for the people I work with and their dreams and all the ways their dreams impact the world and being in the process and inviting new people in to this magic

DEVOTION to tending to what I have built.

ENTHUSIASM to keep creating and growing.

I can think of lots of other things too but these feel like the main ingredients.

Wow.

I see how I was coming at this “how do I get my “get up and go” back” problem from the place that I AM DOING THIS WRONG and I AM FAILING TO FOLLOW THROUGH and HOW DO I FIX MYSELF???

And now it’s like… girl you have graduated to the next level. You no longer have that determination pushing you. So you GET TO create new ways to help yourself do the things that help.

And if I may remind you/me - look at how well you do with meal prepping! You know that you need whole foods, mostly beans, veggies and protein, made into soups/salads/wraps/etc, ready to go in the fridge and so you ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO HAVE THEM THERE. You’ve learned so much about cooking, you make amazing food from scratch. This part of you who keeps the meal prep going… this part of you can also get the morning walks/bikes going.

And if I may remind myself some more.. you have been pretty good at getting out for exercise, just not daily like you used to because so much about your life and routines have changed - that makes sense! Now you’re in a place where new routines can start to take root, so let’s not feel like we’re starting from scratch??

OK all of the heaviness I was feeling about this is gone. I have gassed myself up!

And starting today I promise myself: I won’t end the day without a plan for tomorrow, in terms of getting outside to get exercise. That plan will include a look at the weather and my schedule and a plan for an outfit - and I like the way I used to have my clothes out, so I saw them right away - like an invitation to get outside because it’s good for my brain.

I always forget about this, but I just remembered my SELF CARE PLANNER!!!!! This is the perfect thing to use. I just printed it out and am committing to use it for 8 weeks. It’s not a part of the membership - you can get it here.

Inside the membership, we have the class on Creating Self Care Protocols to support yourself in being the version of you who can do your dream

 

Where do you want to be at the end of 2026?

Let's make a plan that gets you there - WITHOUT overwhelm or over-working. WITH self care and soul.

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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The hard parts are hitting especially hard right now [Dream Status Report]

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I am doing my Dream Status Report for this week to check in with myself and my dreams and what I need and what my dreams need, for the coming week.

Doing this, consistently over time, IS MAGIC.... AND... Consistency is hard for most of us these days! So - I try to do this on Sundays, and write about it, to remind you to also take a few minutes to check in with yourself and your dreams.

*this practice works well with the Weekly Planning Sheet and Creative Genius Planning Sessions. If you want more progress and momentum with your dreams, you likely need to plan differently!

I've never cried while leading a meditation before.

But our New Moon Intention Setting ritual on Thursday felt intense.

Well, it wasn't the meditation itself, it was the stuff that I was SEEING. As I looked back over this last month I saw how anxiety and insecurity had been creeping in, bit by bit, and I hadn't noticed how present they were.

But the big one was: when I could clearly visualize and get into the feeling of what I want to be doing... being deep in my creative flow... it hit me how easy this used to be compared to how hard it is now.

When the world was simpler, when my life was simpler... going DEEP into my creative flow was also simpler.

And seeing/feeling that comparison just brought up so much grief. I've tried to write about it, both yesterday and Friday, and couldn't quite find the words.

I did talk about it on the call, and then the first person to share on the call started by saying she was glad I mentioned that I started to cry during the meditation, because she had been crying through the whole thing. She had a lot to grieve as well.

There was also a but of discussion around - Should I share this? Do other people want to hear? Am I taking up too much space? 

The thing about creative dreaming in community... it brings up a LOT of stuff. We're all going to be in different places with it.

This can feel awkward, like when one person is in tears because their dream is falling apart and the next person to share wants to celebrate a big win.

But that's also the beauty of it. How we hold space for ALL OF IT TOGETHER.

This is the STUFF OF CREATIVE DREAMING.

The Stuff of Creative Dreaming diagram

That's from the YOU ARE THE MAGIC guided journal. You can get the free version here, if you're reading this in an email the link is at the top of your email, if you're in the membership it's here.

We do tend to celebrate some parts while cursing other parts, but all parts are part of the process.

So when we have a call where some people are in the dumps and others are celebrating big wins, I think this helps us better understand the whole process.

Because the biggest enemy to dreams is giving up or deciding to "wait for the right time". The only way to make progress is to keep showing up even in the mess because that mess is 100% a part of it. How you face the mess IS the fuel for the alchemy.

It's all connected.

So when we think "Oh I shouldn't celebrate my win because this person is crying about how her dream just fell apart" or "I shouldn't cry about how scary and stressful this all is right now because I will bring down the vibe for everyone" we are forgetting how connected it is. Which we all do! All the time! And I am always trying to remember.

This IS what a lot of coaching/healing/wellness/spirituality culture has done to us.

I've been in a lot of spaces where people were subtly shamed and blamed for their "failures" to manifest while other people were held up as role models and celebrated for their success... without the slightest acknowledgment of how some people have it harder than others. Without offering real + helpful support for the people who were struggling. Just this idea that if you are not manifesting using the tools we teach - you are failing. No willingness to look at how to alter those tools to work better for everyone...

So it's important to me to not create that vibe in the Creative Dream Incubator! And there is such a RICHNESS that comes from witnessing the hard parts of people's process along with the celebrations. Sometimes I grieve for everything I missed out on from being in those spaces for so long.

The hard parts are hitting especially hard right now.

And this makes sense with everything happening in the world.

So, as I sit here, trying to do my Dream Status Report, I am acknowledging that I am creative dreaming a goddamned dystopia and could I maybe go easy on myself for the ways that the stress of these times is impacting me?

Could I stop judging myself for how hard it is to be DEEP in the creative flow in the ways I want to be, and instead congratulate myself that I keep trying?

Those questions feel like a weight lifted.

And they remind me that holding onto our dreams, holding onto our ability to IMAGINE A BETTER FUTURE, is one of the skills we NEED to get through these times.

Where do you want to be at the end of 2026?

Let's make a plan that gets you there - WITHOUT overwhelm or over-working. WITH self care and soul.

Spring Cleaning for your Dreams is Live on Zoom. May 27. 1:00 pm Central - replay provided.

Members can get the call details here.

AND! There's an option to do this WITHOUT signing up for the membership subscription!

If you're NOT a member: Get the details + sign up for Spring Cleaning for your Creative Dreams here.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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“Know that you deserve joy + aliveness”

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We have our May New Moon Intention Setting call on Thursday (tomorrow!!)

(If you're not in the membership: you can get the New Moon Intention Setting Ritual Kit here and do this on your own!)

I was looking through my journaling from our April call and at the bottom I wrote a message I got in that meditation:

KNOW THAT YOU DESERVE JOY + ALIVENESS.

The stuff I am working on right now, the intentions I am setting, are kind of boring things around getting some parts of my business running more smoothly. Not my favourite part of this work, but I am grateful that I get to the work that is most meaningful to me, so do want to take care of these things, even if they are a bit tedious.

It felt interesting, as I am looking at planning, systems, habits routines, etc... to receive this message about joy and aliveness.

But now, on the other end of the month, it feels perfect.

OF COURSE joy and aliveness are the things I need to do these tasks, to make these plans.

And OF COURSE, if we keep showing up to do this work, if we keep listening to ourselves, as deeply as we can, about how to navigate our lives, we're going to get the message and support we need to live our most authentic and fulfilling lives - now and in the future.

Creative Dreaming is NOT about working hard and making sacrifices to get to a better future.

It's about accessing more of our CREATIVE POWER right here right now, and living intentionally, and moving towards a better future without sacrificing today.

And also without gaslighting yourself about how you feel or what you want.

So, the work of accessing your creative power right here and now can be really different from day to day.

Sometimes people seem sheepish when they tell me they've been using the Un-Sticking Station practice more than anything else in the membership because they just keep feeling stuck all the time. BUT THAT'S GREAT! Showing up and WORKING WITH the stuck is deep healing work which transforms the whole path ahead of you.

Staying present with our actual feelings and actual needs right here WHILE ALSO holding space for our dreams can feel like a juggling act some days.

Some days there just isn't time/space for everything.

THAT'S OK!!

It doesn't matter how smooth or rough your process is on any particular day, it matters that you keep coming back to it.

Monthly reflection and intention setting "greases the wheels" of your Creative Dream Machine.

Don't skip this!

This is where you map out the path that gets you to where you want to be - not just for Outer Work, but Dream Work and Inner Work too. Doing this consistently over time keeps you more GROUNDED both in your life today and in your dreams for the future. It steadies the path.

In the membership: The May New Moon Intention Setting call is Thursday (tomorrow!!)

Not in the membership: you can get the New Moon Intention Setting Ritual Kit here and do this on your own.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your thoughts or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

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