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One thing I'm asking you to do in Dream Book 2026 is to sit with the prompt I deserve it because: 30 times.

There is a printable so you can print out 30 I deserve it because: tickets that you can paste into your planner as you do this. Or you can make your own!

Last week as I was trying to hold the message I got from my Dream Self about being CHILL + TRUSTING when I was feeling the opposite, I saw my I deserve it because tickets sitting on my desk and cut out one out and I started crying.

All the places in me that feel I do NOT deserve it were activated by the prompt.

This doesn't mean I am doing it wrong.

Deserving is a very complicated thing. Especially when you live in western culture which is built on really sick values around deservability.

Mostly I focus on how we ALL deserve better. We all deserve our dreams, because our dreams are a part of us, our dreams are showing us who we really are. Our culture is what makes that hard. We deserve support and encouragement and love along with affordable housing, safe communities, health care, etc, etc, etc. All living things deserve dignity.

Sensitive, justice minded souls often can feel like "Do I deserve more when I already have so much more than others?" and I am not here to say "Oh sweetie yes you always deserve more you've got to force yourself to believe that"

I am here to say... any places in you that feel unworthy of your dreams are slowing down your process. And most of these places are unconscious. And I am here to help hold space for you to dig these things up, bring awareness to them, work with them, let things shift, and make more space for your dreams.

STUFF gets stirred up when we are IN THE PROCESS and this is always stuff that needs addressing.

Not that we necessarily have to resolve our feelings about anything.

We just need to be able to hold them in a way that they are not running around causing problems in our unconscious.

 

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I am working on my Dream Status Report for this week.

There are journaling sheets for doing the Weekly Dream Status Report! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I resist this practice REALLY HARD sometimes. I don't want to look back, I just want to figure out how to have what I want NOW.

Looking back and reflecting on our process - CONSISTENTLY - is the only way to learn from our process, and one of the best ways to spot our unconscious patterns and find the really GENIUS ways to move forward.

So, I'm doing my Dream Status Report

For 2026, I am doing these in my Dream Book 2026.  This is a 5"x8" daily planner, with an extra page for each week which is beside the Sunday page so I have a 2 page spread for Sundays which is where I do this.

Having these "two pages every Sunday" sitting here in this planner is a visual record of my intention to show up for myself in this way, all year.

This week, I had a certain plan for what I was going to do. Very early in the week I realized that my plan needs a HUGE re-plan and I need to start over on some parts - so the plan I'd make for this week didn't happen.

Instead  I've been practicing sitting with the brain fog as I shared yesterday, and all of the weird Un-Sticking Sessions I've been having where nothing feels resolved but somehow some things are shifting...

I'm noticing where I am kind of phoning it in, in my practice.

Which is how it FEELS, it's not how it IS. The truth is, I am facing really hard things, I am showing up for my dreams - none of that is "phoning it in".

But it's interesting that it FEELS that way. And I can point to some things that I am not really holding onto all that well.

I made a Focus Card for Dream Book 2026 that I just keep.. moving ahead through my journal but not really truly HOLDING. (The WHOLE POINT of the cards is to help you really HOLD the things you need to hold, you know?)

But this IS what it means to hold something, sometimes. To acknowledge that it's there but not give it the deep attention that it may deserve. Because I am holding so many things right now, something has to give.

Unfortunately, the thing that gave is maybe the thing that would have helped me not have such a hard time this week.

That's how it FEELS maybe it's not true.

But the thing on the focus card is a teaching I am still integrating about how staying INSIDE my capacity is what keeps me DEEPER in my medicine and magic. Honouring my capacity as SACRED.

And my capacity is always changing. Staying inside it, especially after 50 years of always trying to push against it and have it be as big as possible, takes focused and consistent attention.

It's like I took my eye off of it just really briefly and ended up back where I was, stuck in the unhelpful pattern.

My cognitive function is slower than it's ever been. At the same time, I feel so much more deeply attuned to my medicine and magic and creativity and power. Thinking slower is good for me.

AND

The task I need to do right now in my business needs a lot strategic thinking.

So I flipped back into an old pattern of pushing myself - just to get this one thing done - and then I can relax.

As a self employed person inside capitalism it can seem like the only option. And sometimes it is!

Right now, for me, it's actually not. I just... kind of assumed it was. I mean - I didn't sit with this consciously and CHOOSE to overwhelm myself stretching my capacity so that I could do this task as quickly as possible.

No, I just have this overwhelming feeling of WANTING IT DONE.

It's uncomfortable to be IN PROCESS.

So a part of me, wanting to avoid that discomfort, decided to get this done as quickly as possible.

This was NOT a good plan.

It triggered the parts of me who feel too small to do what I want to do, and the parts of me who don't feel good enough, the parts of me who are terrified about the future, on so many levels.

But even if it hadn't put me into the kind of overwhelm that can trigger all sorts of seemingly unrelated meltdowns, it was still not a good plan.

Because I had do abandon my deeper medicine and magic and creativity and power in order to take more steps (in the outer work) more quickly.

And so the work is... not my best work also I hardly got anything done. Like best case scenario I could have done this quickly but not well. The actual scenario is I did neither, lol.

I did a lot meditation and journaling over the last few days and I feel like I came back to myself.

So I see this all clearly.

This is so good to write out and share because it will help me integrate this learning a little better.

I am finding new ways of doing things. This is so appropriate for my age! I am slowing down AND going so much deeper into the magic. This is not a simple task!!!

I need to keep HOLDING this idea of honouring my capacity as sacred.

Which is so scary because it means trusting that I'll be ok moving slower.

So I keep practicing and BEING WITH all the things that come up as I do.

 

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In Creative Dream Alchemy we show up and work with the thing that is there… when you look at your dream and what you want to do - what’s RIGHT THERE in front of you? This is your next step.

For me, today, it’s heavy brain fog.

And then mountains of discouragement because I was out of the brain fog. I was feeling more like myself... And now here I am back here.

And some clouds of fear floating around because what if this is how I feel for the rest of my life???

I started with the Hello Day practice which was really nice! But made it more apparent that I need to be with the brain fog. There isn’t a way to ignore it or work around it, which is what I would rather do.

I cross my arms on my desk and rest my hands down on them and remember doing this in elementary school and how it feels kind of comforting.

It’s also a way to physically acknowledge and embody - my head feels SO HEAVY because this fog is SO DENSE.

And I know... it's time for the Un-Sticking Station.

Brain fog, how do I work with you?

First, get out of the desk! Let’s go lie down on the comfy carpet. Bring your coffee.

(Walking over to the carpet I get this idea - I could fill a whole journal with different parts of me who are stuck, freaking out and afraid right now. Maybe I should do this?)

OK. Laying down. Ready to face the brain fog.

Listen, it’s not worth trying to understand where I came from. You have limited capacity, so use it to figure out how to be WITH me.

That makes sense, I do think I had some energy tangled up in figuring out why you’re here and how long you may stay. I can probably use that energy for other things.

I’m not going to say everything happens for a reason! IT SUCKS THAT I AM HERE. It sucks that you are not feeling like you want to be and can’t do all the things you want to do.

AND

We’ve got to figure out how to work together while I am here.

So, you actually don’t want to push me down, hold me back and make it impossible for me to enjoy my life?

No. That’s not my goal at all.

What is your goal?

I sit with this one for a bit, but it seems like brain fog has no goal. That makes sense.

Do you need something from me?

Acknowledgement. Presence.

Oh. I see. Having brain fog and freaking out about it and trying to act like I don’t have it isn’t a good plan. Having brain fog, accepting that it’s here, and figuring out how to move accordingly is a better plan.

Did I imagine this or did bran fog just lighten up in a little?

I was hoping for some kind of “Oh look! Brain Fog is actually a shortcut to MAGIC!” kind of breakthrough but I don’t think that’s where this is going.

I did a pretty intense program with Dra. Rosales Meza in the fall and I wonder if I am spending all of winter integrating it. Like... is the brain fog just asking me to slow down and give myself space to acclimate to where I am now?

One thing she taught is that overwhelm can be a sign that you are too externally focused, like caught up in colonial/capitalist/patriarchial culture that doesn’t respect you or your needs. So when you notice you are getting overwhelmed, used that as a sign to check in about what you need.

I mean, I am beyond overwhelmed here.

But what do I need?

I did the Hello Day and it felt nice to check in but nothing came to me about what I want or need.

It feels like my dreams are on the other side of the brain fog.

Part of me FREAKS OUT about that. Part of me is like “well of course that’s where they are and of course brain fog won’t last forever, just relax and do some art”.

Ahhhhhh.

And this is where everything kind of tangles really badly for me right now.

Yes I can make art. Yes I can read and rest and enjoy myself.

But there are tasks I want/need (which??) to do in my business, for my business and for my future… and I can’t seem to do them.

Should I just wait until I feel better?

(That question would be easier to understand if I knew what the brain fog is, if it’s a cold that I’ll get over that’s one thing, if it’s how my brain is going to be for the next while, that’s another)

Ugh. This is that place where dreams and reality can collide really hard sometimes.

And as a coach, I would ask myself “Do you absolutely NEED to do these tasks in the next week?” and I would say no I don’t absolutely NEED to but I feel I should.

So then, as a coach, I would want to explore that pressure I am putting on myself to do things when it’s ok if I don’t do them right now AND I don't seem physically able to do them.

But when I say… ok I just won’t think about these tasks right now… then I feel I am letting my future self down, I am dulling down my dreams and I am shrinking my truth.

My coach self just smiles and waits…

And I see it.

Panicking about not taking action, in the outer work, today, is not helpful.

Working with the thing that is right in front of me - even if it’s a super weird non linear meeting with different parts of me that just kind of going in circles and doesn’t (seem to) resolve anything… is actually helpful.

I am doing it.

I am in process.

I can trust myself.

Also, my next step is starting to feel really clear. I need to RE DREAM THE DREAM of what it is I am trying to do. Get into more details of what I REALLY want here.

(These weird Inner Work meetings where nothing seems to resolve ARE HELPFUL! It shifts the energy to sit with the thing even if it doesn't move you all the way over to where you would like to be. Just keep showing up and taking the next step.)

 

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This week I tried to leave Dream Work and Inner Work in the dust and just… get this project DONE.

I thought.. I have done Dream Work and Inner Work FOR YEARS. I’m good there. I can just do this real quick…

Well, I landed in some really deep mud that pulled me deeper into it the more I tried to move. Thankfully I feel better right now, but yesterday, in that moment, felt more stuck than I ever remember feeling and it was terrifying.

I have done Dream Work and Inner Work FOR YEARS and so I should know that these are the things that pave the way for Outer Work to happen.

This morning, I decided to spend some time with my Dream Book, and to do the Dream Lab before I even did Dream Book, and it started just a few minutes into the meditation - shifts are shifting, insights are popping and it’s all coming into place.

The magic is always here, ready for us to come back to it, when we remember we cannot do the thing on Outer Work alone.

 

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I did my Dream Self page in my new Dream Book yesterday.

This is the practice where you get in touch with the part of you who already has your dream, so you can get advice from yourself about what to do next. The dominant qualities this version of me holds about this dream are CHILL and TRUSTING.

Which is such helpful advice about how to pursue the thing…

But also, how do I apply that advice?

I was feeling frustrated, and when I really sat with all the layers of feelings I was feeling, there was a growing fear at the base of it all. Fear that I would’t figure this out.

So how I do I take my frustrated fearful self and… just BE chill and trusting?

This is where a lot of manifesting and "live your best life" teachings really fail us.

The "JUST BE POSITIVE" and "GOOD VIBES ONLY" stuff can easily make us think that this is a BATTLE between my frustrated fearful self and my chill trusting self.

And there is the assumption that the chill trusting self is BETTER.

There are hierarchies to how we see the different parts of us because we live in a world that divides everything into hierarchies. It's NOT the natural way of things, it's the way humans have chosen to orient our societies (for now).

So it can feel like the ONLY way to see these different parts of myself is to see that the chill trusting self is obviously wiser and more successful at achieving this dream... and the fearful frustrated self is not good enough to have the dream, this part of me is a problem to... I don't know, lock it away somewhere where it can't bother me?

I mean - we're in a world where people are being dragged out of their homes and put into cages.

I think the only way to proceed is to recognize that ALL LIFE IS SACRED.

I mean literally - all people deserve dignity. All animals. The planet itself and all the waters, rocks, plants, everything.

But for me, right here right now, it means my fearful frustrated self is just as valid as my chill trusting self.

Yes, I would prefer to be chill and trusting and my preferences are fine.

But that doesn't mean I abandon my frustrated fearful self.

The approaches that tell us to just focus on being chill and trusting really fail us because they don't lead to HEALING.

If I choose to just BE chill and trusting right now, then I am starting a war inside me. I am suppressing and oppressing my genuine feelings to put on a mask of how I think I should feel.

Creative Dreaming is all about noticing where we are wearing masks, and looking for the safest way to remove them.

There is no "right mask" to put on that will get you your dream. It's your most authentic self who is your most powerful self.

So. Here I am with my fearful frustrated self, knowing that the way forward is to move towards chill and trusting.

What does that look like:

• The me who believes in this dream and wants to move forward.
• The me who is so frustrated that I haven't already figured out this next step.
• The me who is growing more fearful by the minute that I will never figure it out.

All walking together TOWARDS chill and trusting without trying to FORCE chill and trusting?

It looks like BEING WITH and TENDING TO.

It looks like ALL LIFE IS SACRED. ALL PARTS OF ME ARE SACRED.

It looks like forming a circle and holding space for all of it.

Which does not mean: letting my fears throw tantrums and run the whole show!

If ALL PARTS OF ME ARE SACRED then my dreams, my hopes, my creativity, my inspiration, my drive... these are sacred too. They matter too.

If I am not letting my chill trusting self suppress, oppress and abandon my fearful self to get ahead... then I am not letting my frustrated fearful self the run show either.

Cultures that did hold all life as sacred HAD BOUNDARIES. They didn't rip people from their homes and lock them in cages because they didn't like their paperwork or the colour of their skin, but they did exile people who refused to respect the community if nothing else worked.

We get to, and we have to, have boundaries in our own inner worlds.

All of the Creative Dream Alchemy Library of Inner Work practices work from this perspective. Making space to tend to these places in us without letting them take over.

It's awkward and multi-faceted and nuanced.

Authoritarian movements categorize people and suppress differences and some people go along with this because (I think) they feel a kind of comfort in knowing what the rules are and a sense that everything will be ok (the economy will keep growing) if everyone complies. (Of course once the regime turns on them, and there is no way for them to comply, then they'll see why this was a mistake all along)

We are experiencing some intense authoritarianism right now... but we've always had it. At least for all of my lifetime, and for some time before that. This IS the way our societies are structured. Sexism, racism, classism, ableism, etc. Genocidal colonialism. War.

We do absorb these values and we very easily use them to structure our own inner worlds.

Confident is better, I'll lead with that part of me. My fear is shameful, so I will hide it.

Shifting out of this hierarchical way of organizing our inner worlds, into a more expansive ALL LIFE IS SACRED way of being, does need boundaries.

It needs intention. Devotion. PRACTICE.

This IS Creative Dream Alchemy.

As we practice, as we make space WITHOUT letting certain parts run the show... we move deeper into the alchemy of it all.

The fears reveal their treasures.

The doubts alchemize into little yellow bricks you can use to build your path.

The "I don't know how to do this and this freaks me out" unravels into a kind of plan that you can follow.

We move forward WITH OUR WHOLENESS INTACT.

So all this to say....

After sitting with the frustration and fear yesterday (using the Un-Sticking Station) I really didn't know what else to do. So I took a nap. And then I made tofu noodle soup (A dish I've been experimenting with this winter, chicken noodle soup style but vegetarian with tons of veggies and grated tofu fried with poultry seasonings).

Then I worked on non-related art projects and went to bed early.

Then I woke up this morning early, knowing EXACTLY how to do this next step.

That's the alchemy.

If you keep showing up - Dream Work as a regular practice, Inner Work as it comes up,  the next steps in the Outer Work will reveal themselves to you.

 

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One of my favourite winter self-care practices is to walk to one of my favourite coffee shops, during the sunrise. I am just lucky that there is a place I love that is a 30 minute walk east of me. And during the darkest 12 or so weeks of winter it’s very easy to time my walk with the sunrise so I am walking right into it. It is downright magical!

We’re at the time of year when that is getting harder, the coffee shop doesn’t open until 7:30 and the sunrise is already starting at 7.

But this morning, I was up early with the new moon eclipse energy, FILLED with energy and enthusiasm... and I walked AWAY FROM the sunrise. (The place I want to go to isn’t open today and going west was the only way to find a coffee shop a 30 minute walk away, and getting a 1 hour walk in the morning is vital for my mental health)

After all these weeks of walking INTO the sunrise, walking AWAY FROM it felt so disorienting and weird.

But today is a new moon AND an eclipse, in Aquarius, so walking away from the thing I always walk towards is the perfect way to start the day.

As I talked about on our New Moon Intention Setting ritual yesterday - be on the lookout for new perspectives that want to find you over the next few weeks!

So, being disoriented was the perfect way to start the day of an eclipse. I feel VERY OPEN to any new perspectives the universe wants to send my way.

I also had a new perspective to think about on my walk.

I woke up seeing a current project (making videos to go with the You Are The Magic guide + journal) in a whole new light.

When we are IN IT, already having done a bunch of work (I have recorded, but not edited, 10 videos already) it can be really hard to let a new perspective in.

So I did resist it at first, because this new perspective is to scrap everything I have done, and actually re-do the journal itself because I see a way that I could do it much better.

We often resist re-starting like this but actually… I have found that DOING THE THING can be a really good way to figure out how I want to do the thing. In other words, I do it… THEN I know how I want to do it. Which means yes I have to do it twice. At least.

This can seem non-linear.

This can seem like I am going in circles.

But I am actually going deeper into it.

I am learning and growing each time I do it.

This is actually the BEST way to work with your dreams. Not necessarily re-doing the work, but to keep going DEEPER into the process instead of trying to go FASTER in the outer stuff. 

When it comes to our dreams, doing things the fastest or most “straightforward way” is usually not a good plan. It doesn’t leave space for the ALCHEMY that comes with going deeper into it.

My project is TRANSFORMING. I am transforming with it. We’re both growing into a new version of ourselves.

How can you make space to go DEEPER with your dreams this week?

 

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A few months ago, during a New Moon Intention Setting Ritual, as I was writing out my intentions, I had this knowing:

THIS IS A SACRED PROMISE TO MYSELF.

That setting these intentions every month isn’t just about having support for accomplishing things… it’s also really listening to my own heart, soul and values and how I want to move through my life. 

And when I do that work to listen, writing down what I hear is a sacred promise to myself.

THIS IS SO FREAKING IMPORTANT. To stop, reflect and listen to your soul BEFORE moving forward.

Our February New Moon Intention Setting Ritual is happening today, February 16.

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Late last week, in a Dream Lab meeting with the soul of my dream and the soul of my business, my business took my dream, which was a sphere, and broke it into 3 and handed me a crescent moon shaped 1/3 "slice" of my dream.

Receiving that crescent moon in my hand felt like such a RELIEF. I instantly saw how to break down this dream into thirds, and it felt so simple to just focus on the first third of it.

(We can almost always benefit from breaking our steps down smaller!)

So all week, when I meet with the soul of my dream, it appears as a that crescent moon.

Today, it showed up as a crescent moon who... get this... had tiny little hands and was holding a crescent moon in it's hand. It was sooooo sweet.

And then the dream also had little legs, and at first it was standing but then it laid down to take a nap.

Today we have our Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call, but besides from that I am not doing a lot work-wise. I am roasting veggie to make soup, tidying up, starting some new sewing projects.

And the soul of my dream seemed to concur - this is a day for rest.

AND

By checking in with it, I feel this thread of connection and intention. It's like the rest day is intentional. It feels like A PART OF THE PROCESS and not "I'm too tired for my next steps today".

Resting and re-fueling (literally in this case since I am planning to do lots of cooking to have soups in the freezer for next week) ARE STEPS.

All of the work we do around HOLDING SPACE for the dream is so important. We don't have to be "working on it" to be holding space for it. We don't have to be "working on it" to BE working on it!

Doing these practices helps us be in deeper alignment with our dreams, and being in deeper alignment helps us know what to DO. When to rest, when to re-plan, when to take action, etc.

I am holding that crescent moon, who is holding it's own crescent moon, in my heart today.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

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I am starting a new series of ✨YOU ARE THE MAGIC✨ videos to really get into the deeper concepts around how to create a Creative Dream Alchemy PRACTICE that helps you create... anything you want.

I FEEL STRONGLY THAT THIS WORK IS URGENT AT THIS TIME.

We need to hold onto our dreams... both your own dreams about who you want to be and how you want to live, and OUR dreams about a better future for everyone.

(This is based on YOU ARE THE MAGIC, the downloadable journal I give away when you join my email list. You can get it here.)

This is incredibly deep and nuanced work, so I thought that adding some videos going more in-depth would be helpful.

This first one is about shifting your INNER relationship with your dream... so that you can change what is possible in your OUTER life.

More videos are already in process and I'll be sharing one every 1-2 weeks.

 

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Over the weekend I shared the miraculous-feeling-to-me process of getting CLEAR on my new/next dream and re-starting my Dream Book and feeling FOCUSED and READY.

Now I want to make sure I keep showing up and taking little steps.

Once we get that CLARITY and feel READY - it's easy to stop doing the Dream Book type Dream Work/Inner Work because... you feel ready! You can just do the thing!

BUT

Continuing to do the Dream Book exercises will help you keep working on that inner relationship with your dream, ad keep you grounded in the process AS AN ALCHEMICAL PROCESS where you can heal/grow/change/create your way into your dream - in comparison when we focus on the outer work, where it can just become a lot of WORK work.

Often our dreams feel so big and we feel so small in comparison. This is NOT a measurement of your smallness or bigness, it's an indication of the amount of growth this dream has for you. It's an invitation.

But it can FEEL LIKE this overwhelming exhausting thing, when we're just working on the outer work alone.

I say all this to remind myself as much as anything here!

Because now I am in a place where I feel so focused I COULD just try to get this done on outer work and determination alone but I am 150% sure that will just wind up with me being an overwhelmed mess.

SO

It felt important to include the soul of my business in my Dream Book, I decided to do the Dream Lab today - the version where you also invite the soul of your business into the meeting since my new dream is a business goal.

Logistics: I turned off the meditation as soon as I got to the part where the soul of the dream and the soul of the business were with me. I didn't want to listen to the other part, I went to the video below it to turn that music back on which helped me stay in the zone.

The soul of my business and the soul of my dream interacted in ways I could not!

This was interesting, and then the soul of my business broke the dream up into 3 parts, and gave me one. It arrived in my hand as a sparkling crescent moon and I put it in my heart.

And now I feel like.. of yes focusing on this 1/3 of the thing feels even more do-able AND changes how I would approach my next steps with the outer work.

This is why it's so good and helpful to do this work, even when the outer work doesn't feel stuck!

 

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There are journaling sheets for doing the Weekly Dream Status Report! These are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I said I was going to do my Dream Status Reports on Sundays and forgot all about it yesterday so here I am at the coffee shop with my Dream book 2026 on Monday morning.

First, I checked in with last week’s report and was kind of stunned to be able to check off ALL of the tasks I had given myself for last week.

The week before I did't check any off. Which felt so defeating I almost didn’t want to make a list for this week… but it turns out I had done enough on each task last week that finishing everything this week was easy.

And maybe I shouldn’t put a little square beside the tasks indicating that I want to check it off and be DONE.

Maybe it should just be a list of things I am holding + working with + contemplating... Because giving things more time and space can help them grow and evolve and sometimes my projects really benefit from that extra time and space.

Sometimes, of course, I should just get a thing done, sometimes it would be good for me to stop procrastinating.

So that’s what’s on my mind: how am I holding my tasks/projects/ideas?

Early in my business I would plan out at least 6 months in advance, new courses I wanted to make and promotions and all of it.

Then I would get increasingly stressed by how far behind I would get. In hindsight I know I didn’t have the experience yet to know how long all these things would take. I was planning more based on how much money I wanted to make and how much money each class was likely to bring in, because that’s what business planning taught me at that time.

Also, I had an unwieldy business model and didn’t know it. And unrealistic expectations. And so many things working against me and yet… I figured out a lot of things by just diving in and figuring it out as I went.

So, I guess, I am telling myself that I didn’t make MISTAKES with planning before - I just learned in kind of a messy way and that’s ok.

But these days I try to stay so far away from stressing myself out with my own plans that maybe I go too far in the other direction?

I mean, as I write that, my whole body says NO YOU DON’T!!!!

We are programmed in so many ways to work as hard and fast as we can.

Some people call the form of capitalism we live under EXTRACTIVE capitalism in reference to how we try to extract all we can from the earth in order to turn it into profit. And how unsustainable this is - it is literally destroying the future in front of our eyes and the machine isn’t slowing down in the slightest.

So, considering that extractive capitalism is a system we live inside - we can notice that the system also treats US, people, as things to extract from. Corporations extract our labour and turn it into wealth. And all of the self employment advice is either about doing that too - hiring people in other countries who will accept a very small salary so that you don’t have to do all the tasks - or about life + creativity hacks to get the absolute most and best work out of yourself.

To extract your own creativity and turn it into productivity and wealth.

Some days I do feel like a mountain that’s been overly mined.

And I have this commitment to not do any of this to myself any more, as much as I can possibly avoid it.

And yes, ALL OF THIS is what comes up as I contemplate how I feel about checking off all the boxes from last week. It’s not just about “YAY I DID IT” it’s about “Am I giving myself enough SPACE to do the work I want to do in a way that doesn’t deplete me?” And then, of course, juggling the reality of needing to make a living in the meantime.

So, yes, checking off boxes is a really complicated thing. But I am happy to have checked them, and to be asking myself in this week’s Dream Status Report: What’s next?

Because NOT being intentional about our lives is not the solution to anything!

 

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The thing about showing up for your dream, and finding the smaller ways to show up so you CAN show up, is that it puts you in the process.

And once you’re in the process - everything can change.

And sometimes this is terrifying.

Sometimes it’s such a relief and feels magical.

Sometimes you just develop a quiet confidence that you’re on the right path and have the stamina to keep going.

HOW it happens and what it looks like doesn’t matter. As in: there is no IDEAL way for this to look.

For me, right now, it’s been pretty awful.

It’s like I am trying to get moving and the train keeps derailing and it’s a huge mess every time.

But each time I clean up the mess, I figure out some things. So each time I try to get the train moving again, I make a NEW mistake.

I am laughing but… making all new mistakes IS progress. Sometimes it is the only kind of progress that is available to you and it’s either do that or be stuck.

I am feeling now like a lot of pieces are coming into place. Like there was so much value in all of this crashing and re-starting and learning as I go.

I re-started my Dream Book with the firm advice from my dream to STICK TO IT THIS TIME.

Here is the start of my new "Dream Page" in my Dream Book notebook. I put the printables in and decided to share this photo of the page before I start filling it in, because not sharing the specifics of my dream makes it easier for me to share the PROCESS more deeply.

AND, I hope, it makes it easier for you to relate... it doesn't matter what our dreams are, the process is really similar.

I am listening to what my dream said. It is time to stop starting and re-starting and re-starting and kind of going in circles while figuring out what I really want next.

It is time to pick this dream I have now, and stick with it no matter what comes from the process. When my dream said it in the Hello Day meditation, it felt really TRUE and I need to trust that.

Which means: I need to go deeper. Into both the Inner Work and the Outer Work.

Dream Book helps you be more FOCUSED about how you are navigating that (inner and outer) space between where you are and where you want to be.

Being more FOCUSED can stir up ALL the fears and doubts, but this is on purpose because once they are stirred up they are easily to see and deal with and WORK THROUGH to find the gifts, miracles and healing that are hidden somewhere inside them.

So, I feel like I’ve had this loooong arduous journey and it’s brought me to….

…. the starting point.

lol!

That’s how it feels. It’s not the easiest thing to just… get focused and really call in a dream.

But here I am. Ready to begin. I love it.

 

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Yesterday I shared how I was sitting with my resistance to doing the Hello Day practice.

I ended up seeing how I have these conflicting feelings:

• the fear of failure
• the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now
• the desire to keep going with the dream

(We have a healing circle in the membership for sitting with conflicting feelings, here)

I drew out that diagram:

And somehow felt better.

Like - oh yeah I can hold this. AND I want to explore it some more, but just putting it outside of me for now felt like enough.

What was really interesting is what happened once I was in the Hello Day meditation.

**Then I understood why I had so much resistance to it**

I did the version of the meditation that includes the soul of your dream.

And the soul of my dream said:

Start a new Dream Book.

TAKE IT FUCKING SERIOUSLY.

And you might think I do take my dreams seriously.

But there is this way that I have flip flopped with my dreams since my divorce.

Like… I am still figuring out what I REALLY want for this new phase of life. This is natural!! So I keep re-starting Dream Book and I know, in this process of starting and re-starting, I am figuring it out.

I have not been rushing myself to figure it out.

I have been giving myself lots of permission to keep re-starting and trying on different dreams. I am on page 63 of my notebook, so I can say that 63 pages in I'm still at the starting point, but actually that's 63 pages of valuable exploring...

To do anything else would be to force myself to stick to one thing before I was sure which one thing I wanted to stick with.

But now my dream, the current one, is saying. THIS IS IT. I AM THE ONE. STAY WITH ME.

So, I am shifting out of the phase of figuring out my next dreams.

And I am stepping into this next dream and figuring out how to really HOLD IT.

This is a really big step.

Of course I felt so much resistance I couldn’t even do Hello Day.

Our resistance usually makes so much sense, once we sit with it enough to fully understand it.

 

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Some days it's HARD to show up. I am having one of those days today so I decided to share my process.

I created Dream Book 2026 as a notebook where it's as easy as possible to JUST SHOW UP because that's the doorway/portal that brings you into the process... and yet... sometimes even this easier way in is still just really hard to do.

Because of all the intentions we set in the beginning of our notebooks/planners... each time we touch it, we are touching all of those intentions. So even if we're not consciously thinking about it, parts of us do pick up on that and react.

That's where my resistance came from today.

So, sitting with the resistance IS THE WORK on those days. This is what I mean when I say we have to BE WITH whatever is there. If all you have is resistance, then sitting with your resistance is your next step.

I want to do the Hello Day meditation and journal in my Dream Book 2026 to start my day.

I am not doing it.

So here I am, sitting with my resistance.

Ugh. This isn’t enough.

You mean the meditation isn’t enough?

No it’s not. It won’t fix anything.

What it will do is give me space to be with my feelings so they’re not all… flying around the way they are. It would help me be more present with myself. It would help me know where I want to focus today.

Why bother?

Because I want those things.

You’re going to get off track. Let’s just not bother trying to get on track.

That’s a valid feeling! Do you want to tell me more about it?

It takes SO MUCH to get on track, so much trust and hope and optimism to show up and do the thing… that makes it even more heartbreaking when it doesn’t work, when I just end up off track anyway.

Oh yes that’s so true. It’s actually super vulnerable to show up and some days it doesn’t feel worth the risk.

I’m glad you can see that but I feel like you want to push me into it anyway.

I would like to explore it. What feels TOO vulnerable about it?

Heavy sigh. I know it’s that thing that stops all dreams. It’s that “if I try my best and still can’t make this work - that would mean I am not good enough” I don’t want to find out that I’m not good enough.

I give my resistance a big hug.

Yeah I can feel that. It’s just…

I knew it! I knew you would keep pushing me!

I am not pushing, I am EXPLORING my feelings about why I am not doing this thing! It’s just that not doing it out of fear of failure, and what that failure would mean… puts me in the same place that failing does.

Only, when you really think of it, it’s worse! If I fail because I didn’t summon the courage to try…that would feel so crummy. If I fail because I try my best and it just doesn’t work out…. there is dignity in that, I think. Like I would rather be a person who tries, than a person who lets the fear of failure stop them.

Oh yikes. That hits home.

But again, I don’t want to PUSH myself to do this.

The fear of failure is valid, the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now is valid, and the desire to keep going with the dream is also valid.

How am I holding all three of these things? 

I mean… doing the Hello Day mediation would help! lol It would help me makes space for the feelings to settle so I can process them a bit.

Which is what I ended up doing, by exploring my resistance. Because they don’t feel like they are “all flying around inside me” like it did when I started this. Now I see these three feelings that are conflicting with each other and kind of each vying for power inside me. They’re all fighting so fast I couldn’t tell what anything was, all I knew is I was overwhelmed.

My resistance to the Hello Day mediation is still here.

My desire to do it is still here.

But both of them are interested in drawing a diagram of:

• the fear of failure
• the overwhelming amount of vulnerability and energy it takes to take a creative risk right now
• the desire to keep going with the dream

And just see what happens once I am exploring that way.

And… if my resistance doesn’t mind… could I play the Hello Day audio while I do this without pressure to engage with it in any particular way?

My resistance doesn't mind this idea!

Oh wow. This feels do-able!!

This actually feels like a miracle. I am going to make a second cup of coffee and some breakfast then spread out on the floor with my Dream Book 2026, markers... AND my laptop with the Hello Day meditation playing and I actually feel kind of jazzed about this.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today! I hope to see you there!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

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Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

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Yesterday we had our Marketing As A Creative + Spiritual Practice call for February.

(Get the replay here)

I've been thinking about it ever since... what it means to show up and share our gifts in the world as it is now.

How some people  do want to focus on facing the darkness, and see this as an opportunity for the kind of reckoning that could help change the culture going forward.

And some people want to focus more fully on bringing in more SOUL.

And how all of us felt like... we need to be more deeply grounded and rooted in our own medicine, magic and gifts. Which makes a lot of sense to me, the world around us feels less stable for many of us, so we need to root in more deeply.

And many of us are looking at different ways of working with other people and organizations.

Like - things are changing. And the change is showing up in all sorts of ways.

Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice calls start with a 40-ish minute meditation where we go deep into how we are sharing our gifts and how they are being received and the energy of everything that is going on there.

In my meditation, when I looked at how I feel about sharing my gifts more loudly... the feeling that came up was SAFETY.

Which is wild to me.

Safety is not anything close to how this has ever felt for me.

Not that danger was a big player... but fear, uncertainty and overwhelm certainly have been.

But right now, I feel more safe to share my gifts because I feel more certain about where they are needed.

Which is just interesting to me.

As things change, things change.

I am saying a little prayer that things continue to change.

That we ALL feel solid and capable about sharing our gifts with the world, in the ways that feel right for us for where we are. 

Sharing our gifts can be so loaded. It can become more about business training, chasing after conventional definitions of success, compromising your values to "get results", over-working, pressure, exhaustion, pushing ourselves, endless striving to get ahead, and trying to EARN worthiness through success as an affirmation of your value as a person.

I do these calls every month so we can explore how to share our gifts in the ways that feel right for us for where we are... without any of that nonsense, or with as little of it as possible because sometimes we do have to make compromises to make a living in the systems we currently live in.

It does't have to be about many money at all. It's about how we feel when we are doing the things that light us up, and then sharing that with others. There are so many ways to do that.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Do the Hello Day Energy Clearing + Intention Setting Practice (from Dream Book 2026)

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!