On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This is so embarrassing.

I keep coming here on Fridays, doing these prompts, and coming to the same conclusion.

I keep thinking I should just GET IT ALREADY and not need to keep giving myself the same advice.

This frustration with the process is not helpful but it is real.

On the New Moon call in the meditation I came face to face with this OCEAN OF FEAR that I have about my dream.

I feel like I activated the ocean of fear but I know that's not what happened... I just finally looked it in the eye.

It FEELS so big because I have walked right up to it.

THIS IS WHAT INTENTION SETTING DOES.

It invites clarity about the our inner and outer stucks and obstacles.

It creates space for us to see these things for what they are, to process our feelings about them, and ultimately to find our way THROUGH them.

I'm just at the part where I am really/finally noticing how BIG and DEEP these fears are - ocean really is the right metaphor.

I have so much understanding and experience with this. That doesn't seem to help make it feel any less scary.

One neat thing that came out of the Dream Status Report Prompts this morning:

There is the part of me who is afraid of the fear.

And then there is this part of me who is afraid that I can't handle the fear. Like, this is a separate part.

Most of the time, I have the fear, the part of me who is terrified... and also the part of me who knows I'll get through it. This is just something I have from all these years of doing this work. And this is something I offer to people in the membership... I know you'll get through it too, as long as you keep showing up.

Well, that part of me, for this situation, was just gone.

Isn't that weird?

I'm just sitting with how weird this feels. Where did this part of me who trusts myself GO? Why did it leave NOW? This is hardly the scariest thing I've ever done.

And then when I sit with that it's like... no, she's here. She's a mermaid swimming on the other side of this huge wave I am facing down.

Oh. This is how it feels to be healing, growing and creating in this dystopian world.

Everything feels heightened. So the part of me who trust the process FEELS 100% gone when she's actually just on the other side of this wave.

Every time I sit with how intense everything feels right now I come to the same answer... slow down. Give yourself more space to process.

So, as I said in the beginning, I got the same advice from doing these prompts as I usually do:

My dreams need more ATTENTION from me.

Which seems ridiculous because I literally turned them into JOB!!!!

But it's also 100% true.

It's completely reasonable that I have been getting lost in distractions. It's like all summer I've been in this balancing act of being present and distracting myself.

And I can be embarrassed that I still haven't found balance.

Or I can keep showing up and working on it.

Honestly, this being embarassed feels like maybe another level of distraction?

Does it matter how many times my dreams have to say HEY PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!!!?

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Yesterday I wrote about this breakthrough I had where even the soul of my business told me to SLOW DOWN and REST MORE.... when I specifically went into that meditation so it could help me "get my shit together"

I write all the time. Writing helps me process what I am doing, I write first for me. And then once a week I go through my writing and schedule posts to share here for the following week.

Well, today I feel really tired and brain foggy and I have decided to... not finish going through my writing and schedule posts for the rest of the week.

I do this in advance so technically I could just not finish this today, do it another day and the posts would go out as always... which I do some weeks...

But in the interest of walking my talk and trying to follow the advice I get in the meditations I share...

I'm going to stop right now because I am tired and not finish getting posts ready for this week.

So there won't be a post tomorrow (Thursday).

I will still do the Dream Status Report on Friday...

I know that missing ONE DAY is very small... but... I have not missed one day in a VERY long time - at least 12 years. So it feels significant to me.

 

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This month’s Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice call was a bit of a breakthrough for me.

I wasn’t having a good day, mood and energy wise. I’ve been feeling like I am moving more slowly than I want to with a lot of things and frustrated with myself.

So I really wanted to do this meditation on the call and “figure my shit out” 

LOL

The LOL is in hindsight because that desire to “figure my shit out” so that I can get moving with things is fuelled by the same frustration that is NOT helping me.

In the meditation, the soul of my business was like “Awww sweetie I’m so sorry you’re having a rough time”...

... and I realized I had fully expected it to wave a magic wand and cure me so I could get back to work.

And the whole rest of the meditation was about how important my own wellbeing is, as a part of the eco-system of my business. And how the only ways we can do things, are ways that nourish and restore ME.

And in some ways I have always tried to do this! I have run my business very differently than what most businesses out there are like. I really have prioritized my self care in ways I don’t see happen in our world very much…

AND…

I grew up in this world! I have inherited its values and beliefs. Capitalism, productivity, earning worthiness… these things are engrained in me like they are engrained in all of us.

And I’ve worked so hard to see them inside me, and pull them out by the root. A lot of us have been doing this work for a long time. AND. There is more to do.

So it’s like I found a new layer of it.

Which also means I found a new layer of permission to prioritize my needs.

But it’s like… some ways that I have been doing that been a compromise between “prioritize my needs” and “get shit done”. Like - where is the venn diagram of those two things and what can we do that honours both?

BUT NOW IT FEELS LIKE: prioritizing my needs is a legit PRIORITY. THE PRIORITY. No intersecting circles, just one priority.

Which feels 🤯

So “getting shit down” is what needs to compromise. 

Which feels terrifying as this is my livelihood!

And I have never minded working hard! I love it actually!

But right now, the messages I was getting from the soul of my business…

Something needs to change and I don’t see it yet.

Like there is a way to do things that is so outside of what I have done before.

I know the traditional business model is to hire more help - get more done with less effort. And I have some help in my business and I don’t knock anyone who does it this way.

But that’s not that this feels like, at all.

It feels like a radical shift in perspective about HOW things get done.

A radical shift in perspective in how I approach it and think about it.

I don’t mean just “be aligned” and it will all be easy...

There is something that wants to change and I need to slow down further to see it.

 

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On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I am so uncomfortable!!!

I have hives. The air quality outside is really bad again. I'm overwhelmed by everything happening in the world. It's all AARRRGGGHHH.

I know I need more meditation + journaling. And I am really doing bare minimum, in terms of what I know works for me.

Filling in the journaling sheet... I feel far away from my dream and my new moon intention, which I had been so excited about.

This is discouraging.

AND

I know there will be days/weeks like this! It's a part of the process. I don't want to force myself to "get back on track", I want to be with this as a legitimate part of the process.

Being so out of sorts, I decide to do the 20 minute Dream Lab meditation to give myself some space to connect with myself and my dream. Then I turned it off before it got to the end, to give myself more time with it.

It felt so good to be connected to my dream. And my dream really wanted to validate how overwhelmed I feel.

I am in an overwhelming and chaotic part of the process. I don't have to understand where I'm at, feel clear about my next steps, feel ready, be confident... none of that. I am still worthy of my dreams even when I am an absolute mess. We all are.

I think that's my focus for next week, to remember that I am worthy of my dreams no matter what. I don't earn worthiness by doing the inner work to be aligned or by doing the other work to move forward. I just AM.

And, yes, to work on giving myself more space for meditation and journaling.

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When you are engaging in a regular practice, and holding space for your self, your healing, your creativity, your joy and your dreams… there WILL be times when you suddenly realize… oh have been acting out of self doubt when I ________.

You feel it in your body.

It’s sparkling clear in your mind.

And you see everything differently.

(This is the miracle that we deliberately call in in Project Miracle - a 30 day journaling + meditation program. Membership members: get it here. Everyone else: you can sign up for Project Miracle without a membership here)

And sometimes when this happens, you start acting out of self belief instead of self doubt, you change from deep down inside you - and never look back.

You can go from “person who never has time to write” to “person who is finishing their 12th book because they believe in themselves and have ad daily writing practice”.

But sometimes... you start acting out of self belief instead of self doubt… and then two weeks later you notice you’re doing that self doubt thing again.

And you need to, again, say to yourself “oh have been acting out of self doubt when I do ________.” and consciously make the choice to act of self belief instead.

And maybe you’ll keep noticing every few days or few weeks or whatever.. that you are back in self doubt.

Sometimes awareness can shift the thing forever. Sometimes it doesn’t.

It’s not that you’re doing something right or wrong.

Like - you’re not “healing better” if you can shift a thing permanently.

It’s just that some things take more time to shift. For loads of valid reasons.

So if you notice yourself repeating something like this… be gentle with yourself.

You’re changing a pattern! It’s taking time! But you’re doing great! 

 

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It was a Sunday afternoon and I was lying on my floor doing a puzzle.

Floor puzzling is a little awkward but I like lying on the floor. I keep the puzzle on a big piece of rigid insulation, and I can slide the whole thing under my bed when I’m done so it’s not in the way. Having a puzzle ready to slide out from under my bed is a little thing that brings me JOY.

My brain was all… shouldn’t you be doing something more useful?

And I thought… what’s more useful than doing what I want to be doing?

My brain felt like…. but you could be doing something that moves you forward? Like, get yourself set up for tomorrow, so you can move towards your goals?

But what goal is more important than literally doing what I want to be doing in this moment?

My brain would not let up… but where is this getting you?

It’s getting me to… exactly where I want to be! Literally! I am doing exactly what I want to do in this moment. There is nothing more.

I’ve noticed lately a new level of brain buzz like this, just buzzing away all the time.

I could also call it anxiety, which has been a really difficult perimenopause symptom for me. It’s so awkward to be in midlife and have your brain change how it works and not know how to deal with it.

AND

Is anxiety really what it is?

Or am I actually hearing myself in ways I didn’t used to? Am I becoming more aware of some of my previously unconscious inner dialogue? Was the brain always buzzing exactly like this and is it just that my awareness has grown?

Because that is how it feels. Like this brain buzz was so deep underground that it could control my behaviour without me even knowing it.

And now that  I am able to hear it clearly  - I can choose to not let it make decisions. Sometimes.

BUT

This means I need to move more slowly. To stop and listen to my own thoughts, and notice how they feel in my body and listen more deeply to… what do I really want? There are so many layers.

Because there is a part of me who just wants to work hard and earn… something. Approval. Worthiness. Acceptance. Security. I’ve done so much exploring of that in the last few years (When I did the Slow the fuck down! BE as powerful, creative + magnetic as you ARE classes) and there is still so much to explore.

There is also a part of me who loves taking action on behalf of the future I want to create.

Where and how these two parts intersect is so multilayered and complicated.

This is starting to feel like a fascinating part of mid-life. Shifting gears and priorities.

Except I am in that difficult part of midlife where I don’t actually know what the new priorities are.

Which is so weird.

I love what I am doing. I’m not sure about some of the admin and strategic parts of running an online business while the world is the way it currently is. But I love what I am doing.

I love where I live.

I love my little routines and hobbies.

And I am starting to think… just actively loving all these things I love and enjoying all the things I enjoy… what if this is enough?

What if it’s just a brain buzz that has me thinking that my “next phase” needs to be anything more than that?

I’ve been thinking this “going through a divorce and figuring out my new life” was going to lead to… something big and tangible. Honestly - something that would make pain of the divorce seem worthwhile.

Which - wow - now that I say that out loud to myself…

That’s a lot of pressure to put on myself for no reason at all, other than letting my ego be able to say “Oh that didn’t destroy me, I am much better off now”.

Wow, sitting with this and the layers of feelings it brings up…

Loving and enjoying my life feels like such a beautiful dream AND project - like in the outer work what kinds of things can I do help me love and enjoy my life more?

(I have recently started to feel ready to actually START some of the painting projects I had for around the house - I am excited to get more colour in here… but I have not felt ready for the physical act of painting. In the last few days I have started thinking about getting ready to do that this fall. So maybe this is a step towards that.)

I have shared a few times on group calls recently how right after my husband left me I felt a strong need to FIND NEW DREAMS. I felt like my future fell apart right in front of me and I needed something new to hold onto.

And over the last 2 years I have relaxed about that, and been more open to giving myself space to figure out what I want next and this is the next step with that… noticing where I am putting this pressure on my new life.

One of our members recently used the term cataclysmically subtle to describe things that are happening in her Dream Work practice.  

That’s is exactly how this feels.

(cataclysmic in a good way: as in creating huge sudden change that makes more space for your dreams)

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Three Journal Prompts for when things are moving too slow:

What happens when you accept yourself where you are and the pace you are moving in?

… And, at the same time, accept the dreams you have for where you wish you were? 

What happens when you try to hold all of it together?

I know. I hate these questions. AND. They are the absolute best journal prompts for when things are moving too slow.

There are things I want to be doing.

I HAD started making good process on creative projects and was feeling amazing.

Now, everything is moving at a snail's pace and it is PISSING ME OFF!

So I am trying to gather up the patience to sit with the stucks. (Using the Un-Sticking Station practice from the membership)

And I am working through the stucks much more slowly than I ever have.

Maybe it’s the state of the world, or that I am in the final stages of getting a divorce or maybe I'm just 51 and this is what happens.... or something else.

And I think I tend move through the stucks slower so I can really notice what’s happening, understand it more deeply, and be able to share what I learn there to help guide others through their stucks. That's a part of my work, and something that just happens naturally, I am not TRYING to slow down and really notice every shitty thing about being stuck!

Accepting that I am stuck is NOT easy.

It’s more natural to be frustrated with the stuck.

But I do know that being frustrated doesn’t tend to solve anything so I am practicing acceptance.

And in the times when I can accept it, new possibilities spring up around… there may be entirely different ways to DO THE THING than what I can see when I am moving more quickly or lost in frustration about not being able to move quickly.

Slowing down may actually help me get there faster which I know is not uncommon when it comes to our creative dreams AND I have a hard time trusting it.

When things are moving too slow, trying to find the way to speed them up as fast as possible will generally make everything worse.

There's the solution you can see out of frustration and resistance to slowing down....

And then there's the solution you can see when you are still and quiet and really listening to yourself.

It's worth the time it takes to find that second one.

You need to stop judging things for being "too slow" before you can speed them up.

 

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On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This week was a roller coaster.

I sat down feeling like "Oh I'm in such a good place I don't even need to do this this week" but when I DID do it anyway...I learned something really good.

Actually I am in such a good place partly because I was in such a bad place for part of this week.

Making space for my "unusually high levels" of anxiety helped me get to a better place. And helped me see - oh there is nothing unusual or wrong about the amount of anxiety I feel about the state of the world. And it's not all anxiety, there is so much grief and rage and sadness.

So, I learned, AGAIN, that being where I am and making space for my actual feelings and validating my actual feelings helps me get closer to where I want to be.

My dream is so thrilled and grateful for the creative steps I've been taking in the "BEING the artist that I AM project". And for all of the sewing I am doing - it's saying that ALL creativity is really important and helping move me in the right direction.

I think I do the thing that everyone does - I discount the things that come easy for me. My dream is reminding me that they really matter. NO act of creativity is wasted.

So my focus for next week is: make more space for creativity in all ways.

(This includes painting random colours when I feel upset because that's another thing I learned this week, painting random colours when I am upset is SOOTHING)

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

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Our dreams are not about trying to grab our piece of the pie before someone else gets it.

But we don't dream in a vacuum and we dream in the world as it is.... and dominant culture absolutely wants us operating out of fear of not getting our piece of the pie.

But we could live differently and our dreams do show us the way there.

Since A Better World is Possible: Showing Up For The Future You Want To Create (get the replay here) there has been a real shift in how I see this.

Over and over, as we talked through our complicated layers of feelings about everything that is happening and everything that we want to have happen... we kept coming to this place where what we wanted for ourselves, we want for everyone.

This is who we actually are.

But we can easily get stuck in fear and not focus on that.

And with the state of the world as it is, of course we get stuck in fear and trauma.

And during that call we did made space to just... be with it. To share our layers of complicated feelings about everything and witness other people's layers and see how we're all in this together in our own way.

And when we do that it becomes so much more obvious that what we want for ourselves, we want for everyone.

And so our dreams aren't about competition. There is no race or pressure.

There is creativity. And deep listening. And space making. And love. And believing our values about what is right and wrong.

Our creative dreams really can show us how a better world is possible. In so many ways.

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This is something I have been reminding myself A LOT in my practice.

My dreams are coming into sharper focus. I feel like I am dreaming bigger again after a long season of... healing, reflecting, listening, nourishing... filling the well.

So now that I am starting to set my sights on some goals I keep noticing that I am starting to PRESSURE MYSELF TO MOVE FASTER.

MAKE THIS ALL HAPPEN. TODAY! OR AT LEAST THIS WEEK.

But one thing I have learned from this period of healing and growth is...

When I trust my dreams I don’t put pressure on them

When I trust myself I don’t put pressure on me.

I CAN TRUSTH MY DREAMS.

I CAN TRUST MYSELF.

 

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The other day I did the 10 minute Dream Lab alchemy meditation.

After the beginning part where I was filled with creativity, light and knowing - I could NOT stay focused on the meditation.

My mind kept drifting off to this new idea I have been exploring about a program to do in 2026 in the membership. I started getting really excited about what I could do with it.

Every once in a while I remembered I was in a guided meditation and that I wasn’t listening to it at all.

Then I got to the quiet part for the dream meeting and noticed how good it felt to be exploring this idea.

Creative practice is generative.

Spiritual practice is generative.

Creative Dream practice (which is both creative and spiritual practice) is generative.

You go into it with a seed of an idea and it can quickly spout into something unexpected.

I went into it to meet my “overall big dream” but this is where it took me: this project that totally supports the dream.

It’s not a failing that I didn’t follow through on the meditation like I’d planned.

It’s actually a sign… this is the thing to look at right now, these are your next steps.

There needs to be space in your practice for the generative nature of it to show up.

You make space for this by remembering that ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU DO SHOW UP.

What happens once you’re there might look really different from how you thought it would/should and sometimes that sucks.. but sometimes that can be a very good thing.

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