On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This was a chaotic week.

I had a family thing that was really great in lots of ways and completely draining too. AND... I filed for divorce. I know I was ready to do it, and I was feeling good about it, but then after it just brought up a lot of stuff. So I've been feeling pretty tired, and resting a lot and processing a lot, and not moving a lot.

It's a big step to move from "going through a divorce" to "being divorced" and it includes lots of tiring little steps.

When I look at the Dream Status Report prompts all I can think is: I am a creative dream SLUG.

Just... laying on the ground. In a garden in dappled sunlight. Not really doing much.

So... I just looked up slugs on wikipedia.

Because all I am associating them with is barely moving. But of course they are so much more than that!

The thing that stood out to me on Wikipedia is that they form this protective mucus, which leaves a trail wherever they go... and other slugs like potential mates can find them from their trail.

So when I feel like I am just laying here like a slug...

Actually I am leaving a trail so I can be found.

I am not looking for a mate, I am thinking more about my work, and showing up for our dreams in general.

I'm not ONLY moving slow and staying on the ground in a restorative way, I am leaving a trail so my dreams can find me.

That feels reassuring.

When you feel like you're "off" with your dreams, this is the work.

Show up anyway.

I couldn't do a "real" dream status report but I sat with what came up. I gave it space. Now I feel more accepting of where I am and ready to take different steps next week.

I also have this thought that keeps coming to me:

TRUST YOUR ART

And reminders of how I have made art not knowing what I was doing, and how the art led me somewhere.

So that's what I am going to do this weekend.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I made this page on a day when I really wanted to be inspired, clear-headed and ready to get to work but what I had was tiredness, resentment and a foggy brain.

Creative Dream Alchemy is the ART and MAGIC of using what you have to create what you want.

And it works.

Truly BEING WITH and TENDING DO "what you have" is an alchemical process.

It transforms. Very literally.

Your self doubt can become fuel for your dreams... IF... you really sit with it and tend to it.

And there are so many ways we avoid.

Even when we think we are feeling our feelings often we are actually doing something else! Like deciding how we "should" feel and trying to force ourselves into that feeling.

And there are so many layers to the ways we avoid.

So this thing which is pretty simple becomes extremely complex.

So, as I sat there passionately wishing and hoping to feel the opposite of what I felt, I reminded myself that that is not the way through.

I've taught this for many years. I still don't always naturally DO it. I still need to remind myself to keep practicing. This is just what it's like.

Tools in the membership to help:

There is a course of Creative Dream Alchemy here.

Once you've got the basics of it, then you work with:

Library of Dream Work practices

Library of Inner Work practices

Library of Outer Work practices

It's the kind of thing where you learn by doing... which is why we PRACTICE.

If you get in there and practice... things will start to shift.

If you wait for the shift before you get in there... get ready for a LONG wait.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I am officially "in" the divorce process.

We agreed to not use lawyers, and "just get the divorce ourselves" which is really so much easier said than done.

It's a little crazy making, the volume of things to do, on top of the sometimes-crushing feelings of tending to the death of a dream, but I am just going through it all one thing at a time.

So, when I said a little while ago that I filed for divorce, I only did the first step at the courthouse. In 6-8 weeks we have to go back together for the next steps. But by fall we should be fully divorced.

Anyway.....

Sifting through the wreckage of my marriage has taught me a lot about my least helpful patterns and perspectives, when it comes to relationships.

These big unwelcome life events can give us a new glimpse into our unconscious stuff, which is maddening and fascinating.

It's like they create a crack in the facade that we can kind of peer through.

So as I look at all of the things I am learning this question came to me:

SO HOW DO MY UNHELPFUL PATTERNS AND PERSPECTIVES IMPACT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DREAM IN WAYS I DO NOT SEE?

It feels like such a big expansive question, and I am REALLY excited about sitting with it.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

The July Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice call is today!

Get the call details (and replay!) here.

For people who are called to share their gifts in any way (monetized or not) - Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice is the DEEP creative and spiritual work we need to be doing right now.

This is the spiritual practice of really listening to your soul, actively participating in your healing and growth and sharing your gifts with the world. And the creative practice of putting it out there in the way that feels right for you, and for the people that your work is for.

This is deep work and big work and it takes time.

We have this call every month in the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership, to practice together, get support, set goals, and figure out our next steps. We've been doing this for almost two years - the library of replays is RICH.

On the page with the call details (and replays!) is a really nice version of the mediation 30 minutes long with journaling sheets, so you can do this any time.

I was doing that meditation the other day.... Ten minutes in, I turned it off.

I was with the soul of my business, and I wanted to just… give it all of my problems and ask it to take care of me.

The soul of my business reminded me that we need to work TOGETHER. It’s not here to rescue me.

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING TO BE RESCUED. It's a valid feeling, it's just not an effective place for planning out my next steps.

I felt all of these fears and doubts holding me back from being able to partner with the soul of my business, so I stopped the meditation.

THIS DOES NOT MEAN I CAN’T DO THIS AND WON’T REACH MY GOALS.

It only means… right now is not the time to create a promotion, right now is time to sit with these fears and doubts.

The inner work is a valid and needed part of the process. It’s NOT a sign that something is wrong.

We naturally have fears and doubt about our dreams. We naturally have obstacles. It’s not possible to have a dream without these things. IT’S NOT POSSIBLE TO HAVE A DREAM WITHOUT THESE THINGS.

Facing fears, doubts and obstacles are a part of dreaming.

This comes up over and over and over and over and over on our calls and in my own practice.

We feel like we’re stuck, we’ve done something wrong, we’re over in the pit stop area repairing our vehicles instead of racing around the track of creative dreams.

But all cars need re-fueling and oil changes and whatnot.

And all dreams have fears, doubts and obstacles that need to be sat with and worked through.

It’s just a part of the process. 

Can we normalize this?

This is a valid part of the work of making any dream happen.

AND

The part where you struggle to accept that fact that you have fears and doubts is ALSO a valid part of the world.

It's very layered and this is why Creative Dreaming in community is so vital. It's so much easier to work through this stuff when you're not alone in it.

Do this with us!

Join the Creative Dream Incubator membership here.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I am really judging my dreams this morning.

I am answering the prompts and this inner critic voice just won't shut up. "This part is too mundane and boring to even be considered a dream, but this part is too out of reach..."

I use the 10 minute Dream Lab to call in the soul of my dream to help.

My dream appeared as floating wings.Not flying, just floating there.

THEY WANT TO UPLIFT ME.

It felt so perfect.

I deserve to be uplifted.

The inner critic voice went silent.

So, with the soul of my dream now, looking back at the week - yeah it was chaotic AND I did my best.

I felt flattened by this week in so many ways but my dream reminds me of the creative victories, which feel so tiny to me but my dream insists they are important steps on the right path.

Important steps on the right path.

What if we could feel that way about every tiny thing we do?

What I need next, and what my dream needs, are for me to remind myself of this more often. This is even what happened on last month's new moon call... in that meditation my dream asked me to map out the path from where I was to where I wanted to be and to draw in all these little squares indicating a step on the path.

Then it asked me to FREAKING REMEMBER THAT I AM ON THE STEPS AT THE BEGINNING AND NOT EXPECT MYSELF TO BE AT THE END.

I don't need to be there already. I am where I am which is the perfect place for me to be right now.

Which makes me see:

The inner critic has been taking up too much space and I haven't always realized that it was in charge. Which is when it can get really dangerous.

Doing the Dream Lab EVERY DAY, especially when I do it before I get out of bed in the morning, really goes a long way to staying attuned to more wise and helpful parts of me.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

So grateful for the journaling prompts because I have no idea how to start this today.

Re-visiting my New Moon Intention from the May New Moon call is very reassuring. In the mediation in that call, my dream showed me a path from where I was to where I wanted to be.

My dream wanted me to draw out many many many little squares, each representing a step on the path.

Then it wanted me to bring my attention just to the one square I am on. BE HERE. DON'T EXPECT YOURSELF TO ALREADY BE AT THE END OF THE PATH.

It's amazing how often I expect myself to start a new path and instantly be at the end.

I am here. At the beginning. The beginning is kind of a mess.

(Also, it's not the beginning it's just that I am not looking at all the path I've been down already to get here.)

But, looking at it this way - I AM WINNING! I AM TAKING STEPS!

I did all the things I wanted to do this week... but how do I feel about this?

Lost + conflicted.

I feel like I am on new ground and it's new and I don't understand it.

Which means what I need is: time and space to acclimate/integrate.

Over the last month, I started a project I have been wanting to do for years.

I've been writing this daily blog for a long time. I want to say 2014? But maybe earlier than that.

It was an experiment to move it from the membership out onto my blog, and I like having it here. I like sharing it.

The next step of that experiment was to also share it on social media - like, where people actually could read it, lol!!!! I know you are reading this, and I appreciate all of the people who are here, SO MUCH!

AND there aren't a lot of people here, compared to the people following me on social media. AND there aren't a lot of ways for new people to find me here, compared to how they can find me on social media.

In the past, Google helped with that! I had lots of "high ranking" blog posts so people could find blog posts from Google or Pinterests. It just doesn't work that way anymore.

But putting these blogs, which are my honest journaling, on socal media??!?!?!

YIKES

So logistically and strategically I knew it was the right move and every part of me was like FUCK NOW, so I didn't do it, for years.

Also, I hate Canva, the tool I was using to turn writing into "social media slides" and the thought of making Canva posts for every day of the week was ridiculously unappealing.

Until about a month ago.

Suddenly I felt ready. I realized - I don't have to share the whole blog post, I can share parts of it. And I also realized - I can look at what other tools I could use besides Canva. I immediately found Adobe Express which is the same thing, but just is a better fit for me. And it's a few dollars cheaper!

So, I've been sharing my daily posts on social media for about a month.

At first my process was really messy. But each week I looked at what felt messy and tried different approaches and now - it all feels smooth and integrated into my routines.

I write A LOT. Writing helps me process my thoughts and feelings.

Once a week I go through my writing and schedule it as blog posts for the following week, then I take those blog posts and put whatever parts I want into Adobe Express to create social media posts, and schedule them too. So I don't actually have to post every day, I just schedule once a week.

I couldn't have started this way because it's too many moving parts. It took a few weeks to get the hand of Adobe Express and figure out what fonts and colours I want, etc. Each week that part feels a bit more playful and fun.

BUT THIS IS A LOT.

Thinking of doing a thing FOR YEARS and then finally doing it and being 1 month into it and starting to feel like "I've got this"... that's a lot.

I need space to acclimate to being here. And space to integrate this new aspect of me - the me who is DOING IT instead of THINKING ABOUT IT.

If we rush this part, things can more easily fall apart.

So, acclimation + integration are what my dream and myself need this week.

*There is no Co-Dreaming call today, since we had the New Moon call on Tuesday. The Co-Dreaming calls happen on weeks when we don't have a New Moon call.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!