This is from the alchemy meditations in Late Stage Capitalism Update to the Creative With Money program.

This is brave and powerful work. You may not feel brave or powerful.

I say this in each of the meditations in the Late Stage Capitalism Update.

This program is so healing and so needed. The way money functions in the world has changed so dramatically, we need to update our inner relationship with the soul of money, clear out what needs to be cleared out, make space for the healing that is needed, and set new intentions for our money lives.

So I say this in the meditation:s: This is brave and powerful work. You may not FEEL brave or powerful for a few reasons:

1. This IS brave and powerful work and often we don’t recognize that.

We can feel like our relationship with money is a mess and so we need help and fail to recognize what a POWERFUL MOVE it is to do this work.

Like - we really don’t give ourselves enough credit for how consistently we show up for healing and growth. So I want to give you credit.

2. And also to remind you that engaging with your healing and your relationship with money is POWERFUL.

Small acts can yield big shifts.

3. This is sacred work and should be acknowledged as such.

And then I also want to say… it’s ok to feel how you feel!

You can FEEL afraid and powerless, that doesn’t change that you are BEING brave and powerful.

You can feel exactly how you feel and in fact, validating and allowing your actual feelings will help you work through them.

All the forms of healing that ask you to “focus on the positive” do such a huge disservice in that way, leaving all of your uncomfortable feelings trapped inside you.

It’s ok to have a lot of feelings about where you’re at with money. It makes sense.

You deserve to have some support with that.

If you haven’t yet, I want to encourage you to explore the Late Stage Capitalism Update to Creative With Money. 

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On a recent group call we had THREE people share the same kind of story.

It was about how they had tried to do a thing, it didn’t work, it was kind of a mess, and they stayed in the mess of it, they kept showing up for calls with me, THE MESS GOT BIGGER, they kept using the creative dream incubator tools, THE MESS REMAINED, they kept engaging with their creativity and intuition and healing and… finally the mess turned into the way through.

This is how it happens. This is the alchemy.

So often, outside of the membership, I see people get really excited about something, build up their confidence, make a plan, do the thing… have it go badly and turn into a mess… and then they step back.

It’s like they think it will get easier if they stop for a bit?

Stopping is the only wrong move to make when it comes to your dreams.

You can make mistakes, move in the wrong direction, turn one little mess into a huge flaming dumpster fire of messes… that’s fine as long as you keep showing up, keep moving.

(Which isn’t to say REST and NOURISHMENT and finding the pace that is not overwhelming to you are not a part of the process, they are! But STOPPING and RESTING are totally different vibes)

Creative Dreaming is not a linear path. It’s an alchemical journey. Your participation, fuels the journey.

Keep showing up.

I am SO PROUD of the culture we have inside the membership where we keep showing up, mess and all. And we don't judge each other's messes. It's a safe space to be in the mess.

 

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I'm writing this because I have been TAP DANCING around my next steps lately instead of taking them 😉 

When you don’t feel ready, it means:

You are wrong about what your next step is (you’re not ready for the step you are looking at, but you are ready for the step that is actually the right next step)

AND/OR

You need to sit with your fears and doubts some more to get all parts of you on board.

It’s simple.

When it feels complicated, that means you’re listening to the wrong (inner or outer) voices.

What to do, exactly:

If you’re feeling ready to do the thing: Do the Dream Lab OR the Dream Self meditation - whichever feels right for you.

In the meditation, show your Dream, or your Dream Self your plan. Ask if this is the right step for you to take. Notice what happens. Something in how they respond or how you feel or the general vibe of the meditation WILL give you a clue. It may take more than one time doing this to get a full sense of what is next.

Remember that Creative Dreaming is not linear, it’s an alchemical process. The next right step may be really surprising - listen to your dream, not your logical mind.

If you’re feeling afraid, uncomfortable or just don't know WHY you are not doing the thing: Use the Un-Sticking Station. This is DEEP healing, transformation and miracle work. Give it time. It will ALCHEMIZE your feelings into the thing you need for your next step.

 

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On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I've been mentioning them every week, but I still want to start with a little plug for: Habits Upgrade + Structure, Habits Routines in the membership.

Every week I am a little more settled into new habits that really work for where I am now (which are so different from the habits I started this year with!) and I continue to be so grateful.

This week surprised me.

On Monday I was planning and doing some Year of Hope journaling and... I got the idea to ask hope how it wanted me to plan my week.

Hope was immediately SO CLEAR AND SURE.

Hope wanted me to focus on one particular thing instead of the two main things I wanted to focus on.

"Get it done!" Hope said.

I thought that wasn't really possible to get it DONE, even if I put the other project aside for a week.

But I thought I'd give it a try and... I got it done!

Somehow hope could see what I couldn't: that working on the two projects at once was making things harder for me.

This is NOT always true.

And sometimes even when it is true, we don't have a project we can just put on hold.

But this week, I could put the other one on hold and it did work and WHOA. I am so happy with the work I did and that I have so much space this week for the other project.

I keep learning how to work within my current capacity, which is smaller than it's ever been.

Or... it FEELS smaller than it's ever been. I think it's just CHANGING.

So much is changing in my relationship with productivity.

I am still taking this course with Dra. Rosales Meza and doing a lot of re-thinking around decolonizing how I do things. While I have been intentionally working on decolonizing my work since 2016, there are still so many layers to it, especially in how I treat myself, my creativity and my productivity.

I am VERY excited to be exploring all of this.

How do I feel about this/What am I learning: I feel like I am making space to go DEEPER into the Creative Dream Incubator.  Dream Book 2026 is going to be such a sturdy container for holding space for the ALCHEMY of dreaming, that I am going to surprise myself with what I dream of next.

What do I need now: To remember that STAYING INSIDE MY CAPACITY is actually a magical thing, not a punishment for arriving at middle age, which is how it has felt at times. There are new things becoming possible here and I am just starting to see them.

What does my dream need now (using the Dream Lab alchemy process): It asks me told on tight, it's taking me on an adventure.

Taking all of this into account my focus for next week is: Hold on to the dream, let go of my ideas about what it even is. Give it space to grow.

 

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This is from the DREAMING with the Soul of Money meditation from Module 2 of the new Late Stage Capitalism Update to the Creative With Money program. DO NOT do this one until you've worked with the meditation + journaling kit in module 1 for at least a month. Give the seeds some time to incubate.

I went into this meditation with an expectation of what it would be like to DREAM about money.

My experience was nothing like my expectation. Which felt intense!

The soul of money, still showing up as a kite, unfurled this super long ladder and I climbed up and sat on it.

The soul of money wanted me to dream from it's perspective.

I lay down, looked up at the clouds, and sat with the questions in the meditation...

And even though I was floating in the meditation, I had this physical sensation of sinking. Like sinking into a new realization.

I don't want to dream of MORE. Or DIFFERENT even.

I want to dream of ENOUGH. A deeply felt sensation of enoughness.

Which is not about having so much that I am satisfied! That felt very clear.

It was about feeling like what I have is enough.

This is not possible when you don't have enough, but our culture very powerfully obfuscates the line between "enough" and "not enough" to train us to always want MORE. Capitalism depends on it. At the same time, there are such harsh penalties for not having enough money that of course we always tend to want MORE.

So this sensation of ENOUGH felt like a healing that I can't put into words.

Then, on my second time in there, it's like I went in from the perspective that my deepest, biggest and wildest dream about money is to sink into the sensation of having enough and not wasting any of my time or energy on seeking more...

And this time the dreaming was about EVERYONE having enough.

I live in Winnipeg, Canada but I have been told this is happening in all Canadian cities and likely in lots of other countries as well. People are losing their homes in rapidly increasing numbers. They are on the street, all of the parks near me, except the one that is monitored by security guards, have encampments in them. This is late stage capitalism.

To continue to adhere to capitalism's values is to focus on the individual. Which means recognizing that an increased population of people living on the street puts me in danger, so where can I build walls to protect me?

One reason why the Late Stage Capitalism Update to the Creative With Money program is so SLOW is to give us space to sink into our own values.

I would rather feel safe in my community because everyone has enough, than feel safe because I have some fantastic security system on my home, we've built a wall around the whole condo development, and there are police out everywhere.

While, again, you do need to have enough to meet your needs, after that... abundance is about so much more than how much money you have in the bank.

 

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This came up on a recent coaching call.

It was about a business problem.

And this person, when really listening to herself about how she wanted to do things, knew that she wanted to LUXURIATE in the question instead of trying to find the “best” or fastest answer.

HOW we do things matters.

For some reason when it comes to business, the sacred work of offering our gifts to the world, we can feel like we HAVE TO do things… business style. Like we put on a suit and tie and want to follow all of the rules of business world.

There was a whole wave of online business coaches who came along to say… no you can do it different! And then proceeded to just put window dressing on the same old tired business practices. You can call a sales funnel a sacred journey of transformation - but if the nuts and bolts are still the same then you haven’t done anything different.

It’s so engrained in us to follow the rules that even when we are deliberately trying to break free we end up falling in line in so many ways.

We also think that there is A WAY that will get us the results we want, so we go looking outside of us for that way.

When the only way YOU can do it is YOUR way and that answer will only come from inside you.

So LUXURIATING in the questions is often the smartest thing you can do, business wise.

 

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I used to use the word mentor instead of witch. Before that it was coach.

Technically, in terms of my training, I am a fashion designer (I know we can think of fashion as being very superficial but it can be our most potent and consistent form of self expression) and a spiritual teacher and counsellor or spiritual practitioner.

I could use the term spiritual practitioner but then I should talk about where I received that accreditation and that’s complicated because I have been distancing myself from it since I started decolonizing my work in 2016.

The training I received was intensely colonial as all new age/new thought/alternative or holistic wellness teachings are, you can't just say "It's not new thought it's ancient wisdom" and that's that. I’ve spent years unlearning the colonial perspective that is so deeply engrained in all of these teachings and all I was left with were disjoined bits of Indigenous teachings, taken fully out of context, placed into a toxic “prosperity gospel” culture that remains wilfully and destructively ignorant of the systems of privilege and oppression we live in which impact us every day.

So I had to re-build a lot of my work and today it is not recognizable as being a part of that lineage.

Using the term spiritual practitioner, for me, plugs into all of these things I have worked to move away from.

Using the term witch, for me, plugs me into my authentic self and ancestral medicine which I am slowly learning more about as I am working with Dra. Rosales Meza. 

Being a witch, professionally, is completely uncertified. Anyone can claim it. 

BUT/AND it is deeply karmic. A witch is accountable for their actions. To put yourself out there as a witch without integrity and honesty will do you more harm than you do to the people you try to swindle.

That feels like where I’m at now. Intentional, powerful and accountable.

Plus I get called a witch all the time anyway.

And when I think “Oh I’m not a witch” what I am thinking is that EVERYONE is magic and if I am a witch so is everyone else…

Which is actually a part of my gifts. I see your magic. I understand how to nurture it and harness it for your dreams.

Not everyone can do that. 

We all have unique ways of using our magic. 

Mine just happens to be to help you get better at using yours, by holding space for the alchemical process that is pursing your dreams… AKA answering your soul’s callings.

And after making this decision I noticed… I have been calling some of my healing circles “community spells” for some time because that most accurately describes the work we do.

I’ve been on my way to this all along.

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On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

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I am still marvelling in the magic of HAVING more of the habits I WANT!

(Membership resources: Habits Upgrade + Structure, Habits Routines)

Each week I learn a little something new about what supports these habits and implement it... just one tiny baby step at a time.

For example, on weekends I go through my sewing projects and look at what I need to make it easy to pick up and do a few seams throughout the week. On week days I DO NOT have the capacity to take everything out (like it takes A LOT of space to lay out fabric and cut out a pattern) and start a project. But I DO have the capacity to pick up an organized, in-process project and do the next few seams.

This is so small and yet I sewed a whole hoodie dress in a week just a few seams here and there... though this is a hoodie pattern I've sewn many times so it's an easier process. New/challenging patterns are more of a weekend thing but...

Setting up a creative project to make it simple to pick up and do when I don't have a ton of time or energy means I can do more creative projects! Which isn't just about accomplishing things but about making space to do the things that fill the well. A few minutes of sewing just hits different than a few minutes of scrolling.

Also, I have been doing a TON of sewing for the last year. I counted 35 items I made, including some complicated things like a winter coat and nightgown with a super-comfy bralette sewn in.

There are so many other creative project I want to be doing but sewing keeps being the thing I have energy for.

So I am trusting that. The other things are coming AND this sewing is creating the path. I am showing up and doing the thing that is right there and easiest to do.

How do I feel about this/What am I learning: I keep learning how to set things up in my life to make things easier for me. SO grateful for this.

What do I need now: Same as last week: It's so nice to ask this question and feel like my needs are mostly handled. I got this!

What does my dream need now: My dream reminded me that I am taking this course with Dra. Rosales Meza and this is feeding me and my dream in so many ways.

Taking all of this into account my focus for next week is: Keep going, you're doing great.

 

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This is from the Soul of Money meditation from Module 1 of the new Late Stage Capitalism Update to the Creative With Money program.

Being in the energy field of creative with money felt amazing. I felt deeply supported and ready for something profound…

But when the soul of money showed up as… I didn’t know what. Suddenly it was dark and I couldn't see that well. There was a bit of fabric and… it looked like straw maybe? I just couldn’t tell.

I thought I was doing it wrong. Even though I say in the meditation you can’t do this wrong, which I say because of how easily we FEEL LIKE we are doing it wrong in the moment.

Then I said - no you’re not doing it wrong. This is your experience. Be in it!

That’s when I realized that I was looking at a deflated hot air balloon. Previously when I’d done this meditation, the soul of money was a hot air balloon.

I have actually been in a hot air balloon! So I know what to do with a deflated balloon and basket on the ground. I climbed in (it’s very awkward).

Then I laid down inside the basket.

Then I got it.

The hot air balloon (money) doesn’t do anything on its own. It needs action - someone to light and maintain the fire. And here I am, just laying in the basket.

But it felt very forgiving - like I’ve been laying in the basket for a while and for good reason. I’ve needed to just rest. And if I want this balloon to get back into the air I need to light this fire.

AND

This dovetails with explorations I have been doing about my capacity and HOW I do things.

So I don’t want to light the fire in the ways I have in the past. I don’t want to say to myself that it’s worth any effort to get this thing into the air because once I’m floating I’m floating and I can rest then.

So I just stay laying in the basket and breathing deep and somehow the balloon starts to inflate.

And I just sit with that, and let it sink in...

 

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This is from about a month ago and it's amazing to look back and see how much things have changed since. I did do the brainstorm I talked about in the end and have made some changes that feel SOOOO supportive. This work WORKS!

+++++++

I feel like I am under so much pressure and I don’t know why and as a part of trying to figure it out, I have asked “You are not moving fast enough” to meet me here in the un-sticking station.

She’s crabby, kicking at the ground “I hate it here”

Why?

Because change happens here. There’s possibility in the air (said with heavy sarcasm).

Yeah, I have been un-sticking stucks in this place for a very long time.

I’m not a stuck.

I hear you. What are you?

The truth.

The truth?

Yes. You are moving way too slow. That’s just a fact.

I can agree that this is YOUR truth and respect that, but I don’t agree that it’s a universal fact.

Well that’s stupid.

You are entitled to see it that way. And what if we don’t need to agree about that? Can we agree that you pushing me to move faster isn’t actually working?

What?!?

Can you see that? The more you push me, the more pressured I feel, then I start to feel anxious then I am in a panic attack and then very little is going to happen. I actually DO want to move these projects forward (and actually I AM moving them forward, slowly*)

I thought you just need MORE pressure then eventually it will pop and movement will happen.

That’s an explosion.

Yeah! An explosion of productivity!

It will be an explosion of… I don’t know, chaos, falling apart, mess.

Oh…

You see it now?

I see it now.

I get that pressure might work for some people. But not me, right? You can see that?

I think I am starting to get it… you really do want to do these things, but you need time.

Then it’s like a lightbulb goes off.

The part of me who doesn’t trust me, or my dreams, wants to pressure me to get there. The part of me who trusts myself and my dreams knows I need to move slow…

But both parts of me see that I need something that I don’t currently have. What we are doing isn’t working.

I need more structure. This part of me thought that PRESSURE was the answer but SUPPORT is the answer and STRUCTURE is what would be the most supportive right now.

Next steps: brainstorm what kinds of structure might help and do some experiments and TRY TRY TRY to not put pressure on myself to figure out the support part right away.

*This is too much for right now, but we also need to have a discussion about letting “fast” and “slow” TOTALLY CHANGE. Like TOTALLY CHANGE. The world has changed and I have changed and what is fast and what is slow can change as well.

 

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In the Dream Lab meditation I invited my dream in and it came in as a JOLT in my whole body.

I felt lit up.

My dream was saying…  I am not just the attainment of that end goal. I am the deep joy of HOW you’re going to do it.

Aligned. Lit up. Joyful. Creative. Alive. Inspired. IN SPIRIT.

You’re not just going to love getting the goal you’re going to love the way you do it. The act of doing the work is going to bring so much joy to your days.

This contrasted SO HARD with the belief I’d been carrying….that it’s going toe HARD WORK.

That I am going to have to GET MY SHIT TOGETHER. 

That I have to figure out how to have enough physical + mental energy to get this done.

(Physical and mental energy have been at all time lows for many reasons)

And now I feel like such a weight has been lifted.

*** There is nothing WRONG with the hard times we face in our lives and in our dreams. I mean it’s wrong as in I don’t want anyone to suffer and I think humans could build better systems and live in a way that kept everyone much safer… but it’s not wrong as in you aren’t doing anything wrong when you struggle. The struggles are a part of the process.

Remember your dream isn’t a linear path it’s an alchemical process. The struggles and the circling of things and the going backwards - this all serves you and your dream in ways you just can’t see in the moment.

So these moments like I am now when the weight has been lifted and I see a clear and direct path and I feel so sure and confident - this doesn’t mean I am doing BETTER than I was when I felt like a stressed out mess. I think it’s important that we remember that!

 

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On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

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This is another week of feeling really proud of myself. I am doing my new habits!!! Consistently every day. Meditation + journaling are way up. Screen time is way down. I am spending 15 minutes or so a day doing "life maintenance" and so I no longer get to the weekend feeling like it will take all weekend just to get my life in order.

I sat with all the things that weren't working and processed my feelings and saw new ways I could be and experimented and here I am. I am so grateful to be on the other side of this.

Also, I found out the judge approved the DIY divorce papers we had submitted, so our divorce will be legally final at the end of October. This is such a relief that it's done, and we don't have to get lawyers and turn it into a big ordeal.

How do I feel about this/What am I learning: I am learning about my self care needs for this phase of life I am in. They are so different from what they were before! I guess I have finally moved out of the phase of being annoyed that my needs have changed, and am accepting I am where I am. And this has freed up a LOT of energy for more interesting things.

What do I need now: It's so nice to ask this question and feel like my needs are mostly handled. I got this!

What does my dream need now: My dream showed up as... a little picture of a mountain terrain turning flat. Oh what a relief - the sensation of not seeing mountains ahead in need of climbing! It doesn't feel like it needs anything right now.

Taking all of this into account my focus for next week is: I've been doing so good on so many fronts - the self care, showing up for my dreams, planning for the future and taking tiny consistent steps - I just want to keep it up!

 

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